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The father and son, who hadn't seen each other for a long time, met each other almost half a year later, and when they met, they looked at each other silently, as indifferent as passers-by.

Xia Xingcheng looked at his father in front of him, he was still used to wearing a suit when meeting him, he was meticulous from head to toe, his face was as stern as if he was about to discuss business, and he couldn't let go of his disguise in the workplace in front of him.

After taking a sip of hot cocoa, he spoke: "Dad, I'm very busy. I don't have time to waste time with you face to face. If you have anything to say, just say it."

He was also very surprised that his father would come to Haishi. When he received the call, he thought about it and came out. The matter still had to be resolved.

Xia Shangzhe looked at his eldest son whom he had not seen for a long time, and his face seemed to be better than at home: "It seems that the school food is not bad, and his face is much better than when he was at home."

Xia Xingcheng put the cup on the table, and the porcelain cup collided with the glass table crisply. He suddenly felt a little funny: "Dad, can I still eat well when I look at your face at home? I'm not crazy. yes, isn't it?"

Xia Shangzhe's complexion changed subtly: "You—"

"I remembered. Mom committed suicide, not dystocia."

Xia Shangzhe couldn't hold back the cold surprise on his face and looked at his son: "Do you remember?"

This was an accident that he hadn't expected at all, and it caught him off guard. Originally, he wanted to tell the children about him and his mother, but he never expected the eldest son to remember it.

The youngest son didn’t know, but the eldest son knew a lot about the past, because he always ran into Zhou Rui’s house because of his mischievous nature, and caught himself arguing with Zhou Rui several times. At that time, the child was still young, and he always didn’t understand why he was so biased , always asked him 'Dad, why do I love you so much but you don't love me, you only love my mother', Zhou Rui was emotionally unstable and would lose her temper with her children, saying that her father belonged to her alone, and you don't have a father.

Afterwards, Zhou Rui became more unstable mentally, and even cared about her children. On the one hand, she hated herself and on the other hand, she wanted to occupy him completely. In addition, Chengcheng had a talent for painting since she was very young, and her mouth was sweet. Always calling him father and never calling mother, Zhou Rui developed malice towards this child, and it was the malice he was terrified of, which hurt Chengcheng several times.

So why was he so afraid of Chengcheng recovering his memory after that incident? Although Che Che forgot, he didn't know these things, and he didn't know how his relationship with Zhou Rui was, but he always ran into him and Zhou Rui. Chengcheng remembers Rui's quarrel, and even when he grows up, he will inadvertently say a few words that are close to Zhou Rui, which will make him terrified.

He knew that the child hated him very much, but he was even more afraid that the child would disillusion the mother in his mind. He would rather put all the faults on himself than let the children blame Zhou Rui.

Seeing his father's expression, Xia Xingcheng knew that things were not as simple as he thought:

"Xia Xingche told me that it's because you locked up your mother and forced her to get sick, didn't you?"

"Yes." Xia Shangzhe nodded, "It's my fault."

"Why did you lie to me?"

Xia Shangzhe's heart skipped a beat when he heard this, and he put his clenched hands on the table to reveal his emotions: "What?"

"Mom is really sick, mentally ill, she's crazy so you still let her be crazy, right?"

Such words are undoubtedly piercing, the expression on Xia Shangzhe's face could no longer be stable, he even showed anger at the child again, the fine lines at the end of his eyes affected the facial nerves with displeasure:

"Don't say that about your mother!"

Xia Xingcheng: "...It seems that my dream is real, you are true love, and Xia Xingche and I were accidental. I think you kept the image of my mother in my heart by hiding it for so many years, right?" He said Sighing and feeling speechless: "Do you think it's possible? I'm not a stupid kid, and I'm not stupid at all. I don't know how to analyze at all. Your so-called protection is all about using, and you even used Xia Xingche. You know that he You are really a good father to use him when something goes wrong!"

