Invincible witch

For a moment, Findan's face seemed to be hit by some sharp dart or sharp arrow, showing a certain expression similar to unbearable pain.Although that expression was fleeting, it clearly fell into my eyes.My heart, which was bristling with spikes like a hedgehog just now because it was full of frustration, confusion and anxiety, suddenly softened for no reason.But what followed was some gray and lost emotions, which occupied my heart before I wanted to suppress it deliberately.

How to tell him, I don't want to argue with him, my words are so harsh, just because I am too disappointed, too hurt, too frustrated?

How should I tell him, when I aspired to become Luna—becoming the real me—what I dreamed was that one day I could stand beside him openly, looking up at his face all the time. Eternal stern face, holding his hand tightly, never letting go?

How could I tell him that when the peace of my dreams came at last, I found myself abandoned by it?

How can I tell him that I am frustrated because I thought I sacrificed and gave a lot for these people, but now I find that all my efforts have been quickly forgotten by them, leaving only the A small question that cannot withstand scrutiny, blown up like a balloon by someone with a heart, expanding infinitely, and finally turning into a trap, as if to drown me?

He is so prosperous, so smooth sailing, so fair and upright, so loved... He probably never received any real doubts from anyone——Leelag those who tried to provoke his anger Deliberate half-truths and half-false provocations don’t count—he couldn’t understand the despair that I fell from heaven to hell overnight, and this time I couldn’t even find a way to turn over, and couldn’t find a reason to explain it.

I sacrificed everything I had, desperate to stay in this world of 0s and 1s, and get the happiness I never had.But now I find that what I thought was so naive.I got a heart from the man I love, but I still can't stand in this world openly.I just changed my skin, and my original heart has not changed, but I can't get the previous approval from the crowd I am familiar with.I gave all the hard work I could for them, thinking I'd get the same in return.But all I got was wary scrutiny and whispered malice.I used to be their hero, but now I'm a nuisance they avoid.They even thought I was going to lead them into the abyss—something that even I, as a demon, would never do? !

Weak tears floated up my eyes blankly.

I stared at the face of the stern, old-fashioned green muscular man in front of me, and my eyes slid over his blond hair shining brightly in the sun, his pointed ears, his muscular body, and a line of ancient elf words "You are me" "faith" arm, that smooth and firm chest exposed from the half-open vest, that big leaf cloak that is always so windy...

Fandan, they think, without Delelle's voluptuous red-haired, pointy-eared body, I'm not good enough for you.It's ridiculous, they actually use a skin as the standard for judging me... If they know that this skin is the one I've replaced most frequently over the years, what will they think?

What they don't know is that the "Queen of the Bees" Delelle of the Iroland Kingdom, the shadow matriarch Ilaya of Yige Chiwo, the demon lord "The Temptress" Jezebes of Sheogh, and the Duchess of the Falcon Duchy Maeve... used to be all my vest, my avatar, the part I played.The current Luna is the real me.The funny thing is, when I really got back to my original self, they didn't need this me anymore.It wasn't so much who they wanted as me, but the image I represented.

I stared at his exasperated, confused face and smiled suddenly.

"Haven't you agreed on the time and place for signing the peace treaty?" I changed the subject and asked.

Findan seemed to be very uncomfortable with the sudden jump of the topic, but he still coughed lightly, and answered me seriously: "It's almost time to reach an agreement... We agreed to hold the last meeting in Den Lard's chamber tomorrow. Consultative meeting, and then the time and place for the formal signing of the peace treaty can be selected."

I said "oh", nodded, and said very casually: "Then, I will also attend this meeting tomorrow."

"Are you going?!" Fan Dan looked very surprised, his blue eyes slightly widened, and he carefully looked back and forth on my face a few times.Then, a very inconspicuous uneasy expression appeared on his face, and his tone became a little difficult.

"You... you have to know, you have never attended the meetings these days..."

"Of course I know." I smiled at him calmly and replied, "I also know that the atmosphere of the recent meeting is not very friendly-but I have already decided that I must go tomorrow."

Fan Dan stared at me, just like he stared at the me on Longwu Island who firmly said that he would give up Delelle's body and return to his true self; his expression clearly showed his guess I'm going to do something wrong at tomorrow's meeting, but he has no reason to stop me, so I feel a little powerless and uneasy.His face suddenly became serious, and he said in a warning tone: "That will not be a very pleasant experience-even if you want to go?!"

I blinked, and heard a little concern and tension in his tone, so I grinned, and the faint water in my eyes disappeared without a trace for some reason.

"Of course. I've never been afraid to take responsibility for my own decisions." I said calmly. For a moment, it seemed as if I had returned to the top of the Giledan Council Building a long, long time ago. It seems that the great hero who is always strict, rigid and emotionless, said to me in a quiet and natural tone: the two of us go together, so we don’t have to be afraid of anything.

What else did he say to me at that time?

——He said: Look at the rising sun... No matter how many dark, ugly, bloody and bloody things happen in this world, only this round of rising sun will not be affected by any influence, and it will still rise on the eastern horizon every morning...

As I thought about it, I felt that my restless heart had finally calmed down slowly.

I am already an adult.I must be responsible for the decision I have made, no matter what path this decision will lead me to, no matter how difficult or painful it will be waiting for me ahead of this decision.

