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Song Wenran drank too much, but he was not drunk.

Wen Wenyao asked Bai Yangyu to drive, and sent Song Wenran and Wen Wenqian back first.When getting off the car, Wen Wenyao asked Song Wenran, "Do I need to take you up?"

Song Wenran waved to him, "Hurry up and go."

Wen Wenyao said, "Is there really no need?"

Song Wenran nodded, "I can lift Wen Qian up with one left hand." As he spoke, he really wanted to lift Wen Qian up with one left hand.

Wen Wenyao quickly stopped him, "Don't make trouble, go back to sleep."

When Song Wenran and the others left, Bai Yangyu didn't rush to start the car, he asked Wen Wenyao, "Go back?"

Wen Wenyao pushed down the car window, propped his head on one hand, and said, "You have nothing to say to me?"

Bai Yangyu thought for a while, and said to Wen Wenyao while reaching out to put his hand in gear: "Teacher, let me take you to a place."

Wen Wenyao did not object.

It was not too late at that time, it was only past nine o'clock in the evening, the streets of the city were still brightly lit and busy with traffic, Bai Yangyu drove the car quietly all the way, he didn't tell Wen Wenyao where he was going, and Wen Wenyao didn't ask either.

Later, the car drove out of the city, and the traffic became smoother. I drove non-stop for half an hour and arrived at a small county town.

Bai Yangyu parked his car under an old building on the side of the street. He pressed down the window, pointed to the lit windows of a family on the third floor, and said, "I lived there with my mother when I was young."

Hearing this, Wen Wenyao poked his head to look.

Bai Yangyu said: "Until I was 12 years old, it was just me and my mother, and my grandpa didn't like us very much. I still remember that once I went to my grandpa's house with my mother, they had a quarrel, my mother was kicked out by my grandpa, and then my grandpa came over Grab my arm, push me out of the door, and slam the door shut."

Wen Wenyao stretched out his hand to fiddle with his hair, but a section of his hair just grew out, and it was all standing on top of his head. He said, "Your father is Bai Chong?"

Bai Yangyu nodded, "But I didn't know until I was 12 years old. My mother refused to tell my grandpa who my father was at the beginning, and she didn't tell the secret until she was dying on the hospital bed. When she passed away, I Grandpa took me to find Bai Chong and wanted to throw me out."

"Are you 12 years old?" Wen Wenyao raised his head, wondering how old Bai Chong was at that time.

Bai Yangyu answered his question, "At that time, Bai Chong was only in his early thirties, but he was already married and had a son."

"He never knew you existed?"

Bai Yangyu nodded, "It was my mother's wishful thinking. She knew that Bai Chong didn't like her and wouldn't be with her, but she still wanted me and gave birth to me."

Wen Wenyao thought quietly, if he were Bai Chong, he would be very distressed.Judging from the situation of Bai Chong's wife's natal family, Bai Chong probably didn't dare to recognize him as a son.

"Then he doesn't dare to recognize you?" Wen Wenyao asked.

Bai Yangyu frowned, and began to recall the first time he met Bai Chong. He found that he still remembered that day very clearly, and even remembered Bai Chong's unbelievable expression, but Bai Chong did not deny him outright.Compared to his grandfather who threw him roughly at Bai's house and then left, Bai Chong's attitude at that time was even mild.

Afterwards, the memory stayed on Bai Chong's wife Tang Manzhu. When Bai Yangyu saw Tang Manzhu for the first time, he just thought she was very beautiful, and she was accompanied by an equally beautiful Bai Ziqi. But after his grandfather left, Tang Manzhu started The quarrel with Bai Chong ended.

Then his memory was a little fuzzy, he remembered that he lived with Bai Chong for a period of time, but he didn't see Bai Chong during that time, but was with the nanny at home.He didn't know what Bai Chong was doing at the time, but after many years, he found out that Tang Manzhu died in a car accident, and Bai Chong went to deal with Tang Manzhu's funeral.

Many things happened to him when he was 12 years old. If Wen Wenyao asked Bai Chong if he didn't love him, he could definitely answer "No", but it wasn't that he didn't admit it. Bai Yangyu replied: "He didn't deny it, But it doesn't make much difference to me whether he recognizes it or not."

Bai Yangyu didn't follow Bai Chong, Bai Chong let him choose, he said he wanted to come back to the county to follow his uncle.My uncle and his mother have the best relationship. When my grandparents didn't want him when I was young, my uncle was still willing to tease him.So since he was 12 years old, he has been fostered at his uncle's house, and Bai Chong has paid for his living expenses and tuition every year until now.

Wen Wenyao sighed, and said, "Do you know that Bai Chong is my doctoral supervisor?"

Bai Yangyu nodded.

Wen Wenyao scratched his hair, feeling a little bored, he didn't know how to describe his current mood, if he had to sum it up, he would probably use one word: Fuck!

"Why didn't you tell me about your relationship with Bai Chong before? You said he was your uncle?" He asked Bai Yangyu.

Bai Yangyu said: "I just don't think it's necessary. Whether he's an uncle or a father, it's all the same to me."