After saying this, his chest heaved up and down, his eyes were red, and he held the edge of the table tightly: "The one you should never use is Xia Xingche, don't you know what's going on with him? I think you must be the one who knows best." Yes. Did Xia Xingche also forget what happened that day? Did he remember it wrong? That day was not what he saw, right? In his memory, you were the one who killed his mother, but I You forgot. In order to have a little trust in front of Xia Xingche, you used Xia Xingche to lie to me that my mother had a dystocia, and said that it was for me to protect me, afraid that I would be stimulated, and that I would be like my mother, but in fact you It's for yourself, you want to make Xia Xingche feel that you really want to protect me, not to protect your image as a woman, you don't want our mother to be a lunatic, a mother who will hurt the child and doesn't love her, even if I hurt you and tried my best to create illusions for us. Mom is a good person, an innocent woman, and everything was caused by you, right? You want us to hate you alone, don’t you? "

He looked at his father, staring directly at him, but his father didn't even dare to look at him. Suddenly he leaned back on the chair as if he was out of strength, his eyes were moist, with unprecedented sadness.

"Dad, when I was young, the teacher asked me to write about my family in my composition. I couldn't write about you, and I couldn't write about Xia Xingche. I only wrote about the mother I had never met. In my fantasy, my mother was a very gentle My mother would sit by the window and knit us sweaters with loving eyes. I would write that my mother always looked at me with eyes full of love, because I was her favorite baby. But I found that it was not the case Yes, in the dark, my mother looked at me with a pair of disgusted eyes, but she avoided me at the fastest speed at the moment of meeting, she avoided my eyes full of love when I looked at her, she took my last The longing for home is extinguished. My disillusionment with all the memories coming back, my entire disillusionment with the whole family, I get it."

"You want to protect your mother, me and Xia Xingche with the love you think, but you are really wrong. Not only did you fail to protect your beloved woman, you also failed to protect the child who came to this world by accident. Why do I still feel heartache after everyone has been hurt?"

Xia Xingcheng took a deep breath to calm down his emotions. Seeing that his father didn't look at him after all, his heart was already cold: "Dad, it's wrong to be obsessed with obsession. Why don't you understand after living for so many years? It seems that you haven't really lost anything. Do you know how Xia Xingche lived, do you know how I lived? Have you asked? Have you cared? Do you know that your two children want to die every minute?"

Xia Shangzhe looked up at the child in front of him, seeing Xia Xingcheng's red eyes full of pain, he was speechless, because it was true, he had been running away, but he made a wrong step, he couldn't turn back, because he wanted to make up for what had happened It's too late, all he can do now is not to let Zhou Rui appear again, otherwise everything will become out of control.

"I have to walk every step according to your way since I was a child. It seems that I am afraid that we will take a wrong step at a certain stage. Did I scare you? I paint, I don't study hard, I have a bad temper, I I always talk back to you, does the appearance of me resisting everything for freedom scare you, afraid that I will jump off like my mother at a certain moment?"

Xia Shangzhe seemed to be frightened when he heard something shocking: "Chengcheng..."

Xia Xingcheng really wanted to laugh when he saw how scared he was, but he couldn't. He held the cup tightly and his eyes became more and more calm:

"Do you think I'm such a stupid person? Have you ever seen me give up because of suppression, no, I naturally have a way to find the freedom I want, I won't push myself into a mess, because I want a future , I want the future I dreamed of, I don't want a future that is as perfect as the program."

"You say I'm not good at reading and my attitude is not correct, but have you cared about my study seriously? Even if I can get full marks in all subjects, why should I take the test? I take the test for myself, not for your requirements mechanically. Going to the exam, can I pursue what I like? If it is not possible, why should I follow your way. You bought me a university, do you know that is insulting me?"

"You can ask me, but I can't doubt my love for painting. Even if there is some influence from my mother, it is different. This is what I love. It has nothing to do with what my mother once said. You can't take my only painting all these years. Destroying my only hope, you have already ruined my youth and can't come again to destroy my dream!"

