after a hangover

On the morning of Chinese New Year's Eve, Chen Wenxuan woke up early.

According to the usual practice, I have to go to the grave of my ancestors this morning, and when I come back, I have to hang lanterns and paste couplets. There are a lot of miscellaneous things. If you are not careful, it is easy to delay the noon meal, so you have to get up early.

Chen Wenxuan felt that it was the right thing to go home for the New Year this year. From the day he came home when he was young until today, the smiles on the faces of the three old people in the family have not disappeared. It is the first time he has seen them so happy.

On the first day back home, Chen Wenxuan woke up before 06:30 in the morning.He hasn't slept on the kang for several years, even though his mother laid two layers of mattresses for him last night, his body still hurts after sleeping all night, and he still uses the bed, which makes the situation worse.But Chen Wenxuan still slept very contentedly, just like the old saying, golden nests and silver nests are not as good as his own kennel, although this statement is crude, it is not unreasonable.

There was another incident that morning that Chen Wenxuan found particularly funny.

When he woke up in the morning, it was still dark, and there was no sound in his father's room. The two old people probably hadn't woken up yet. He opened the curtain and looked outside, and then lay on the kang and played with his mobile phone.

At 06:30, his father's footsteps came from the living room, and Chen Wenxuan quickly put down the phone after hearing it.But after reacting to his actions, he couldn't help laughing. He was so sleepy that night that he was so confused that he thought he was in high school.In the past, every time he was playing with his mobile phone, he would hide his mobile phone as soon as he heard his father's footsteps, because his father would educate him every time he saw him playing with his mobile phone.Later, he also learned to be smart, and quickly hid his mobile phone when he heard his father's footsteps.

His father's footsteps did not stop in front of his room door, but turned into the kitchen, and within a short while there was the sound of clanging pots and pans.After hearing this, Chen Wenxuan stopped playing with his mobile phone, but put down his mobile phone and listened attentively to the sounds in the kitchen.Sure enough, within three or two minutes, his mother entered the kitchen, slapped his father on the back, and kicked him out of the kitchen.

This is what happens every time Chen Wenxuan goes home in winter. The nights in Northeast China are long, but dinner is still eaten at the usual time, and his parents go to bed early, so every four or five o'clock in the morning Sometimes his father would be too hungry to sleep, but his mother likes to sleep late in winter, so he can only get up and go to the kitchen to cook by himself.

But if he cooks quietly, he won't get a fucking beating, every time he cooks it's like a war, the noise is only loud.After waking up Chen Wenxuan once, as long as Chen Wenxuan was at home, his father would be kicked out by his mother when he entered the kitchen in the morning.After a few times, Chen Wenxuan was too embarrassed to let his father get beaten for sleeping, so every time he heard his father get up, he would follow him, but this time he didn't get up on purpose.When his father saw him yesterday, he first smiled, and then said that he had a big face.Although it's true that you have a big face, don't say it so clearly.

After cheating on his father briefly, Chen Wenxuan would wake up with his father every morning to prevent the old man from starving.

On the morning of the thirties, every family in the village got up very early, and the sound of whipping came and went one after another.Chen Wenxuan and his father also went out and released two kickers and a whip.In fact, he would not set off so many whips in the morning, but the old man went to the county to buy 300 yuan of firecrackers and fireworks after seeing him coming back, but he was complained by his mother again when he came back.This is a good thing in the countryside. No one will control you to set off the whip. At night, everyone will come out to watch the fireworks of various houses.

Originally, his father did not agree with Chen Wenxuan going to the grave on the [-]th day. The Chen family's ancestral grave is on the mountain, and it takes about an hour to walk from the village to the mountain road. Moreover, it is still winter, and the mountain is covered with knee-deep snow. Normal people struggled to walk, not to mention that Chen Wenxuan's arms were still hanging around his neck, if he fell while walking, he couldn't even grab something to help him.But in the end the old man still didn't turn around Chen Wenxuan and let him go.

Chen Wenxuan insisted on going because he hadn't visited his grandma since she passed away. He just sent a little extra money home every year during Chinese New Year, and asked his father to buy some paper money for him to burn for her.Now thinking about the past, Chen Wenxuan just wanted to give himself a slap, because he didn't go home because of other people's gossip, it really deserved a slap.

After breakfast, the Chen family went to the grave with paper money tributes and firecrackers.

The father and son walked for almost two hours before reaching the place.Chen Wenxuan's physical strength was not as good as his father's, and his father had to give him a hand from time to time on the road.

Chen Wenxuan felt that his father was unusually silent all the way, except that he couldn't walk on the way, his father gave him a hand and said "give me your hand", and didn't say anything else.This is not normal, his dad is the most talkative in his house, sometimes his grandpa is so annoying that he doesn't want to come to his house.But what happened today?

