He is cuter than the character [Entertainment]

A faint electrical sound can be heard during the call.

Ji Hanjing stopped abruptly at the end of his words, and he couldn't quite figure out how he could like someone so much.Self-respect and pride are all okay.

I want to beg him to be with me.It felt like I might die if I never saw him again.

Holding the phone in his hand, Qi Ran asked softly, "Do you want me to have an operation?"

"If the operation allows you to continue to be with me." Ji Hanjing gritted his teeth and said regardless, "Yes. I hope you do it."

"But...Even if you don't care about the operation, brother Ran, can you feel wronged and wronged yourself and stay with me?"

"I know it's shameless to say that. I also hope that I am a person who can be satisfied with selfless dedication without expecting anything in return. But I am not, I just want to. I don't have such a selfless and great heart. I want to treat you well, and I will always treat you in the future Well, just to let you stay with me from now on."

He is like an abandoned child.Weeping, facing the bottomless loneliness, trembling with fear, "I have always been afraid that such a day will come...why will there still be such a day?"

"I don't want to have a good life with others. I can't. Even without you, I can't have others. Without you, I can't live well."

"Don't leave me and go first, don't push me to others... I don't want to be alone anymore. Brother Ran, I only want you."

From the moment he heard his first whimper, Qi Ran was sobbing at the other end, and he didn't even hear the knock on the door outside the room.

He didn't have the habit of locking the door at home. Aunt Qi knocked a few times without any response and pushed the door in. Seeing him crying into the phone, she felt a sudden tug in her heart, "Zai Zai?"

"..."

Qi Ran woke up startled, and only had time to say "wait for me" before the call was cut off in a hurry.Wiping her face in a hurry, seeing her walk in, she sat on the bed and lifted the quilt, and lay down beside him.

"Mom...why aren't you sleeping yet? Where's my dad?"

"Your father is going to read the thesis for the graduate student he brought tonight. Mom will sleep with you tonight."

Aunt Qi patted him, "Come on, lie down."

Qi Ran responded, and lay down next to her under the quilt.She held her arm and patted him slowly, "In a blink of an eye, my cub was so big. Obviously yesterday I still wanted my mother to hug the sleeping child."

Qi Ran curled up his mouth and held her hand lightly, "No matter how old I am... as long as I get home, I'm still a child."

When I was a child, I always felt that my mother was omnipotent, and I could get into her warm embrace just by turning over.

When she grew up, she was able to hold her full with open arms, only to realize that she was actually a thin woman with frequent joint pains and a bad waist.Because of having a loving child and a baby who must be cared for no matter what, it is more tenacious and powerful.

"In the end, it's all my mother's fault. When I gave birth to you, just pay more attention."

In the dark night, there was a gentle sigh in her voice, "During this time, you stay at home with your parents for the New Year, and your mother cooks delicious food for you in different ways every day, so don't contact Xiao Ji again."

"Mom also did something wrong. From now on, I won't urge you to find a partner. I just want my cub to be happy. As long as I can take good care of myself, it doesn't matter whether I have a partner or not."

"mom……"

"Go to sleep. Mom will cook shrimp wontons for you tomorrow morning."

In the dim light, Qi Ran saw her turning her back to him, and wiped her eyes.

Then he stopped talking.

He lay flat and did not move, nor did he close his eyes.Listening to the sound of my mother's breathing gradually becoming gentle and even, she snored softly after falling asleep soon.Reassuring.

He can't sleep.The blank ceiling is like a curtain, and the life of more than 20 years flies by.Countless pictures and thoughts kept him awake all night.

Both good and bad, everything he experienced with this body was deeply etched in his mind.

In the last sentence that stopped at Ji Hanjing, there was a faint cry.

I don't want to have a future with others.

**

The small wontons the next morning were delicious and delicious.

Qi Ran ate two bowls.While eating, I kept thinking that Ji Hanjing must also like this taste.

If only he were here too.

It looked like he was out of his mind.In order to keep her son from thinking wildly and being too sad, Aunt Qi stayed with him all the time, and even asked Professor Qi to come over to change shifts when he went out to buy groceries.

"Dad." Qi Ran took the opportunity to ask him, "You won't be celebrating New Year with me this year, will you?"

"Then I don't know." Professor Qi said, "It doesn't count if I say it, but I still have to go with your mother."

"..."

Qi Ran was a little anxious.

