Fingers of crossing

Jiang Ningzui originally didn't intend to tell Yan Yilan everything, about her past, who she really was, and these issues, she was actually always hesitating whether to tell her frankly.

It's not hypocritical or playing tricks, Jiang Ningzui just thinks that these secrets are inevitably too absurd and surprising, and even if she thinks so, she doesn't know how to tell Yan Yilan about it.When they were entangled, they would occasionally simply think about it and let it go. Since they got what they wanted in the end, why bother to mention that period of the past again and again.

But Jiang Ningzui didn't want to, every time she looked at Yan Yilan, her thoughts would be shaken, she didn't want Jiang Shuying to become a scar in Yan Yilan's heart that could never be said, so she had to tell Yan Yilan the truth, she had to Let her beloved woman know that her Shuying has lived up to the promise she once made to her. In this life, no matter how hard she tries and how much suffering she has to suffer, she will definitely come as promised and appear in her life.

Thinking, Jiang Ningzui walked slowly to Yan Yilan's side, and found that Yan Yilan's expression was shocked but indifferent at the moment, she couldn't help laughing through tears, and said: "It turns out that the eldest princess who is not afraid of heaven and earth will also Are you too scared to speak?"

Jiang Ningzui was in a good mood, and even learned Yan Yilan's way of teasing and teasing, but Yan Yilan couldn't laugh at all. She frowned and looked at Jiang Ningzui's complex expression. She could vaguely guess the answer, but it was too ridiculous. She really wanted to believe what Jiang Ningzui said, but it was too difficult to accept it.For a moment, she felt as if she had knocked over a bottle of five flavors, and she didn't know what it was like.

Yan Yilan looked directly at Jiang Ningzui, her voice was so hoarse that she didn't even recognize herself, "Ningzui, this is not funny."

Jiang Ningzui raised her head, her lips and teeth trembled slightly, and under Yan Yilan's gaze, she said word by word: "The eldest princess should understand me, I never make such jokes."

As soon as the words fell, Yan Yilan grabbed Jiang Ningzui's wrist, her eyes sparkled as strongly as she was holding Jiang Ningzui, "Who the hell are you?" Several identities can be changed freely, Ningzui, No matter who you say you are, I have never doubted you, but this time, how do you make me believe?

As if being savaged by memories, Yan Yilan's eyes were red like burning fire, and she whispered: "She died a long time ago."

"The Crown Princess also died in your arms," ​​Jiang Ning said drunkenly, "but now I have survived for her."

Yan Yilan couldn't believe it all the time, it was so ridiculous, but in her subconscious, she couldn't help convincing herself to believe it. Reason and emotion repeatedly struggled, Yan Yilan shook her head and said, "This is impossible."

"Do you still remember, four years ago, the battle between Yan and Sui outside the gate of the imperial city? In that battle, I led my troops to guard the gate for two days and two nights. At the last moment when I fell, I suddenly thought of you The poem you read at the imperial banquet when I first met." Jiang Ningzui felt a little choked up when she said this, and she looked at Yan Yilan with slightly wet eyes, and found that Yan Yilan The nostalgic look in Yilan's eyes is so similar to the one in her own eyes.

In the Hall of Longevity on July [-]th, when no one is whispering in the middle of the night, I would like to be a lovebird in the sky and Lian Lizhi in the ground.

Jiang Ningzui always remembers that the night when the two first met, she looked at Yan Yilan standing in front of the lantern from a distance, how bright and dazzing she was with every frown and smile.Even facing thousands of troops on the battlefield, Jiang Shuying never lost the slightest bit of retreat, but at that moment, she stared at Yan Yilan's eyebrows and eyes, only felt that the world was gorgeous, and the swaying lanterns almost fascinated her eyes.

It's a pity that she only knows about military and horse warfare in her life, but she doesn't know it when she is young, and because the monarch and his subjects are bound by other concepts, facing Yan Yilan's unscrupulous pursuit of the world, she can only refuse and escape again and again.When she finally broke through all moral shackles and was determined to marry Yan Yilan, they were faced with the critical moment of Yan Guo's life and death. At the time of national calamity, all the love between children seemed so small and insignificant. The woman she loves is the princess of Yan Kingdom, and also the eldest princess who was pushed to the throne in times of crisis. Yan Yilan's mission forces Yan Yilan to shoulder the responsibility of protecting Dayan. At this time, if she doesn't put on her armor again and return Around Yan Yilan, looking at the entire court, is there anyone else who can be trusted and reused by Yan Yilan.

But at that time, she didn't know that she chose to return to Yan Yilan's side, but she inevitably walked towards the end of eternal separation.

"At that moment, I suddenly regretted it." Jiang Ningzui lowered her eyes slightly, and she said with a smile: "I regret that I confessed to this relationship too late, but I left so early, leaving you alone in the world. How lonely it must be. At that time, I thought, if there is a next life, if I can meet you again, that would be great. At that time, I must first fall in love with you..."

