Four male gods forced me to transform [Entertainment]

"It's... so difficult." Chi Ling's throat was dry.

"A woman who takes care of her child alone and supports her husband overseas to study and spend money. I know it's not her fault. Even so, it still makes people feel...disgusting."

The wedding dress was indeed a relic of her mother, a wedding dress she made for herself, but she never wore it once.

And Chi Dongnian... didn't even give her a wedding.

She thought she gave everything for a man, but betraying herself was just giving this man a reason to abandon her.

"After she passed away, Chi Dongnian picked me up to go abroad. I wasn't sad at all. I was very happy and couldn't wait."

"Then I met her, Merida Fergus, the head of the Fergus family and Chi Dongnian's remarriage."

Chi Ling spoke quietly, recalling the first time he saw Mrs. Fogg.

She was wearing the most popular long skirt and a ginger-yellow retro headscarf. She followed Chi Dongnian closely, stepped on the creaky stairs with ten centimeter high heels, and came to the attic where her mother had rented before her death. , the place where the husband's ex-wife and stepson lived together for several years.

She covered her mouth and nose and said that she was sick, not because she disliked the dirty attic, he believed it.

In other words, he had been fooled a long time ago, no matter what the woman said at the time, he would believe it.

Noble, dignified, magnanimous, kind, even if youth is gone, she is still beautiful enough.

This is what a mother should be like.He remembered thinking that.She is my mother, and should be my mother, not a whore.

"She liked me very much, held my face and called me baby, took me back to her manor, changed my nationality, place of birth, resume, and any information that did not match my face. She let me learn painting , music, dance, etiquette, sponsored me to study further, praised my intelligence more than once, and spared no effort to correct the bad habits passed down from my mother. I thought I had finally found my own home and returned to the place where I should be... ..."

Chi Ling closed his eyes.

"At the age of 15, she took me to her salon and attended the parties of rich wives. At first, she just accompanied them to sing, dance, and drink. When I became an adult, she asked me to spend the night with them..."

"I didn't want to, so she begged me, saying that there was no other way, the only way to save Fogg, and asked me to help her, I agreed."

"Then the second, the third, more and more, and let me accompany men..."

"I said I don't like men. She apologized to me, said she would take care of my feelings, turned her head and stunned me, put on that wedding dress, and sent me to that old man's bed..."

Red | Naked humiliation.

He finally noticed something was wrong... No, it should be said that he had already noticed something was wrong, but he was reluctant to part with the good life he had already obtained, and kept numbing himself with family lies. It was not until he saw his mother's relics that he finally woke up and was finally willing to face up to what he was doing. The identity in the eyes of the stepmother—a senior male prostitute who was born at the bottom, was deceived and kept in captivity, and traveled around the upper class with profound knowledge and outstanding appearance.

"Don't say it, don't say it, I don't want to know anymore." Bu Li covered his ears, never thought that the truth could be so heavy that he ignored the feelings of the confidant, and couldn't help shouting to stop without authorization.

Chi Ling didn't stop.

"I stabbed that man. They didn't dare to call the police, afraid that things would become serious, and they were afraid that I would talk nonsense, and told me that every transaction in the past had a photo certificate, which was enough to prove that I was voluntary..."

Volunteer?It is indeed voluntary.For the approval of the stepmother, for the continuation of the family, for the false harmony, he voluntarily sold himself, and forced himself to believe that he was not forced, but also enjoyed it.

"At the age of 25, I couldn't bear this kind of life anymore. I pretended to have a mental breakdown, was admitted to the hospital for treatment, lost my freedom, and was still under her surveillance."

"At the age of 27, I asked to be discharged from the hospital. In order to completely get rid of her, I promised her one last condition, and approached Si Qiu proactively when I returned home."

"She gave Si Qiu me as a gift for the truce, but she didn't know that Si Qiu was a clean freak, not to mention men and women, she couldn't even touch people, don't you think it's funny?"

An unimaginable experience, a calm statement, and finally ended with abrupt laughter.

It was the first time I saw him smile so ugly.

It's too ugly, too uncomfortable, and I don't want to watch it at all.

