Green Lin Dust

Shu Jun guessed before that he might not have the chance to see Xue Kaichao's real emotions and reactions, especially those that were too far away, such as how he viewed his parents.

But when he was in the cave in the mountain, he finally found that Xue Kaichao was missing Mrs. Dugu.And now this blank space... Shu Jun couldn't read what he was thinking at all, but his heart was full of fear, knowing that this might be even more terrifying.

He went down quietly, and saw Xue Kaichao blinking slowly, blinking away all the unusual silence, and said to Youquan: "I see, prepare the car, I will go there now."

For those who once served as the master, the funeral is different from that of ordinary people.Although Xue Kaichao is Xue Lu's son, he is also the incumbent Lingzhu. He is exempted from wearing hemp and filial piety, and he can go out in plain clothes.These were prepared after seeing Xue Lu last time, and even Shu Jun knew which box to put them in.

Youquan didn't say much, just nodded and went out.

Shu Jun stood there with cold hands and feet, watching Xue Kaichao turn around slowly, and suddenly met his gaze.

At that moment, it seemed that the solid shell broke, and the contents inside flowed out in a panic, invisible, colorless and without sound, but Shu Jun seemed to understand some kind of need that Xue Kaichao could not even give him verbal demands, so he took the initiative to hug him.

Does a man need comfort when his father is gone?

This question does not need an answer, Shu Jun knows it.But Xue Kaichao's father passed away, how many people would think that he needs comfort?Even in the staring at each other just now, Shu Jun only found indescribable panic and unexplained sluggishness. Xue Kaichao himself knew that this was sadness, was this being left behind?

He may have almost forgotten that he also has feelings, or he may have thought he had already seen it.What was he thinking all the way when he was sent back to Xue's house?

Shu Jun had nothing to say, just hugged him tightly.Xue Kaichao hugged back slowly, he was taller than Shu Jun, and Shu Jun immediately became the one looking for comfort.Xue Kaichao patted him on the shoulder: "Do you want to go together?"

He was very sober and did not lose his composure. Although it was true that he reacted a little slower than usual, it was nothing.Shu Jun didn't want to be too clear and make him feel that he had lost control, so he left obediently and quickly, without thinking: "Of course I will follow the master."

It wasn't until he got in the car that Shu Jun realized that he had forgotten to think about whether his plan would be stranded immediately after leaving, whether there would be any hindrance, and whether his identity would be exposed.Fortunately, Xue Yuan should have gotten the news by now, so she can't care about continuing to play with him in secret.

What's more, he had disappeared for a month before, which was nothing.

Shu Jun frowned slightly and leaned against the car window to listen to the sound of rain.It was getting dark, and the car was also dark.The pattering rain outside made Shu Jun suddenly think of the peach blossoms and plum blossoms he saw in Taoyuan, and he felt a pity for a moment: "Have the peach blossoms all thanked?"

Xue Kaichao knew what he was asking. At this moment, the peach blossoms in Chang'an City have not yet bloomed: "Taoyuan does not really exist, so... there are no peach blossoms now."

If there is no more, there will be no more human death.

Shu Jun fell silent again, groping to put a hand on Xue Kaichao's lap.When he touched the soft, smooth and cold material, his fingertips couldn't help trembling, and the thin calluses made by the knife made a small sound, and Xue Kaichao held his hand.

It is rare for two people to interlock their fingers, just as rare as sitting side by side. Shu Jun couldn't help shrinking his hands, but he was still firmly held.Xue Kaichao was beside him, silently looking at the darkness in front of him, and suddenly asked: "Are you scared?"

This question is a bit familiar, Shu Jun recognized that Xue Kaichao liked to ask him before he became what he is now.But what he was afraid of then was not the same as now.

"Master Shiling...why did it happen so early...?" Shu Jun didn't know how to put it.

Among the fairy gates, Xue Lu was still very young, so he shouldn't have died at this time.Of course Shu Jun has no feelings for Xue Lu, and he will not be sad for him. What he is really afraid of is that Xue Kaichao will also...

This is even more difficult to say, and Shu Jun didn't want to say it, for fear that it would become a prophecy.

Xue Kaichao understood what he really meant, and silently rubbed Shu Jun's palm, tiger's mouth, every finger, from finger root to fingertip, and said slowly: "I won't die. He I just don’t want to live anymore. What’s more, peeling off the token is actually very difficult to do, and naturally the foundation is lost. I’m actually not sad, let alone sad. It’s probably been a long time since he wanted to die. Jin, maybe I should be happy for him?"

The voice was light and fluttering, and it really didn't look happy.Shu Jun didn't say anything.In the eyes of outsiders, Xue Lu gave up his son for the sake of his wife and begged for death for many years.But so what?He is dead now, and the remaining son has grown up long ago, and is no longer a child abandoned by his father.

He sighed a long time, feeling that he couldn't figure out how the Xue family understood each other.