Wen Wenyao looked at him, "So you were lying when you told Wen Ran that you didn't hate Bai Chong just now?"

Bai Yangyu shook his head, "I'm not lying. I really don't hate him. If I had to find someone to hate, I might hate my mother even more. She shouldn't have given birth to me, she is too selfish."

Wen Wenyao lowered his eyes, feeling a little uncomfortable.

"Actually, I later asked Bai Chong why he slept with my mother. Bai Chong said he did something wrong. I thought at the time that I might not be able to withstand the temptation if I were eighteen or nineteen years old, but I later I also think that an adult is always responsible for his own actions. If you are not sure whether you can bear this responsibility, then don’t act rashly. Regret is the most meaningless, and the so-called compensation, And it will never make up for the hurt others have suffered.”

Wen Wenyao was stunned after hearing Bai Yangyu's words.

He knew that Bai Yangyu's words were aimed at Bai Chong, but he was also the adult that Bai Yangyu said.In the relationship between him and Bai Yangyu, although Bai Yangyu is an adult, he is still just a student who has not yet left the campus and lacks love since childhood. He is his teacher, and his guidance to him has a great impact on his future life and work. Great effect.

When Bai Chong was self-indulgent, he had a Bai Yangyu that he couldn't face himself, and the difference between them was that neither he nor Bai Yangyu would get pregnant, but the result of his wrong behavior was not whether he would have a child. , but the impact on each other's life.

Who can take responsibility?

Since he chose to study medicine, the teacher he has always admired and admired can't afford such a big responsibility, so how can he afford it?What is the point of their indulgence now?

Wen Wenyao suddenly stretched out his hand and pushed open the car door. The air outside was bitter and cold. For a moment, it seemed as if a fine silver needle had been pierced into his pores, which made him shiver and his head ached slightly.He walked towards the back of the car, squatted on the side of the road and took out a cigarette. He lit the fire for himself, but he didn't know whether it was because he was afraid or too cold. Finally lit the cigarette, took a deep breath to let the smoke enter the lungs, the nicotine passed through the blood vessels and entered the blood, and then quickly traveled to the brain, making him in a trance instantly.

Bai Yangyu walked up to him and looked at him worriedly, "Teacher, what's wrong with you?"

Wen Wenyao raised his head and looked at Bai Yangyu through the smoke. He rarely looked at him so carefully now.I still remember the first time when I saw Bai Yangyu in his office, he thought that it would be a pity that such a good-looking young man would not become an idol. Looking at it now, he thought that after he graduated and started working in the hospital, he would not know what to do. How many little girls are provoked, just like his father Bai Chong.

"I'm fine," Wen Wenyao finally answered his question in a steady voice, "Let's go back after I finish smoking, it's too cold."

Bai Yangyu nodded, "Going back."

Bai Yangyu is very greedy for skin-to-skin contact, so he will always hug Wen Wenyao tightly after making out.

After he fell asleep, Wen Wenyao gently picked up his hand and put it aside, sat up in the dark, and silently put on his nightgown.Taking advantage of Bai Yangyu's deep sleep, Wen Wenyao packed all of Bai Yangyu's things in the house into a big box.

The next morning, Bai Yangyu woke up and saw Wen Wenyao sitting on the sofa in the living room and the big box in front of him. He froze for a while, rubbed his messy hair, and asked, "Teacher, are you going on a business trip?"

"It's all yours," Wen Wenyao said.

Bai Yangyu looked puzzled. He walked up to Wen Wenyao and asked strangely, "What is my thing?"

Wen Wenyao stood up and stretched out a hand towards him, "Give me back the key."

Bai Yangyu gradually became clear from his doubts. After he realized what Wen Wenyao meant, he turned around and wanted to run away.

Wen Wenyao grabbed him by the back of the collar, pushed him onto the sofa with his backhand, raised his knees to press down on his back, and said, "Give me back the key, and I will also return the house across the street. You go back to live on campus." .”

Bai Yangyu raised his head from the sofa with difficulty, and said, "Did I do something wrong?"

Wen Wenyao had already made up his mind, he didn't want to talk to Bai Yangyu, and he didn't want to shake his determination, so he just said impatiently: "I don't want to continue with you, you will move out for me today."

"Teacher..." Bai Yangyu struggled to remember, but Wen Wenyao pressed his knee on his waist, he was afraid that if he insisted on struggling, he would hurt Wen Wenyao.He simply relaxed and lay down on the sofa, and said, "Tell me what I did wrong, don't be angry, okay?"

Wen Wenyao saw that he was no longer struggling, so he let go of his hand, and said in a cold voice: "It doesn't matter if you don't return my key, I will find someone to change the lock later, you have to leave today, I don't want to see you appearing in my room again home."

Bai Yangyu sat up and looked at Wen Wenyao in a daze: "Why?"

Wen Wenyao said: "I said that we can play, but I won't be serious with you. Now I'm tired of playing, it's time to end."

Bai Yangyu said softly: "Is it because I am Bai Chong's son?"

