[Rebirth] An attack who swallowed his breath

Zuo Yi ran out of the house angrily, a huge tiredness like a cold current enveloped him, he put his hands in his pockets, wandered aimlessly in the bustling streets, looked at the bright neon lights, kicked his feet stones.

He walked to the huge artificial lake in Xishui Park, the night lights were dim, and there were not many people in the park at midnight at nearly twelve o'clock.There is a circular artificial island in the middle of the expensive lake, on which there is a small green house, which is a temporary resting place for swan breeders.Yes, there are some rare black and white swans swimming in the lake.

Zuo Yi looked at the graceful swans, and a couple cuddled up next to each other. The girl pointed to the lake and said, "Ah! The ducks in the imperial capital are so big!"

"..." Zuo Yi rolled his eyes and walked away, and sat down on the bench.

He was irritable and angry, and he had nowhere to vent his anger.He raised his leg and brought one foot to his knee, trying to get the black metal ring off.He tugged hard and turned around to see if there was any connection, but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't get the metal ring off.

He became even more irritable, stood up and kicked down the trash can next to him, and sat back on the bench annoyed.

"Hi, alone?" A sissy voice approached from a distance.

Left Wing was still tugging at the metal ring on his ankle. He felt someone sitting next to him. He turned his head and saw a handsome man smiling at him—it’s not an exaggeration to say that gorgeous, a normal man would never wear it. A small pink suit with silver trim, a pair of checked cropped trousers underneath, and a pair of shiny Martin boots on the feet, this kind of equipment is simply blinding.

"One person, can't you see it?" Zuo Yi said coldly, then lowered his head again, carefully studying how to get rid of the metal ring.

"How much are you?" the man said with a smile.

"What?" Zuo Yi frowned and immediately understood, "I'm sorry, I'm not here to sell, please stay away from me."

"It's not MB? Well, it doesn't look like it at such a young age. Is this the first time you come to this kind of place? But it doesn't matter. Who told you to look so cute? I just need to have experience, and I will make you comfortable."

As the man spoke, he leaned on Zuo Yi, and Zuo Yi put his hand on his face and pushed him away rudely, "I'm not here to ask for a one-night stand, stay away from me, I'm already very polite, don't let me beat you up. "

"Then why are you wandering around this kind of place at night." The man pouted and said aggrievedly: "Here, it's a holy place for gays to date, ouch, it's lucky that you met such a kind person like me, if you meet those What if the bad guy knocks you out and drags you away!"

"Thank you so much." Zuo Yi said coldly.

The man smiled, raised his orchid finger and secretly and quickly tapped Zuo Yi's face with his index finger, "Are you crooked?"

"It's none of your business?"

"In that case, why don't you try with me? Anyway, you won't get pregnant, right?" The man winked at him charmingly.

Zuo Yi looked at him for a while, then put his foot on his knee, "See this, get rid of this thing, go anywhere, if you can't get rid of it, it's useless to go anywhere."

"What is this?" The man blinked his big eyes curiously.

"Satellite tracker, global positioning," Left said.

The man froze for a moment, then pinched the metal ring with two fingers, lifted Left Wing's foot off his body and put it on the ground, and said with a sneer, "Hey, he is a man with a master."

"It was there before, but it's gone now. I was kicked out of the house just now." Zuo Yi lifted his foot up again and looked at him provocatively, "Don't you dare?"

The man said: "Then... I've already used this thing, I can't afford it."

Zuo Yi changed his face in an instant, and shouted at him angrily: "Then what the hell are you talking about! Get out of here!"

The man withdrew his hand embarrassingly, twisted Xiaoman's waist and fled.

Zuo Yi wanted to make a call to Wang Yi and Lin Haoran to talk to them, but when he took out his mobile phone, he found four missed calls, all of which were Xia Xun's. Maybe he was so angry that he didn't hear it for a while.

He dialed back, and the phone was quickly picked up, and Xia Xun's trembling voice sounded over there, "Can you come and stay with me?"

"What happened?" Zuo Yi could hear the unnaturalness in her voice, and asked.

"I'm in the hospital. Dad had a heart attack suddenly before, and he's being rescued now. Can you come and stay with me?"

Zuo Yi quickly calmed her down, asked the address of the hospital and immediately took a taxi there, and ran in the hospital corridor wearing a school uniform.

Outside the emergency room, Xia Xun was fidgeting and pacing back and forth, anxious beyond measure.Xia Yuan and Mrs. Xia were also there, huddled on the bench and whispering, the expression on their faces was not so much worry as panic.

"Left Wing!" Seeing him, Xia Xun hurriedly stepped forward to meet him. She hugged Left Wing like a drowning swimmer grabbing driftwood. She was trembling with fear.