His father didn't say anything, and Chen Wenxuan didn't dare to ask.

When they arrived at the cemetery, Chen Wenxuan stood by with his hands hanging. His father cleared the snow for each ancestral grave, placed offerings, and finally put a whip.

Chen Wenxuan stood in front of his grandma's grave, looking at the tombstone and feeling a little sour.

Grandma, Chen Wenxuan said silently in his heart, grandson is not filial, it took so long to come to see you.Grandson wants to tell you something today. If you are angry after hearing it, you can wait until grandson goes underground to beat me a few times to vent your anger. But now, grandson can't listen to you.Grandma, grandson can't bring his great-grandson to see you, I fell in love with a man.I know you will be angry, but grandson really can't help it. I tried not to think about him and live on my own, but it didn't work. I found that even though he lied to me, I still love him.

I know you will say what two men love, and I don't know how to answer you, even I don't know why I fell in love with him instead of others.It may be that the timing of his appearance was too good. I lived alone for four years, and I was too scared to be alone.When I go home every day, the house is full of clean pots and cold stoves, and everything I say echoes.But it was different when he was there. My home finally looked like a home, with lights in the room and hot rice in the pot. I was no longer alone.

Grandma, please forgive me, this person has taken root in my heart, and I will never forget him.

After Chen Wenxuan finished reading silently in his heart, regardless of his father's obstruction, he knelt down in front of his grandma's grave and kowtowed.

On the way back, Chen Wenxuan found that his father was still silent. When he was about to get home, the old man suddenly said, "Son, are you happy being a teacher?"

Chen Wenxuan didn't know what his father meant, but he said it straight, "It's okay, it's just a job, there's nothing to be happy about."

"I chatted with your mother this morning, and we both regret that we had to force you to report to the teacher," the old man sighed, "You don't make much money, and you still get angry. When did you suffer from such a loss when you were young? I can see that your right leg is struggling a bit when you walk, it’s not just your right arm that was hit.”

Chen Wenxuan listened to the old man's words, but didn't make a sound. He knew that the old man was just distressed, so he couldn't say anything else. If the old man knew that his injuries were more than those he guessed, he would feel even more distressed.

Seeing that Chen Wenxuan didn't speak, his father continued: "If you don't like being a teacher after you go back, just resign. You don't need to take care of the family. My mother and I are not old enough. You don't need to take care of it, and your grandfather doesn't need you either. Control. You are still young, you can do whatever you want, don’t live on that dead salary, it’s not worth it.”

Chen Wenxuan said "Yes", "Let's talk about it later, I have indeed considered changing jobs, but I haven't made up my mind yet. Don't worry, I will take care of myself."

The two of them walked to the entrance of the village while they were talking. People who came back from the grave on the way were very surprised to see Chen Wenxuan, and asked him when he came back.

After Chen Wenxuan came back, he never went out.There are always some people in the village who talk about other people's family affairs after dinner. He was the first college student in their village back then. Many families with children in the village envied his family. Those who are jealous of his family are watching their jokes behind their backs.So he stayed at home all the time when he came back this time, and didn't want to listen to those nonsense words.

After greeting those people politely, Chen Wenxuan followed his father home.

After arriving home, his father took the paste his mother had made and went out to paste the couplets, leaving Chen Wenxuan, a half-cripple, to follow behind his mother, wandering around the kitchen, eating whatever his mother saw.

This is a habit his mother gave him. When he was a child, he ran wildly outside every day. Every time he was hungry before meal time, his mother was cooking in the kitchen, and he followed her to eat, his mother was annoying He had no choice but to give him what he could eat first, but he got used to this problem.

The fact that Chen Wenxuan went home for the New Year made the old lady very happy. When the year was approaching, she went to the county to buy half a pig, and decided to cook twenty dishes for the New Year this year.After hearing this, Chen Wenxuan quickly discussed with her. There are only four members of their family, when will they have to eat these twenty dishes?

Finally, under Chen Wenxuan's persuasion, his mother finally let go and decided to subtract four.Then no matter how Chen Wenxuan discussed it, he would not reduce it.

After Chen Wenxuan took a piece of cucumber from the chopping board, he went to the plate next to him to get a shrimp, only to find that he couldn't pick it up.

After the old lady saw it from the side, she put down the work in her hand, picked a few for Chen Wenxuan and put them in the bowl, and sighed, "Old son, I have been worried since you were young. You said you love food so much, what if What if someone cheated me with some food one day."

Chen Wenxuan, who was eating happily, was stunned when he heard it. He suddenly thought of someone thousands of miles away. It seemed that he liked being with him at first because the food he cooked was delicious.

After the old lady finished speaking, she ignored Chen Wenxuan and went on with her work.

Chen Wenxuan looked at the shrimp in the bowl, and silently put down the bowl.