after a hangover

After the lights were turned off, the room fell into darkness, and the street lamps in the distance outside the window brought a little light into the dark room through the curtains.

After Chen Wenxuan lay down, he didn't fall asleep as quickly as usual. There was another person's breathing in the room. This breathing sound not only disturbed his heart, but also reminded him of what happened that day.

He was afraid that his family would know about Qin Heng's existence, but today Qin Heng not only entered the house openly, but was also deeply loved by the three elders in the family. It was very similar to Qin Heng coming home without authorization today, but the result was not so good.

When he was five years old, he was bitten by a rabbit because he was naughty to catch the beard of a rabbit. At that time, the finger was almost broken, and the bones could be seen in the wound. Later, he rushed to the hospital for stitches and managed to save it.But he didn't remember it, he just knew that there was a white scar on his right index finger, which he heard from his mother.But the consequences of this incident were very serious, and he was not allowed to touch the rabbit again at home.

Now that he thinks about it, he can understand the feelings of his family members. After all, there is only this one child, and they feel distressed if they get hurt just a little bit.But when he was young, he had a lot of quarrels with the four old people in his family because of raising rabbits. At that time, many people in the village were raising rabbits. The grandma who dotes on him the most doesn't let him go, and she is the one who opposes him the most.

But adults can never imagine how children will resist them.

At that time, the rabbit in Xiaotao's house happened to have a litter of cubs. He secretly asked Xiaotao to keep one for him, but he didn't take it home, so he kept it in Xiaotao's house.Xiaotao has always been his only follower, and it is not difficult to raise a rabbit, so he agreed.During that period of time, he no longer went up mountains and rivers with a group of children, and explored the woods to dig out bird nests. Instead, he spent every day at Xiaotao's house watching rabbits with Xiaotao.At that time, the family thought that he had learned well, and they were happy about it for a while.

But the good times didn't last long, Xiaotao's mother didn't know the secret between him and Xiaotao, just watched him come to the house every day to look at the rabbit, thought he liked it, so she sent the little rabbit home.The four elders in the family found out that he had raised a rabbit secretly and punished him severely, and gave the little rabbit away.

It was the first time he was beaten, and he cried aggrievedly all afternoon, but no one at home comforted him.Later he found out that when he was injured, there was no clinic in the village, nor was it open to traffic. He was carried by his father and his grandmother all the way to the clinic in the village to get stitches. I couldn't stop it, the doctor said that the finger almost couldn't keep it.If that finger really didn't hold, he should be holding the pen with his left hand by now.

So the old people will always love their children in the way they think is right.Because he was bitten by a rabbit, the rabbit has become a dangerous product. They will try their best to eliminate the possibility of the rabbit causing him harm, but they cannot see the happiness that the rabbit will bring to him.Now Qin Heng is in the same position as the rabbit before, and all they see is the harm of him and Qin Heng being together, and this harm is far greater than the bite of the rabbit, so in case they find out about him and Qin Heng relation······

He didn't dare to think about it anymore. If they knew, then how much they liked Qin Heng now, they would hate Qin Heng more then.

forget about it.

Chen Wenxuan stretched out his hand from under the quilt and rubbed his forehead, thinking about these things gave him a headache.

Qin Heng's breathing was very gentle beside him, Chen Wenxuan thought he was asleep, he turned over, faced Qin Heng, opened his eyes to see him, he hadn't looked at him well since the two met.

But as soon as Chen Wenxuan opened his eyes, he was startled by the Qin rabbit on the opposite side. The Qin rabbit was lying on his side facing him, looking at him without blinking, and the street lamp from the curtain hit his face. According to his eyes, those eyes are very much like the eyes of a wolf looking for food in winter, with greed for the food in front of him and the imperative to get it.

Chen Wenxuan felt that he couldn't get angry with Qin Heng at all now, his temper had been smoothed out by Qin Heng long ago.

"Why don't you go to sleep, admit the bed?"

"No, I just can't sleep." Qin Heng still stared at Chen Wenxuan, and licked his lips while speaking.

Chen Wenxuan thought that he was getting drunk, moved closer to him, and asked with concern, "Are you feeling unwell?"

This time Qin Heng didn't speak, but he was still looking at him.

Seeing him like this, Chen Wenxuan turned on the light, lifted the quilt and got off the ground, and whispered in Qin Heng's ear: "You wait in the room for a while, I'll make you a bowl of honey water." After speaking, he went out quietly.

Chen Wenxuan found honey in the kitchen, made half a cup of it with hot water, pressed a lump of coal for the stove, and then quietly returned to his room.

In the room, Qin Heng was still obediently lying on the kang, and Chen Wenxuan did not move when he came back.