"Hasn't he always been healthy?" Zuo Yi couldn't say anything to comfort him, so he could only pat Xia Xun on the back to make her relax.

"No, in fact, he can't stand stimulation, but he is irritable..." Xia Xun's eyes were filled with tears, and she tried her best to restrain herself, her throat was sore and choked.

"Go downstairs and take a walk. It's useless for you to be anxious. Save some energy and wait for him to come out and take good care of him." Zuo Yi said.

Before Xia Xun could speak, Xia Yuan suddenly jumped up like a small beast whose territory had been invaded, and scolded sharply: "Grandpa's life and death are uncertain now! You are still talking sarcastic words! You are a dead star, it's all your fault! It's you!" After the appearance, Grandpa's condition became unstable! It's all because of you!"

Zuo Yi looked at her and said coldly: "My mother gave birth to me for 16 years, did he, Xia Xu, rescue him in the hospital from 16 years ago to now?"

Xia Yuan was caught off guard by his killing, she shrugged and shouted: "Why are you so unfilial!"

"As far as you are filial, ask your mother, is it appropriate to yell like this in the hospital?" Zuo Yi looked at her embarrassing face coldly, and narrowed his eyes sullenly, "If you speak rudely to me again, I will punish you." Throw it from here."

"Okay, Yuanyuan, stop making trouble." Mrs. Xia finally knew how to stop her, and gently pulled Xia Yuan to her side.

Xia Xun's face looked pale and tired under the incandescent lamp, Zuo Yi asked her to sit on the bench to rest and talk to her to divert her attention.

"Why is it just you?" Xia Xun said while shaking his hand.

Zuo Yi said: "Oh, we had a quarrel. When I called you, I happened to be outside, so I took a taxi here."

Xia Xun instantly became angry, "He drove you out?!"

"No!" Zuo Yi quickly waved his hand, "I came out by myself, let's relax."

"Why are you distracted at twelve o'clock in the middle of the night! Did he drive you out!" Xia Xun's eyes widened.

Zuo Yi said helplessly: "No, how dare he. Really, believe me, I'll go home when Xia Xu is fine."

Xia Xun nodded suspiciously, patted Zuo Yi's head and said, "If he really dares to wrong you, just tell me, and my aunt will beat him up for you."

"Really not, he treats me very well." Zuo Yi pursed his lips, feeling suddenly sad in his heart—it seemed that he was the one who was weak in everyone's eyes, only Xun could bully him, and no one cared whether he treated Xun well. Good enough, even if he bullies Xun, everyone still feels that Xun's tolerance is justified—Xia Xun definitely protects himself unconditionally, and Xun, Xun has no one around him, he has nothing but himself, but himself Pointing at his nose and yelling at him...

Zuo Yi shook his head lightly, he didn't think he was wrong, Xun shouldn't kill innocent people indiscriminately!

And he told himself to go away! ——Although it was clearly just angry words.

Half an hour later, Xia Xu was finally pushed out of the emergency room. The doctor said that it was no longer dangerous to send him to the hospital in time, and urged the family members to pay more attention not to let the patient get too excited and not to scare him.

Xia Xun staggered as if she had collapsed when she heard this, and leaned against the wall of the hospital to breathe a sigh of relief.

"It's all right now," Zuo Yi said.

"I don't even dare to think about what I would do if my father just disappeared." Xia Xun squatted down and said in an uncontrollable cry. After hearing that Xia Xu was safe, she could finally cry with confidence.

Zuo Yi was silent for a long time, and finally whispered: "Then I'm leaving."

Xia Xun immediately raised her head, wiped away her tears and said, "Why...you..."

"Anyway, he's fine." Zuo Yi forced a smile, "You know, I don't want to see him too much, you go to the ward, I should go home, I have to go to class tomorrow."

"Then I'll see you off." Xia Xun said.

"No, it's the same if I take a taxi. Let's go, bye." Zuo Yi said as he stepped back, and finally turned around and ran, disappearing in the corridor of the hospital.

He was stopped by a man at the hospital gate, and the man opened the car door for him, "Master nephew, this way please." Zuo Yi turned around and saw Xia Xun standing by the window smiling and waving at him, and he also waved After a while, he got into the car and gave the address.

He went to the original home, because he hadn't been back for a long time, but he missed the furnishings here.

Zuo Yi turned on the lights, turned on the air conditioner to drive away the heat in the room, and then threw himself on the sofa exhaustedly, curling up together.Like more than 1000 nights a long time ago, I was alone in a corner of this house, and then I spent a long night.

