poorer than

After Jiang Chengyun received an inexplicable text message, he hurried to Xia Xingche's dormitory.

--goodbye.

This was the message Xia Xingche sent him. It was so weird that he was flustered. As soon as the training was over, he just put on his clothes and went to find someone.

The night has already fallen, and the dormitory with no lights on has only the slight lights from the buildings outside, and only the shaking figures can be seen vaguely.Jiang Chengyun stood at the door of the dormitory and just pushed in, because the door was not locked.

As a result, as soon as he entered, he smelled a strong smell of alcohol, frowned and raised his hand to turn on the light.

The moment the light was turned on, his pupils shrank suddenly, as if he had seen something terrifying, and he hadn't recovered for a long time.I saw Xia Xingche sitting on the floor beside the bed with his head bowed down. There was a deep scratch on the wrist of the hand hanging on the floor. The blood just flowed out like this, dazzling the eyes on the white tile floor. Distressed.

Next to it was a broken wine bottle, and the strong smell of wine mixed with the smell of blood spread in the room.

His brain seemed to have been hit hard, he pursed his dry lips and walked towards the bed: "Hey, Xia Xingche."

His voice trembled violently, and fear spread from the depths of his heart. He would never have imagined that Xia Xingche would turn out like this. It was as if he was dreaming that he couldn't believe it.

With so much blood on the floor, nothing will happen...

"...I'm not dead."

A weak voice suddenly sounded in the room, and Jiang Chengyun immediately walked to the bed as if he had woken up. He quickly tore off the clothes on the side to cover Xia Xingche's bleeding place, with disbelief and anger in his eyes:

"Xia Xingche, are you crazy!!!"

Suicide in the dormitory? !

"I want to die."

Xia Xingche's voice was very quiet, although he was obviously weak, these three words were so powerful, as if he had made a decision for a long time.

"Damn it!" Jiang Cheng wrapped the bleeding area tightly with a towel, and then carried the person on his back. It was a bit strenuous but he didn't have time to take care of it: "Hold me well, I'll take you to the hospital!! "

Quickly rushed to the door.

"I've already said goodbye to you...what are you doing here?" Xia Xingche felt dizzy when his head touched Jiang Chengyun's back, as if he could leave at any time.

"No, what's going on with you? Isn't everything all right? You and Xia Xingcheng are also getting along well. Why did you suddenly—"

"I'm so tired... I'm going to sleep first..."

"Hey!!!"

Jiang Chengyun felt that he had never run so fast in his life, so he rushed to the school gate to stop the taxi and asked the driver to hurry to the hospital.When he arrived at the hospital, he yelled for the medical staff to come over quickly. The whole process was so fast that he felt that he would never want to experience this kind of madness again in his life.

Two hours later—

"Fortunately, I didn't lose too much blood, otherwise the consequences would be unimaginable. Why do you have the idea of ​​committing suicide at a young age, please persuade your friend and take care of him."

"Ok thank you doctor."

Jiang Chengyun opened the curtain and walked to Xia Xingche's bed, only to see that the man had woken up, but his eyes were terribly empty, as if he had given up everything and desperately wanted to leave this world.

But helpless how can not do without.

"Xia Xingche, you're trying to scare me to death." He sat next to Xia Xingche's bed and looked at him worriedly, "What's going on with you, why are you..."

I just can't think about it.

"My mother didn't die in childbirth, she committed suicide."

Jiang Chengyun froze, his expression suddenly changed: "What?"

"She is a very good painter. Before my father married her, she had achieved a lot in her own field, but my father thought that women should stay at home with their husbands and children and should not show their faces. After a long time, she became mentally ill. After giving birth to us, my dad separated us from her and didn't let us see her, so she lived alone in the next house."

"Maybe people will do crazy and irrational things when they are driven to a dead end. Xia Xingcheng and I went to find her that day. In order not to let my aunt find out that we sneaked in here, I stayed at the door and let Xia Xingcheng go in. But nothing happened. Thinking of my mother taking out a knife and stabbing herself when she was holding Xia Xingcheng, my mother held him tightly and almost strangled him to death. I couldn't make a sound, so I just watched my mother hug Xia Xingcheng with a grim face, got Xia Xingcheng covered in blood, and finally jumped down from the third floor."

"Xia Xingcheng kept calling me, but I didn't dare to go in. I watched him stand up unsteadily after being pushed down by my mother, walked to the window, stepped on the stool and looked out the window, he must have seen his mother fall downstairs The appearance, I felt terrible just thinking about it, but he looked at it, then turned his head and looked at me and suddenly stopped crying, that appearance was so calm and scary, he let me go, but I didn’t dare.”

"I didn't even dare to shout because I was afraid. Xia Xingcheng passed out on the floor and I dared to go in. When I was sent to the hospital, my mother died on the spot. After Xia Xingcheng woke up, he not only forgot about me, but also hated me very much. He obviously doesn't remember anything, but he was also the one who saw me first, but he really hates me."

Xia Xingche, who had just woken up, was still pale. Hearing him trembling and talking like this, Jiang Chengyun was shocked and very uncomfortable.

In fact, in his eyes, Xia Xingche had always been very weird. His personality wasn't bad, but his expression was too awkward.He has known these two brothers since he was a child. When he first met, he saw that Xia Xingche was always several meters away from them, but kept looking at them. In fact, he wanted to play with them but he was so awkward that he never came up. He went up to ask If you want to play together, you simply refuse, but it is clear in your eyes that you want to play with them.