The choking sound stopped abruptly, and Jiang Ningzui was suddenly pulled into Yan Yilan's arms, as if they had been waiting for this hug for a lifetime, and it seemed that it was not just their bodies that hugged each other, but their hearts collided and merged at this moment, No more gaps.

Yan Yilan once thought that on the night when she learned of Jiang Shuying's death, she had already shed all the tears in her life. From then on, she was ruthless and loveless, and nothing in the world could make her happy.Therefore, when she met Jiang Ningzui, she couldn't help falling into it, but she denied it in every possible way. She didn't believe that besides Jiang Shuying, she would be emotional for anyone else, but the long-lost joy in her heart could be deceived. Of the world, she alone cannot deceive herself.No one can understand her struggle. After Jiang Shuying, she silently sentenced herself to death in her heart, and never mentioned anything about the past again. However, the appearance of Jiang Ningzui caught her by surprise and was helpless. She should be able to refuse, but she couldn't help but get stuck in it, unable to extricate herself.

Hugging Jiang Ningzui tightly in her arms, Yan Yilan asked, "When did you remember that?"

Jiang Ningzui replied: "At the time of King Wu's army camp."

"Why didn't you tell me earlier?" Yan Yilan hugged Jiang Ningzui's arm tightly, her words were half pain and half hatred, "If you don't tell me this time, how long are you going to keep it from me? "

Yan Yilan's embrace was so warm and tight, as if a hot fire was ironing on Jiang Ningzui's chest, she let Yan Yilan's hands wrap around her bit by bit, as if they should be like this , intimacy, without adding any gaps.

"Forever." Jiang Ningzui's eyes flickered with water, but she smiled when she raised her head, her eyebrows were gentle, and her eyelashes fluttered with a smile, and she said in a soft voice: "Everything yesterday is like death yesterday. Okay, I just want to start over with you."

All kinds of things yesterday are like death yesterday.

This was said lightly, scenes of the past appeared in front of Yan Yilan's eyes, and it seemed to be colored in her heart, and the tenderness was mixed with too much bitterness, vividly in the eyes, bringing out so much Biting pain.If everything she experienced in the past could really die yesterday, what about her heart?Her heart was buried yesterday.

"Do you know, four years ago, during the battle outside the imperial city, you ordered the city gate to be closed without authorization, how I felt in my heart?" Yan Yilan's eyes were as scarlet as blood, and every word was as sharp as an accusation. , "You fought to the death outside the imperial city for two days and two nights, so I sat in the hall for two days and two nights. I didn't dare to close my eyes for a moment. I was afraid that if I opened them again, it would be yours who came later." Bad news. But even so, I still can't escape this catastrophe, and after three days, all I'm waiting for is your cold corpse."

The snow fell so heavily that night, and the sky and the earth were so cold. In the empty hall, she dismissed all the palace people, and hugged Jiang Shuying's already cold body tightly alone, regardless of the fire in her palace. No matter how warm it was, no matter how tightly she hugged Jiang Shuying's arms, the body in her arms was still so cold, bitingly cold, and heart-piercing.

Her shadow is dead.

The Shuying who once vowed to accompany her to protect the world is dead.Since then, time has been long, and heaven and man are forever separated. She dare not think about how she will spend the next few decades. She is afraid that time will pass by. I don't know her anymore.Countless thoughts were like sharp knives, slicing her heart bit by bit, and when she was numb with pain, all that was left was despair like dead ashes.She sat in the empty hall and tried her best to open her empty eyes. Even though the hall was brightly lit, she could only see darkness.

But now, Jiang Shuying was standing in front of her. Although her face had changed, her expression remained the same.

"I know." Jiang Ningzui didn't smile again this time, she slowly stretched out her hand to caress Yan Yilan's face, obviously wanting to loosen Yan Yilan's frown, but her vision was blurred and she couldn't see anything clearly . "So Fengyi, I'm back."

Yan Yilan said in a low voice, "This time, when do you plan to leave?"

"No more." Jiang Ningzui shook her head and said, "In this life, I have traveled around mountains and rivers to Buddhist pagodas, not to cultivate the next life, but to meet you."

Looking down at Jiang Ningzui's pious eyebrows and eyes when she said these words, Yan Yilan couldn't help it anymore, she tightened her arms suddenly, stretched out her hand to wrap around the back of Jiang Ningzui's head, her fingertips entwined with her black hair Together, they lowered their heads and kissed Jiang Ningzui's slightly trembling lips. The moment the four lips touched, it seemed that her heart trembled violently.

Everything in the world is sounding, except for the beating of their hearts, one after another, melting between the glued lips and teeth, turning into endless words, silently speaking in the chaotic breath, expressing long-lost thoughts for many years.

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