"I'm not interested in the past of you and mom at all. I don't have so many messy things. My goal is very simple and pure. I am down-to-earth for my dreams. I am not wrong. It doesn't matter if you don't support me, this The world is so big and there is room for me, that is, a place with you Xia Shangzhe can't accommodate Xia Xingche and me, because we brothers never appeared in this world with your blessings."

This round of criticism was like a silent hysteria, ruthlessly and sharply shattered Xia Shangzhe's desire to ask for forgiveness, the change of address from "you" to "you" could be heard, it was too late.

Because the kids are all grown up.

"Are you reconciled with Che Che?" Xia Shangzhe asked after a long silence.

This tragedy has been irreversible, and he naturally understands that anything else is a pale explanation, and if he is wrong, he is wrong. The only thing he can do is to reconcile the two brothers.

Because they are all innocent, and they are all misunderstandings because of him.

Xia Xingcheng was furious when he heard this: "When did I get on bad terms with him, who made me get on bad terms with him, wasn't it you? I thought you wanted to see this kind of plot where brothers kill each other, So are you satisfied? He is sick and I am injured, is it as you wished."

Such sharp criticism of Xia Shangzhe could only endure, because every sharp word was the harm he brought to the children, and now he will return everything to him.

"It's all my fault, you are innocent." Xia Shangzhe sighed: "I am obsessed with obsession, I thought I could make your mother no longer obsessed with oil painting, which she is not good at, but I didn't think that my protection would be so important to her. It hurts. I thought that I gave her the biggest house and the best life was the best way for her, but I was wrong. She loves fantasy and she wants to be free. I don’t want to let go, and finally let her choose such an extreme way ,It was my fault."

"At that time, I didn't dare to provoke your mother. She hugged you and threatened me, saying that she would kill you if she didn't let her leave. She used the most extreme way, hurt me, hurt you and your brother, and hurt you. Yourself. Because you were too afraid of amnesia, you completely forgot the existence of your mother and such a memory. At that time, I held your brother in my arms and did not let him in. He kept shouting that you wanted to go in, and he cried When he fainted, his memory was confused after waking up. He thought it was because I didn’t let my mother paint and finally forced my mother to commit suicide. Stimulating. In order not to let you know that your mother once hurt you, you told your brother that your mother had a dystocia. Your brother originally hated me, but because he was afraid that you would think of it and agree with what I said, he held back the resentment in his heart."

"I met your mother at the wrong time and started a wrong love, and because of this mistake, I hurt you. It's all my fault. I thought I could cover up everything so that you would never recall the past. But I didn't think that this would be a second injury to you, and I didn't think that it would make your brother's situation worse. He is sick and suffers from bipolar disorder. I dare not tell him too much, since he thinks I'm wrong, then it's my fault."

bipolar disorder?

Xia Xingcheng frowned tightly, and didn't have time to think about it. He drank the whole cup of hot cocoa in a fit of anger, and became very dizzy. The large green flashing in front of his eyes made him feel a little uncomfortable. He looked at his father and didn't want to say too much:

"Needless to say, I will not forgive you."

Has it been explained in the past?

"I know." Xia Shangzhe smiled weakly leaning on the back of the chair, the curve was very pale, and the fine lines at the corners of his eyes sank deeper under such a smile, which was the trace left by the years: "Then do you still recognize me as a father? "

The vicissitudes and helplessness in the middle-aged man's voice are full of repentance and humbleness, it sounds very pitiful.

Xia Xingcheng's eyes fell on the faintly visible silver strands between his father's temples, and his eyes flickered. His father, who seemed to have never changed his temperament and appearance in suits and leather shoes, had been taken away by the years, with the pain he had concealed for many years. Getting old, but it doesn't have to be.

"You're just my dad."

The pain has already been caused, which is irreversible. He has been so disappointed in his parents, and there is no room in his heart to keep him. The only remaining titles are father and mother.

Only the title remains.

