God's New Clothes

(The last paragraph was changed in the previous chapter, if you read it at 8:20 yesterday, you can go back and take a look)

After Xu Shi'an finished saying that, Tong Yan seemed to be petrified on the spot, standing there motionless, only his eyes looked back and forth on his face, his eyes changed from surprise at the beginning to grievance in an instant, his thin eyelids blinked slightly, Two lines of hot tears flowed down.

Xu Shi'an was terrified by this reaction. He rushed the foam off his hands in a hurry, held Tong Yan's face in his hands and said, "Baby, why are you crying? I like you too. Don't cry, don't cry." While helping Tong Yan wipe away tears.

Hearing these words, Tong Yan cried even more fiercely, with tears streaming down his face, Xu Shi'an was completely panicked, he didn't expect Tong Yan to react like this, he hurriedly wiped his tears: "Please don't cry, you Tell me, did I say something wrong?"

Tong Yan cried for a long time, and finally said: "You, why didn't you tell me earlier?"

"I..." Xu Shi'an was at a loss for words for a moment, "I wanted to tell you on Valentine's Day, the flowers and the restaurant were all booked, but who knew that Aunt Zhao suddenly called you and disrupted all my plans. "

"Do you know how uncomfortable I am? I guess every day whether you like me or not, are you playing with me or are you sincere, what is the purpose of your kindness to me and your concern for me? Are you Isn’t it like this for everyone? Is there endless care and care that can be distributed to everyone around you.”

Xu Shi'an also didn't understand: "Are you guessing whether I like you or not? Then why did you say that we are just friends with benefits when you resigned with me? You also said that what you say in bed can't be taken seriously. I'm almost mad at you. Why do you blame me? wake me up?"

Tong Yan pulled Xu Shi'an by the collar and shook him: "It's your fault that you are not good, and you are playing with humiliation. Do you not remember one thing?"

Xu Shi'an: "What's the matter?"

"One day, your dad came to the company to find you and asked why you didn't let me go, and he said that it was enough to play around. I accidentally heard you said who would make money for you when I left, but even so, I I still fall in love with you hopelessly. I don’t know when your freshness will pass, and I don’t know how many people are around you. I guess every day, you like me, otherwise why do you treat me so Okay, but you retreated because of my angry words, Xu Shian, are you stupid?"

Xu Shi'an was not stupid, but shocked.

How long ago did his father come to the company to look for him? It was hard for him to imagine that Tong Yan was thinking about these things every time he was with him, and he didn't realize it.No wonder Tong Yan said those angry words, no wonder he always felt that Tong Yan was fickle and moody, he really should slap himself a few times.

"Listen to my explanation," Xu Shi'an brushed Tong Yan's hair back, revealing his wet brows, "My dad meant to let me take care of him, not against you, I said you made money for me or something In order to perfunctory him, for fear that he will let you go, you must not take it to heart. The most important thing is that since I met you, there is no one else around me, no one but you, not now, and never will be .”

Tong Yan was about to cry into tears, but in fact, his last words were enough.His torment and waiting these days were finally not in vain, Tong Yan finally laughed through his tears, and said with red eyes: "Hold me!"

Xu Shi'an's heart was about to soften into marshmallows, his delicate Tong Tong came back again, Xu Shi'an rubbed Tong Yan into his arms hard, his chest was hot inside and out.

Tong Yan lay on Xu Shi'an's shoulder, feeling like he had a big dream, he said, "I really want to bite you!"

"I want to bite, I don't mind."

Tong Yan really bit him on the shoulder, and Xu Shi'an yelled in pain, it was purely self-inflicted.

"You have to say it again!"

Xu Shi'an: "Say what?"

"Say you like me!"

Xu Shi'an supported Tong Yan's shoulder to make him face himself, and said, "Tong Yan, because I like you so much, please show mercy and like me a little bit!"

"No, I don't like it, I can't!"

"Please, please do me a favor!"

"Then kiss me!"

Xu Shi'an couldn't wait for it, so he immediately sent a French kiss, kissing and kissing on the top of the kang, almost igniting the gun.

Xu Shi'an was leaning against the wall, holding Tong Yan in his arms. Tong Yan had never felt that his arms would be so warm. He had a lot of questions to ask Xu Shi'an, but he didn't know where to start, and his fingers kept twitching. He drew circles with his palms, and after thinking for a long time, he finally thought of a question: "Have you ever told my grandma that you want to be my boyfriend? At that time, I thought that either she had heard it wrong, or she was just confused. What on earth did you say?" Have you been?"