He sometimes hates Xia Xingche's existence, but when it makes Xia Xingcheng cry, he hates it, and the rest of the time he just complains about why this person is so awkward, and he is so annoying when he clearly wants to express it to Xia Xingcheng , then what else can he say, after all, it is the matter of these two brothers, he has said what he should say, he has helped what should be done, and the most important thing is that these two people have to deal with it by themselves.

There was also the matter of their mother, which was what shocked him the most.

That is to say, Xia Xingcheng was stimulated when he was a child and forgot how his mother died, but Xia Xingche still remembered it clearly and always wanted to make it up because of guilt.

"In the afternoon, Xia Xingcheng heard me chatting with my dad and remembered what happened before, and then he left without saying anything. I don't know what he thinks, I want to know what he thinks, but I found Not to him..." Xia Xingche clenched his hands so hard that he seemed to sink his nails into his flesh, the pain could no longer relieve the torment in his heart at the moment, and he couldn't get out of the torment he had been suffering all this time. He thought he could let go of his predicament, but he couldn't let it go at all. He still felt that his cowardice had hurt Xia Xingcheng. Even if Xia Xingcheng didn't remember anything, he still felt guilty.

He's guilty, he deserves the pain.

He kept wondering if Xia Xingcheng would be okay when he thought about it, and if he couldn't stand the stimulation like their mother and did something stupid, the infinite possibilities in his mind almost broke his nerves.

But in fact, he was the one who was crazy, but he had been refusing to admit it.

"Xia Xingche, you were still young at the time, so you can't think like that." Jiang Cheng figured out why Xia Xingche was always so cautious. It was because he didn't enter the house and didn't dare to enter the house.

"I'm scared. I know I'm always making mistakes. I know the way I express myself is wrong, but I can't control myself. I really can't control myself." Xia Xingche raised his newly cut arm slightly, his eyes lighted Wei Shan: "You know what, even though it was painful just now, I feel very comfortable in my heart."

Jiang Chengyun's heart skipped a beat. He stared blankly at Xia Xingche and had some thoughts that he shouldn't have.

"What I regret most is that I hurt him and hurt his eyes. During the two months when he couldn't see him, the doctor said he couldn't cry because he needed to be prescribed medicine. I watched him lying on the bed and hid in the corner without daring to make a sound. , He doesn't cry but he is very sad, I felt it, so I cried for him." Xia Xingche injured his left hand, and he raised his right hand and slightly pulled away the position where he was wearing the watch.

Jiang Chengyun felt that he was really going crazy. He pulled Xia Xingche's right hand and took off the watch. The overlapping scars on it were like knives, and it hurt his heart.

"...Xia Xingche, you..."

"As long as I accidentally make my brother angry, I'll slash. Once I slash, I will have a long memory, but I still don't have a long memory." Xia Xingche smiled weakly, looking at his pale face. Very sad: "I was looking for him all over the campus just now, I have been looking for him, even the pond I almost went down to look for him, but thinking about it, I should be crazy, how could my brother be in the pond, I should be in the pond That's right."

Jiang Chengyun felt very depressed when he heard these increasingly negative words, he held Xia Xingche's right hand tightly: "Stop talking, I will accompany you to find him, if you have anything to say slowly, okay?"

Xia Xingche felt his hands being tightly held, he felt like a fish stuck in a bottle and couldn't break free, someone pulled him up forcefully.

Tired and slowly closed his eyes: "Okay, I will speak slowly, go to bed first..."

Jiang Chengyun saw someone holding his hand and fell asleep. This hand was terribly cold, only the palm was still warm, as if as long as he let go, it would be completely cold.

He was rejoicing, fortunately, he ran fast.

Otherwise it's really over.

.

There was the sound of dripping water in the bathroom, and what filled the bathroom was not hot air but cold water that was almost the same temperature as in October.

Standing under the shower, his thin body was still being washed by cold water, his hands resting on the wall, his body trembling, and his clenched fists pressed against the wall, trying to relieve the panic in his heart.

Xia Xingcheng raised his head and raised his hands to comb all the hair on his forehead, revealing a clean face, and he didn't know if there were tears in the water that fell on his face, but his eyes were red anyway.

He stared at the wall tightly, not knowing what he was thinking, and there were trembling ripples in the depths of his eyes, because his heart was in a mess.

It was as if my heart was being stabbed by something, it hurt very much.

I don't know how long it took me to wash, my whole body was trembling and trembling, and then I reached out and touched my heart. What did it feel like, something was stripped from my body, was he too irritable?

knock knock --

Suddenly there was a knock on the bathroom door.

"Chengcheng, you've been washing for too long."

It wasn't until he heard Lu Wei's voice that he came back to his senses, quickly switched to hot water and rushed again, and at the same time shouted outside: "It's almost there!"

Oh really, what was he thinking.

"Chengcheng, I have something to tell you."

Ok?

He suddenly looked at the door, his eyes lit up, what did you say?

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Come on, come on, just open the door.

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Hey, you give me a squeak so that I am not so lonely, I am so lonely

[Lying on the floor and needing a kiss to get up╭(╯^╰)╮]

Thank you little cuties for the nutrition~