Bu Li covered Chi Ling's mouth, "It's not funny, it's not funny at all!"

—he has some not-so-good things about me.

--for example?

——Naked|Photo.

……

——Will Chi Yi come?

--meeting.

—Are you really afraid of him?

—I'm afraid.

……

—Fogg is having a hard time, but I am having a good time.It ruined me, and I'm going to ruin it.

He remembered him saying so.It turned out to be true.

He finally knew where his resentment was coming from.

If the memory made him so sad, he'd rather not know anything.

"I'm sorry, I was wrong. I shouldn't be curious, and I shouldn't blame you. I don't care, you can do anything, I, I forgive you!" Bu Li lifted the quilt and hugged Chi Ling, "You can't ...It can't be like this. It's their fault, don't blame yourself. No matter what, you have to take yourself seriously. There are so many people who like you, really, everyone likes you!"

Why the taciturn, why the stubborn, why the hysterical, why the bite.

Bu Li understood, he really understood.

He is for himself, not just for himself.

Compared with what happened to him, what are the grievances he suffered?

Acting like a child with a broken knee to someone who has lost his legs, that's too much!

Bu Li regretted it, regretted always being entangled with him to be honest about what was there and what was not, regretted that his unilateral withdrawal forced him to this point, if time could be turned back, if he could be compensated If it makes him feel better, then he is willing, he is willing to do anything.

The helpless confession did not play any consoling role.

Chi Ling narrowed his eyes, "There are still so many people who like me?"

"Yeah!" Bu Li looked anxious, turned Chi Ling's head to face him, "Look at me, look at me!"

Even if he has done so many excessive things, he still has no way to ignore him.

Even if he knew that he had such an unbearable past, even if everyone hated him and betrayed him because of this, he still liked him.

Bu Li wanted to say this, but before he could speak, Chi Ling pushed him away.

Yeah, with such a face, who doesn't like it?

"Fake, I lied to you." Chi Ling turned over, stuffed in bed, "Idiot."

"Uh, huh???" Bu Li fell to the floor, and the unexpected turn made him look like a fool.

"I'm sorry... I just had a bad dream, as if I lived two lifetimes..." Chi Ling's voice became lower and lower, as if he was sleepy.

"What, what?" Bu Li couldn't believe his ears.

"It was my previous life... No, it was fake, it was all fake... I was crazy, I was crazy." Chi Ling said inconsequentially.

Maybe he should follow Si Qiu's advice and see a psychiatrist.

Bu Li climbed onto the bed relentlessly, and pulled Chi Ling's shoulders hard, "No, tell me clearly! What last life?"

His forehead hit the head of the bed, involving the wound, Chi Ling let out a "hiss", and because of the fever, his chest and lungs were not smooth, and he began to cough.

If it was normal, Bu Li should have stopped and let the patient have a good rest, but the information of "the previous life" is too important to him, so he can only grab Chi Ling and chase after him.

"Yes, in the last life!" Chi Ling struggled to shake off Bu Li's restraint, and smiled ironically, "You pity me, so you forgive me. You think they did something sorry to me, so I should do whatever I do , are not wrong. But I tell you, none of that happened! I really experienced everything, but no one remembers!"

Bu Li was in a daze for a while, and then gradually regained his senses.He didn't know what to say, so he could only confess himself first, so as to ask Chi Ling for confirmation.

"Me too, me too! I also remember things from my previous life, me too!"

"what?"

Chi Ling froze for a moment, but quickly calmed down.

Oh, so again.

After Li Mi and Fang You, another person voluntarily approached Si Qiu because of the bizarre experience of rebirth.

He had persuaded himself more than once that this child was stupid and simple, but the facts before his eyes slapped him solidly once again.

It turned out that I guessed right.He's not simple at all, and he's just like them.And his approach to them was not as aimless as he said.

Chi Ling didn't understand what was going on.

Every one, every one.

Everyone came here for Si Qiu, but Si Qiu...he is just a scumbag.

"You're here for Si Qiu too, aren't you? You like him too." Chi Ling's tone became colder.

