Dawn Redemption

"Sir, do we know each other?"

Those clear blue eyes stared at Noah, looking at the shocked expression on the other's face blankly, a little at a loss.

Also at a loss was Noah.

He didn't know how to confirm it.The person in front of him was indeed Finn, so there was no need to doubt it.

However, he waited for so long, when he woke up and looked at himself with those blue eyes again, not because he wanted such an answer!

Why, would he say such strange words?

Seeing that he didn't answer for a long time, Fein tilted his head in doubt, and when he was about to ask again, Noah's shoulders were suddenly firmly grasped by Noah.

He grabbed so hard and pulled himself closer, as if he was trying to shorten the space between the two of them so that he could see his own face more clearly:

"Just kidding, it's not like this time! I'm Noah! The war is over, I... I'm back."

Finn's expression was a little painful, he bit his lip but didn't make a sound.Fortunately, Noah noticed his pale face, and also realized that his movements were indeed a little heavier.He let go of his hand, and saw from the neckline that under the baggy hospital gown on Fern's body, which was too big for his figure, it was still wrapped in layers of bandages.

He propped up Finn's pillow for him to lean against.Finn looked at him and said softly, "Thank you, sir."

Noah suddenly discovered that the pain that had been tormenting his heart hadn't disappeared.That seed was just taking root silently, and it was only at this moment that it broke through the previously imprisoned stone and grew wildly.

And his heart is far less hard than a stone.

Even when they first met, Finn had never called him "sir."

"My head hurts..." Finn suddenly supported his head.Noah also came back to his senses at this moment: "Be patient, I'll call a doctor for you."

He stood up hastily, tripping over the foot of the bed.

Coincidentally, he also wanted to ask the doctor for clarification.

Why did he survive the life-and-death line with great difficulty, but it seemed like a different person?

It was so hard to reunite, after two years, how could it have such an ending?He never thought that when those eyes looked at him again two years later, what Fein said would be these words.

It's like running on the road towards the dawn. Before being embraced by the light, the road under your feet collapsed.The whole person and all his fantasies about the future fell into the boundless darkness.

What's more, he...he has no time to waste.

Fern sat on the bed, watching the man who didn't even know his name hurried out of the room and closed the door.

He lowered his head and looked at the back of his hand connected to the IV tube.

I don't know how I was in the hospital, and I was so seriously injured... I don't know what I went through, and I can't even remember who I am.

He looked up blankly at the closed door.Has that man been waiting for him to wake up?Who is he?Will he learn about the past that he can't remember?

Thinking of him made my brain ache again.It was like a prison beast bumping into a cage, something wanted to break free from the depths of his mind, but the shackles in his mind were much stronger than he imagined.

Why is he showing that expression?Did I make him feel... sad?

The pain in his head made him a little unbearable. He tried to make himself think about other things, and found that this could really relieve the pain.

It's just that for him who can't remember anything, there is nothing else to think about.

Outside the window is the courtyard, and because there are many trees and shrubs, it is impossible to see further scenes.So the idea of ​​looking far away was also dispelled, and he could only look at the infusion bottle and the infusion tube boredly.

After a while, footsteps sounded outside the door again, the door opened, the doctor walked in, and Noah followed behind him with a worried expression on his face.

The doctor sat down beside his bed, and Finn saw a shining cross hanging around his neck.He first looked at the condition of Finn's wound, and then started to ask him questions.

Noah watched nervously.The result he got was disappointing.Finn remembers the common sense of life very clearly, but he doesn't even know his own name.

Seeing that Finn tried hard to recall according to the doctor's prompt, but couldn't remember anything, and even caused a headache again, Noah's heart ached along with him.

It's as if all the internal organs are entangled together, and it's so uncomfortable to be tied into a dead knot.

So when the doctor finally stood up, he was eager to see the doctor's expression, but his eyes, which were as sharp as his, were in a mess now, and he couldn't see what he wanted to say at all.

The doctor whispered to Noah: "Sir, let's go out and talk." "Can we just talk here?" Finn's voice was a little weak, and it could be heard that his body was still very weak, but it was indeed his voice. That kind of clear and cold voice, Noah can react as soon as he hears it.

It was the stubborn look in his eyes, as usual.

The doctor asked Noah with his eyes, Noah hesitated for a second or two, then nodded.

