leaving marks

The first lover who broke up because of going abroad came back. Everyone felt that Wen Wenyao's heart should be overwhelming. Every time he stood with Jian Qinyue in the hospital, he would attract a lot of eyes and whispers.

And it seems that under the influence of the director, all the people in the department began to try their best to create opportunities for them to get along alone. After eating in the cafeteria at noon, when Jian Qinyue sat across from him with a plate, Liu Chong and the others would leave. Refusing to come from afar.

It seems that the whole world is matching him and Jian Qinyue, and only he, the client, is exhausted by it.

To Jian Qinyue, it was more like a thorn stuck in his throat. He always thought that the thorn was there, and he couldn't get it out no matter what, but he didn't expect to see the thorn all of a sudden. The thorn had been pulled out a long time ago, and what was left inside was just the scar of being stabbed, and that scar has been quietly healing up to now.

At noon that day, Wen Wenyao didn't want to go to the cafeteria to eat anymore, he stayed alone in the office and read a book. At 12:30, someone knocked on the door outside, and before he could speak, he opened the door and came in.

Jian Qinyue held a plastic bag with two lunch boxes in it and stood at the door, saying, "Why don't you go eat?"

Wen Wenyao originally had his legs resting on the desk and his body was leaning back, but now he had to put his legs down and sit up straight, saying, "I'm too lazy to move."

Jian Qinyue walked in, closed the door, and put the lunch box on Wen Wenyao's desk, "That's why I brought you lunch specially."

"Thank you," Wen Wenyao said.

He didn't want to be alone with Jian Qinyue, but as a man, he didn't want to be too petty.He could vaguely feel that Jian Qinyue was deliberately approaching him, but the other party was a very smart woman, she just approached quietly and was considerate from time to time, without any request beyond the limit.

Facing Jian Qinyue like this, Wen Wenyao had no way to refuse.

Jian Qinyue sat down opposite him, took out two lunch boxes from her pockets and spread them out, saying, "Let's eat first, what time is it?"

Wen Wenyao said, "I don't have much appetite."

Jian Qinyue said: "Eat a little if you don't have an appetite, or you will feel hungry and uncomfortable later. If you feel that you don't have an appetite facing me, then I will go out first." As she said, she put the lunch box and chopsticks on the table In front of Wen Wenyao, there was a gentle smile on his face.

Before Wen Wenyao opened his mouth to speak, he heard someone knock on his office door again. This time the knocker was not in a hurry to come in. He said, "Please come in."

The office door was slowly opened, and this time the person standing outside was Bai Yangyu.

Wen Wenyao had already reached out to pick up the chopsticks, but when he saw Bai Yangyu, he was stunned. He said, "Why are you here?"

Bai Yangyu didn't answer immediately, but looked at Jian Qinyue who was looking back at him.

Wen Wenyao suddenly realized that Bai Yangyu had seen Jian Qinyue's photo. He was a little flustered for a moment, inserted his chopsticks into the rice, stood up and asked again: "Is there something wrong?"

Bai Yangyu was still looking at Jian Qinyue, until Jian Qinyue frowned slightly, he turned his gaze to Wen Wenyao's face and said, "Teacher, I have a USB flash drive with recorded data in your place."

Wen Wenyao asked him, "Is it here or at my house?"

Bai Yangyu said: "I don't know, I want to find out."

Wen Wenyao could only say, "Come in."

He didn't know how to face Bai Yangyu, but he had to face Bai Yangyu. After all, he was still his student, and he had to take responsibility for him.

Bai Yangyu walked into Wen Wenyao's office, Jian Qinyue stood up and moved aside, and asked Wen Wenyao, "Wen Yao, is this your graduate student?"

"Well," Wen Wenyao replied, he watched Bai Yangyu go around the inside of the office, stood up and stepped aside, stared at Bai Yangyu and said, "My first student."

Jian Qinyue smiled and said, "Congratulations."

Wen Wenyao didn't respond. He saw Bai Yangyu squatting down to check the USB flash drive plugged into the computer, and said, "That's not it."

Jian Qinyue seemed to feel that it was inconvenient, she said, "I don't want to bother you anymore, remember to have lunch."

Wen Wenyao nodded, "Yes."

Jian Qinyue left his office, still closing the door gently.

Bai Yangyu stood up and rummaged through his messy desk, and said at the same time: "Teacher, is that your ex-girlfriend?"

Wen Wenyao said in a cold tone, "What's none of your business?"