Bu Li was taken aback, "What? Si Qiu? Why should I like him?"

Chi Ling turned his head suspiciously, "Then you are sorry for him?"

Bu Li was even more strange, "Why did I feel sorry for him? How did I feel sorry for him?"

"Then you are..."

So are you here for me?

Chi Ling opened his mouth, his lips ready to move.He wanted to ask this question very much, and couldn't help but want to get an affirmative answer, but the next words mercilessly extinguished the expectation in his eyes.

"I don't know you. In my previous life, I didn't know you until I was reborn." Bu Li shook his head frankly, looking at Chi Ling intently, "I'm talking about our affairs, and it has nothing to do with others."

He didn't know them, not even in his previous life.

Chi Ling was stunned, "You said... us?"

Bu Li nodded, "Yes, it's about our rebirth."

Chi Ling had a strange expression on his face, but it wasn't pure displeasure.

He likes the word "we", not with Si Qiu, Li Mi, Fang You, but with Bu Li.

Life is long enough, but let him do it all over again.

He was tired of the days of revolving around Si Qiu, and even more tired of the days of everyone revolving around Si Qiu.

The unchanging trajectory made him feel that this life might be like this, and at the same time he was looking forward to the unexpected arrival.

Very contradictory.

One year, two years, five years, ten years, the accident will not come.

But here he is.

Chi Ling looked at Bu Li.

This was an accident, an accident that no one expected.

For the first time, his eyes stayed on himself, not on Si Qiu.

This may be the reason why I had to have him in the first place.

"Then you haven't encountered those bad things in your life, have you?" Bu Li asked.

His natural rough nerves meant that he would not think too much even if he had a brain. After thinking about it, this was almost the only thing that he felt important and cared about.

Chi Ling shook his head, "No."

What he said was both true and not true.

The fact is that there was no time for everything to happen, and he made a choice according to his own wishes.He no longer worked for Merida Fergus and Fergus, but for himself.That's why we can have CeMontagne and the original CM.

He concealed part of it, after all, concealment is not a lie.

"That's great!" Bu Li was very happy, happy that Chi Ling had escaped the misfortune.

It was obviously none of his business, but his face was filled with the joy of surviving after the catastrophe.

Even if he has experienced such a complicated thing as rebirth, even if the situation in this life is still not optimistic, it does not prevent him from being happy for the slightest good thing.

But Chi Ling disagreed.

"Okay? You think it's good?" Chi Ling propped up his upper body, his chest heaving with anger, "Because nothing happened in this life, so everything in the past can be written off?!"

"No, of course not!" Bu Li shook his head, thinking about how to explain it properly, but one problem was not solved, and the next problem came one after another.

"Then tell me, should Fogg disappear in this life." Chi Ling was still angry, and seemed to be asking, but his tone was very certain.

But Bu Li heard hesitation from it.

Bu Li understood Chi Ling's hesitation, because this was also a question he had pondered over and over again after his rebirth.

Who can prove that the "previous life" that only exists in one's own memory must have happened?For example, Gu Yiwei in this life, now that he has not had time to do anything bad, is he still a bad person?If I retaliate against him because of what happened in my previous life, is it right or wrong?

Bu Li had thought about this question more than once, but fortunately he had a simple mind and had an answer early in the morning.

At least earlier than Chi Ling who is still entangled with the past.

"There is nothing you should or should not do." Bu Li smiled, "If you can feel better if you let them go, then let them go. If you are not happy, let them die."

Chi Ling let out a "huh", "So simple?"

"It's that simple." Bu Li said seriously, "They are bad people, don't let bad people occupy your life. Everyone has only one life, even if we steal an extra life, there is no guarantee that there will be another life. You are not a bad person, you deserve it Happy. I was very unhappy in my previous life. If I was unhappy in two lifetimes, wouldn’t it be too miserable? So you should put yourself first, and you should not take yourself seriously, except for these two things , nothing else matters, there is nothing that should or should not happen.”

"Is that so...?" Chi Ling murmured hesitantly.

