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In the past few days, Lu Wei has been taking care of Xia Xingcheng in front of the hospital bed, and he is afraid that something will happen to this guy if he is not paying attention.At the same time, in order for Xia Xingcheng to have a good rest, he didn't let anyone enter this ward, except for the doctors and nurses, he didn't even let his parents in, let alone other people.

He just wanted to spend time with Xia Xingcheng, without anyone bothering him.

The snow in the deep winter is long and cold, and the overwhelming pallor is not aesthetically pleasing, but the boy sitting by the window with gauze wrapped in his eyes seems to light up this paleness, dyeing the snow-white world with some bright colors.That white and slender hand tapped on the glass, and the water drops followed the fingertips, which also made his heart tremble.

He opened the door and saw this scene, watching Xia Xingcheng sitting by the window, the feeling of desperately longing to restore the light fell on that hand.

Such a good boy, this is the belief he used to live on. No one can hurt the boy he loves so much.

No one will be kind to anyone who hurts him.

Xia Xingcheng fiddled with the glass window in boredom, the coldness from his fingertips made his body tremble, as if he was longing for something and felt quite comfortable, because he wanted to touch things to find a sense of existence because he couldn't see him.

It's really boring these days, even if you can't see it, it's still so quiet. In the early morning, Wei Lu didn't know where to go, and he was alone in the ward, without any sound.

At this moment, he felt a heat source approaching behind him, and he was hugged into his arms after a while, and he laughed out loud when he smelled the familiar smell: "Brother Wei!"

"What are you doing?" Lu Wei held the hand he was scratching on the glass window just now, frowned when he felt the cold fingertips, and then wrapped his hand in the palm of his hand: "Don't play anymore, it's so cold."

Xia Xingcheng curled his lips when he heard Lu Wei's sullen voice: "Then I'm bored, otherwise why would I play, can I play with you?"

"can."

As soon as the voice behind her fell, her chin was gently lifted, and the dazed lips on the back of her neck were gently held, because the touch on any part of her body was clearer and stronger than usual because her eyes were blindfolded. , even the feeling has been magnified several times.

This kind of gentle kiss is obviously without any eroticism, but he has a feeling that is more sensitive than usual. Wei Lu's slightly rough fingertips rubbed his cheeks, and the position where the fingertips passed seemed to be weak in an instant. Such an electric current made the apex of my heart tremble uncontrollably.

Perhaps it was Lu Wei who felt the changes in his body slowly deepening the kiss. At this moment, the temperature in the mouth and the softness of the entanglement seemed to stimulate the secretion of the brain, and the crazy desire continued to spread. Show flaws.

At this moment, he really wanted to see Wei Lu's face, to see Wei Lu's expression.

He was really scared, afraid that he would really lose sight.

It was Lu Wei who kept waking him up by his side, and it was the former Lu Wei who pushed him back, making him no longer alone in the world.

"Brother Wei, I really like you."

The two were panting together, and their breaths were intertwined, telling each other tender words of love.

Lu Wei sat beside him and hugged him in his arms, his kiss gently landed on Xia Xingcheng's gauze-wrapped eyes, cautious but gentle as water: "I love you."

"Ah, you already said you love me, so my liking is too light, so I have to say I love you too."

"You can keep yours."

"When will you stay?"

"You can tell me when you are willing to put the ring on me."

Hearing this, Xia Xingcheng subconsciously touched the ring on his neck, and when he touched it, he felt full of heart: "Brother Wei, why don't I put it on for you now."

Lu Wei covered his hand holding the ring with his hand, and his eyes fell on him with hot eyes: "Really?"

"Of course it's true. Your family is the only one left in my world now, isn't it you? Don't you want me?"

"No, how could I not want you." Lu Wei leaned his head gently on his chest, and gently stroked his hair: "You are the proof that I am alive, I am afraid that you don't want me. "

Xia Xingcheng heard the heartbeat from Lu Wei's chest, so strong and powerful, it seemed to vibrate his eardrums, just like Lu Wei's deep and magnetic voice when he was talking about love: "Brother Wei, I won't let you Don't worry, I will take good care of myself, this is the last time, I won't let anyone hurt me, and I won't let you cry for me again."

"I didn't cry."

"Liar, you obviously cried, you cry every day."

"Can't you see it?"

"But I'm not deaf. I can hear you, even if you whisper." He rubbed Lu Wei's chest and put his hands on Lu Wei's waist: "I can hear you crying in your heart , So Lu Wei, don't cry secretly, from now on when the two of us feel uncomfortable, we either cry to each other, or we are not allowed to cry, okay?"

Lu Wei didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "What is crying to you?"

"It's just that we both look at each other and cry, and we are not allowed to cry behind each other's back." Xia Xingcheng reached out to touch Wei Lu's face, holding Wei Lu's face with both hands, probably looking directly at him: "Cry like this, then I will know how uncomfortable you are. , you can also know that I am uncomfortable."

Lu Wei felt very sour on the gauze-wrapped face. Fortunately, it was God's blessing. This kind of thing was just an accident, so that his baby could recover in the not-too-distant future.

"Okay, then it's settled, and you are not allowed to cry with your back to each other." He smiled, his eyes filled with tears.