Bai Yangyu helped him tidy up the table and said: "I heard from the senior sister in the laboratory that your ex-girlfriend came back and said that you plan to get back together."

Wen Wenyao was puzzled, he didn't know how these rumors spread, if someone asked him, he would definitely deny it, but the person who asked this question was Bai Yangyu, so he said: "Yes, she is back, we got back together. "

Bai Yangyu didn't stop what he was doing, he just fell silent, he cleaned up the table but couldn't find his USB flash drive, he said, "It doesn't seem to be here, maybe it's at your home."

Wen Wenyao said: "I'll go back to look for it at night." After finishing speaking, he stared at Bai Yangyu for a while, then changed his mind and said, "You can go back with me after get off work in the afternoon, I don't know where you missed something. "

Bai Yangyu raised his head and said, "Okay, I'll come and see you before you get off work."

When Wen Wenyao got off work that day, he drove Bai Yangyu home with him.

Bai Yangyu was extremely quiet. When he was sitting in Wen Wenyao's car, he didn't say a single unnecessary word.

His quietness made Wen Wenyao a little unbearable, so he asked him about the progress of the experiment.Bai Yangyu answered one by one, but was silent otherwise.

At home, after Wen Wenyao opened the door, he said to Bai Yangyu, "Find out where your USB drive is by yourself."

Then Bai Yangyu went to the study first.

Wen Wenyao was sitting on the sofa in the living room, using his mobile phone to check the nearby takeaways. Since they were all back, he didn't bother to go out, and planned to order a takeaway to deal with dinner.

After 2 minutes, Bai Yangyu came out from the study.

Wen Wenyao looked at his phone and asked him, "Did you find it?"

Bai Yangyu didn't answer, he walked to the single sofa opposite Wen Wenyao and sat down, saying, "Teacher, you don't live with your girlfriend."

Wen Wenyao raised his head and looked at him, "None of your business."

Bai Yangyu said: "You two lived together before, right? Now that you're so old, why didn't you get together earlier and waste time?"

Wen Wenyao got a little angry, he said: "Are you sick?"

Bai Yangyu lowered his eyes, "Tell me more, I'm so desperate."

When he said this, his voice was very soft, and it sounded pitiful at once. Wen Wenyao's original anger was extinguished, he didn't know what to say, and he began to try to reason with Bai Yangyu.

He said: "The things between me and her have nothing to do with the things between me and you. Have you ever been in love before?"

Bai Yangyu shook his head.

Wen Wenyao said: "I've talked about it before. At that time, I was in love with death. Now that it's been a few years, I don't think so. People's feelings will change. You are still so young, and you haven't even been out of school. What do you know about your future?"

Bai Yangyu looked at him: "Teacher, do you not believe me?"

"I don't believe in feelings," Wen Wenyao said, "Two people have been together for a long time, and the trivial matters will soon be worn out."

Bai Yangyu shook his head, "Not everyone is like this."

Wen Wenyao said: "But most people are like this."

Bai Yangyu suddenly felt a little powerless, "Don't you believe that some people can persist for a lifetime? Are you worried that your relationship will change, so you never accept starting with others?"

Wen Wenyao said to him: "Then I might as well choose a more stable one."

Bai Yangyu said, "Is that Doctor Jian?"

Wen Wenyao chose to lie, he said: "Yes."

Bai Yangyu stood up, "You think she is more stable, but you don't know that I love you more than her. If it were me back then, I would never have chosen to leave your side. I have not in the past and I will not in the future. "

"How long is the future?" Wen Wenyao asked him, "30 years old? 40 years old? You are very confident, but I don't believe you."

Bai Yangyu stared at him in a daze, and the feeling of powerlessness in the face of Wen Wenyao became heavier and heavier. No matter what he said or did, the other party just didn't believe him. He could stand here and swear to his 30 and 40 years old, but in Wen Wenyao's view, After all, he is not 30 or 40 years old, and the current swearing can never represent the future mood.

Wen Wenyao is afraid of unknown harm, because he has seen too much and experienced too much. He doesn't believe in feelings, so he is stingy and refuses to invest in them.

Does he like Bai Yangyu?Definitely like it.If you don't like a person, how can you let him live at home and sleep together every night.But he has been resisting to devote himself wholeheartedly, because if one day someone wants to withdraw from this relationship, he must be the first one, instead of being left in place trembling.