Isn’t there a song that is sung like that, when I am different from the world, then make me different.The most beautiful wish must be the craziest. Whether the next stop is heaven, even if you are disappointed, you can’t despair; the direction against the wind is more suitable for flying. I am not afraid of thousands of people blocking me, I am only afraid of surrendering——

I looked deeply at Fandan.In his face, I saw my own courage.

The song also said that my stubbornness is very kind, the dirtier my hands are, the brighter my eyes are; you don’t care about my past, you saw my wings, you said that the phoenix can only appear after being burned... I am myself God, where I live!

I took a deep breath, held it, and then exhaled slowly.I felt a surge of the greatest courage refill my breast.I have to persevere in order to get what I most want.Those malice and doubts are just thorns on the road to my pursuit of happiness, and I can move forward with my head held high and stride over them.

"I know what I'm about to face, Fandan." I stared at his blue eyes with a touch of worry, and didn't rush up to hold his hand as before to gain encouragement and strength.But I'm pretty sure I'm going to fight the most important, hardest war I've ever fought, and I can't lose it, and I never can lose it.

"Didn't you say that if the two of us go together, we don't have to be afraid of anything." Facing Fandan's anxious and confused eyes, I said loudly, "I have always thought so. Because of this sentence, I am To be able to never regret every decision I made."

Fan Dan stood in front of me, listening to my declaration quietly; suddenly, a very bright light flashed through the depths of his eyes.He nodded slightly, did not respond to me, and did not try to persuade me not to face the difficulties and dangers that were coming, so he turned and walked towards the gate.

I didn't catch up, and stood there watching him stride to the door.The scorching afternoon sun swept down obliquely, and many dazzling spots of light danced on his straight blond hair.

At the door, he stopped again, seemingly hesitating, but he didn't look back.

Looking at his back, I suddenly felt a sense of foolishness, and shouted at him: "Fantan!"

Fandan's back seemed to be shaken, and he paused for a moment before turning his head slowly.He stood in the shadow by the door, his face half-lit, making it difficult to see clearly.

The words I wanted to say had already reached my lips, but suddenly disappeared.I think I don't need to say anything more.

I smiled, formed a circle with my hands, put it around my mouth, and shouted: "...Thank you!"

I think I should thank him.Thank you for always being strict and lenient with me.Thank you that although he insisted on principles with me, he also opened up to me.Thank you for choosing to believe in me no matter what happened.Thank you for standing behind me and giving me the courage to keep going.Thank you for letting me stick to my heart and let me know how to be flexible.Thank you for not really letting go of my hand even when I was on the opposite side of him, even when I was a demon.

I think I will always remember, in the abandoned sage's house outside the city of Harlis, when Raelag planned to follow the order of Malassa, the dragon of darkness, to kill me, a demon pretending to be her follower , the door of the room was kicked open suddenly; and the uninvited guest who interrupted my death process, endured Leilage's sneer at him, endured my unreasonable request that I deliberately appointed him to kill me in order to save my life, endured The guilt that everything he did ran counter to his beliefs and principles saved me, a complete demon, from Leilag's hands—and that person was Fandan.

He had great beliefs, but in the end it dawned on me that, whether he admitted it or not, he actually put me above his beliefs.He had countless chances to kill me, the demon, and he didn't even have to do it, he just stood by and stood by while others were yelling at me; but he didn't.He has been trying to find a path that can be compromised rather than extreme between my demon status and his righteous beliefs.I am the only one who made him, a great hero famous in the world of Ashan, do such a weak thing.

I think I should thank him for the love he gave me.Thank you for loving all my faces, all my aspects, trusting my heart, and loving my soul.

...But he obviously didn't understand my deep meaning.

Although I couldn't see the expression on his face clearly from a distance, I could still see that Findan's brows were deeply wrinkled.He glanced at me, didn't say anything, even tossed his big cloak of leaves, and walked away aggressively!

...I think he must have misunderstood something.

Maybe he thought that I was going to break up with him because I succumbed to the pressure of the turbulent public opinion, so I sent him a good person card so solemnly.

…Maybe he thought he was busy with resolving conflicts between the two parties and heated discussions these days, so I was confused by Rutger's charming demeanor and closeness to water.Maybe he thinks that Rutger and I are of the same ethnic group now, and probably have a more common language—but I haven’t forgotten how cold and indifferent he looked at Rutger in the dark prison of the undead. Strict, it was as if he was looking at a disappointing subordinate instead of a citizen of a neighboring country.

I stared at the empty doorway, and then slowly turned my eyes back to the flowers and plants in the courtyard that the hard-working gardener I hired had taken good care of them.

Irollan also has such lush vegetation and gorgeous flowers.In fact, the whole kingdom of the elves is like a huge garden.No wonder Raelag always called those elf rangers "Wizards of the Wall" with a bit of sarcasm, or always asked the elves on the opposite side if they just came from the flower garden.

There is no place for me in that garden now.

But I can always make them understand that no matter as Delelle, or Luna, or even Jezebeth, I will never accept failure and BE.

So tomorrow I'm going to fight for my HE.

The author has something to say: June 8:

Wow haha ​​I exploded RP~~

Continue in two days~~