Fingers of crossing

The sun was scorching, and it should have been hot on the skin, but Jiang Ningzui only felt bitingly cold.

The journey from Zhaoling Hall to Fengyi Palace is not far away, and it takes only two cups of tea. All the images about Yan Yilan have been jumping out of my mind, like a lingering nightmare , forget but can't forget, think but don't want to.

The moment the phoenix chariot fell, Jiang Ningzui's whole heart lifted up. She looked at the familiar palace gate, and the vermilion lacquered pillars were still brightly colored, but now that it fell into her eyes, she only felt that this feeling This scene is really ironic.

Turning all the way into Shenyan Pavilion, Jiang Ningzui is familiar with the road, the expression on her face is too calm, so calm that people can't feel the turmoil in her heart at this moment, and she won't know, the inextricable tugging and turmoil in her heart pain.

"Princess?"

Bi Yuan happened to come out of Shenyan Pavilion, saw Jiang Ningzui, hurried up to greet her, and saluted respectfully. "The eldest princess is handling government affairs in the cabinet, do you need a servant to go and tell me?"

"No need." Jiang Ningzui said coldly: "You all step back, I have something to talk to the eldest princess alone."

"This..." At this time, Bi Yuan also noticed that the condensation on Jiang Ningzui's face was not the same as before, and her heart couldn't help beating, and she squatted in mid-air without moving.She thought about it for a while, and although she felt something was wrong, but thinking that it was Jiang Ningzui who came, she finally just nodded as she said, and said: "Yes."

Ruinao cigarettes were curling up, Yan Yilan was wearing a Chinese dress, her face was seductive and stern, she was standing by the window with her hands behind her back, her brows were lightly furrowed, and there seemed to be countless melancholy in her narrow narrow phoenix eyes that couldn't dissipate.

It was clearly the outline of the face and body that was engraved in his mind, but at this moment, Jiang Ningzui only felt strange.She suddenly realized that she had never seen through Yan Yilan, even in the countless days and nights when they were most intimate with each other, Yan Yilan was still like this endless deep palace, a maze that she couldn't see through at a glance.

Hearing the movement, Yan Yilan turned her head and saw Jiang Ningzui standing alone outside the hall, the scorching sun behind her shone brightly on her body, even so, it still couldn't change the cold expression in her eyes.

"It's really strange," Yan Yilan turned around, and said amusedly, "You actually came to my Fengyi Palace on your own initiative?"

The letter paper in the wide sleeve seemed to be on fire, burning the skin of Jiang Ningzui's arms and wrists. She stepped into the hall slowly and said: "The eldest princess has always been far-sighted, and there are things that you can't think of?"

Jiang Ningzui's tone is always light, with a bit of natural teasing, and her calm and composed few words can often make Yan Yilan speechless for a long time.But today Jiang Ningzui's words sounded more than just an unintentional joke, Yan Yilan could vaguely feel the irony in it.

Slightly restraining her smile, Yan Yilan asked, "What do you need from me?"

"It's just that I saw a letter, and I still have doubts in my heart, so I want to ask the eldest princess for advice."

Leaning against the window behind her, Yan Yilan took a deep look at Jiang Ningzui, narrowed her eyes slightly, and said, "What letter?"

Handing the letter from her sleeve to Yan Yilan, Jiang Ningzui spoke every word slowly and coldly. "The last words of the princess."

Sometimes, words can hurt people invisible, as if Jiang Ningzui's words seemed to have put a distance between her and Yan Yilan.

Shock flashed across Yan Yilan's eyes at first, followed by doubts, and in the end it all turned into a hesitant to speak. She was not in a hurry to accept the letter in Jiang Ningzui's hand, but looked at her without saying a word. , as if to see through Jiang Ningzui's eyes, to see through her heart, but unfortunately Jiang Ningzui's eyes were only left with frozen indifference, and she could never see her heart again.

Reaching out to take the letter in Jiang Ningzui's hand, Yan Yilan's expression unfolded unpredictably. As time passed, Yan Yilan's expression slowly froze as she watched the letter, and a layer of mist gradually appeared in her brows and eyes, as if An overwhelming sadness.

"Nine months ago, the Crown Princess married into the palace for the first time. She should have been full of joy, but unfortunately she never imagined that the Crown Prince whom she adores with all her heart not only does not have her in her heart, but also only regards her as a tool, one to take revenge and hurt her." The eldest princess' tool." Yan Yilan didn't say a word, and Jiang Ningzui spoke out for her, telling all the truths that she didn't know. "The prince wants to use the pretext of going out of the city to train troops, secretly accumulate troops, and launch a coup outside the palace, but everything is ready, except for a logical reason to attack the city and seize the throne, so he thought of the princess. He knew that the eldest princess had always loved the crown princess, so he forced her to serve him, forced her to drink the unsolvable love medicine, and invited the eldest princess to come to her Zhaoling Palace. The love medicine has no cure, and the crown prince understands By the time it was too late, she cried and begged the eldest princess not to ask the imperial doctor, because she was afraid that the matter would be revealed, and the Jiang family would become the laughing stock of the world since then, so the eldest princess relented."