Jian Qinyue was already out of the game in his heart, having suffered a betrayal, how could he dare to invest in the same person a second time, and Bai Yangyu, he was restrained and entangled, but he still didn't fully hold the line of defense in his heart. The last straw on the shore, no matter what, he refuses to let go.

He had talked enough with Bai Yangyu tonight, he didn't want to continue talking.Sometimes the more you talk, the more mistakes you make, and the breakup should be straightforward. If two people insist on sitting down and analyzing their hearts carefully, they often can't help but hug each other in the end.

He said: "Have you found your USB flash drive? If you find it, go, if you can't find it, go find it."

Bai Yangyu said, "I found it."

Wen Wenyao stood up, pointed in the direction of the gate, "Go back quickly."

Bai Yangyu walked to the door and said to him: "Teacher, I will come back to you when I am 30 years old. If you are still alone, will you accept me?"

Wen Wenyao was taken aback when he heard the words, and said, "Why are you crazy?"

Bai Yangyu said: "When the time comes, you should trust me."

Wen Wenyao couldn't help but sneered, "If you come back then, we will continue to be together."

30 years old?I'm afraid he will forget about this relationship after a year, and there will be someone else by his side.

Valentine's Day comes soon after New Years.

This is not a special day for Wen Wenyao, but his birthday is one week after Valentine's Day. Whenever someone mentions Valentine's Day, his first thought is that he will be one year older again.

On the morning of Valentine’s Day, I went to work as usual. I had just finished the house inspection and everyone had not returned to the office. When they gathered in front of the nurse’s station to listen to the director’s speech, someone came out of the elevator with a large bouquet of red roses, walked to the front of the nurse’s station, and asked, “Who is Doctor Wen?"

Wen Wenyao was originally standing in the corner, leaning against the desk in the nurse's station, and looked over when he heard the man's voice.

All eyes gathered at once.

The person who sent the flowers was a little unsure, took out a list, looked at it, and asked loudly, "Which one is Dr. Wen Wenyao?"

Wen Wenyao stood up straight, and said with a puzzled face, "It's me."

The flower sender walked up to him with roses in his arms and handed them to him, "Someone ordered flowers for you."

"Ordered flowers for me?" Seeing that the director had already stared at him, Wen Wenyao quickly pulled the flower delivery boy aside, and said in a low voice, "Who ordered it for me?"

Even so, everyone watched him silently.Even the little nurses in the pharmacy poked their heads out to watch the excitement.

The director simply waved his hand, "Whoever should give a doctor's order, let's go to our own business." After speaking, he gave Wen Wenyao another look, and left first.

The other doctors hesitated to leave.

The flower delivery boy also looked blank, "I don't know who ordered it, only the recipient's address and name."

A name suddenly popped up in Wen Wenyao's heart, and he wished he could pull out a thorny flower from it and beat him hard.

He accepted the flowers and signed the flower delivery boy's form.As soon as the flower delivery boy left, Liu Chong leaned over and put his arms around his shoulders and said, "Brother, to be honest, was it you who gave it to someone or someone who gave it to you? Which girl is so romantic?"

Before Wen Wenyao had time to speak, Liu Chong quickly took off the card inserted in the middle of the flowers and opened it. He found that the words "Happy Valentine's Day" were printed inside the card. He immediately said, "It must be a gift."

At this time, Jian Qinyue was still looking through the medical records in front of the nurse's station.

Liu Chong suddenly took the bouquet of flowers from Wen Wenyao's hand, and wanted to give it to Jian Qinyue.

He had already called Jian Qinyue's name, and the other party turned to look at him, but Wen Wenyao stepped forward and grabbed Liu Chong's shoulder, snatched the flower back, and said, "Stop making trouble, let's go to work."

Jian Qinyue closed the medical record and looked at him.

Wen Wenyao hugged the bouquet of flowers and walked towards his office without saying anything to Jian Qinyue.He was about to reach the door of the office, when Jian Qinyue suddenly stopped him from behind, "Wen Yao?"

He stopped and turned around.

Jian Qinyue smiled and said, "A Valentine's Day gift from someone else?"

Wen Wenyao nodded.

Jian Qinyue still forced a smile: "What a passionate girl."

Wen Wenyao looked down at the gorgeous red rose.

Jian Qinyue paused and asked him: "I wonder if you are free to have a meal together tonight?"

Wen Wenyao stared at Rose for a while, then raised his head and said to Jian Qinyue, "Sorry, I have an appointment tonight."

