Lily is a kind of faith [entertainment circle]

?Now Ouyang Tiedan is also thinking in his heart that he must take revenge on this woman if he has the opportunity in the future, not because he has a chance, but because he must take revenge.A gentleman's blood feud is to be reported daily or every other day.

"I know how much protection money you have asked for these days. You'd better return the money obediently, otherwise, I will settle the score with you." The figure threw Ouyang Tiedan "throw "next to.

"Let's go." A pair of warm little hands appeared in front of Yang Ruxue's eyes, although he could feel the intimacy hidden behind those hands even before holding them.Yang Ruxue's eyes slowly climbed up her arms, and slowly slid over the figure in reverse, and finally saw a familiar face in the scattered noon sun.

"Xu Peiqiao." Yang Ruxue's voice was slightly like the wind passing through the sunflowers at this time, and even the little sunlight scattered on the ivy seemed so superfluous.When Yang Ruxue looked at Xu Peiqiao, her trembling right hand tried to greet her but refused, but finally reached out to Xu Peiqiao to greet her.

The two hands finally held together, just like the greeting when they first met, warm, natural but unforgettable.

chapter038

Passing by and looking back 9 The Taste of First Kiss

"Girl! Girl!" A fat man sitting next to Xu Peiqiao finally couldn't hold back his perverted excitement. He saw the two girls wake up.Leaning her whole body towards Xu Peiqiao's seat, she whispered in a sales tone.

Xu Peiqiao, who was in a haze, could feel the strong smell of cigarettes exhaled from the fat man's mouth, and the image of unshaven beard and saliva splattered immediately appeared in front of her eyes, although what she saw after opening her eyes was almost the same as what she guessed .

"Girl, I have a good cigar here. Do you want to try it? I guarantee that you will never forget it for a long time after you try it." Is it because the storyteller Yang Ruxue's unconstrained imagination is limited, or is this fat man simply a wanting cigar? The bastard who went to Mt. Fuji to mine minerals, otherwise how can he explain that he would sell cigars to the two girls.

Xu Peiqiao ignored him, but Yang Ruxue, who was separated from Xu Peiqiao, shifted her gaze from the pillow in her hand to the exquisite cigar box in the fat man's hand.The unique but dumbfounding words on it: let you recall the taste of the first kiss.

"I entrusted my cousin to smuggle this cigar out of Cuba. Generally, leaders can only smoke it. However, this kind of hegemony is not the original intention of their founding of the country. How can such a good thing be enjoyed exclusively. My cousin brought two boxes when he brought it back. I tasted it myself and dared not taste it again. You can feel the commotion of the exotic girl dancing in your arms. It is really unbearable. Exotic, Pair it with an authentic cigar, it’s simply a worldly enjoyment.” The fat man himself has been intoxicated by his intoxicating advertisement, as if he has deceived himself into believing his own lies.

"Hey." Seeing that Xu Peiqiao wanted to cover his ears, the fat man quickly stretched out his hand to grab Xu Peiqiao's arm and continued to "entangle".

The bare tattoo on Xu Peiqiao's cuff was displayed in front of Yang Ruxue's eyes. Xu Peiqiao quickly shook her arm and covered the tattoo with the book in her hand, but she wanted to cover it up.

"Do you know why I sold it to you?" The fat man threw a question, but when he asked the question, he had already predicted that the end of the question would be to travel alone without answering.

"Okay. I know you're already guessing the answer, but you're not sure. Let me tell you, why would I sell this kind of superior cigar to those big and thick guys? Wouldn't that be a waste of money? Only the figure is graceful, Girls with noble temperament can enjoy it. Please buy one, let your soul sink in the unique fragrance and let your heart accept another sublimation. Who can stop your urge to buy, you can't bear it anymore Or is it the torment of wanting to stop this kind of treasure?" The fat man boasted to Xu Peiqiao the beauty of the cigar in his hand like witty words.

"What are you waiting for? I used to only sell it for 9999 yuan. Today, we have such a fate, how about only selling you 799? When you are away from home, there are many friends and many ways. If you think it is good, you can also help to promote it to relatives and friends. " The fat man already felt that he was shouting at the top of his voice against the wall of the indifferent girl next to him, but he was not reconciled.

"The taste of the first kiss, let you recall the taste of the first kiss." The fat man opened the advertisement inside the box and tapped with his index finger.

The smell of a first kiss?Does a First Kiss Really Taste?Yang Ruxue casually looked at the same cloud outside the window, which was exactly the same as ten years ago...

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"Peqiao, don't smoke anymore, it's bad for your health." This may be the first time that the well-behaved Yang Ruxue spoke in the class of the head teacher, and she talked the most gossip.

The corner of Xu Peiqiao's mouth fell into Yang Ruxue's expectant gaze. Immediately afterwards, Xu Peiqiao smiled slightly and looked at Yang Ruxue.Her hand tremblingly reached out to Yang Ruxue's eyes, she wanted to touch Yang Ruxue's worried cheek but finally let it go.