As if new scars were being uncovered on the healed scars, Jiang Ningzui's every word was more desperate and painful than Ling Chi's. The more deliberately forgotten the memories, the clearer the memories. That night's princess, that night's She, entangled with the pain seems to tear Yan Yilan's heart apart.

She always remembered the princess that night, her face was flushed like a peach blossom after the rain, but her eyes were full of despair. She tremblingly grabbed the corner of her clothes, and tears fell on the bed one by one. There is a trace of sadness.

She gasped and begged her to save herself, saying that she was about to die, and hoped that she would save her again for the sake of her father and sister.

"In fact, the prince's plan is very simple. After the matter is completed, he will receive the letter from the princess flying pigeons early the next morning. He can use the reason that the eldest princess has meddling with the crown princess to lead his troops into the palace and force the eldest princess to hand over the money. The throne. It’s a pity that the crown prince has calculated thousands of times, but he missed one point. Although the crown princess has feelings for the crown prince, the eldest princess is kind to her. When she woke up the next day, she realized that she was wrong. But regret it What's the use? It's too late. The eldest princess and the prince, she is destined to disappoint one, but no matter which one she is, she can't afford to disappoint. Therefore, as cowardly as her, in the end she can only Thinking of apologizing with death."

Jiang Ning paused drunk, and suddenly she couldn't continue. It wasn't because of the princess's story that made her feel a little sympathetic, but because of Yan Yilan's silent and gloomy expression.Yan Yilan didn't stop her from talking, on the contrary, her silence was her greatest permission, but she still felt that this was a gamble that hurt both sides, and they would all lose completely.

Not without regret.

Yan Yilan laughed at herself, if when she woke up the next day, when she saw such a regretful princess, she could speak softly to her instead of leaving without saying a word because of anger, maybe at that time The princess would not choose to end her life in that way, nor would she choose to die in a cold pond.

If only she could be more patient with her...

Yan Yilan's expression fell into Jiang Ningzui's eyes, and her heart fell to the ground. It turns out that the so-called truth did not fill up much of the doubts in her heart, but took away everything in her heart, leaving only an empty space. confused, laughing at her stupidity silently.

"So, when the eldest princess rescued the crown princess, she was already out of breath, right? And the reason why the eldest princess concealed the fact that the crown princess died and declared that the crown princess fell into a coma was just a It was just to dispel the prince's delusional idea of ​​rebellion. In fact, at that time, all the cronies around the princess, including the imperial physician, knew one thing in their hearts. The princess had already choked when she was in Quheyuan." Jiang Ning Zui slowly closed her eyes, under Yan Yilan's raised gaze, she had to suppress her emotions desperately to speak out the next words calmly. "However, three days later, the Crown Princess, who had been dead for a long time, suddenly woke up again. She said she couldn't remember anything, and even looked at the Eldest Princess with strange and vigilant eyes. How was the Eldest Princess at that time?" Looking at her? An alien? Or an assassin in disguise? Or the resurrected princess?"

She leaned against the window casement completely, as if it was the only strength to support herself, Yan Yilan's breathing was stagnant, she looked at Jiang Ningzui silently, but found the sadness in her eyes that she was trying to hide , is so similar to my own.

"I knew from the beginning that you're not her." Yan Yilan snorted and chuckled desolately, but her laughter was full of sadness and hoarseness. "It's not that I haven't had fantasies. The fantasies are that she came back from the dead. It's a pity that you don't look alike except for your skin. But Qing Fu told me that you have the same marks on your body. She said firmly that you are her." My master, she has served you for so many years, she will not fail to recognize, so I was indeed a little confused at first."

It's just that sometimes to distinguish a person, it's not enough to rely on those external things alone.And character is the least likely to lie.

All it takes is a little probing, and Yan Yilan has the answer in her heart, but the only thing she can't figure out is why Jiang Ningzui appears here, who is she, what is her purpose for coming, is she a secret agent, or is she The crown prince or the informant that King Wu placed beside her?

She didn't know, so she used her tricks, while secretly testing Jiang Ningzui, at the same time, she used her to perform one good show after another.At that time, she really needed a substitute for the crown prince, so as to hide the truth from the crown prince, and also to stabilize Dayan's crumbling country.And a crown princess who lied that she didn't remember anything was naturally the best choice.I don't remember anything, and naturally I don't remember all the promises the prince made with her before he left. Even if the prince returns to the palace in the future, facing a princess who has forgotten everything, no matter how unwilling he is, he can only I can hide it in my heart.

"But you still know after all that I'm not her, right?" Jiang Ningzui slowly tightened her hands in her wide sleeves, she could understand everything, except for one thing, she couldn't figure it out no matter what. "Since you know, then why did you save me at the reception banquet when King Wu returned to Beijing?"

"Whether that person is you or not, in my opinion at the time, they were all the same." Seemingly aware of the pain her words would bring to Jiang Ningzui, Yan Yilan hesitated for a moment, and finally confessed He said it authentically: "Before the reception banquet, I already knew that the king of Wu would set up an assassin on the banquet, and his goal was me from the beginning. So, I just borrowed his thoughts and intentionally hurt myself, So that the king of Wu and the sixth prince can relax their vigilance, so that they can show their flaws, and eliminate the informant that King Wu placed next to the prince in one fell swoop, that is, the sixth prince."