Jian Qinyue looked disappointed, but still nodded and said, "Okay, let's have a chance next time."

Wen Wenyao opened the door and went in, put the rose on the desk, looked at it and thought it was not good-looking, then picked it up and put it by the window.

I went to the cafeteria for lunch at noon, and when I came back, I saw a man wearing a hat sneakily standing in the nurse's station, talking to the nurse.

As soon as the nurse saw Wen Wenyao appearing, she quickly said to the person in front of her, "Dr. Wen is here, you can leave it to him."

Wen Wenyao saw the man in the hat turn his head, revealing the familiar face below.He pointed at Bai Yangyu, "Come with me to the office." He didn't want to embarrass himself in front of the ward.

Bai Yangyu took back the glass vase that was given to the nurse, and followed Wen Wenyao to his office.

Wen Wenyao opened the office and went in, waited for Bai Yangyu to come in and told him to close the door, then sat down on a chair with his long legs resting on the desk, picked up a cigarette and asked him, "What are you doing?"

Bai Yangyu put the vase on his desk, "I asked the flower seller how to keep the flowers longer, and she said to buy a vase and put it up."

Wen Wenyao took a deep breath to stabilize his emotions. He asked Bai Yangyu to bring him the bouquet of flowers on the window sill. He slowly pulled out one from it, turned it around and pulled it towards Bai Yangyu, "Who told you to give roses to men?" Flower? Is your brain broken? "

Winter hadn't completely passed yet, Bai Yangyu was wearing thick clothes, and it didn't hurt to be hit by a rose branch, but he still shrank his arms and hid to the side, saying, "Don't hit me."

Wen Wenyao smoked five or six times, and when he threw the flower on the desk, he found that his finger was pricked and bleeding, and he wiped away the blood beads with his finger.

Bai Yangyu immediately said: "I'll get you cotton swabs and gauze."

"No need," Wen Wenyao opened the drawer, took out a box of Band-Aids and threw them on the table.

Bai Yangyu said, "I'll post it for you."

Wen Wenyao looked at him coldly, "I can do it myself."

Bai Yangyu stood where he was, and said after a while: "Then I'll fetch the water." After speaking, he went out with the vase.

After receiving most of the bottle of water, Bai Yangyu sat in front of Wen Wenyao's desk, trimmed the flower branches with scissors, and inserted them into the glass vase one by one.He was not skilled in his movements, but he did it very seriously.

Wen Wenyao was smoking, turning the chair under him from side to side as if carelessly, he said: "Do you think I will like roses?"

Bai Yangyu said: "I don't know, maybe not."

Wen Wenyao felt a little helpless, sighed and said, "Then what do you mean by sending flowers?"

Bai Yangyu replied, "Someone reminded me this morning that it's Valentine's Day. I didn't know what gift to give, so I immediately ordered a bouquet of flowers to send over."

Wen Wenyao wanted to say, "Do you think you're chasing little girls?" But then he remembered that he had no experience in chasing girls, so he didn't bother to speak.

However, Bai Yangyu had an indifferent attitude, "If you don't like it, I will give you a farewell present for your birthday next week."

Wen Wenyao asked him: "How do you know my birthday is next week?"

Bai Yangyu said: "Always remember. I plan to prepare gifts for you every year on special festivals. Isn't it very romantic?"

Wen Wenyao tilted his head to look at him, and impulsively grabbed the book in front of him and threw it at him.

Bai Yangyu was still earnestly pruning the flower branches, he lowered his head and said, "Teacher, do you still remember my mother?"

"What?" Wen Wenyao didn't understand what he meant.

Bai Yangyu said: "I didn't understand when I was a child, but when I grew up, I felt that my mother was a bit paranoid. I didn't understand why she was so devoted to a man who didn't love him, and liked that person for the rest of her life. But now I find that I understand a little bit. She is gone, I am her son, I may have inherited her paranoia, maybe it is a kind of mental symptom, if I believe it, I will not let it go, and my life will pass soon."

Wen Wenyao was stunned.

Bai Yangyu trimmed the last rose and put it into a vase. Although it didn't look very good after tossing for a long time, he still carefully decorated it. He put the vase on the corner of Wen Wenyao's desk, he stood up and said : "Maybe there are only me and my mother in the world with such a persistent mental illness. One was touched by my father, and the other stood in front of you. Do you really want to miss it?"

After saying this, he collected the trash on the table and threw it into the trash can, clapped his hands, and said, "I'm leaving, you can rest."