"I said it, your grandma didn't know where her intuition came from, and asked me if I was your boyfriend. What I said at the time was, 'Not yet, but I will try to hurry up'."

Tong Yan got up, poked Xu Shi'an's chest and asked him: "Is your dictionary compiled by Lightning in "Zootopia"? Is there some misunderstanding about 'hurry up'?"

Xu Shi'an yelled at being wronged: "I don't like to do things that I'm not sure about, and I have more worries. I don't think that I was worthy of you before. You have to give me a process of renewing my life. The more I know you, the better I am. I feel that I am not good enough, so I have to work hard to catch up with you. If it weren’t for you, there would be no ANNA-X today, nor would I be where I am today.”

Tong Yan was suddenly at a loss for words, he slowly stretched out his left hand, and put it against Xu Shi'an's face, but Xu Shi'an grabbed his wrist, put it to his mouth and kissed it lightly.

Xu Shi'an said, "Forgive me for being late."

How could Tong Yan not forgive him? He looked deeply at Xu Shi'an, and Xu Shi'an also looked at Tong Yan, with sincere emotions written in his eyes.Xu Shi'an felt that Tong Yan was getting closer and closer to him, and his watery eyes became clearer and clearer—there were no stars in the sky, but Tong Yan's eyes seemed to have stolen the entire Milky Way.

The Milky Way was moving, and it swept him in at once.

The next morning, Xu Shi'an woke up before dawn.Tong Yan also woke up, smiled and said good morning, then closed his eyes sweetly.

Xu Shi'an kissed him on the forehead and asked: "This is our first official day together, so we must do something to commemorate it?"

Tong Yan smiled and asked, "How else should I commemorate?"

Xu Shi'an thought for a while and asked, "Are you still sleeping? If not, I'll take you to climb the mountain."

Tong Yan sat up from the bed and rubbed his eyes: "Mountain climbing? Okay, I'll get up right away."

After the two of them washed up, they boiled a pot of porridge and drank it. After tidying up, they set out on the road under the moonlight.

The village was quiet, there was no one around, and the stray cats and dogs were still sleeping. Tong Yan pulled his down jacket and turned to look at Xu Shian beside him. He was wearing a long down jacket and sports pants. Xu Shian turned his head and asked Tong Yan: "What's wrong? Is it cold?" After speaking, he pulled Tong Yan into his arms.

Tong Yan said: "It's not cold, I just think you are so handsome, you can look handsome in whatever you wear."

Xu Shi'an laughed loudly: "Are you obsessed with my beauty, and ended up getting yourself into it?"

Tong Yan nodded: "I'm Yangou, there's nothing I can do."

Xu Shi'an asked: "You haven't said exactly when you started liking me."

Tong Yan thought for a while and said, "Maybe it was when we went to the factory together?"

"That early?" What did he miss!

"What about you? When did you start?"

If you say this, maybe Xu Shi'an has never forgotten Tong Yan since the first time they had a relationship, but Xu Shi'an can't tell clearly if he is really sure of his heart: "It's not so easy for me to get into true feelings, and I haven't invested in it before, so even if I'm really tempted I don't even know."

Tong Yan just asked casually, now that Xu Shi'an is his, nothing else matters.

"How far is this mountain? When can we reach it?" Tong Yan asked.

"Go straight out of the village, pass a piece of farmland, and you will reach the foot of the mountain. The mountain is not difficult to climb. It is full of steps. There is a small temple on the top of the mountain and a viewing platform. If we hurry up, we should be able to catch the sunrise."

"Sogar," Tong Yan nodded, "Your land, the front land leads the way."

Xu Shi'an was amused by him: "What, devils have entered the village?"

"It turns out that President Gao Leng's joke is an anti-Japanese drama. What an unexpected discovery."

"Am I very cold?"

Tong Yan said: "You don't know that you are the co-author? Your style is like Burberry's trench coat. It is a classic style. It has been the leading actor in TV dramas and various novels for a long time. I thought you did it on purpose."

"I mean? How old am I?"

Tong Yan was puzzled: "Why did you ask me how old you are?"

"I'm only 26," Xu Shi'an said. "Is there anyone younger than me in the company besides the interns and the girl at the front desk? Zheng Xinger, who still takes me seriously? Don’t you think so?”