In fact, on the way here, Jiang Ningzui had imagined this possibility.It's just that she still couldn't really choose to believe it, and she didn't even want to admit it. At the moment when she was tempted by Yan Yilan, Yan Yilan was just performing a good show with all her heart and responsibility, and in Yan Yilan's heart , she is just a pawn.

I always thought that during the assassination, Yan Yilan hurried to find her out of worry, but it never was.She was just in that fashion and still suspected that she was just an eyeliner planted by King Wu, pretending to be amnesiac, pretending to be a princess to stay by her side, so even when the assassin approached her, she was still just standing in front of the imperial army. Li watched indifferently until she confirmed that the assassin really wanted to harm her, then she broke out from the Imperial Forest Army and stood by her side.

She thought that Yan Yilan had always been sincere towards her, but only now did she realize that it was just a show.

Jiang Ning smiled drunkenly, but her eyes became more and more icy cold, "It turns out that the queen asked me to be a knife by your side, but in the end, I'm really just a sharp knife in your hand." As she said, Jiang Ning Zui turned her head to look at Yan Yilan, her eyes were red as if they were about to bleed, but she couldn't shed a single tear. "For so many days and nights, you have watched me as a pawn, falling inextricably in the game you set up, and seeing me do so many reckless and stupid things, don't you think it's ridiculous?"

"I always want you to stay away from me, because I don't want you to know how despicable I am one day. So on the day of the Lantern Festival, I thought I made it clear. I think, if you can then If you leave because of my cruelty, then maybe you will not know the truth, and you will not be hurt again. But you have to take risks again and again for me, and I have no way to let myself say no to you like that , I also watched you hesitate and feel sad for countless times because of the status of the crown princess, I don't want to tell you the truth, but, no matter whether I say it or not, it will also put you and me in an endless hell."

It turned out that everything was just a game set up by Yan Yilan, but she gave all her sincerity in this game.She lost from the very beginning, lost in the startling glance when she first met Yan Yilan, lost in the days and nights she spent with Yan Yilan day and night, and lost in Yan Yilan's every scene.

However, who can be blamed?It was her wishful thinking from the beginning, so how could she hate Yan Yilan?What a sad thing, what reason can't give up is the humble but powerless love in my heart.I voluntarily held out my heart, how can I blame you for trampling on it at will?

"The eldest princess is really good at planning, I..." Jiang Ningzui took a look at Yan Yilan, and said softly, "I'm willing to bow down."

There is no need to say anything, because she understands all the answers.She was fascinated by other people's plays, and she didn't know until the end. After the curtain ended, she was left alone in the end, and all the audience left. Maybe what she got in the end was just a whole body of loneliness, no one can say .

"At first I really suspected that you were just a spy, but later I felt that you are definitely more like a thief than a spy." Jiang Ningzui turned to leave, Yan Yilan stretched out her hand in vain, but grabbed nothing Can't live.Her heart ached, and she wanted to say something, but she couldn't say anything in the end. "You stole all my sanity and calmness, and even once made me feel that I must be crazy to be so attached to you."

Yan Yilan's words grabbed Jiang Ningzui's footsteps, her heart ached like it was about to split open, Jiang Ningzui just turned her body sideways, and said with a low laugh, "That's really nice." At first, she looked at Yan Yilan indifferently, "But the eldest princess thinks, will I still believe you?"

As Jiang Ningzui said, she thought carefully in her heart, and finally understood: "Actually, the eldest princess doesn't need to do this. The current Dayan no longer needs me as a crown princess."

Jiang Ningzui's self-deprecating words made Yan Yilan frown, and she subconsciously called out, "Ningzui."

"Stop screaming." Jiang Ningzui's figure stopped outside the palace gate, she turned her head to look at Yan Yilan for the last time, but in this look, there was no longer the affection she used to have. "You know it, but I don't."

You've known from the beginning that I'm not a princess.But you can still watch me cover up in every possible way, even use it to tease me, treat my feelings for you as a pawn, as a sharp knife in your hand, and play with it without any shame.

Forget it, I should have known earlier that the people in this palace are heartless.

Jiang Ningzui's figure slowly disappeared into the dazzling sunlight outside the hall, Yan Yilan stared blankly for a long time, and when she wanted to chase after her figure, she realized that she was no longer in sight.Just like the kindness and resentment between them, when she wanted to treat each other sincerely, she found that it was too late.

Looking down, she saw the last words left by the Crown Princess in her hand, and that last line of words once again jumped out of Yan Yilan's sight.

"I hope that one day, the truth will be revealed."

While thinking about it, Yan Yilan couldn't help feeling a little funny, but her heart ached even more.

"Silly girl." Slowly burning the letter in her hand into the palace lantern, watching the letter slowly turn into ashes, Yan Yilan said in a low voice: "Don't you know that sometimes, the truth is often the truth." The most hurtful thing?"