He thought about giving up and starting a new life, but the nightmare was always with him, and didn't disappear with the relief of the hypocrisy.

Looking into it, it's not necessarily something that can make myself feel better.

No one has ever told him that he can put his own feelings first, and that he is the most important, as long as he is happy.

Chi Ling glanced at Bu Li, probably only a fool would judge a person by "good guy" and "bad guy".

He is indeed a fool, and his brain circuit is so simple that it makes people laugh.

Chi Ling breathed a sigh of relief, and suddenly felt very tired, too tired to think about the right and wrong of this fallacy, he didn't want to easily admit defeat to a fool.

The fool is still insisting on his fallacy, "Yes, listen to me, I am the same as you."

Chi Ling slid into bed, resisting sleepiness, "Are you the same as me? Is someone sorry for you?"

Bu Li was stunned for a long time before admitting, "...Yes."

"What happened……"

Thinking of Gu Yiwei, Bu Li shook his head, "Forget it, there is nothing to say."

"Then who are you sorry for..."

"I..." Bu Li took a deep breath, "I'm sorry for my parents, I'm sorry for my sister."

"Why?" Chi Ling's voice was muffled, probably because the effect of the medicine hadn't faded, and he was getting more and more sleepy.

Bu Li didn't want to recall, and it was even more difficult for him to say it himself.But he wants to say.

Bu Li felt that after this night, everything became different.

He and Chi Ling are no longer the simple employment relationship that he wants to return to, nor is it the friendship relationship that he once expected.

They are indeed not from the same world, no matter how close they are, they can touch each other as soon as they reach out, but their identities and status are always very different.

But it's different now.The same absurd experience brought them very close.

They share the same secret, and no third person will have this secret, and no third person will understand it.

They are no longer passers-by in each other's lives, nor can they become each other's passers-by.

And after he heard his secret, he should also tell him his own, otherwise it would be unfair.

"I want to be famous, I want to make a movie, I want to make a big production, I want to be a big star, but I can't get a movie..." Bu Li lowered his head, fingers on the bed sheet, "A director approached my dad and said that he was preparing to shoot a new movie. He wanted me to be the male lead in a drama, but he was short of funds. He wanted my dad to help out. My dad believed him, sold the store, and gave all the money to that person. In the end, that person was a liar... He also cheated, Lied to my dad, lied to my dad to borrow money to buy their financial management, and then the money owed more and more, my dad couldn't bear it, so he jumped off the building... My sister was stimulated to have a miscarriage, miscarriage and bleeding, and couldn't be saved...My mother Gas poisoning, also, also...the police said it was an accident..."

Bu Li couldn't go on.

He will always remember that day, when he went to the company to ask Gu Yiwei to borrow 2000 yuan, but he couldn't find him, but he received a call from Uncle Ge, saying that his mother was gone, and asked him to go back quickly.

He asked a dozen times in a row, was it an accident?Yeah?Was it really an accident?

Uncle Ge told him over and over again that it was an accident, really an accident, not suicide.

Uncle Ge is a policeman in their area, and he grew up watching him.

Knowing that Uncle Ge had good intentions, he deliberately described the suicide as an accident, thinking that it would make him feel better.

But not at all, really not at all.

"So...that's it..."

"Ah."

"So you don't want...don't want to enter the entertainment industry..."

"Ah."

Bu Li's nose was sore, and he tried to control the choking sound.

"I'm sorry, I don't know, I'm sorry..." Chi Ling touched Bu Li's hand and held it, and although he was so sleepy that he couldn't open his eyes, he still stubbornly apologized, "I'm sorry, I really... really don't know ..."

Bu Li lay down, his head buried in the crook of his arms.

He couldn't say the words to forgive, not because of Chi Ling, but because he couldn't forgive himself.

"I'm so tired, I..." Chi Ling shook his head, forcing himself to wake up.He knew that he shouldn't fall asleep at this time, but he was so tired, there must be a sleeping ingredient in the fever-reducing needle.

"Go to sleep, I'm fine." Bu Li wiped his face carelessly, then shook his head, "It's really fine."

"No, not yet..." Chi Ling struggled to prop up his arms, and slid down again.

