Wait till the sun rises

in the bedroom.

With trembling hands, the old man lit a cigarette, smoked half of it, and then looked at Xu Jiming who was kneeling on the ground.

Shocked, angry, but more heartbroken.

The old man finally opened his mouth, his voice was extremely hoarse, and he said: "You and Yang Yang grew up together and have been close since childhood, and I have always treated you as my own grandson, why do you..." The old man wiped his eyes, In the end, he didn't go on. He looked at his grandson who had been in pain since he was a child, and asked another question: "When did it start?"

Xu Jiming lowered his head and shook his head slowly: "Yangyang doesn't know yet."

The old man's face turned green and pale, he walked back and forth in the room for a few steps before saying: "This is not good, this is a road of no return, now that you know it, wake up as soon as possible."

The old man seemed to have made up his mind, turned around and walked out: "I won't tell your parents about this. You pack your things now, and I'll call you a car. Go home now, and don't come here again."

"Grandfather!" Xu Jiming shouted behind the old man, his voice sounded calm, but he could catch the fragility inside, with slight choking and trembling.

He had rehearsed the arrival of this day countless times in his mind, but he never expected to come back so soon.When everything was unprepared, this day came ahead of schedule.

Xu Jiming turned around and kowtowed to the old man. He said softly but firmly: "Grandfather, I am serious about Yang Yang, please give me a chance."

"Seriously?" The cigarette in the old man's hand had already burned to his fingertips, he took a few steps forward as if he had been burned, picked up the things on the table and threw them on Xu Jiming's body Among them, the corner of a book the old man was reading hit Xu Jiming's forehead, which immediately turned red.

The old man said angrily, "Are you serious? How serious? Ah, do you know what you're talking about? What are you doing? Do you know what kind of path you've chosen? It's hell." The old man burst into tears.

"I won't give you a chance, you go home now." Grandpa Xia threw the cigarette butt on the ground, twisted it with his feet, but his voice was extremely firm, he waved his arms vigorously, as if there was something extremely terrifying in front of him Generally, "Go back now, you can't come back."

Xu Jiming knelt on the spot, and bent down again: "Grandpa, please give me a chance, I really love Yangyang."

The old man said angrily: "If you really love him, don't drag him to hell."

Xu Jiming wiped his eyes with his hands. He felt that he was very despicable at this time. He knew that his grandfather was in such pain and loved him so much, but he tortured the old man's heart again and again.

But he knew that if he couldn't even pass the level of grandpa, then it was impossible for him and Xia Yang to be together.So like a mechanical puppet stuck in place with non-stick glue, he bent down over and over again, repeating that sentence over and over again.

--"I am serious."

Seeing him like this, the old man burst into tears, why did he want him to be in such pain, but the pain now is better than the two grandchildren he loves most in the future falling into hell together.

The old man seemed to be more than ten years old in an instant. He shook his hand and whispered in a very soft voice: "Go back, go home."

He seemed to be extremely uncomfortable, his body shook for a while, and then he slowly turned around and stretched out his hand to hold the door frame and walked out.As soon as he stepped out of the door, the old man fell to the ground under Xu Jiming's wide-eyed shocked eyes.

"Grandpa—"

Xia Yang sat on a bench outside the hospital, put his hands together on his lips, and fixed his eyes on the door in front of him.

——Grandpa is inside.

Time passed minute by minute, and Xu Jiming, who was waiting outside, felt that every second was too late for him.

"It'll be fine." Xu Jiming sat aside and said in a low voice, as if he was comforting Xia Yang, but also comforting himself.

Xia Yang grabbed Xu Jiming's hand by his side with his backhand. It was midsummer, but the hands they held together were like ice cubes, without any warmth.

The door opened, and Xu Jiming even felt Xia Yang trembling.

Finally the doctor and nurse came out, and Xu's father kept thanking the doctor.

Han Ling wiped her eyes, walked over and gave Xu Jiming a reproachful look, Xu Jiming's heart tightened, and she heard Han Ling say: "Look at how old you are, why don't you know how to help grandpa pack things? Let him be an old man Clean up the house by yourself, luckily you found out early, you guys, really..."

Xu Jiming trembled all over, and guilt burst out endlessly.

Han Ling patted him on the shoulder and said, "Grandpa is already awake, you go talk to him. Auntie goes shopping."