"Okay." The doctor reluctantly compromised, "We call this symptom 'retrograde amnesia'. It will lose the memory before the memory damage occurs, but it will not affect the establishment of new memory.

"Usually, it's caused by trauma to the brain or head. The patient was indeed diagnosed with a concussion before. In addition, it may also be due to a lot of stimulation."

Noah turned back to look at Finn, who was no less shocked than him.Obviously, he also had no idea what kind of stimulation he had experienced.

The doctor coughed lightly and continued: "But it's not impossible. If you often communicate with acquaintances, take the patient to the place where he once lived, and use environmental stimulation, it is possible to restore the memory."

"Thank you." Noah said, his voice was trembling because of excitement or exhaustion.Fein also thanked the doctor.

The doctor glanced at Fein's infusion bottle, then opened the door and went out.

So, there were only the two of them left in the room.

Noah sat down on the edge of the bed again: "Okay...then, I have to tell you something."

Finn nodded, ready to accept what he heard.Noah, on the other hand, didn't know how to speak.

It's an odd feeling to tell someone, and an able-bodied adult, what his name is.

"Your name is Finn Yannick."

"Fin Yannick." Finn repeated his name seriously, and then smiled softly, "I'm not sure if I like this name very much, but... alright."

He raised his head cautiously, for fear of offending Noah, looked into his deep brown eyes, and asked, "So... what about you?"

"Me?" Noah was taken aback for a while.

Even back then, he never asked his name.A person as cautious as Fein must have read everything he could find in the materials before he came to take office.

But now it's different.

For the current Fein, Noah is almost his only source of information.

"Noah von Seifert." Noah said slowly.Thinking about how to add the most appropriate comment to my name next.

He must be special.At least for the original Finn, he must have a special status, Noah is sure of this.But for the current Fein, he is not sure.

"We..." Noah spoke slowly, almost word by word, "Before this, we were friends."

"Is it just friends?"

Fein's immediate answer to this question came unexpectedly.If he hadn't seen his blank expression, he would have thought that Finn's memory had been fully recovered in an instant.

He thought of his own identity, of the close relationship between them, of driving on the outskirts of the country, of waking up at the same time face to face in the morning sun shining through the curtains...

Unfortunately, these are Noah's memories.Not Finn's.

But do you really want to tell him this?

To impose his one-sided feelings on the current Finn?You must know that the Finn who was quietly listening to him in front of him now was completely different from the man who said "I'll wait for you".

Although Noah still loves him.From being in Auschwitz, to rescuing him from a coma, until now, it has always been the same, and it has never changed.

He already knew what it was like to be forced into Finn, and since he woke up that night, he hated himself that night.Now he doesn't want to repeat that kind of thing.

For the sake of his own feelings, it is too unfair for Finn to forcibly have a relationship with someone he doesn't remember at all.

Besides, he has no choice now, promise him a stable future.

because of him……

"I used to be your officer." Noah said, his throat was dry, as if trying to stop him from saying this, but he still insisted on finishing.

"Okay." Finn nodded, and leaned against the head of the bed a little discouraged, "Anyway... thank you for visiting me. I thought... there would be someone more intimate here. Seifert Sir." He quickly remembered Noah's name.

In fact, what Fein didn't say was that he thought their relationship was better than that.After all, from the moment he woke up, the expression of concern on this man's face, which was sometimes surprised and sometimes anxious, somehow caught his attention.

"Well, just call me Noah." Out of the little selfishness left, Noah still wanted to hear Finn call himself that.

Finn smiled at him: "Okay, Noah."

Noah had seen Finn's smile many times, but this time it was different.It is very polite, but not alienated at all.

Inexplicably, it makes people feel very warm.

Noah glanced at his watch: "It's almost time... I have to go. You should rest well, and call the doctor if you feel uncomfortable. I... Try to find time to see you again."

"Okay." Finn nodded obediently, "Goodbye, Noah."

He sat there, watching Noah leave, and when he closed the door, he glanced at him again.Finn waved at him, and he finally closed the door of the ward.

Finn sat in a daze for a long time, unable to say what he felt in his heart, but vaguely looking forward to Noah's next visit.

But what he didn't know was that the moment Noah closed the door, two other men in uniform walked up to Noah, escorted him seriously, and left the hospital.

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back to the original starting point

I remember your young face

We have finally come to this day