Bu Li bent down, picked up the fallen quilt for Chi Ling, and advised him in a nasal voice, "Go to sleep, I can talk about it tomorrow."

"Can?"

"Yes, go to sleep."

Chi Ling closed his eyes and fell into a deep sleep.

Bu Li leaned against the bed, covered his face tightly, and didn't move for a long time.

After an unknown amount of time, the person on the bed turned over again.

"Step away..."

"what."

"Tomorrow...are you still here..."

"exist."

"Can I wake up...can I see you..."

Chi Ling's voice was so low that he could barely hear him, and he stretched out one hand to touch the quilt.

Bu Li raised his hand and hooked Chi Ling's little finger, "Yes."

Bu Li leaned against the bed, trying to squint for a while, but his eyes were closed, but the more he squinted, the more awake he became.

He was sad, but also happy, more excited.

Bu Li knew what Chi Ling wanted to say.He was sure that Chi Ling was as sad and happy as he was, and there were countless things in his heart that he wanted to tell him, so excited that he refused to sleep.

Not only Chi Ling, he also has a lot of things that he wants to tell him, many secrets that he wants to share with the other party, about rebirth, about the previous life, I just want to share with him, and I can only share with him.

Unfortunately, the timing was wrong, and the person on the bed was still soundly asleep.

Bu Li carefully pulled out his fingers, stuffed Chi Ling's hand into the quilt and put it away, turned around and lay down beside the bed, silently looking at the person buried under the quilt with only the top of his head exposed, even if he couldn't see his face, he still thought it was pretty Extremely.

My mind was filled with all kinds of thoughts, Bu Li tilted his head, the more he looked, the faster his heart beat, just looked and looked, didn't wake people up, first his feet became numb.

Bu Li breathed a sigh of relief, changed his posture, and waited for his muscles to relax, so as not to disturb Chi Ling's rest, he planned to continue what he hadn't done before—steal two old clothes and change out his nightgown, then go downstairs for a walk twice , to resolve the restless emotions.

The day is getting brighter.

Stepping down the stairs, he found his mobile phone on the coffee table, it was out of battery and turned off.

Bu Li took out the charger under the coffee table and plugged it in to charge.

When I turned it on, I saw that it was terrible. The five missed calls were all from Guo Zhenhua, from twelve o'clock to two o'clock in the morning. Other than that, there was nothing on WeChat or text messages. I was obviously in a hurry. You have to call him personally.

Buli remembered that after the family doctor left last night, he sent a message to Guo Zhenhua, saying that Ada's car broke down, and the last bus was late, and she was too late to go home, so she might have to spend the night at the villa, and Guo Zhenhua gave a meaningful expression, saying nothing If you don't allow it, then you agree, why did you call him so many times later?Could it be that something happened at home?

The more Bu Li thought about it, the more wrong it became. It was still early, and the store should not be closed yet, so he called Guo Zhenhua directly.

The phone rang for a long time before it was connected, and Bu Li was in a state of fear, and only reluctantly put it down when he heard his mother's voice.

"Mom, are you okay? Why are you calling me? There are many people and busy at night, and the phone is dead, so I didn't answer it." Bu Li asked anxiously.

"No, nothing, what can be the matter." Guo Zhenhua's voice was strange.

Bu Li didn't think right, stared and asked: "Are you all right? I heard your voice is wrong, doesn't it look like you're all right?"

"Really not." Guo Zhenhua denied it.

Bu Li didn't believe it, and kept guessing, "Could it be a fall? I said that the tide has been going on these past two days, and the ground is slippery, so be careful! Hey, wait, I'll be right back!"

"Nonsense!" Guo Zhenhua scolded, thinking of something, and finally found an excuse, "Isn't the one who fell a big somersault your boss? Yes, I'm worried about your boss. I'll call you to see how you are doing. Yes, just This matter."

The author has something to say: Bu Li: We share the same secret, and no third person will have or understand this secret.

Li Mi & Fang You: Oh?

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读者“来来来打我啊”灌溉营养液+82020-03-3007:51:13

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