Chen Wenxuan thought that Qin Heng was suffering a lot, so he took the cup to the side of the kang, put the cup aside, sat beside Qin Heng and helped him up.But after he helped Qin Heng up, he realized that Qin Heng was not wearing any clothes on his upper body, touching the warm skin under his hands, Chen Wenxuan felt a little embarrassed for a while.But looking at Qin Heng's weak appearance, he felt distressed. He shouldn't be allowed to drink so much wine today.Without any further hesitation, he put Qin Heng in his arms, picked up the glass of honey water with his left hand and handed it to his mouth, saying: "Drink some, this thing is a hangover. You shouldn't be allowed to drink so much today." , I have to sleep on the kang at night, I’m afraid you will get angry when you sleep for the first time, let’s change places later, you sleep on my side.”

Qin Heng didn't say anything, and honestly drank the glass of water by Chen Wenxuan's hand.

Seeing that he was so obedient, Chen Wenxuan put him back on the kang, pulled the quilt for him, and said, "I'll get you some boiled water to rinse your mouth, and you wait here for me." He got up to leave, but But Qin Heng grabbed his hand.He turned back and put Qin Heng's exposed hand back under the quilt, hesitated for a moment, leaned over and kissed him on the forehead, "Be obedient, I'll be right back."

After finishing speaking, Chen Wenxuan suddenly remembered that in that dark alley a few months ago, Qin Heng did the same thing to him and said the same words. At that time, he was full of despair, and the only person he could rely on was Qin Heng.Thinking of this, he kissed Qin Heng's mouth lightly again, "I'll be back soon."

Chen Wenxuan went to the kitchen to pour a glass of water at his fastest speed, and then quickly returned to the room. After feeding Qin Heng another half glass of water, he climbed onto the kang.

After getting on the kang, Chen Wenxuan didn't rush to turn off the lights, but said to Qin Heng, "Come and sleep here."

As he said that, he went to lift Qin Heng's quilt, trying to help him move over, but as soon as he passed, Qin Heng pulled him into his arms.

"What are you doing!" Chen Wenxuan shouted in a low voice.

"Let me hold you for a while." Qin Heng carefully avoided Chen Wenxuan's injured right hand, locked him in his arms, prevented him from moving, and then covered the two of them with a quilt.

After Chen Wenxuan was held in Qin Heng's arms, he realized that Qin Heng was wearing a pair of underwear all over his body, and his face was forced to be buried in Qin Heng's chest, his left hand was held by him, and his legs were also clamped by his legs. He stopped, and his whole body couldn't move at all.

With scorching breath on the top of his head, Chen Wenxuan felt that something was gradually resisting his body.His face was flushed, and he shouted angrily, "Are you drunk or not? This is my house, don't mess around!"

Qin Heng stroked Chen Wenxuan's wrist, being intimate but not lustful, he kissed the top of Chen Wenxuan's head, and said in a hoarse voice: "I don't mess around, let me hold you for a while, just for a while."

Chen Wenxuan felt that something was wrong with Qin Heng at the moment, he no longer tried to struggle, but said kindly: "Then can you let me turn off the light, I will come over to let you hug after I turn off the light, the light is on for a long time It's time for my mother to come over."

Qin Heng was silent for a while, and let go of the restraint on Chen Wenxuan, but still grabbed his wrist and looked straight at him, "You keep your word, you must come back."

Chen Wenxuan said helplessly, "I'm just going to turn off the lights right under your nose, not to blow up bunkers, so let go."

After hearing this, Qin Heng finally let go of Chen Wenxuan's hand reluctantly.

Chen Wenxuan got his freedom and went to turn off the lights.After turning off the lights, he hesitated for a moment, but returned to Qin Heng's side, saw him looking at him, gritted his teeth, lifted the quilt, and slipped into his arms.

When Qin Heng saw Chen Wenxuan came back, he kissed his forehead lovingly, and with both hands, he hugged Chen Wenxuan to his body, let his head rest on his chest, he grasped his right wrist with one hand, and gently held his hand with the other. on his waist.

Chen Wenxuan felt that he had given up his face tonight. He lay on Qin Heng's body, with his head resting on Qin Heng's chest, his legs were placed beside Qin Heng, and his body was still supported by him. What a shame.But his ears touched the warm skin, and there were powerful heartbeats from under the skin. He listened quietly, forgot to be shy for a moment, and felt a kind of satisfaction.

The atmosphere became warmer for a while, Chen Wenxuan felt that Qin Heng tonight was a bit different from usual, and worried that he would feel uncomfortable when he was drunk, he couldn't help asking: "Does the headache hurt?"

Qin Heng was silent for a while, then murmured: "Are you real?"

Chen Wenxuan felt strange when he heard this, and couldn't help but raised his head and asked, "What's true and false?"

Qin Heng raised his hand and pressed Chen Wenxuan's head back to his chest, letting him continue to rest on his pillow, as if he said to himself: "Let me hug you for a while, and you'll be gone after a while."

Hearing his sigh-like words, Chen Wenxuan suddenly felt sad for no reason, and involuntarily pulled Qin Heng's hand to his neck, "Touch it, there is a pulse here, I am real."

Qin Heng put his hands there for a long time, then hugged Chen Wenxuan tightly, as if holding a lost treasure, "It's true, it's not a dream, it's not a dream..."