"I see." Xia Shangzhe smiled, his eyes seemed moist: "Yesterday was the birthday of both of you. Dad knows that you don't want to see me. Someone should pass it for you, right? That's good." Then He took out two cards from his pocket and pushed them in front of Xia Xingcheng: "One is yours, and the other is your brother's, which is the company's dividend. Put it on your body, don't spend money tied up, my son, Xia Shangzhe, deserves it." the best."

Xia Xingcheng exerted a slight force on his masseter muscle, as if he was enduring something: "What, are you insulting me with money again? I don't need money."

"Still caring about the title of the idiot son of the gold mine owner?" Xia Shangzhe smiled: "I have already dealt with those who said you. How could my son, Xia Shangzhe, be said so casually?"

Xia Xingcheng felt that his bottom line was being compromised all the time, he quickly put the two cards into his pocket, and then turned his face away: "Okay, I know, you go, we will always be good, after all, there is no Parents have grown up like this, and they will be like this in the future."

The atmosphere was silent for a moment, as if something was brewing.

"Okay." Xia Shangzhe kept the smile on his face, with tears in his eyes. This sound exhausted all the strength in his body, because he was letting go of the most painful flesh in his heart, he stood up and looked at the eldest son in front of him: "Yes Empty... go home and have a look."

After speaking, he left the coffee shop without looking back, walking steadily, as if he was still the ruthless Xia Shangzhe in the shopping mall, but the shoulders that had always been straight had been crushed by the years and drooped slightly.

Go home and have a look?

Do you still have a home?

Why didn't I think so before.

Xia Xingcheng's gaze fell outside the glass window. He saw his father's assistant drive the car over, watched his father get in the car, watched his father close the window, and watched the car go away, his vision gradually blurred.

He didn't recover until his hand was held.

"Brother Wei, am I strong?"

"Baby is very strong." Lu Wei sat down from the table behind him, he listened to everything, and watched Xia Xingcheng's originally valiant back slowly lower, his pretended strength finally revealed his fragility, he stretched out his hand to support Xia Xingcheng Putting his head on his shoulder, he coaxed softly.

"That's the end of the story." Xia Xingcheng took Lu Wei's hand that was around his shoulder, interlocked his fingers, and concealed his forbearance under his slightly trembling eyelashes: "Start again."

He would act as if he had never had such a bad parent, never had such a cruel past, never had any fantasy dreams, and had no fantasies about his family.

He's going to start over.

"Chengcheng, I will give you a home, don't be afraid." Lu Wei felt Xia Xingcheng's hands trembling, and his eyes fell on his side face, seeing his slightly clenched cheeks: "Don't be afraid, okay?"

Xia Xingcheng turned his head to look at Captain Lu's worried eyes: "I'm not afraid, how could I be afraid without you, I'm just..." As he said that, he stared at the table quietly, his eyelashes trembling slightly as if forming a thick and fragile curved shadow : "I'm just angry."

He was angry at why he wanted to be Xia Shangzhe's child, even if he was an orphan, even if he was a very ordinary person, he didn't want his birth to be a meaningless birth, without the love of his parents, without his own freedom , bound by everything.

Even if he doesn't think about it, the scene of himself struggling but powerless will still appear in his mind. He really sacrificed a lot for his freedom, because he didn't want to compromise.

But Xia Xingche compromised time and time again, the saddest one was none other than Xia Xingche.

"Brother Wei, Xia Xingche, I will wait patiently for him to say, I want to wait for him."

"Well, you are a good brother."

"I'm not, I think I'm pretty stupid, so I can't see that there is something wrong with Xia Xingche." Xia Xingcheng wiped his tears with the back of Wei Lu's hand, and finally couldn't help it, his eyes were red: "I miss him well." Get up, I don't want anything to happen to him."

So he has to be strong, the past is over, he will not forgive those who should not be forgiven, and he must be patient with those who should be impatient.

Everything will be better.

Lu Wei put a kiss on the back of his hand: "It's okay, let's help him together."

Xia Xingcheng nodded, and after a while, a large green light spot appeared in front of his eyes again. It was very uncomfortable, so he held back and didn't say anything.

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