man who will not refuse

The bad one is myself.

The really despicable and selfish one is yourself.

Qi Shuqing didn't lie, but he didn't tell the truth either.

It was Li Zhi who called, and he was indeed talking about Zhang Quanqing's birthday.But what made him decide to go was the last sentence Fang Xian told him when he answered the phone [Shuqing, you must come. 】

He knew what he was expecting, and even though he knew it was impossible, he still expected it.

Even with some shame, I put on my best suit that day, trying to look as presentable as possible.

However, at the banquet that day, Fang Xian brought his wife.

Fang Xian was very affectionate with that woman, and there was nothing wrong with that, but he felt that this kind of self was superfluous, so he could only stand by and giggle.

Then, Fang Xian introduced his wife's friend to him. Qi Shuqing didn't care at first, but later Li Zhi pointed out his stupid self.

[What do you think of that woman? 】

[Fang Xian thinks of you all the time, that woman's education and appearance are really no one else. 】

In their eyes, how desolate is he?

How did Fang Xian see himself, and why did he introduce women to him?

Maybe Fang Xian just has good intentions, maybe it's not as complicated as he thought.

But I still couldn't help feeling angry, embarrassed, wronged.

Why do I always learn badly?Fang Xian didn't have that kind of affection for him, didn't he already understand this when he was 17 years old?Even though he hugged himself like that, he only said sorry in the end.

I think it's ridiculous to be like this, and I can't stay there any longer.

He came out early on the excuse that he was not feeling well. At that moment, he really wanted to see Cheng Xian, wanted to be hugged by that young man, and wanted to prove that he was also needed.

I called Cheng Xian, pretending not to understand the embarrassment in his voice, and just said willfully that I wanted to meet.

After meeting, he held Cheng Xian's hand impulsively in the car. The young man's low body temperature made him feel at ease.

If possible, he wants to like this man.

He doesn't want to be entangled with the past anymore, he is already 35 years old, is it possible for him to be in love with anyone in this life?

When he wanted to kiss a young man regardless of the occasion, a girl knocked on the car window.

[Cheng Xian, your speech. 】

She is a very beautiful girl with the childishness of a student on her face.

[Thank you] Cheng Xian said apologetically [I'm really sorry, I'm in a hurry, I'll treat you to dinner next time. 】

[It's okay, I didn't help much. 】

Qi Shuqing finally calmed down while Cheng Xian was chatting with the girl.

What are you doing here?

Wan Chen said that Cheng Xian had a girlfriend.

Yes, Cheng Xian is different from him, Cheng Xian can like the opposite sex, Cheng Xian is only 20 years old. . . .

Why did I dare to delay such a young Cheng Xian?

The cowardly, mean, selfish one, always being himself.

He always used his reluctance as an excuse, and condemned Cheng Xian as a victim with peace of mind.It was Cheng Xian who took the initiative, and he just couldn't resist it. In this relationship, he was not at fault.

However, if you are really unwilling, you can directly refuse. Cheng Xian is not the kind of child who would threaten him with such a thing. In fact, he understood this very early on.

But he has always accepted Cheng Xian's kindness, and because he is lonely, he has continued this relationship with Cheng Xian, and even felt lucky because the other party was young and handsome.

Because I don't want to be alone, I accept Cheng Xian's hug, and because I'm afraid of being lonely, I don't take the initiative to shake off Cheng Xian's hand.

It was he who took advantage of Cheng Xian, but still pretended to be a weak person in his heart.

The heat on his body completely receded, and he didn't even dare to look at Cheng Xian's face.

【Teacher, what's wrong with you?I have a bad face]

Qi Shuqing shook his head and withdrew his hand.

The young man seemed to have misunderstood it, and explained [Bai Ping is just an ordinary classmate, she has good grades, I just ask her for some English questions.We really have nothing. 】

After returning home, with the thought of wanting to determine something, I followed Cheng to do it first.

The body temperature never came up, even though he knew that Cheng Xian was hugging him now, he was still a little annoyed because of Fang Xian's behavior today.

He wanted to fall in love with this young man, even if it was only for a moment, even if the young man would leave him in the end, he wanted to fall in love with Cheng Xian.

At least once, wishing I had hugged someone, or been hugged, out of love.

However, he can't.

He couldn't feel love for this young man, and everything but this behavior troubled him.

Dealing with Cheng Xian made him feel very tired. He didn't remember Cheng Xian's birthday, and even if he remembered, he didn't want to celebrate him. He was basically not interested in what Cheng Xian said, and he didn't want to share with Cheng Xian what he was interested in.

Without that need, I would hardly think of Cheng Xian.

After physical satisfaction, what follows is often an indescribable emptiness in the heart.

I don't want to continue this kind of relationship anymore, I don't want to use Cheng Xian anymore, and I don't want to see myself like this worthless anymore.

[Cheng Xian, let's break up. 】