The phrase "it's not a dream" was repeated several times by him.

Chen Wenxuan honestly lay on Qin Heng's body and let him hold him. After a while, he asked, "Why do you say 'not a dream'? Do you often dream of me?"

Qin Heng put his arms around Chen Wenxuan, kept rubbing his right wrist with his left hand, and said softly for a long time: "Since I met you, I have dreamed of you at night, sometimes dreaming of you smiling at me, sometimes dreaming of you and me I talk, sometimes I dream that you let me hold you so obediently, but after a while you disappear, I can’t find it everywhere, I’m afraid, it’s everywhere..."

"What's everywhere?" Chen Wenxuan couldn't help asking.

"Nothing, nothing." Qin Heng replied as if sighing again.

Chen Wenxuan didn't know what Qin Heng's omitted words were, but from his words, he heard that he was afraid and worried about losing.Thinking of this, he made up his mind.

"Qin Heng, we need to talk about the fact that you lied to me, and about our future."

After Qin Heng heard these words, the hand that was originally on Chen Wenxuan's waist suddenly tightened.

Chen Wenxuan didn't care about his reaction, but continued: "Let me talk about my thoughts first. First of all, I have to admit that I love you, and I love you so much that I can forgive you for lying to me. I've never said this to you since we were together, but it doesn't mean I don't have feelings for you, otherwise I wouldn't have turned from a straight man into a mosquito coil."

When he said these words, he felt that he was red from the top of his head to his toes, but he still spoke out through the darkness, holding back his shame, because what Qin Heng needs most now is his attitude, he needs to get feedback from him, To prove that his love is not a one way arrow.But Qin Heng's reaction made Chen Wenxuan regret that he had spoken so bluntly.

After pulling Qin Heng's hand out of his pajama pants and holding it tightly, Chen Wenxuan endured the shame and continued: "I was very angry about you lying to me at first, but as time went by, I find myself angry because I love you and feel that you have failed my feelings for you and that's why I'm angry that you lied to me. After realizing this, I suddenly find that I can't seem to be angry with you anymore Come, but I still can't get over my own hurdles, lies are a matter of principle for me, so I am in a deadlock, one side is my feelings for you, and the other is my own principles, but in the end I still violated the principles for you .I'll tell you the truth, I forgave you the day you sent me home."

Hearing the heartbeat from below his ear, he sighed, "Actually, it's not just you lying to me now, we are not honest with each other, because I also have one thing that I didn't tell you."

Qin Heng kept silent under him, and his right hand, which was originally put aside, was put back on his waist.Chen Wenxuan sighed again, "I told you a little bit about this before. I almost got married four years ago, and the bride was my college junior. Shang is the boyfriend of a school girl, at best it is a spare tire, why did she break up with her ex-boyfriend, and now she likes me, all lying to me, but I foolishly thought she really liked me. Before I met you I don’t know what love is. I have been with my school girl for about two years, almost all in different places, and we rarely contact each other. I thought this kind of love relationship was normal, so I never doubted anything. Now that I think about it, There were a lot of doubts at the beginning, but I didn't pay attention, so I deserved to be tricked."

Feeling his right hand being clenched by Qin Heng, Chen Wenxuan laughed at himself and continued: "Later, my grandma was seriously ill, and her only wish was to watch me get married. I had already found a job, so I was about to get married. I proposed to my school girl, and she agreed. Because my grandma’s condition was very bad and time was tight, we didn’t get a certificate with her, so we just prepared and had a banquet. But on the day of the wedding, she and her original boyfriend A friend ran off at a wedding and I slept in a hotel because my friend got drunk. It was a joke when the bride ran off with someone else and the groom wasn't there. My grandma was irritated and directly It was sent to the hospital from the wedding scene, but it was not rescued, and it was gone. When I got the news, he was still in the hotel, and he hadn’t even put on his clothes.”

Chen Wenxuan withdrew his left hand and wiped his eyes as he spoke, and continued through the darkness: "I told you about this firstly to let you know my past, and secondly to let you know why I lied to you about this matter." The reaction is so big. I am sincere to you. I don’t care whether you are a man or a woman. What I like is you. It is your wholehearted feelings for me. Now, Qin Heng, I need your truth , Do you really like me, I want to listen to the truth. "

After he finished speaking, he raised his head and looked into Qin Heng's eyes with the help of the faint light.

Qin Heng looked directly at him and said word by word: "Chen Wenxuan, you gave me a new life. You are the meaning of my life. I guarantee with my life that I will love you until the day I die."

"Enough." Chen Wenxuan tremblingly kissed the corner of Qin Heng's mouth.

That's enough, he thought, it's enough for him to have the courage to face accusations and betrayal in the future.

The author has something to say:

The battle line is stretched a little bit, tomorrow there will be a chapter of short Xiaojun, and then I will easily kiss, hug and hold high!

It's the May Day holiday, I wish you all a happy Labor Day!