Xia Xingcheng with sharp ears heard the strangeness in Lu Wei's voice: "Look, you are crying, aren't you?"

"Well, crying to you."

Xia Xingcheng felt a little distressed, and slowly touched Lu Wei's eyes with his hands, and felt uncomfortable when he touched the wet corners of his eyes: "I'm fine, don't be sad, my eyes are covered in medicine, you are messing with me!" I cry."

"Don't cry." Lu Wei tilted his head and kissed him: "Don't cry."

"Then don't cry either." Xia Xingcheng said domineeringly.

"I'll listen to whatever you say."

"Hey hey hey."

Snow is flying all over the sky outside the window, and the interior is almost warming enthusiasm.

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The next day, Lu Wei was discharged from the hospital to take better care of Xia Xingcheng and went back to his family's mountain villa to recuperate. There is a dedicated medical team at home that is no worse than the hospital's, and the main reason is that it is convenient for someone to take care of him.

Even though he has turned off part of his work to take care of Xia Xingcheng, there are still things that need to be dealt with. He is afraid that this guy won't know where he will bump into again when he is distracted, so he was discharged from the hospital and went home after consulting Xia Xingcheng's opinion.

In fact, there is also a reason that he hopes that the doctor at home can provide Xia Xingcheng with psychological counseling.

The villa located in the middle of the mountain is as beautiful as a castle, and the red and white colors are still eye-catching under the white snow.The restless dog in a certain room has already groped the room completely, because the sense of space is better, and he can quickly remember the arrangement of some furniture in the room to avoid hurting himself.

"Xia Xingche, what are you doing?"

When Wei Lu was leaving, he pestered him to make a phone call with Xia Xingche. He was just chatting with someone boringly, but he was actually afraid that Xia Xingche would be frightened.

Xia Xingche almost didn't cry when he received Xia Xingcheng's call. He was seeing a psychiatrist at this moment. It was like his redemption, freeing him from this dark week.

"elder brother."

Xia Xingcheng frowned when he heard this voice: "Why are you crying? Isn't it you, what a big deal you are crying."

"Are you feeling better? Can you see with your eyes?" Xia Xingche tried his best to keep his voice from changing.

"You can see it after a week. It's all right. How about you, are you at school?" Xia Xingcheng also wanted to ask his brother to come and look for him. Although he might be scolded by Lu Wei, he really so boring.

"I am home."

Xia Xingcheng was puzzled: "At home? You went home? No, are you asking for leave at this time?"

"Well, I'm seeing a doctor." Xia Xingche raised his head, trying not to let his tears flow down: "Brother, I'm sick..."

But when he said this, he still couldn't control his emotions. This was his salvation. He couldn't get out of the predicament because of Xia Xingcheng. situation.

Xia Xingcheng held the phone tightly, feeling very complicated: "You...why didn't you tell me earlier, what did the doctor say about you?"

"Bipolar disorder."

"what does it mean?"

"It's just that sometimes I'm depressed and sometimes manic. It's not easy to control my emotions, so I need to take medicine."

Xia Xingcheng understood: "It's pretty good looking, have you taken your medicine well?"

"Well, I'm eating."

"Is it okay to take medicine?"

"Can control."

Xia Xingcheng touched the gauze on his eyes and said, "It's okay, it's such a big deal, just grit your teeth and it's over, we've passed through all that misery, really, Xia Xingche, don't let me underestimate you, if you You can’t even get through this. Think about me. I’m miserable. I won’t talk about things when I was a child. Just say that you accidentally injured me a year ago, did I survive on my own? Now I can’t see Do I have to get over it. Who else can I blame, I want to blame too, but if I go on like this, I will be tired. Just like if I forgive you, I let myself go, and you have to let go of yourself .”

After he finished speaking, he heard Xia Xingche's crying over there, like a helpless child, and it hurt to hear it.

"Xia Xingche, you have to work hard too. If you are brave enough to tell me now, then you can tell me how you are in the future. We are still so young and we must not pay for the bloody things of our parents. Brother, get over it. !" He said to beat Xia Xingche, naturally he didn't want Xia Xingche to be so sad.

I was also worried whether Xia Xingche would be particularly sad.

After all, I heard that some psychotherapy is quite abnormal.

"Brother, I want to go back and see you."

"Okay, we can meet in a week. I'm sure I'll be fine by then. I hope you'll be fine too. You promised to protect me so you can't fall down so quickly. Don't be like your mother. You're not her. We will not be their victims, we are who we are, and we have unfulfilled dreams, you know?"

A sobbing boy stood by the window of the treatment room. At this time, he had already let go of his maturity against his age, and then cried out the most painful past in his heart to his brother.

Xia Xingche looked out of the window with tears in his eyes. From here, there were only very small buildings. He had thought of this countless times before, thinking of jumping off, he would become a small thing in one thing, and be reduced to ashes. more comfortable than living.The pressure he put on himself was confused with the pain he had suffered, just like what the doctor said, he didn't want to let go of himself, only letting go would be useful.

He thought maybe only after meeting his brother could he think about how to let go.

"I see."

But now that there is a backlog of secrets in his heart, what should he do.