·

The skinny old man was lying on the hospital bed, his face was pale, and his lips were bloodless. Only then did Xu Jiming realize that Grandpa was really old.

On weekdays, grandpa is in good health, always with a three-point smile on his face, cheerfully pulling people to sit under a tree and playing chess, as if there is nothing to worry about.Xu Jiming often ran to where he was, so naturally he didn't feel that he was getting old.

"Come." Seeing them pushing the door open, the old man stretched out his hand by his side.Xia Yang took a step forward and grabbed his hand, choked up and said, "Grandfather, you scared me to death."

The old man grinned, reached out his hand to wipe away the tears on Xia Yang's face, and said, "Grandpa is getting old."

Xu Jiming slowly closed the door, hesitantly standing where he was, not daring to take a step forward.

The old man said a few words to Xia Yang, then glanced at Xu Jiming who was standing by the door with his head bowed silently, and said with a smile: "The quilt disinfectant in this hospital smells too strong, I'm not used to it. Yangyang, give it to me when you go home." Take a quilt and pack some clothes by the way."

"Since you understand, you can stay here. I'm an old man, so boring. Stay and talk to me."

Normally, Xu Jiming would be the first to rush out to help Xia Yang with errands, but he knew that the old man was deliberately dismissing Xia Yang, and he had something to say to himself.

When Xia Yang went out, he glanced at him. Xu Jiming looked at his red rabbit-like eyes, and patted him on the shoulder: "Be careful on the road."

Xia Yang went out.No one spoke in the room for a moment, the old man patted the edge of the bed and said, "Come here."

Xu Jiming walked over to hold the old man's skinny hand, and knelt down on the ground.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to offend you," he said.

The old man grinned, wiped away the tears on his face with his thumb, and said, "Grandpa knows you are a good boy."

The old man adjusted his posture and pulled down the quilt, as if he really couldn't bear the smell of disinfectant on the quilt.

After being silent for a while, the old man suddenly said: "Siming, let me teach you how to play chess."

Although Xu Jiming was puzzled, he still nodded.

The old man seemed to recall the past, with a smile on his face: "How old were you at that time? Eight years old, it was the first time you saw me playing chess with Lao Zhao, standing next to me with a small bench for a long time , not too tired."

Xu Jiming nodded, and said: "Yes, I beg you to teach me later." The old man stared at the ceiling and said slowly: "I see that you are very clever, but you are really slow to learn, and you can't always win against Yangyang. "

The tears on Xu Jiming's face were still wet, so he wiped them away before saying, "Yes, I can never beat him."

Grandpa Xia smiled and said: "It's not that you can't beat him, it's that you always let him in and want to make him happy. It's because I ignored it. You have been very kind to him since you were young, and you are always tired of being together when you grow up." ..."

"I remember I told you that beginners are always fearless and full of energy. They don't care about gains and losses, and they don't know how to take into account the overall situation. They only know how to attack blindly, but their eyes are only on the local area after all. I always think about sending my chess pieces to the opposite side to eat the opponent’s veteran, and I don’t think about defending. Later, I slowly learned and knew the overall situation, but at that time I was timid and reluctant Sacrificing any chess piece in your hand, you will never let go of your eyes after all."

Having said that, the old man turned his head slowly, patted Xu Jiming's hand, looked him straight in the eyes, and continued: "In the end, we learned thoroughly, and at that time we knew what to give up, even if It's important, but it's not as important as the end result."

"The road of life is the same. We have been burdened with various things since we were born. We must learn to let go of some unimportant things, so that we can successfully reach the end. Grandpa knows that you are a good boy, But Yangyang will not be your end. You are still young and have not seen the outside world, where there is a wider sky, which is beautiful but also cruel beyond your imagination."

"Your life is not filled with only love. You also have parents, friends, and colleagues. The path you have chosen is so difficult. You and Yangyang are the only relatives I have in this world. I can't just watch Leading my two favorite children to destruction together."

Grandpa Xia stroked the weeping Xu Jiming's hair, and said in a hoarse voice: "I have never refused your request since I was a child, please forgive Grandpa for his selfishness, Zhiming, this time, I will not nod. "

The author has something to say:

I don’t know if you play chess like this, anyway, I am like this~ It’s not what everyone said, it’s completely my own understanding, just take a look, just take a look