you are my maltose

Sure enough, Fan Xiangyang didn't lie to him. After Ji Nan woke up, Ji Mingtao and Ji's mother were no longer there, and even after a long period of time, he never saw this disgusting couple again.

The impulsive kiss that day was attributed to a mistake by Fan Xiangyang. Some mistakes can be made once, but they must not be made a second time.Fan Xiangyang thought over and over, what went wrong that caused him to make such absurd actions.Although the kiss Ji Nan didn't resist, and even had the meaning of pandering, it couldn't be an excuse to be forgiven.

In the final analysis, it was because Ji Nan stayed with him for so long that he was locked in the cage before he saw the outside world.Fan Xiangyang realized that sending Jinan to school had become an urgent decision, and perhaps keeping a distance would benefit both him and Jinan.

Ji Nan felt that Fan Xiangyang was intentionally alienating him recently. In the past, Fan Xiangyang would hold him in his arms at any time, but now he would only touch his head at most. Such an unconscious distance from him undoubtedly made him uncomfortable.

After dinner, Fan Xiangyang went straight into the study room, called the principal of Epsom College to make an appointment to meet, and communicated with Ji Nan's basic situation by the way. He hoped that the teacher in charge of the class could take good care of Ji Nan.

dong dong dong.

At this time, the person who knocked on the door didn't need to guess who it was. The corners of Fan Xiangyang's lips curled up unconsciously, "It's Nan Nan, right? Come in."

Ji Nan gently pushed the door open, poked half of his head in, "Dad..."

"Come here, I have something to tell you." Every time he saw Ji Nan, Fan Xiangyang's heart would soften involuntarily. This child has a natural urge to be protected.

Before eating, Fan Xiangyang said that he wanted to tell him something, and asked him to come to the study after taking a shower.Ji Nan bit his lower lip lightly, and fiddled with his thin white fingers nervously, he couldn't guess what Fan Xiangyang wanted to tell him for a while.

"Why are you so nervous?" Fan Xiangyang was amused by Jin Nan's nervous appearance, and he gently took Jin Nan's hand, "I won't sell you again."

Although it was just a joke, Ji Nan couldn't help turning slightly pale, and even his breathing became short of breath.

"Am I kidding, did I scare you?" Fan Xiangyang rubbed Ji Nan's cold hands, "It's Dad's fault, I apologize to you."

Ji Nan's pale face eased a little because of Fan Xiangyang's comfort, but the tension in his heart did not lessen. After all, Fan Xiangyang seldom talked to him in such a serious manner.

"Tomorrow I want to take you to see the school."

Fan Xiangyang's erroneous words and sentences seemed to be cautious, but his tone contained no refusal, as if the decision to send Ji Nan to school was a firm matter, even if he refused, there was no room for maneuver.

Ji Nan lowered his head and didn't speak.

"If you like it, I will arrange for you to enter the school immediately."

Ji Nan glanced at Fan Xiangyang, and took those cold hands away from his warm palms without saying a word, "Then what if I don't like it?"

This kind of rhetorical question was unexpected by Fan Xiangyang. He has always believed that Jinan is a well-behaved and obedient child, and he will unconditionally agree to his request, but he also forgot the original promise. He made a promise to Jinan, As long as Ji Nan doesn't like something, no one can force him.

"Nannan, listen to me."

Just as Fan Xiangyang stretched out his hand, Ji Nan stepped back a few steps.

"You can make a lot of friends at school and you'll love it."

It's not that Ji Nan doesn't want to go to school, it's just that Fan Xiangyang has been carefully avoiding him in recent days, and today he told him with such an irresistible attitude that he wants to send him to school. The man who protects him will abandon him just like his mother.

This was the first time Fan Xiangyang saw Ji Nan looking at him with such a resisting attitude. Those eyes, which were always full of trust, were intertwined with all kinds of incredible emotions at this moment, including disappointment, sadness... and heartbreak.

Fan Xiangyang is not a smooth-tongued person, especially facing Ji Nan like this, it makes him mess up his hands and feet.

