Ordinary Xinxian years

I don’t know how long I’ve been eating this meal. When I put down my chopsticks again, the creepers outside the courtyard surrounded the entire wall, the leaves of the Albizia juliensis outside the building were scattered, the anti-theft door was already rusted, and the furnishings in the house were also rusted. After more than half of the change, the people in the room still look the same, but only time knows that they are getting old too.

Xin Xian'er cleaned up the dishes as usual, her movements were much more proficient than two years ago, she wore a small floral apron, and soaked the bowl in hot water, the steaming smoke quickly wiped her Her face was buried in it, her mind was a little heavy, but her voice was very soft, she said slowly: "You know that I went home a few days ago because of my dad's illness, right?"

Pingfan wiped the table, her brows and eyes became more docile, she said she knew, then looked at her strangely, and said with a smile: "Didn't you say that uncle will be fine after the operation?"

Xin Xianer still moved slowly, as if she was going to tell a story, and said: "I told you before, our mother is very busy, she seems to be a female president, no, it doesn't even feel like a female president She is busy. My dad makes less money than her, and his status in the unit is not as good as hers, and his status at home is not as good as hers. Heh, I used to tell my dad with a smile, our family, my mother is the eldest, and my second child, My dad is the youngest, and my dad also agreed. That's what I said, and I thought so in my heart, everyone's father is the pillar of the family, and in our house, the positions of men and women happen to be reversed."

Pingfan listened quietly, feeling a little puzzled in his heart, this unreasonable boredom was like the steaming fog in the kitchen, it couldn't be lifted or dispersed, he could only sit here and listen, unable to move.

"This idea has been deeply ingrained in my mind for 20 years, but I didn't expect that my thoughts will change when I go home this time. I looked at my mother, such a wonderful person who usually looks amazing, and heard me Dad had a tumor, and his whole body seemed to be drained of blood. He was there to take care of my dad. My heart ached like twisting a towel. I suddenly felt that I owed them and owed them all these years. Myself." She put down the last bowl, poured out all the water in the pot, turned on the faucet, watched the water flow straight down, and when it touched the pot, there was a big wave of water, and the water gradually increased, which excited The rising water waves gradually became smaller.

She went on to say: "I used to think that I would be able to get their care if I fell, but then I thought about it, how could I care about them? At least they can still remember my birthday, but I never remember theirs. I think , I have been supported by them for more than [-] years, and it is time to support this family together with them."

The doubts in Pingfan's heart finally became substantive. She tried her best to conceal the uneasiness and said with a smile, "I can be with you..."

Before she finished speaking, she was stopped by Xin Xian'er: "Ordinary, you should have your own life, your life is not for me."

Pingfan smiled wryly: "But I am willing to work hard for you..."

Xin Xian'er sighed vaguely: "Ordinary, you already know a lot of things, why lie to yourself?"

The smile on Pingfan's lips froze. Yes, she knew it a long time ago. She knew it two years ago. Xin Xian'er treated her differently than before.She used to be wanton in front of her, but after that night, she became more polite.She knows that politeness is actually alienation.

Her crying gradually became louder, and she didn't know if it was for Xin Xian'er, for herself, or for the life of being deceived, or for the feelings of being abandoned.

Xin Xian'er turned around, and she was not without sadness. In the past two years, Pingfan's dependence on her has increased day by day, and she really can't bear it.When the attention, care, and love she had longed for came true one by one, her first thought was to escape.

She thought, mountains, rivers, lakes and seas, that is her destination.

After a long time, Pingfan had cried enough, her eyeballs were swollen, her legs became limp when she stood up, and she fell back to the bench. Her voice was especially hoarse and trembling. She asked, "When are you leaving?"

Xin Xian'er paused, and said, "This afternoon."

Pingfan cried again, covering his face with his hands, crying softly.

Xin Xian'er cleaned up the kitchen, saw her appearance, sighed, got up and went to the house to clean up.Things were scattered here and there, and she only took some important ones by memory, and tidied them up quickly.

She was carrying the suitcase, looked at Pingfan, and said, "I'm leaving."

Pingfan didn't cry anymore, but her eyes were lost. She said, "Where are you planning to go in the future? Have you thought about what you want to do?"

Xin Xian'er said: "Maybe go to Beijing. As for what to do, I haven't made up my mind yet, but I really want to break into the entertainment industry."

The girl who danced "Peerless Youth" seemed to reappear before ordinary eyes. She bent the corners of her eyes and said sincerely: "I wish you good luck."

Xin Xian'er pursed her lips and said, "Thank you, goodbye."

She unscrewed the old door, and looked back after all. She had a lot to say, and finally said only one sentence: "You have to be good."

Pingfan looked out the window and didn't speak.

The door lock fell with a loud bang.

Standing up on the chair, Pingfan walked to the window, looked at the back of Xin Xianer walking away, smiled, shed two lines of tears silently, and said very softly: "Go well."

Yesterday's rain fell fiercely, and today's acacia flowers fell too much.

The author has something to say:

finished

This article has been written intermittently for a month

really bad writing

It was only when I wrote today that I figured out what story I wanted to tell

pity it's too late

The bugs in front are too lazy to catch

I need to think about it

how to write next book

I can't let you down~

Of course, thank you my dear little angel for being with me for so long

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