God's New Clothes

If you don't look carefully, it's almost difficult to find the sun in the sky. It's like a white veil between the sky and the earth, and everything looks hazy.

It's snowing in New York.

There are still a few fine snowflakes floating in the sky. Most of the snow on the road has been cleared and piled up into small hills on the side of the road.The air was humid, white smoke was coming out of the sewers, and people wrapped their coats tightly and walked in a hurry.

Xu Shi'an closed the curtains of the hotel and turned on the bed again. Tong Yan was shocked, turned over, and plunged into his arms habitually.

Xu Shi'an never thought that wind, frost, rain, snow, spring, summer, autumn and winter had anything to do with people's moods, but now when he sees snow, he wants to hug Tong Yan, and when he sees rain, he wants to hold an umbrella for him.Perhaps only those who yearn for eternity will have an emotional resonance with this unchanging natural phenomenon.

Tong Yan has already woken up, but he doesn't want to open his eyes, he wants to take advantage of the vague sleepiness to act like a baby.He put one leg on Xu Shian's waist, and stretched his hand down restlessly.

Xu Shi'an grabbed Tong Yan's troublesome hand and said, "Did I not clean you up properly yesterday!"

Tong Yan didn't speak, but with a smile on his face, he went to kiss Xu Shi'an's firm chest.

"Stop making trouble, get up," Xu Shi'an patted Tong Yan's buttocks, "Didn't you say you want to go to the museum? There's still time to go, get up."

Tong Yan thinks about it, he finally came to New York, he can't spend it all in bed, he asked Xu Shi'an: "What time is it?"

"It's one o'clock in the afternoon, and it's snowing outside."

Hearing that it was snowing, Tong Yan immediately got up from the bed, picked up his pajama pants and put them on while jumping, he ran to the window with bare feet and looked out: "Really, then I'll go down and change into another one first." clothing."

Tong Yan turned around to go to the door, but he always felt that his body was not strong enough, what's the situation when he always wanted to be on the same hand and feet?

When he was distracted for a while, he tripped over something under his feet. He looked down and saw that there were messy ties all over the floor.Tong Yan hurried to pick it up, it was not good for the waiter to see it.

"Well... let me help you wash these."

Xu Shi'an actually didn't care, but what he said reminded him of the picture of Tong Yan standing in front of the window and helping him iron his clothes. He crossed his hands behind his head, leaned on the pillow and said, "Then wash it clean, and use it next time. "

Can someone surnamed Xu be more shameless?

The two had lunch and took a taxi to the museum. Perhaps because of the weather, there were not many people at the door.Tong Yan gathered his coat and followed Xu Shi'an up the stairs.

Xu Shi'an was planning to see if there was any interesting temporary exhibition on the posters outside the wall, when he looked up, he happened to meet a tall middle-aged Asian woman. The woman had beautiful features, a straight nose bridge, and a beautiful chin. ditch.

The woman lowered her head and walked quickly without looking sideways. Xu Shi'an just passed her by. He was stunned for a moment, and then turned his head in disbelief.

Xu Shi'an didn't care much, turned around and shouted at the woman: "Mom!"

The woman didn't respond, but the sound stunned Tong Yan. He stopped and saw Xu Shi'an yelled at the woman again: "Shen Wenyin!"

The hurried woman finally stopped, but didn't turn her head back immediately, as if she was hesitating, she turned around suddenly after a while.

Tong Yan recognized this face, he had seen it in Xu Shian's family photo, Brigitte Lin, no, this is Xu Shian's mother!

Xu Shi'an approached step by step, compressing the 20 years of time and space between the two into less than one meter. The woman's eyes enlarged and shrunk, as if repeatedly confirming on Xu Shi'an's face. Finally, her lips trembled, Call out a name: "Xiao An?"

Until the three of them sat in a coffee shop by the side of the road, Tong Yan still didn't understand the situation.How did Xu Shi'an suddenly meet his mother in New York, what happened between them, and why the two of them seemed to have not seen each other for many years.They are obviously mother and son, but there is no joy of reunion after a long absence. Instead, it reveals the restraint between many strangers.

Shen Wenyin is very beautiful, with light makeup, she obviously belongs to the group of people favored by the years, even Tong Yan can recognize her through a photo, let alone Xu Shi'an.

Tong Yan could find many commonalities between the faces of the mother and the child, such as the pair of ink-like eyes, such as the obvious beauty groove, such as the slightly mean thin lips, and the radiance exuding from their bodies. That kind of high-cold temperament.

Neither of them spoke, Tong Yan felt that the current atmosphere was a bit weird, so he had to stir the coffee in the cup silently.

Shen Wenyin stared at Xu Shi'an and kept looking. In her fiery eyes, time seemed to be pressed on the fast-forward button. Xu Shi'an grew from a six-year-old boy into a tall and handsome young man in no time.She finally came to a conclusion - this kid is not very disabled, he looks like me!

The two stared at each other for a long time, and finally, Xu Shi'an spoke first: "Have you always lived in New York?"