He looked at everything in the silence, walked to the switch, turned on the light, turned off the light, turned on the light, turned off the light again, repeatedly, as if he wanted to paralyze the power supply system at home.He went back to the room, rummaged in the dark, opened the drawer, and found a lot of photos that he didn't take with him, almost all of which were smoked——

The appearance of leaning on the balcony with a shirtless body and smoking, the appearance of wearing an apron and carrying a steel knife, and the appearance of standing in front of the chopping board and chopping vegetables seriously, how much do you have a nostalgia for a person to be so eager to want the other person's entire life? Record everything as if not to miss any brand new look?

Zuo Yi sat on the floor, hugged his knees, and was in a daze for a while. He had already wanted to smoke since he was in the hospital just now, and wanted to hug him like a pervert like before, and clung to him. .

The phone vibrated, Zuo Yi stayed for a while, took it out and took a look, it was a text message from Xun: Are you still angry?If you get angry again, I will go to you, I can't bear it anymore.

Zuo Wing gave up, and there was an emotion in his chest that he didn't know whether it was anger or joy. In short, the waves were turbulent, and tears washed down immediately.He obviously never wanted to cry during the quarrel, but when he saw this text message but didn't know why, he couldn't control it instantly.

When a person can love and pamper you unwaveringly for a long time without dignity—he is so good—what else do you want?

Zuo Yi stood up, ran out of the bedroom like a gust of wind, slapped off the light in the living room, then slammed the door, and ran quickly under the night.

"Master nephew!" As soon as he ran outside the community, the man who had just sent him back called him from behind.

Zuo Yi wiped the sweat off his brow, looked at him strangely, "Why are you still here?"

"That's right, the president told me before that if you come here, let me keep guard." The man said.

"Whatever." Zuo Yi interrupted him, "Can you take me home?"

"Of course." The man opened the door for him.

Zuo Yi was about to burst into tears, and looked at him gratefully, otherwise he really didn't know how to go home at one or two o'clock in the morning.

When he got home, he waved to the driver and pushed open the door of the lobby. Zuo Yi trotted into the inner hall. As soon as he opened the door, he saw three people wrapped in blankets gathered around Doudizhu. When he opened the door, Tang Luo happened to yell. : "I explode!"

"You're back!" Kimiko looked at Lefty with an "I'm going to die" look.

Youyou also looked at the left wing without saying a word, pointed to the upstairs, and then made a gesture of wiping his neck, indicating that if you don't come back, the husband will kill you.

Tang Luo said: "Hey, go and coax that evil god, his murderous aura has spread to our bedroom, making me sleep full of nightmares."

"Sir is in the study." Kimiko added.

Zuo Yi nodded with a puffy bun face, and went up the stairs with a thud.

When he slapped open the door of the study room, he immediately smelled a faint smell of tobacco. Xun was leaning against the window to smoke, the sad look on his face made him look like a newly bankrupt entrepreneur, as if thinking Jump off the last stick.

"Why didn't you come after me!" Zuo Yi walked up to him and cursed outrightly.

Xun looked at him, held back the corners of her lips, and took a step back, "Why am I chasing you!"

Zuo Yi continued to beep and curse: "Don't you know how angry and distorted I was when I left! Even if I didn't jump into the river to die, according to my mental state at the time, I might have killed someone to vent my anger. ! Can’t you chase me over to see if I’m still alive!”

"Of course I do." Xun's long eyebrows finally stretched out, and he said softly, "Otherwise, I wouldn't see you bickering with a sissy in the park like a little lunatic."

Zuo Yi gritted his teeth, finally managed not to hold back, and took the lead to take a step forward and hugged Xun's waist, buried his face in his arms, and said softly, "I apologize to you, I'm sorry, it's my fault."

Xun stroked his hair, said with a light smile: "Okay, for the sake of throwing yourself into your arms, I forgive you."

"Don't you want to set an example to quit smoking? Why did you start smoking again?" Zuo Yi reached out and took the cigarette butt from his lips and threw it away.

Xun sat on the single sofa next to him, picked up Zuo Yi, put him on his lap, and hugged him tightly, "It's not like my wife ran away, and I feel anxious and worried."

Zuo Yi let out a stern bang, and pulled his face, "You told me to get lost! What if I lost my memory!"

Xun stroked his hair and said with a smile: "I won't let you go out and vent your anger. Even if I really kneel down on the keyboard tonight, you may not be able to let me hug you so obediently."

Zuo Yi was taken aback, he didn't expect Xun to think so deeply in a short quarrel, he thought Xun was just speaking in anger, but he didn't expect it to be intentional.He involuntarily leaned against Xun's neck, touching his face, "Huh, thank you for not being angry anymore, otherwise just a text message can't expect to coax me back. If I become hard-hearted, you will be counted among my friends." Swinging a knife from the palace in front of me, I don't even bother to look at you!"