Wen Wenyao replied casually: "Yes, if Dean Bai finds out about our relationship, do you think I can stay in the hospital? It's okay to play, don't play with your brain, do you understand?"

The corners of Bai Yangyu's eyes drooped, and he sat pitifully without speaking.

Wen Wenyao stared at him and suddenly felt uncomfortable. He sat down on the sofa next to him, faced him, and said in a calm voice: "Let's get together and break up, okay? I will still be your mentor in the future, and I will fight for two and a half years." Make friends, the previous things are over when they are over, and no one should stalk and make such an ugly scene, okay?"

When Bai Yangyu looked up at him, his eyes seemed to be a little red, "Okay," he finally nodded, took out a bunch of keys from his pocket, took off the one from Wen Wenyao's house, and dragged the suitcase outside go.

Wen Wenyao sat on the sofa without moving. He heard Bai Yangyu dragging the box back to the opposite house, and then there was no more movement.He stretched out his hand to hold his aching head, all he thought in his mind was to cut the mess with a sharp knife, the pain was nothing more than a pain, when the kid graduated and went to work, he should thank him for being so decisive today.

After get off work in the afternoon, Wen Wenyao invited some friends out for a drink.

He stayed in the bar until eleven or twelve o'clock before taking a taxi home alone.Alcohol paralyzes the brain, Wen Wenyao didn't remember that he drove Bai Yangyu away until he opened the door with the key and saw the darkness inside.

He stood at the door and didn't enter the house. He couldn't help but look back at the door opposite. The door was closed tightly, no light came out and no sound came out. He didn't know if Bai Yangyu was still living inside.

Stopping the random thoughts in his head, Wen Wenyao closed the door after returning.He went to the bathroom to urinate first, then went to the washbasin to brush his teeth, but found that the toothpaste could not be squeezed out after using the last bit.

"Potato!" After shouting, Wen Wenyao was stunned, his echo resounded in the empty room, but no one Bai Yangyu would agree to him, and then help him put on the new toothpaste.

Wen Wenyao closed his eyes and stretched his neck, threw the old toothpaste into the trash can, and started rummaging through boxes and cabinets trying to find the new toothpaste that Bai Yangyu bought in the supermarket two days ago.

In the next few days, Wen Wenyao did not see Bai Yangyu, and the door opposite was closed tightly at all times, without any movement.

Until one night when he came back very early, when he was heating the dinner he brought back in the microwave in the kitchen, he heard the sound of a key opening the door on the opposite side.Even though he felt that he was a bit worthless, he still walked to the entrance, leaned closer to the peephole and looked outside.

But he didn't see Bai Yangyu, there were three or four people standing in front of the opposite door, a young man in a suit opened the door with a key, and brought in all the people behind him, and it didn't matter if he opened the door afterwards.

Wen Wenyao stood there watching for a while, and realized that the man was an intermediary, and he should have brought someone to see the house.Then he smiled self-deprecatingly, left the hallway and went back to the kitchen to continue staring at his dinner.

Bai Yangyu moved back to the school dormitory.

The day he returned coincided with the time when the rest of the dorms had finished their final exams and were packing up to go home.Xu Dong was unwilling to communicate with him, only Wang Tao asked him strangely: "Aren't you going back for winter vacation?"

Bai Yangyu left the suitcase on the side of the bed and didn't pack it up. He nodded to Wang Tao and said, "I won't be going back for now."

Xu Dong gave a strange laugh when he heard the words, picked up his travel bag and greeted Wang Tao, "Let's go to the train station together."

Wang Tao also hurriedly pulled the box, and said to Bai Yangyu: "Then let's go first."

Bai Yangyu responded: "Okay."

After Xu Dong and Wang Tao had left, Bai Yangyu sat quietly for a while, and left the dormitory to have lunch after seeing that it was almost time.The cafeteria hadn't closed yet, but there weren't many people there. Xu Dong and the others had left quite late, and now the whole school suddenly became deserted.

There were a few windows left in the cafeteria, so Bai Yangyu walked around and didn't see the dish he wanted to eat, so he left the cafeteria and walked towards the outside of the school gate.

He wanted to go out to find something to eat, but when he passed in front of "Aftertaste", he found that the door was still open. Wen Wenhao sat in front of the cash register, saw Bai Yangyu outside, and greeted him.

Bai Yangyu stopped, saw Wen Wenhao coming out, and asked, "Isn't the door closed for holidays?"

Wen Wenhao said with a smile: "Wait another two days, I'm free anyway. What? Your final exams haven't ended yet?"

Bai Yangyu shook his head, before he had time to speak, he suddenly heard a horn sounding behind him.

The two of them turned their heads to look at the same time, and saw a black red flag car parked on the side of the street, with the rear window down, revealing Bai Chong's face.

Bai Chong said to Bai Yangyu: "Are you on vacation? Come home with me."

Wen Wenhao looked at Bai Yangyu with some doubts.

Bai Yangyu stood there silent for a long time, and when Wen Wenhao couldn't help but want to smooth things over, he said to Bai Chong: "Okay."