Shen Wenyin twirled the ring on her index finger, raised her eyebrows and said, "No, I lived in Los Angeles, Chicago, and some small cities, and finally arrived in New York."

When she first came to the United States, she couldn't even speak English, and it was true that she had no one to see and looked around for a while.But fortunately, she has some private money, and her life is not considered hard. Shen Wenyin didn't want to mention these things, and continued: "I'm working as an art consultant for the Metropolitan Museum, and they sometimes have some exhibitions related to China. How about you? Are you coming to New York?" After speaking, he looked at Xu Shi'an and then at Tong Yan, obviously very curious about Tong Yan's identity, but he was too embarrassed to ask directly.

Xu Shi'an briefly introduced: "I have created a clothing brand by myself to participate in New York Fashion Week. Tong Yan is my designer. We just finished the press conference last night."

A smile spread across Shen Wenyin's face, and she shook Xu Shi'an's right hand on the table: "Really? I'm so happy for you!"

Xu Shi'an lowered his head and stared at his mother's thin fingers.When he was a child, he was often played in the yard by these hands, but suddenly one day, these hands completely disappeared from his life.Xu Yunsheng never told the real reason why his mother left, and blurted out the questions accumulated for 20 years: "Why, why did you leave us?"

Shen Wenyin let go of Xu Shi'an and leaned back in the chair. Xu Shi'an suddenly felt empty in his hands.

"Why, hasn't Xu Yunsheng told you anything for so many years?" Shen Wenyin said, "It's no wonder, I wouldn't be able to say it if I were, but now that you are an adult, you have the right to know the truth."

She picked up the coffee cup and took a sip, then looked at Tong Yan, Tong Yan felt a little embarrassed, got up and said, "I'm going out to buy something."

As soon as he stood up, Xu Shi'an pulled him to sit down again: "You are not allowed to go anywhere!"

Tong Yan had no choice but to look at his nose and heart, shrinking himself into a humanoid air with nose and eyes.

Seeing this posture, Shen Wenyin no longer shies away: "I was only 20 years old when I met your dad. Your dad chased me crazily at that time. I got pregnant before I was married, so I got married. After I have you, I will wholeheartedly Take care of you at home, but your dad is getting more and more busy with work, coming home later and later, or even not coming home. You know that women are very sensitive, and I noticed something wrong with your dad. A woman’s tone was too gentle when she spoke on the phone, so I checked the call records at home. They have been talking so frequently for several months. I am not a person who is willing to wrong myself. I was more self-willed when I was young, so I will question you Dad, did you have an affair with this woman? Your dad didn’t even want to tell a lie and admitted it directly, but he also said that he would make a clean break with that woman and let me forget about it. I said yes, the next day Just pick up your luggage and leave."

Although Tong Yan lowered his head, he heard every word. He felt the same for Xu Shi'an's mother, but he chose another way, and after making do with Xiao Yi for several years, he still ended up in a bloody breakup.And Shen Wenyin was decisive, assertive, and left as soon as she said it.He admired Shen Wenyin's courage, and felt sorry for Xu Shi'an who lost his mother at such a young age.

Shen Wenyin stopped when she said this, and stared at Xu Shi'an. Tong Yan could not see guilt or resentment from her face. The emergence of youth.

"I know I'm sorry for you. I shouldn't have left you when you needed me the most. Whether you hate me or blame me, I don't blame you. You are still willing to call me mom. I am satisfied. As for why I Abandoning my family and children, I can only say that at that moment I felt that people had to live for themselves, and couldn't always consider other people's feelings, and couldn't always think about what consequences I would bring to others, that was too tiring. For a It is not worthwhile for the person who betrayed himself to be wronged, so I left. I keep you, on the one hand, I think he can give you a better life, on the other hand, I hope he can know what responsibility is."

Tong Yan secretly went to see Xu Shi'an, his expression only showed some consternation at the moment when Shen Wenyin turned his head, and then he kept a poker face, as if the person sitting opposite him was not his own mother, but a gambling opponent, for fear that the other party would See your cards are the same.

But Tong Yan still saw a little flaw in his disguise-his left hand under the table has been doing relaxation and fist movements.If a certain emotion of a person reaches the extreme, he will feel numb all over, and the movement of repeatedly clenching his fist is just to relieve this state.

When Xu Shi'an opened it again, he held it with his right hand. Xu Shi'an originally wanted to hide, but Tong Yan held it tighter, sliding back and forth on the back of his hand while holding it.

Before Shen Wenyin finished speaking, she continued: "You want to say in your heart that even I am so irresponsible, what qualifications do you have to teach others how to be responsible? I can only say that I thought so at that time, and I was angry And willful elements are there, but I can't get out of this limitation, and it's too late when I want to turn back. After I left, your father only called my family once, and we never contacted again. I haven't even looked for me, so naturally I won't take the initiative to go back."