When they arrived at the thatched cottage, all the peach blossoms had disappeared. Under the bitter wind and rain, only the thatched cottage was safe. The Taoist sobbed under the eaves until his voice became hoarse. He was really sad.Seeing Xue Kaichao, he immediately rushed forward, the wet Taoist robe was cold and rough, and the sleeves just fell on Shu Jun's hand.

He took a step back, looked up at Xue Yuan who came out of the room, and saw that he had a mournful expression on his face, as if nothing had happened, he lowered his eyes and looked down at the soft and wet ground.

Xue Kaichao is not good at coaxing children, not to mention that he is actually not familiar with this little boy, at most he just patted the top of his wet head stiffly.What's more, the child was also tired, exhausted and dazedly leaning on his lap and settled down.Xue Kaichao greeted Xue Yuan with a sad expression: "You are here. People just stop inside, go in and meet..."

Before he finished speaking, Xue Kaichao handed himself, his nominal junior brother, to Xue Yuan: "I don't care about the outside affairs. I will be here for a few days, and I will leave the rest to my uncle."

Xue Yuan didn't dare to say anything because of his behavior like this, and the way he looked at him changed immediately. The uncle and nephew looked at each other for a moment, and they didn't know what they could see from each other's face.Xue Yuan lowered her head and sighed, with a sad look on her face: "That's fine, you can just stay with brother. Don't worry about things outside, I'm here."

In fact, Xue Yuan didn't seem too sad, which is understandable, but some of the meanings in his words were like dense and slender needles, which almost immediately made Shu Jun vigilant.It was not easy for him to speak on such occasions, so he just silently stared at Xue Yuan, but he didn't notice any abnormality in his expression.

Xue Kaichao seemed to have no other intentions. He glanced into the room and said lightly: "I know my father's wish. His body can be cremated here, and there is no need to move it around for others to pay tribute to. The past lords are not allowed to enter." As for the ancestral grave, just make a clothes tomb at the Dharma Hall. I’ll leave it to Uncle to take care of it.”

Xue Yuan kept silent, and stepped aside when he stepped on the steps, agreeing to everything.

Shu Jun also went in.

He failed to come in last time, but this time he looked around, only to find that there was almost nothing around, which was completely different from the Xue family's usual behavior.There is a coffin in the middle of the room, probably brought by Xue Yuan. The fine golden nanmu is filled with Xue Lu. Compared with the surrounding scenes and the cold wind and rain outside, this coffin is simply too big and inappropriate.

This is a humble mourning hall.

Xue Kaichao looked at the coffin, then looked down at the brazier brazier and a pile of honeysuckle flowers under his feet.

Nowadays, at funerals, the children and brothers of the deceased have to fold gold and silver paper lotus flowers with their own hands and then burn them in front of the spirit. This pile was probably folded by Xue Yuan just now when he was keeping watch.Xue Kaichao knelt down and without looking at them, he stretched out his hand and threw all these lifelike but dead flowers into the brazier.

Shu Jun watched the flames jump up with a bang, and didn't know what to do for a moment.It was the first time for him to enter the mourning hall, and he had never attended any funeral before, so he had nothing to do, so he simply knelt on the futon on the other side, reached for the cut gold paper, and tried to fold lotus flowers.

The rumble of cars outside gradually faded away, and finally became silent. Shu Jun looked intently at the gold paper in his hand, and said in a low voice, "The Patriarch took that child away."

Xue Kaichao looked at the flame attached to the silver charcoal in the charcoal basin, and said in a low voice, "I know."

Shu Jun didn't ask any more questions, just sighed long, and suddenly expressed emotion: "Master Shiling once enjoyed all the honors when he was alive, so he is used to the excitement. Now he is lying here so desolately and lonely, what will the Lord think?" Sad?"

Xue Kaichao raised his head and glanced at him. After all, he didn't say that this thing of folding lotus flowers is not something outsiders can do. He seems to have recovered now, and there is no special expression when he hears this. After looking at Shu Jun for a while, he bowed his head again: " This is his willingness, why should I be sad?"

Saying that, he took the lotus that Shu Jun finally folded and threw it into the fire.

The flames reflected his eyebrows and eyes, seeming to imbue him with a tinge of warmth from the human world, making it even more contrasting to the inextricable loneliness behind him.

Shu Jun was at a loss for words for a while, I don't know if it was because Xue Kaichao lost his mood swings in front of his father's spirit, or because he burned the flowers that he finally folded.

After a while, it was Xue Kaichao who took the initiative to fill the silence: "I am not sad for myself. Few people expect me to be a weak and fragile person. They all hope that I will abandon the human heart as soon as possible and become an unprecedented god." .”

They are a little blunt about this, and Xue Yuan must be one of them.

Shu Jun is very sensitive to the word "God". After thinking for a while, he said, "But God...it's not like they can decide what it looks like. Wouldn't this kind of wishful thinking be harmful to yourself?"

Xue Kaichao looked at him quietly: "Yes."

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Um?What happened to Xiao Xue who was coaxed by Xiao Shu?