Dawn Redemption

Even though it was disturbed by the constant noise, the voice was exactly the same as the one heard on the phone, and the whisper heard countless mornings before.It is very calm, and it will make people feel at ease when they hear it, even if Noah is now hundreds of kilometers away without any news.

The long-lost voice was actually heard in the recording in this form.Although they didn't say it to himself, hearing his voice made Finn feel very satisfied.

The nose is sore along with the eye sockets.He stabilized his mind so as not to be unable to listen to the next content.It seems that I missed a sentence or two, but it was the woman who was talking, and the content was not very important. She continued:

——By the way, before we start, do you mind if we reveal your identity when publishing?

——If you have to ask, I will definitely answer "no".But, you know, all I'm thinking is, mind.

--Oh, okay.Don't worry, then all references to this will be edited out later.

—Okay, okay, thank you very much.

--this is what we are supposed to do.So, the first question is, from the perspective of your current situation and the development of the situation, what kind of attitude do you hold to your career now?

——I think this kind of question is usually put at the end.If I have to say it, I am also very confused. I don't know more than any of you.Now all I can do, all I can see is what is in front of me, I'm going to fight, I'm going to protect my country, that's all.My attitude is also very clear, I don't think there is anything to dig deeper, I am German, I have to do my best not to let it be violated, that's it.

—So, you still follow the will of above, don't you?

——Sounds like that, but it really distorts my intention.I think many people really think that way, "obey".For me, I think it is more appropriate to say that the will of the above coincides with my wishes.For example, must the children who fought to defend the country have been brainwashed by the authorities?Why so categorically deny that some of them really want to fight for their country?Of course, at some point they also diverge, otherwise I wouldn't be here now.

Despite the noise, Finn was able to make out a chuckle from Noah.I don't know if Fein is the only one who can hear the helplessness and bitterness in it.

In the eyes of the outside world, Noah, who has been advertised as a battle hero and an imperial elite, may indeed appear to follow instructions at all times, and can complete all these instructions to the extreme.But Finn knew that in Noah's world, his personal will would never be defeated by other things.The reason why outsiders can't see this may be because he is too good at finding a balance between these two things.

If Noah really became stubborn for something, Noah like that would be terrifying.

——So, do you think what is going on now is the right thing to do?

——These questions are not right or wrong. If you really want to characterize them in this way, the evaluation will become too one-sided.

—For example?

—First of all, the parties involved in the conflict, we, and the Soviets.We want to fend off them, they want to break us, stand our ground, and do what is right.It is true that this land was occupied by us, but don't forget that this was after the signing of the contract with the Soviet Union, and they should have annexed this land at that time.So now who is right and who is wrong?I told a joke, a train from the Soviet Union to Germany was full of people who had fled back to Germany, and when they met a train full of people who had fled from Germany to the Soviet Union, they were thinking to each other: "This Is the crowd all fucking crazy?"

The hostess named Snevely laughed twice but did not answer. Noah's question was not aggressive, but very polite, as if he was trying to induce a young child to complete a question step by step.He went on.

——In this way, both parties may be right, and both may be wrong.Leaving us aside, looking at the Poles?This used to be their country, yes, I don’t deny our aggression back then, and I don’t think it is correct, so let’s leave it alone.What would they think now that there was war on their land?Will it be good for us to occupy them?What would happen if the Soviets occupied them?In addition to the Poles, there are also those Soviets, Americans, British, etc. who are always on the sidelines. They have their own goals. If they insist on distinguishing right from wrong, there is no need to fight this battle.

— so you mean...

——I don't think it is necessary to define this matter with right or wrong, and there is no great need to speculate about the future, such as asking how I think it will develop next.No matter what kind of prediction is made, it must be confirmed by facts in the end.Instead of doing that, I might as well do the current thing well, for example, protect my compatriots.

——For you, what you are doing now is more exciting than your previous work.Because we heard you used to work at...

——I thought I could finally escape this topic.Enthusiasm is too abstract, and I can't explain it clearly.I'm sure you already know what it was really like in the concentration camps, when I was there, at first I seemed a little too arrogant.That's right, I actually know exactly what the purpose of building this so-called concentration camp is. It's a downright dazzling, not only to deceive the prisoners in it, to deceive our citizens, but they also want to deceive themselves.Here I can finally say that the purpose of those things is to exterminate, and any high-sounding words cannot stop this truth.

——Did you know about this from the beginning?

——Basically, I had a general understanding of it before I went to the concentration camp.But as I said, I felt a little arrogant thinking that I could try to run it as a labor camp while adhering to the terms above.I also met some people who helped me, and we made some agreements, whose name is not convenient to disclose here.My efforts did have some effect, but I guess suspicions were raised by then, and when the "final execution" order came down, both the people above and myself realized that I couldn't stay there any longer.

——So what is your opinion on this approach?

- Disagree.

——Okay... So, you were forced to do those things before, you must also be full of struggles, right?

——how should I put it, I have to say that I am full of struggles, I can't sleep every night, and my heart is full of sins?People who listen in this way may be full of pity for me, but in fact, this job has already been done and I am numb, and I will not suffer any suffering.But what I always keep in mind is that I did all these things with my own hands. No matter what consequences it will lead to, I will bear it without hesitation and will not shirk this responsibility.This is probably my attitude.

——Understood, commitment, and responsibility, these are the things you attach great importance to, right?

——Yes, that's what I want to convey to those who hear this conversation.If we—I know that many people will not like to hear this, and I would never dare to say it outside—we really fail, of course, as a soldier, I will definitely do my best to defend this country, If that day really comes, I hope that all people can take responsibility for what they have done, whether it is in action or in psychology.At least you can't escape from what you have done and the results you deserve.

——Okay, thank you very much for taking the time to participate in this little interview with us.

——You’re welcome, I still want to thank you, otherwise I wouldn’t have had the chance to say these words.

——It should have ended here, but here I want to ask one more question.Do you have anything extra to say to someone?Like family or something?

There was a short pause here, probably because Noah was lost in thought.It took a while to speak slowly.

——I want to say—to those who are in deep confusion, to those I love—before dawn, all the street lights are turned off in advance, that is the darkest hour.As long as you persevere through this most difficult moment, the dawn will surely come, and you will never miss the appointment.It will shine on the whole country, even the whole world, and everyone.

At the end, Finn couldn't listen to the polite words like greetings, and didn't want to listen to them anymore.

The voice of the hostess was replaced by noise, and Noah did not speak again.

And the ending of his previous words still echoed in Fein's heart.It was not just an illusory voice, it had a texture as if it had been materialized, hitting his heart hard one after another.

After Finn reacted, he hurriedly wiped his cold face, then rubbed against the hem of his clothes, frantically manipulated the tape recorder, turned it off and took off the recording disc.

He didn't know whether to find something to wipe the recorder, after all he was a little afraid that some conductive liquid might seep in and cause the thing to short out.

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It feels like a very boring chapter...May the little angels take care of Bihat