But this time, after being slapped by Ouyang Tiedan, Yang Ruxue didn't say that in the afternoon when Xu Peiqiao "revenged" herself.He just followed Xu Peiqiao quietly to a grape trellis next to the school playground, and giggled when he saw Xu Peiqiao's unbearable expression.

"If you don't smoke, will you really die?" Yang Ruxue asked the question that she had stepped on all the way. Every time Xu Peiqiao wanted to smoke, she would show an unbearable expression, so that Yang Ruxue sometimes One would think that tobacco is a way to help these people get out.

"Not necessarily. As a human being, you are very strong, and you will never die easily because of other things. It's just that sometimes, there is a feeling called 'life is better than death'." Xu Peiqiao pulled up a handful of hay and spread it on the ground.After the two sat down, Yang Ruxue watched Xu Peiqiao take out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket.This brand of cigarettes is not the same as her father's, but Yang Ruxue guessed that Xu Peiqiao would secretly go to the neighboring village to buy cigarettes. After all, some people in the village like to meddle in other people's business. Endure the pain of flesh and blood.

Yang Ruxue didn't speak any more, just brushed the gentleness of the afterglow through the grape trellis on her face, she was enjoying this gift from nature.If everyone has an addiction, Yang Ruxue's addiction is a natural blessing.She once fantasized about traveling around the world after graduating from university, but she chose to go to Japan for the first stop.The place Xu Peiqiao had been to.She thought at this moment that she would walk through every alley that Xu Peiqiao walked through, drink every drop of dew that Xu Peiqiao craved when she was thirsty, and breathe the revolving air, whether it came from Tianshan or the Cape of Good Hope.

"Ah——cool——" Xu Peiqiao slowly laid her whole body flat and lay down on the piece of dry grass. At this moment, she seemed to be enjoying the last ray of sunshine in this life extravagantly. kind of gift.

Yang Ruxue huddled under the smoky grape trellis, thinking alone about the next topic she wanted to ask Xu Peiqiao.

"I……"

Yang Ruxue hesitated to speak, but she knew that Xu Peiqiao would definitely not agree to her request. After all, Xu Peiqiao was playing the role of a "little adult" at this time, and she always lived under Xu Peiqiao's arms and wings. .However, Yang Ruxue decided to ask.

When Xu Peiqiao got up, she could feel every throb of Yang Ruxue's body, and she could even distinguish the unspoken tone of Yang Ruxue's words just now.

"Can I... take a breath?" Yang Ruxue finally said the words that were about to drown in her mouth, but when the words blurted out, Yang Ruxue already regretted it.

"What do you smoke?" Xu Peiqiao actually didn't need any explanation at all, even if Yang Ruxue "forced" herself to devote herself to this addiction, she would still refuse.After all, indulging in tobacco is not a good choice at all. As far as she is concerned, those experiences in Japan are enough to give her a headache.

"It's nothing." Yang Ruxue moved her fingers in her palms, like a young chick waiting for Mu Que to return.For fear of falling under a tree several feet high and being forgotten by a careless big bird, this kind of punishment is no joke.Yang Ruxue felt that she should keep her mouth shut at this time, most should be silent, otherwise, she felt that Xu Peiqiao would think that she was a bad boy.Although, Yang Ruxue never thought that Xu Peiqiao was a bad boy, never thought of it that way.

"Oh." Xu Peiqiao lay down again, staring at the moon that had been hanging in the sky since morning.I really don't know why there is a moon during the day.

"What does smoke smell like?" Yang Ruxue finally asked this question after being silent for a long time.Although she knew that she would still regret it, whenever she blurted out the question at such times, she could feel a kind of slack and helplessness throughout her body, but in the end, she always had excessive expectations in her heart.After all, regret is the most helpless emotion. If you regret because of your inaction at the beginning, it will really be a waste of life.This truth is not that simple, but the little Yang Ruxue can understand it very well.

"Ok?"

"I want to know what the smoke tastes like... I want to taste it..." Yang Ruxue watched Xu Peiqiao get up slowly, her face slowly approaching her, getting closer, getting closer...

chapter039

First Kiss Innocence 1

Is it true that when everything in the world is so clear, when everything in the world knows that it is redundant, the whole world will return to peace.Just as quiet as the noisy wind at this time, the gilded clouds became delicate.Yang Ruxue felt that there were only avoidance and chasing eyes between the two of them at this time, and a little bit of panic, a little bit of fear, and even a little bit of trying to escape was the only thing Yang Ruxue felt about the first kiss. .

Maybe this is not the first kiss, because at this time Yang Ruxue didn't close her eyes at all, nor did she take the opportunity to hug her when the plane was turbulent.She is like a piglet waiting to be slaughtered at this time, although she is not howling, but more of a "enjoyment" at a loss.That kind of tension and loss is accompanied by the turbulence in the throat, as if everything in the world is out of order, not to mention the two people in this corner who are trying to be forgotten.

At this time, Yang Ruxue's whole body seemed to be melting into the surrounding air, but the eyes of this cute girl in front of her seemed so out of place.Yang Ruxue wanted to escape, but in the end she had no choice but to give up, because she could feel her naked powerlessness and weakness in her eyes.

