White-eyed wolf

6.

Shen Zhao has been very busy recently, in all aspects.

Shen Yanru's angina has become more and more severe these years. She was admitted to the hospital a while ago, and the results of coronary angiography are not very optimistic. She is planning to put a stent in the next few days.

The older the old man was, the softer his old heart became. Those people and things that he didn't want to recall before were returned gently and cruelly by the years.

He had a lot of things in his life, but in the end he was hospitalized, but he didn't even have a single person to accompany him in bed.

He has done wrong things, and there have been people who are sorry. He didn't take it seriously before, but now he realizes that everything is karma.

Therefore, when Shen Zhao unexpectedly appeared in the dusty world, the old man's eyes hidden under the wrinkles couldn't help but get wet.

Shen Yanru didn't tell Shen Zhao about his hospitalization, which caused Shen Zhao's complexion to remain unsightly.

He doesn't talk much, and his personality has become more calm and introverted over the past few years. Sometimes when he is frowning and silent, there is a shadow of Yu Yun on his body.

Not only can he manage all the affairs of the hospital in an orderly manner, but he is also willing to accompany Shen Yanru to peel apples for him at this time.

Shen Yanru looked at him, and couldn't tell what it was like in his heart. He had suffered even worse before, but at this moment he felt sorry for Shen Zhao's growth.

He was a good boy.

"What are you doing here?" Shen Yanru said, "Placing a stent is just a minor operation. The director of the cardiology department here is an old acquaintance with me..."

The movements in Shen Zhao's hands paused, and he said coldly, "I have something to do when I come back, so I'll take a look at you along the way."

"Ah..." Shen Yanru sighed softly, and murmured, "That's it."

The ward was silent for a while, Shen Zhao peeled the apple, cut it into small pieces and handed it to Shen Yanru, Shen Yanru took it but didn't eat it, and asked him: "Is it a matter of work?"

Shen Zhao hummed casually, as if he didn't want to say more, Shen Yanru saw his exhaustion, and stopped asking.

The old and the young have been at odds for so many years, and it is impossible to talk about everything all of a sudden. Recently, Shen Zhao did have other important things to do, so the time in the hospital was not very long.

However, Shen Zhao said by chance that he would definitely be there during his operation.

Shen Yanru has already forgotten how he felt at that time, even though he thought he might just say it, but he was really moved at that time, and he was in a particularly good mood for the next few days, as if even the air in the hospital was a little fresher , the days of waiting for surgery have become less monotonous and difficult.

On the day of the operation, Shen Zhao really came to the hospital early in the morning. His appearance was good, and his temperament became more and more attractive to a mature man. cavity.

Every time Shen Yanru hears other people praise Shen Zhao, she feels a little proud in her heart, but her face is still not revealing.

Shen Zhao talked a little more than usual today, probably thinking that this would help relieve Shen Yanru's nervousness, although the old man didn't actually need it.

One of them awkwardly expressed their filial piety, and the other accepted it silently and joyfully. Something melted between the two of them.

"...I asked the director, this operation is not complicated," Shen Zhao seemed a little uncomfortable when he said this, his eyes wandered to other places for a while, "you, you go in soon...don't be nervous."

Shen Yanru gave a rare smile, and just when she was about to speak, Shen Zhao's cell phone rang.

Shen Zhao apologized and walked aside to answer the phone.

Shen Yanru was worried for no reason.

"What? What's wrong with him?" Shen Zhao frowned, and his face sank instantly.

Immediately afterwards, Shen Zhao did not know what was said on the other end of the phone. After hearing this, Shen Zhao touched the center of his eyebrows and replied, "Understood, help me keep an eye on him, and don't let him get into trouble."

Shen Zhao hung up the phone, and when he came back, his expression was a bit complicated, as if he wanted to say something but was embarrassed to say it.

Shen Yanru guessed it in her heart, and asked, "Is it 'that person'?"

Shen Zhao hesitated for a while, then nodded.

Shen Yanru's heart sank, and she waved to Shen Zhao.

Shen Zhao walked over and sat on the chair in front of Shen Yanru. After hesitating for a while, Shen Yanru finally made up his mind, crossed years of barriers, and tremblingly touched Shen Zhao's hand: "Go, bring him back from there. .”

