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It was already mid-afternoon when Fang Qingqing came out of the aquarium, Fang Qingqing wanted to eat at a nearby seafood restaurant, but Shen Xiaoya stopped her, and dragged her around to find a seafood porridge shop.

Shen Xiaoya had been here before, and she looked familiar, the two ordered seafood porridge and a few side dishes, and then sat in the cubicle and waited.The porridge shop is small, with a total of more than a dozen compartments. The environment is clean and cool with the air conditioner on.

"Have you been here?" Fang Qingqing poured Shen Xiaoya a glass of water, and asked.

"Well, this is an old store. I have been here since I was a child." Shen Xiaoya looked around, and it seemed that the place hadn't changed much.

Fang Qingqing also became interested in this place, and looked around after a while. It felt very homely. Even two or three waiters looked like relatives and neighbors. calm.

The porridge was served in a casserole. Fang Qingqing rinsed the bowls and chopsticks with hot water, filled half a bowl of porridge and handed it to Shen Xiaoya, saying: "Put less first, the porridge is hot, eat slowly."

Shen Xiaoya watched her every move with a smile, took the porridge and said thank you, and waited for Fang Qingqing to fill her porridge before picking up the spoon and starting.The two of them ate the porridge slowly, and took a rest here by the way. When the sun was not so poisonous, they came out of the shop and walked towards Binhai Avenue.

Not far away, I arrived at an intersection of Binhai Avenue, where there is a bicycle rental place, Fang Qingqing turned around and asked Shen Xiaoya: "Can you ride a bicycle?"

"Of course, when I was in elementary school." Shen Xiaoya said happily, she hadn't ridden a bike for a long time, and she looked eager to try.

Fang Qingqing had no choice but to put aside the idea of ​​renting a tandem bicycle, paid the deposit, and rented two bicycles. The two rode along the beach, and the wind became cooler near the beach. The Binhai Avenue was very clean, and there were canopies on both sides of the road The dense sycamore trees cast shade, cool and beautiful, making the journey comfortable and comfortable.

The two were laughing and laughing while riding, and sometimes they chased each other, gradually getting tired, Fang Qingqing saw that Shen Xiaoya's forehead was sweating, so she stopped at a place near the beach.

"Let's go down and have a rest, the beach here is very clean." Fang Qingqing said.Shen Xiaoya didn't have any objections, and followed her to the beach. The two put the car behind them, then sat down together, drank some water, rehydrated, and looked at the sea in the distance, enjoying the coolness of the sea breeze.

The coastline here is relatively gentle, and the waves are very light. There are no people around, and there are few seabirds.

"Have you thought about what kind of life you want in the future?" After sitting for a while, Shen Xiaoya's leisurely voice broke the silence, and floated into Fang Qingqing's ears along with the waves.

After a while, I heard Fang Qingqing's confused voice: "I didn't think about it specifically. I used to only know to study hard, get into a good university, and then find a good job."

"What about now?" Shen Xiaoya asked softly again.

Fang Qingqing didn't answer, she vaguely understood what Shen Xiaoya really wanted to ask, but she really didn't know.She has been a good child and a good student since she was a child.No naughty, no trouble, no puppy love.She vaguely felt that in the future, there might be a person who was sympathetic to her for the rest of her life.However, she never thought about what kind of person that was.Of course, it is absolutely unthinkable that that person might be a girl.

Silence, except for the sound of sea water washing up on the beach again and again, it seems that even each other's breathing has become lighter.Fang Qingqing knew that she had let others down, and she was also very frustrated.For the first time, she felt that her strength was too small, she knew too little about the world, and she had never had any homework that could trouble her before, but now, she felt that she was so small, leaving the familiar campus, she was at a loss for many things .

Did not hear the answer, Shen Xiaoya did not ask again, just looked at the sea calmly, after a while, Shen Xiaoya's voice sounded again: "I have always wanted to leave here, stay away from this city, so that I can breathe happily and live a relaxed life , I was born and raised here, but I don't like staying here." The voice was still very soft, but Fang Qingqing heard the heaviness and determination in it.

"Can I ask why?" Fang Qingqing turned to look at her and asked cautiously.

Shen Xiaoya looked at the surface of the sea without looking back, and after a while she slowly said: "My father and my mother often quarreled when I was a child, but then they stopped arguing for some reason, but they didn't communicate with each other, it was just a cold war. It’s hard to suffocate. They are very good to me, and I always wanted to be a bridge for them to communicate, to make them happy, and to make my home like other people’s homes, lively and ordinary.”

"However, when I was in the third year of high school, I overheard that they had negotiated a long time ago. When I went to college, I would divorce. The reason why I had to endure each other for so long was that I didn't want to delay my study and my growth process. Crossroads."

"Do you know how I feel? They don't love anymore, why didn't they get divorced early, and they have to make themselves feel so wronged for me? I don't deserve it at all, right? I won't be grateful to them." She didn't pause He spoke, as if holding back for a long time, as if once he stopped, he could no longer speak.

"During the college entrance examination, I still didn't pass the exam. I could have gone to a foreign school, but in the end I only came here. They knew that I was still affected, and they started complaining to each other. I told them, get a divorce, I don't need them anymore. Tell me, am I very heartless." After the words fell, Shen Xiaoya couldn't help but sneered, but the tears in her eyes were hard to hide, and fell down.

Fang Qingqing wanted to comfort Shen Xiaoya, but she didn't know what to say. She took out a tissue from her bag and wanted to wipe Shen Xiaoya's tears, but just as the tissue was unfolded, it was blown away by the sea breeze.Her hands were still stretched forward, her face extremely embarrassed.

Shen Xiaoya laughed out loud at once, the tears on her face were not dry yet, she didn't wipe it away, she turned around and lay on Fang Qingqing's shoulder, rubbed her face vigorously, and continued to smile deeply.After a while, the laughter stopped, Shen Xiaoya didn't look up, Fang Qingqing didn't move, she felt the heat and humidity through the shirt, she thought, she was useless, she could only provide a shoulder to rely on.

After a long time, Shen Xiaoya finally showed her face, but still leaning on Fang Qingqing's shoulder, she said like a raving voice: "You said why they did this, it's their life, how can I afford it."

Fang Qingqing turned her head slightly, smelled the fragrance in Shen Xiaoya's hair, rubbed it slightly, and said softly: "Sometimes, we just love, but we don't know how to love."

Later she learned that when Shen Xiaoya told her about this incident, her parents were going through the divorce process, and later they got married.Maybe they can find their lover, but before Shen Xiaoya became independent, they barely maintained a family.

But they didn't realize that the love that has been maintained may be a burden to Shen Xiaoya, or even hurt, making her feel that she is a drag on their road to happiness, paid for her, delayed by her, forever I can't afford it.