There is no denying that there is selfishness in sending Ji Nan to school, Fan Xiangyang wants to keep an overly close distance with Jinan.These days, he repeatedly thought of what Xiao Mo had said to him. Jin Nan regarded him as the only spiritual sustenance and the last straw, but he still naively didn't care, thinking that Xiao Mo was just exaggerating, even confidence. Full of thought that he could accompany Ji Nan for the rest of his life.

It wasn't until that kiss that Fan Xiangyang really realized that maybe he and Ji Nan didn't want the same thing at all.Ji Nan is still so young, no one is qualified to make decisions for him, let him choose to succumb to the status quo and live.

"you're lying."

Ji Nan raised his head tremblingly, his voice trembling unconsciously, "You don't want me anymore..."

"I do not have!"

"You have!"

Unprecedented sadness erupted from Ji Nan's thin body, he obviously didn't want to be with him, why did he pretend to care for him?

"Nannan, what's the matter with you?"

Every time Fan Xiangyang took a step closer, Ji Nan would take a step back.

"Don't come here..."

Until Ji Nan was forced to have nowhere to retreat, Fan Xiangyang confined him in his arms, but the person in his arms suddenly cried heartbreakingly, "Don't leave me...you don't like me clinging to you, I I will never cling to you again...but don't send me away, don't send me away..."

A child's heart is the most sensitive, especially Ji Nan, who once lived under the fence and learned how to read words and expressions at a young age. Fan Xiangyang's actions that he thought were flawless were easily seen through by the other party.

"Nannan, don't cry."

Ji Nan's tears were like the most lethal weapon, not dripping with blood, but it really made Fan Xiangyang's heart full of holes in an instant.The person in his arms was crying and trembling all over, his hands tightly wrapped around Fan Xiangyang's neck, as if he was afraid that he would be thrown away by the man in the next second.

Fan Xiangyang secretly sighed, his efforts could not match Ji Nan's tears after all, Jin Nan is still young, maybe when he grows up one day, he will understand that the person he is trying so hard to keep today is not his heart where to go.

The longer time passes, the more difficult it will be to let go. People are animals with emotions, and so is Fan Xiangyang.At the beginning, Fan Xiangyang reluctantly let Wen Yiran leave because he knew that he was not the white moonlight in Wen Yiran's heart, but if one day Ji Nan came to his senses, would he really be able to let him go so calmly?

Perhaps it was a wrong decision to adopt Ji Nan from the very beginning. If he hadn't adopted Ji Nan, he wouldn't have such complicated emotions now.Fan Xiangyang couldn't figure out what kind of feelings he had for Jin Nan. Xiao Mo said that Jin Nan relied too much on him, but why didn't he rely on Jin Nan?

Jin Nan's innocence recalled Fan Xiangyang's enthusiasm for life, and Wen Yiran's departure made him want to die, but Jin Nan fell from the sky at such an appropriate time, as if they were destined to meet each other.

Fan Xiangyang pulled away Ji Nan's arm that was encircling him, and looked at that pitiful crying face, his heart ached, he couldn't help but bowed his head and kissed those crying red eyes, and apologized softly, " I'm sorry, Nannan."

"Dad, I don't want to go, don't drive me away..."

Ji Nan's soft sobs made Fan Xiangyang feel uncomfortable like scratching his heart and lungs. He gently hugged the person in his arms and pressed him against the wall, and kissed him lightly on his wet red lips, like a soft kiss. The breeze blows through my heart.

This kiss seemed to have a comforting effect, just as Fan Xiangyang was about to leave, Ji Nan unexpectedly put his arms around his neck, as if tempting, as if pleading, "Dad, kiss me again, like last time. "

"Nannan, do you know what that kiss means?"

"I know." Ji Nan stood on tiptoe and leaned forward, his moist red lips lightly brushed the corners of Fan Xiangyang's lips, "I like Dad, I really like it."

Liking has many meanings. Fan Xiangyang saw that Ji Nan's liking was pure. What Jin Nan liked was his kindness to him.

The author has something to say:

Is it sweet today?Am I a cookie?Do you want to praise me?