After Xu Shi'an heard the belated truth, he felt mixed feelings.As a son who has been abandoned for 20 years, it is a lie to say that he does not hate Shen Wenyin.Every time Xu Yunsheng beat him, what he blamed was not the father who was being violent, but the mother who was supposed to come out to protect him but disappeared.

But as a man, he originally admired Shen Wenyin, a woman who pursued herself and had an independent personality.

Shen Wenyin is in a very good condition now. It can be seen that she has seen a lot of worlds. If she hadn't left Xu Yunsheng, she might have stayed at home all her life to care for her husband and teach her children.

Xu Shi'an's brain was twisted into a rope by these two thoughts, and it hurt terribly.

"So... don't you plan to go back again?" After a while, Xu Shi'an managed to squeeze out such a sentence.

Shen Wenyin pushed her hair back from her chest to her shoulders, and looked very embarrassed: "Why do you go back? I don't want to fight for the family property, and I don't want to plot revenge, so why don't I go back and watch your children?"

Tong Yan's thumb, which was still circling on Xu Shi'an's hand, suddenly stopped, and slowly slipped down from his hand.Tong Yan's Adam's apple moved, and his throat seemed to be blocked by something, making it difficult to swallow.

Suddenly, Xu Shi'an snatched back his loose right hand and held it tightly in his palm.

Tong Yan lowered his head, pursed his lips, and continued to pretend to be airy. He heard Xu Shi'an say: "I'm not married yet, where can I show you the child?"

Shen Wenyin's eyes flicked back and forth between the two of them, as if she wanted to find some clues. After all, she had been abroad for a long time, and she was not like mothers in China who were nagging. If her son didn't talk, she would not be in Xu Shian. On personal matters.

"When do you plan to go back?" Shen Wenyin asked.

"The day after tomorrow."

"I'm running out of time. I'm going to meet a client tomorrow." Shen Wenyin took out a pen and paper from her bag, and wrote a phone number and address to Xu Shi'an, "Here is my address and phone number. If you come to New York again, you can contact me anytime. Me." After thinking for a while, he added, "You can contact me if you don't come."

Xu Shi'an held the thin yellow piece of paper, and didn't know how to react.Perhaps it would be a miracle for him to see Shen Wenyin in a foreign country.

When the three of them came out of the coffee shop, the snow had stopped and the ground was wet and slippery.Shen Wenyin looked at Xu Shi'an and stretched out her arms towards him.

Xu Shi'an's body was stiff, he didn't know whether he was frozen by the low temperature or what, he bent down unnaturally, and hugged his mother in his arms.

When they met, they didn't know how to speak, and when they parted, they seemed to be at a loss for words. Xu Shi'an suddenly said something: "My dad's spouse column has always written your name."

"what?"

"You are still a legal couple. My dad never found another woman after you left, at least not in my opinion."

Shen Wenyin: "..."

Xu Shi'an and Tong Yan watched Shen Wenyin get into the taxi, and Shen Wenyin kept waving at them from the car window until they could no longer see them.

Tong Yan thinks that the mother and son are also amazing. They haven't seen each other for 20 years, and each one is calmer than the other.In his opinion, as long as both parents are still alive, it is better than anything else.

He looked at the sky, pulled Xu Shi'an's sleeve and said, "Let's go back."

Xu Shi'an looked back at him, opened his mouth and let out a breath of white air: "Sorry, I didn't accompany you to Cheng Museum."

"It's okay, I still have time tomorrow." Tong Yan stretched out his hand to hail a taxi, and pushed Xu Shi'an into the back seat.

As soon as Xu Shi'an got into the car, he was paralyzed. Tong Yan moved his body, sat up as straight as possible, and supported Xu Shi'an's head to let him lean on his shoulder.

Seeing that Xu Shi'an was in a bad mood, Tong Yan patted his face and said, "It's okay, just take it as a surprise. Don't keep thinking about her leaving you, think about you finding her, she is healthy and happy, Isn't it nice to have her own life? And I think she still has you in her heart."

Xu Shi'an half-closed his eyes and said: "You don't know how uncomfortable it is to feel that you have lost it. How can you make a six-year-old child understand why her mother doesn't want him? When I was a child, I saw other classmates When I am with my mother, I will think of her. I hate her so much that I hate her so much. I always think that if she comes back to me one day, I will definitely deny her and see her crying. As a result, she Never give me a chance."

Tong Yan thought, how could he not know what gain is lost again? He held Xu Shi'an's hand and said, "You didn't say a word of these words just now, which means that you don't hate her anymore. You still don't want her for a while. I can't accept myself like this, but from the time you called her at the museum gate, it means that you have forgiven her."

Xu Shi'an opened his eyes and looked at Tong Yan. His gentle words seemed to have a kind of magical power, which pulled him out of the emotional vortex at once.He shouldn't let Tong Yan, who lost his parents, comfort him. Shen Wenyin's appearance was just an episode, and it wouldn't bring any change to his established life trajectory.

Xu Shi'an took out the crumpled post-it note from his pocket, stretched it flat, and stuffed it silently into the middle of the wallet.

The author says:

Bloody?What's more in the next chapter.