"Why are you so cruel." Xun pinched his chin and kissed him gently.

There was still a clear smell of tobacco in his mouth, Zuo Yi put his arms around his neck, and when his lips parted, he said in a low voice: "That's right, only Wang Yi and Haoran can be ruthless."

Xun's back became stiff obviously, he stroked Zuo Wing's lips, his voice was hoarse, "You still mind."

Zuo Yi shook his head seriously. He held Xun's face and said seriously: "I went home a while ago, and when I saw the empty room, I suddenly understood that the person who has the least right to blame you is me. If there is no you, I would not have changed now, without you, I would still kill them in the near future. So, I feel sorry for losing my temper with you before."

Xun didn't speak, just hugged him tightly and rested his chin on his shoulder.

Zuo Yi rubbed his neck affectionately, and continued: "I know I'm naive, and I rarely compromise with you, because I know you will indulge me, but I can't blame me, it's all your bad temper, It’s like you’re feeding me all the delicious food and end up thinking I’m fat, how unfair to me, isn’t it?”

"When did I ever blame you?" Xun said softly, with a gentle voice as if coaxing a coquettish child.

"I haven't experienced the dark life you have gone through, but I can vaguely imagine... that kind of grass and trees are like soldiers - every time I go to bed and close my eyes, I worry about whether there is a black hole pointing at the muzzle of a gun in the dark. Myself, every time I eat, I have to wonder if I have been poisoned by someone, and I am terrified every day, and every minute I am telling myself that natural selection is the best thing to do. Just thinking about it makes me feel terrible, what have you experienced Even darker than the life I imagined, but you have been stuck in that kind of abyss for several years..." Zuo Wing's ending trembled, his heart throbbed uncontrollably, tears filled his eyes, he controlled Don't blink to prevent tears from dripping, "I should be more obedient, if I figured it out earlier, I wouldn't quarrel with you, hit me, and vent your anger."

Xun listened well at first, but then suddenly turned sharply downhill, which made him burst out laughing, "If you are not self-willed, I really don't know who to spoil."

"You're right." Zuo Yi wiped away his tears, and said with puffy face, "I really didn't even understand this crap."

"In just a few hours, your self-examination has been profound enough." Xun wiped away his tears.

Zuo Yi said: "You know that I have been to the hospital. When I saw Xia Xu lying on the hospital bed, I thought, what would I do if one day the person lying on the hospital bed was replaced by you. Are you right? Yes, although it’s a bit too much, but cutting grass and roots is only based on being responsible for one’s own life. People are selfish anyway, and you are not killing innocent people indiscriminately. I’m sorry, I was in a daze at the time, and I didn’t think of this level. "

"Don't blame me for killing Lin Haoran and Wang Yi now?" Xun asked him.

Zuo Yi took a deep breath, "They are living well now, you just killed your friends. At first I... didn't blame you, it was just inexplicable anger, I felt unbelievable..."

Xun was silent for a long time, loosened his left wing slightly, and looked at him seriously, "You don't need to put yourself in an equal position with me, I told you from the very beginning, just do what you want What, as long as you learn to think, of course it doesn’t matter if you continue to be self-willed. I will support you when the sky falls. I want you to live according to your own ideas in this life. You don’t need to obey any precepts. There are some things you don’t have to deliberately To understand, don't hate me no matter what happens, I can't take it anymore, your hatred will be the straw that breaks me."

"I understand." Zuo Yi nodded vigorously, then poked his chest and said, "You can't yell at me in the future! You can't tell me to get out!"

"Okay, I promise." Xun smiled.

The left wing stretched out the little finger, "pull the hook."

"Pull the hook." Xun also stretched out his little finger to hook his slender little finger, their fists were tilted, and their thumbs lightly tapped together.

Somewhere in the distance, there seemed to be a sound of bubbles breaking, and the imprisoned sweet smell diffused in the air again, and the left wing grabbed Xun's neck, and whispered: "Thank you for loving me."

Xun hugged him quietly, and Zuo Yi continued to say in a low voice, "If I hadn't met you, I might have imagined the direction of my life. In short, relatives leave as soon as they say, and many people come and go in my life." Back and forth, never thinking about my feelings, I may become difficult to accept other people because of this, I will not devote myself fully to a relationship, even if I am in a relationship with other people, the other party can betray me and say they love me-but You won't, and you never will."

"I can always thank you for this relationship and at the same time point at you and scold you two hundred and five, because you will never blame me. So I know I was wrong. Love is mutual giving, not one party's ignorant giving, or Asking, let alone the so-called you love me, I just happen to love you too."

"It's okay." Xun was surprised that Zuo Yi could say these words, but still kissed him lightly, and said in a low voice: "I'm happy to see you acting out of control."