Tong Yan pondered for a while, and it seemed to make sense. He said, "Actually, you have done a good job. You have ideas and courage. You don't have to put so much pressure on yourself."

"Really? I don't think it's enough. I don't have a direct store of my own. I rely on buyers and agents. I don't have my own app. Online sales rely on other people's platforms, and I don't have a fabric R&D team. They are all provided by others." I use whatever."

"You...you are too demanding of yourself. Your brand is only a few years old, so you can't become a fat man in one go." Tong Yan has always thought that Xu Shi'an is an ambitious person, as for his ambition? How big it is, I am afraid that what he said is only the tip of the iceberg.

Xu Shi'an didn't speak, they had already left the village, the farmland in front of them was barren, and a few lonely graves could be vaguely seen.

"Are you afraid?" Xu Shi'an asked.

The mound of the grave is in the middle of the field, a lonely small soil bag.Tong Yan shook his head. He remembered that grandma's ashes were still at home, and they should have been buried with grandpa.

The two were walking forward when they suddenly saw a funeral procession coming towards the entrance of the village.Everyone wears sackcloth and filial piety, the knocker's knocker, the money thrower throwing money, paper man and paper horse are all available, and there are also drummers, playing and singing all the way, walking towards the farmland in a mighty way.

The two stood there watching for a while, Xu Shi'an asked, "Where do you plan to bury grandma?"

Tong Yan was stunned for a while and said, "Together with grandpa and mom and dad."

Xu Shi'an said: "Go back in a few days, pick a good day, after all, it's safe to go to the ground."

Tong Yan nodded.

Xu Shi'an felt that this was an opportunity, so why not tell Tong Yan everything that should be said.

He asked Tong Yan: "You haven't seen how to do white things in the countryside, have you?"

Tong Yan shook his head, and Xu Shi'an went on to say: "Some people think that these funeral customs in rural areas are superstitious and backward. In fact, I don't think it may be useless. When someone in the family dies, they have to do funeral things and 'cry for funerals'. It gives people a special way to release their emotions. Whether you think about it or complain about it, you will feel much better if you cry it all out; for example, the funeral process and customs require the family to quickly invest in a large-scale event, how to receive relatives and friends who mourn, how to arrange banquets, and how to deal with it. All kinds of water and land rituals must be invited, and the handling of these things will force the family members to forget their grief and cheer up; moreover, the funeral team is not allowed to turn back when they return, although the original intention is to fear that the soul of the deceased will see the family members I am reluctant to turn around, but there is also a hint in the subconscious, telling the family that everything is over, and the living still have to look forward, don’t you think?”

Tong Yan burst into tears at Xu Shi'an's words, and nodded while sucking his nose.

Xu Shi'an took out a tissue to help Tong Yan dry his tears: "I have met your grandma twice. She is a kind old man. It was not easy for her to bring you up. She also suffered a lot, right? The choice she made must be the result of deliberation, if the torment of the disease has far exceeded her ability to bear, then is it a kind of relief for her to do so?"

As the north wind blew, Tong Yan leaned on Xu Shi'an's shoulder, watching the team drift away, his eyes were wet and cold.

"Actually, what you have been worrying about is that you didn't discover her condition earlier. You thought it would be good to take her to treat her, but she is already in the advanced stage of gastric cancer. There is no better treatment plan except chemotherapy, and the side effects of chemotherapy are also obvious. , it kills cancer cells as well as normal cells, and symptoms such as nausea, vomiting, hair loss, liver and kidney damage may appear. Doubly painful. She is not feeling well, and you will not be feeling well. So, stop blaming yourself, the better choice you think may not be for grandma."

The funeral procession finally disappeared into the distance, and the suona's voice was still hovering in the air, shrill and piercing.

Tong Yan choked up and said, "I should spend more time with her..."

Xu Shi'an hugged Tong Yan tightly: "I know you lack an outlet to vent, all of this happened too suddenly, so you chose alcohol."

Hearing this, Tong Yan stood up straight and said in a low voice, "It's my fault."

"No, there's nothing right or wrong about this, it's all a way to release emotions, but after the release is over, you have to eat, sleep, go to work, and go back to your normal life. Grandma is so determined to let you Live better, not to see you ruin yourself like this. She will help you unload the burden and let you go into battle lightly, don't let her down."

Tong Yan hugged Xu Shi'an, fell on his chest and cried bitterly.

Xu Shi'an gently stroked his hair: "Cry, cry hard, after crying this time, you can only laugh from now on!"