I don't know how Ji Hanjing's situation is when he is alone. Hearing how sad he was last night, he was about to stop breathing in minutes. His heart was paralyzed and his seven orifices were bleeding to death.Chatted with his dad for a while, stood up while he wasn't paying attention, wanted to make a phone call first, and his mother came back before dialing out.

Aunt Qi saw him standing on the balcony as if he was talking on the phone from the door, so she immediately called him and asked him to come over and help wash the dishes.

No one answered the phone, Qi Ran had to put down the phone first.

After lunch, Aunt Qi didn't even think about leaving him alone.Qi Ran grabbed the phone and looked at it from time to time, but he didn't wait for a reply, and his heart became more and more depressed.Want to see it for yourself but can't get out.

At dusk, he finally couldn't help asking, "Mom, aren't you going to the vegetable market today?"

"I bought everything in the morning, so I don't need to go out today." Aunt Qi glanced at him, "What's wrong?"

"……nothing."

Qi Ran swallowed the words back.No one called him back until after dinner, so he couldn't wait any longer, so he pretended to casually move to the door, "I'll go for a walk."

"Oh." Aunt Qi said, "Don't go."

"..."

"Cub, we can't do this."

Without further ado, she pulled Qi Ran back and pushed him on the sofa again, "You must have a backbone! It's not that you can't live without him, and you can't rush to post and be bullied like this."

"Mom." Qi Ran was restrained by her, helpless, "What are you talking about. No one bullies me."

"Oh, I just can't catch up anyway."

Seeing that he seemed to be "obsessed with obsession", Aunt Qi became a little anxious, "Then tell me, are you looking for Xiao Ji when you go out!"

Qi Ran had no choice but to admit, "I don't feel at ease if he leaves by himself."

"Didn't you both break up? Why do you care about him? Are you still worried about him when you are so old?"

"..."

Qi Ran was speechless for a while.After a while, he said in a low voice, "Can't I... go back on my word?"

The sound was not loud, but the reaction it aroused was violent.Professor Qi even had to come over and support his wife, lest she faint and bump into the corners of the furniture.

Aunt Qi quickly understood, "Do you, do you want to have that operation?"

In her shocked eyes, Qi Ran nodded. "I want to do it."

"..."

Even Professor Qi was a little surprised, his eyebrows huddled together, "Have you made a decision?"

"Well. Think it over."

"This, what's the matter with this, you have to think about it calmly, cub, you can't ruin yourself for others! Mom won't allow it!"

Aunt Qi collapsed on the sofa as if exhausted, leaning on the cushion and taking a deep breath.Qi Ran was so scared that he quickly helped her up, "Mom, are you okay?"

"I'm fine...I'm afraid that something will happen to you, baby!"

Aunt Qi was very anxious, and her mind was full of the postoperative sequelae mentioned in the laboratory phone yesterday, "If you have an operation, what should you do if something goes wrong? You like singing and dancing so much, and your mother also loves to watch TV dramas. For the little ones Ji, what if I can’t do it in the future.”

"I know there are risks."

Qi Ran stroked her back to comfort her, "But if you want to get something, you must pay a price. There is no gain for nothing."

"Didn't you tell me that when I said I wanted to perform on a big stage and I was so tired during training that I couldn't keep going?"

"How can this be the same?"

"the same."

Qi Ran sighed, took her arm and said calmly, "Mom, I really thought about it. It's not just for love or something, and it's not for someone's cubs."

To be honest, in fact, he has been longing for such an opportunity, but no one knows.

He lowered his eyes and smiled.After being a caring little padded jacket for so many years, it was the first time I said some words in front of my parents, "Although I have always said that I am used to it. But seeing other people are complete, whether it is alpha or beta Omega is fine too, it’s not that I don’t envy you.”

Since adolescence, he has had one more secret than others, and as he grows up, he has been pressing on his heart, getting heavier and heavier in the dark eyes and invisible alienation of the insider.

Until now, he has been very sensitive to such topics, even when he rudely interrupted Cheng Peiqi, there was a reason why he was repeatedly poked in the sore spot.

How to get used to it?He'll never get used to it.He wants to spend the rest of his life with this disability, but unlike ordinary people who lack hands and feet, his disability is in a more secret place, tormenting his heart repeatedly.

It doesn't matter if you are used to it, but because there is nothing you can do, you have to accept this reality.Don't care if you have to brainwash yourself repeatedly, and use this to comfort your loved ones not to feel sad for yourself.