Shen Yanru's hands were rough, the backs of them were wrinkled, and the palms were thick and warm. Shen Zhao said in surprise, "You..."

"One day with me," Shen Yanru's eyes were as bright as a falcon, and his old voice was powerful, "No one in City H would dare to touch him."

Shen Zhao lowered his head, his shoulders trembled slightly, Shen Yanru couldn't see his expression, sighed, and let go of his hand: "Go, I'll wait for you to come back."

Shen Zhao got up slowly, took two steps back, and bowed solemnly to the old man. Shen Yanru waved at him impatiently, signaling him to get out of here.

Shen Yanru watched Shen Zhao leave, until he couldn't hear his footsteps, then shook his head and cursed with a smile: "Little bastard."

He thought that it would be nice to have two grandchildren in the future.

7.

Something happened to Yu Yun.

The words on the phone were vague, and Shen Zhao didn't know what happened, so he hurried over in a hurry.

As soon as he entered the door, Shen Zhao asked in a bad tone: "Where is he? Are you still in the study on the second floor?"

The nurse followed Shen Zhao, who was striding forward, and stammered, "Yes, yes, I've been locked inside since yesterday, and I can't yell or eat anything."

Shen Zhao frowned: "Is there anything unusual before?"

"No, no," the nurse thought carefully and couldn't think of anything wrong, "I just said that I wanted to read a book quietly by myself. Mr. Yu loves to read, and I didn't care. know he..."

"Got it," Shen Zhao interrupted her, "Go prepare some food, I'll go up and have a look myself."

The nurse wiped off his sweat, hoping to escape as soon as possible, and replied repeatedly: "Okay, okay."

Shen Zhao went upstairs in three steps and two steps at a time. The study area is not big. It is next to the master bedroom and there is a connected balcony outside. Sometimes it is not convenient to go downstairs, so Yu Yun would bask in the sun on the balcony.

At this time, the doors of the bedroom and the study were closed, and Shen Zhao opened the door of the study without saying a word.

"What's the matter?" Shen Zhao tried to make his tone sound more relaxed, "I'm not here, so I'm angry, don't you even eat?"

The study room was as quiet as death, and Shen Zhao searched around before seeing Yu Yun's back behind the curtain.

The floor-to-ceiling windows were half open, and Yu Yun was sitting on the balcony leaning against the glass, with most of his body hidden behind the curtains, making it hard to spot at first glance.

Shen Zhao walked over lightly, as if afraid of disturbing him.

"Why are you sitting here alone?" Shen Zhao knelt down and asked.

Yu Yun looked up out of the window coldly, without looking back at Shen Zhao. After a while, he moved his lips and said, "Shen Zhao, do you know what I see while sitting here?"

Shen Zhao was shocked in his heart, and his mind went blank for a moment. When he heard Yu Yun call out his name completely, Shen Zhao knew that it was over——

He remembered it all.

Shen Zhao followed his gaze and looked up. From this angle, he could see the sky very high. There were birds circling past the window, but his position suddenly became very low, and the cold and dark guardrails covered the vast sky. Split one by one.

Until recalling everything, Yu Yun finally knew where this strange feeling of disharmony came from.

"Yes, I'm sorry..." Shen Zhao trembled, and suddenly hugged Yu Yun.

"The balcony on the second floor is equipped with all-inclusive guardrails," Yu Yun's voice rang in his ears, "Are you afraid that I will jump again?"

As if spring thunder was ringing in his ears, Shen Zhao froze all over, and then hugged Yu Yun even harder, repeating over and over again: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

Yu Yun dealt with it indifferently at first, then slowly aroused anger, and began to push Shen Zhao hard: "Let go, let me go..."

His voice was full of pain, and those sealed memories had experienced the disguised peace with full stamina that hit him to pieces, and even his breathing was full of pain.

He felt that he was going to die, no, it was more uncomfortable than death, and he was in so much pain that he seemed to be suffering from death.

"Let me go..." His voice was hoarse and unbearable, hot tears poured down his face, every word was said with so much effort, as if he was in great pain.

He pushed Shen Zhao hard, digging his nails into the flesh, Shen Zhao didn't realize it, clasped his restless hand and kissed his lips forcefully.