Aunt Qi couldn't hear such words.Tears that were suppressed from the first sentence poured out of his eyes, and fell on him like rain, "It's my mother who is sorry for you... It is my mother's fault that I didn't give birth to you healthy and healthy."

"That's not the case, mom, everyone is right, don't you, mom." Qi Ran's nose sore, and he wanted to cry too.From the corner of my eye, Professor Qi's eyes turned red.

It was the first time for a family of three to do this at the same time since he was born.

Qi Ran calmed down inexplicably.His tone also eased, and he said softly, "So since I have the opportunity now, I want to give it a try. Even if it's not for anyone else, it's for myself. I want to do it."

"Professor Xu's laboratory is in very good condition. Really, Dad, Mom, don't worry too much about me. The two years left behind are fine. After the operation, I will eat well and work hard to recover, so that I can recover quickly. I used to look healthier and take back all the lost time. Even if everything has to start again, as long as I can start again, it is never too late."

Who doesn't want to have a healthier body, who doesn't want a more complete life.

Qi Ran pulled his father to his side.Sitting between parents, the voice is not loud, but the confidence is full, "Trust me, okay? I will do a great job."

Aunt Qi was still sobbing.Professor Qi looked at her, and she was almost able to speak representatively, "Of course we still respect your idea. But your mother and I can't help you with this kind of thing, you have to arrange it yourself."

My children have ideas from an early age.Soft on the outside and strong on the inside, it's useless for them to object if they really make a decision.Don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing.

Qi Ran laughed, "I know. Ji Hanjing will help me too."

Aunt Qi cried for a while, now she calmed down and listened to his words, and snorted again, "It's still for him after all."

"It's also for him, and of course it's also for you."

Qi Ran leaned on her shoulder and swayed, strategically changed the way, instead of being coquettish and submissive, "I also want you to have a healthy and complete son, who can proudly show off in front of others."

"I didn't know about the operation before, and I was afraid of dragging him down so I took the initiative to break up. Now that I have a solution, I don't want to just give up on him. As long as there is still a chance, I really...Mom."

Qi Ran paused for a moment, and still poured out all the last words in his heart, "I really like him. No matter what, I hope that he will be good. The happiness that other AO couples can have, I think he and I There can be."

Aunt Qi couldn't match the soft and hard tone of her precious son.In the end, I had to compromise, "What you want to do is of course up to you. But you have to know, Zai Zai, even if you are lacking in limbs and brains, you are still our Zai Zai, and will always be Mom and Dad's treasure. "

"We just don't want you to wrong yourself for anyone. No matter what kind of person you want to be, we will support you. If you still break your heart in the end, it's a big deal to come home. Mom and Dad will support you forever."

"Yeah." Qi Ran hugged her and smiled warmly, "I know, so I feel very confident in my heart."

"By the way." Aunt Qi thought for a while, and asked belatedly, "You said you didn't know about this operation before. Why didn't Ji Hanjing tell you?"

"He was afraid that I would be in trouble. He was afraid that I would be affected by his pressure and affect my decision whether to have surgery."

"This child..."

Aunt Qi shook her head, her tone was much softer, and she asked, "Then where is he now?"

"Staying in the hotel."

Qi Ran helped him sell it in a timely manner, "I was going abroad for the New Year, but I told my family that I would come to our place, and now I can't go back. He will celebrate his birthday the day after tomorrow. Think about it, is it pitiful? .”

Aunt Qi: "... Sigh." I feel that I have gone too far in kicking people out.

Qi Ran seized the opportunity to ask, "Then can I bring him back for the New Year?"

"Okay." Sure enough, she agreed, "You two are suffering these days, mom will make you some delicious treats."

"Go directly to our family's courtyard. How can I celebrate the New Year with you, and I don't have anything for cold pots and cold stoves."

"..."

"Your father and I will go back and prepare first."

"Row."

Qi Ran was finally able to move, picked up his coat and was about to leave.Before going out, Professor Qi stopped him, and a thermos was stuffed in his hand, "Your mother told me to bring the soup I made in the afternoon. It was for Xiaoji, and I said that the food in the hotel is not good, so I have to make up for it."

Sure enough, he was still soft-hearted.He couldn't help but pick it up, and heard his father continue, "You're staying at the hotel tonight. You don't need to go home."

"..."

Qi Ran suspected that he had heard wrong.

Professor Qi blushed when his son saw it, and added, "Your mother said it. Let the two of you have a good exchange of feelings, and don't rush home."

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