Yu Yun dodged like crazy, and Shen Zhao held down the back of his head, allowing him to bite him until blood dripped from his mouth.

There will always be such a day, Shen Zhao clearly.

They are all trapped beasts with the same blood, but they are each in prison.

Tears, blood, and saliva were all mixed together, they bit each other and rolled to the ground, their hot breath blended together, and their bones and flesh were tightly stuck together.

Yu Yun's struggle gradually subsided as the two of them gasped more and more deeply. Shen Zhao stuck out his tongue and licked all his wounds.

The two heads were pressed together, and Yu Yun still wrapped his hands around Shen Zhao's neck, weeping, and murmured: "I know it's not you..."

Shen Zhao's eyes were red, and the blood on his lips hadn't dried up. He fixedly looked at Yu Yun below him: "...what?"

Yu Yun closed his eyes, tears squeezed out of the corners of his eyes, and entered his messy hair. His eyelashes like crow feathers were moistly attached to his eyes. He moved his Adam's apple, and said again: "Before I jumped off the building, I knew it wasn't you... "So, you shouldn't save me.

Shen Zhao heard the meaning behind Yu Yun's words, and his pupils shrank painfully.

"You want to say that I had nothing to do with you jumping off the building that day. You knew everything but still wanted to die. I spent so much energy trying to save you, it was a waste of effort. It wasn't worth it at all, right?" Shen Zhao pinched Yu Yun's jaw with a tone of voice. Angrily, "Brother, open your eyes and look at me!"

Yu Yun opened his eyes, and Shen Zhao saw his angry, humble and longing face reflected in his eyes, anyone could see the burning hot and long-lasting affection in it.

After so many years of vicissitudes in life, he wanted to tell him that his heart had never changed.

"Look at my face now," Shen Zhao asked him forcefully, "Can you still choose yourself completely from me?"

The torture that went deep into the soul was a blow to the head, and Yu Yun was caught off guard by Shen Zhao.

He stared blankly at that eager face, that face that was similar to the past but completely different, accompanied by fresh memories after waking up and more than 1000 days and nights that he spied from the diary but never set foot in came like snowflakes.

It was him who was violent in the past, now it is him who is gentle, it is him who hurts before, and it is him who protects now. The contradictions are entangled and turned into a unified sharp blade, cutting out a bloody heart hidden deep in the body.

"...How could this be?" Yu Yun lowered his eyes, his voice was like a gnat.

Something unresolved suddenly collapsed.

"You obviously never asked my opinion on anything, you forced me back then, and now you save me on your own initiative, you obviously have so many opportunities to tell me what happened before, but you just don't say anything, you think you Should I forgive you for such a self-moving approach? Why do you make decisions for me..." Yu Yun said, choked up, as if all the hidden emotions these years had been aroused.

"Brother..." Shen Zhao regretted that he had pushed people too hard just now. Facing the collapsed Yu Yun, he really felt at a loss, "Calm down..."

"You think you're hiding everything for my own good, and you don't care that I don't know how tough and great you have been for more than four years." Yu Yun finally raised his head and looked at him, "Then why did you What kind of bullshit recovery diary are you going to write hypocritically?"

Shen Zhao was completely stunned by the question, he never expected that Yu Yun would find the diary he locked in the desk cabinet.

"...No, listen to my explanation." Shen Zhao wanted to say no, I never thought of letting you know the existence of this diary.

However, in the next second, he was surprised to see Yu Yun kissing his lips.

This kiss carried a passion and determination that he had never had before, like a rose in the wasteland.

The wound that had just been solidified was broken by teeth again.

They tasted the blood that blended with each other, half of which tasted the same, but the other half was as addictive as a drug.

"...Are you satisfied?" Yu Yun's eyes were red, and he grabbed Shen Zhao's collar and asked him angrily, "Do you want me to call you brother again?"

Shen Zhao looked at his brother in disbelief, as if this was the first time in his life that he really knew him.

They stared at each other in silence, only hearing each other's breathing and heartbeat.

Finally, after an unknown amount of time, a stream of hot tears welled up in Shen Zhao's eyes, flooding like a flood that had opened its gates.

He heard it.

No matter how rough the road ahead is-

They are connected by blood, and they love each other.