Xu Peiqiao closed her eyes unsurely, although she knew that she couldn't find Yang Ruxue's lips after the anxious eyelashes closed just because of the little fantasy just now.But this kind of seeking made Xu Peiqiao's heart beat instantly faster. She tried to calm the turbulent heart, but the wind around her made her shirt unable to cover the beating of her chest.

No way, this is kissing?

Xu Peiqiao was like a thief at the moment, and also like a stalker in broad daylight, she didn't dare to stay on Yang Ruxue's lips at all.Although mixed with a touch of tobacco flavor.

Perhaps there is no need for any kind of fiction at all about how that moment felt.After all, neither Xu Peiqiao nor Yang Ruxue could describe clearly.

Even Yang Ruxue fled in a panic between Xu Peiqiao and the wall after she took dozens of small steps back.

Yang Ruxue couldn't put on a running posture at all, and stumbled away.

Yang Ruxue could only feel her heartbeat making her pace quicken, but she was powerless and unable to escape the shackles of her eyes.For Yang Ruxue, this day, an ordinary day, might be branded with a different label from now on.Although this feeling can only be tasted after a long time to taste what kind of definition it is.

Yang Ruxue was stepped on by the shadow of the sunflower, just like the fun in a happy game.

Yang Ruxue didn't notice a pair of bewildered eyes behind her at all. After all, for a young heart of this age, this kind of pursuit across the chasm is no different from trying to sprout buds in the cold winter.That kind of careful touch may be the most precious memory belonging to this age.However, memory is precious only when it is recalled, and cherishing is often a companion with losing.

Xu Peiqiao didn't know whether her actions were right or wrong. Maybe Xu Peiqiao was still reminiscing and remembering that matter rather than the "first kiss" while Yang Ruxue was hesitating away from her.After all, to be able to make her heart beat unscrupulously but in a trance, it was only this time and the first time she got a gift from birth to now.Perhaps, Yang Ruxue is a kind of gift.Let her be careful not to open it but keep guessing what is packed in the kraft carton.that mood.

This day is bound to play the most important role in the lives of the two girls, after all, the scene on the second day is beyond their imagination.

On the way from school to home, Yang Ruxue didn't know how long she walked, she just felt that every step was heavy.She sucked hard on her lips that smelled like tobacco for an unknown amount of time, and she swallowed every sip of water.Yang Ruxue was not in the mood to relive the taste of the first kiss between her lips and teeth, she just felt scared, very scared, afraid that her heartbeat would never slow down all the way there, and she was afraid that she would walk a few miles for a whole afternoon.

The setting sun accompanying Yang Ruxue's footsteps finally sent her home.

"Xuexue, what's the matter? Come and eat."

After the mother came home, she saw her daughter plunged into her small room, and the faint sound of closing the door did not cover up the weak sobs.

Mom put down the chopsticks in her hand and looked at Dad in bewilderment. Dad shrugged, pretending to be relaxed and motioned for Mom to check.But who knows how many elusive emotions are contained in the glass of wine that Dad raised his head to drink.

What happened to the daughter?

The mother suppressed the excitement in her heart and carefully chose every moment when she called her daughter's name.She was afraid that any sound of "Xue Xue" would make her daughter cry.There is never any reason to be stubborn and strong, and my daughter will even cry at the end of her own voice.

The mother's whole body was attached to the door, her ears pricked up like a rabbit, and she just tried her best to listen to her daughter's voice in the room.As if there was a tacit understanding, the mother could hear the crying of her daughter wrapped in the quilt through the heavy pine door.So powerless, but so wronged.

What happened?Mom kept thinking about it.She tried to judge by her daughter's schoolbag and muddy shoes hanging at the door of the room, but in the end she was defeated by her own wild thinking.The more you worry, the more cranky you become.

Mom's fingers scratched the sore on the Opine door from when it was built years ago.Every time the daughter asks what exactly is this dark "scar".Mom and Dad will always disagree, although everyone's interpretation is not right or wrong at all.It's just that my mother knew that after the small pine tree with scars gradually grew into a big tree, it never got rid of the scars.

"Xuexue, if you don't answer, mother will come in." Mother listened quietly outside the door for a long time, until her daughter's cries were covered by the velvet quilt.

The moment mother opened the door, she heard Yang Ruxue sniffling her nose.

"Xuexue, what's wrong?"

"fine."

Yang Ruxue wiped away her tears in a panic, leaving only traces of evaporated tears and a feigned cheerful smile on her face.Yang Ruxue smiled at her mother, the corners of her mouth were so high that her mother felt that her daughter was just pretending to cry.But, until my mother saw Yang Ruxue reaching out to touch her cheek, the tears in the corners of her eyes flowed down again and again.

"what happened?"

Yang Ruxue got into her mother's arms all of a sudden, crying in her mother's soft chest, as if there was nothing more comforting to herself than this.She could hear her mother's heartbeat and miss her throbbing.

"Xuexue, what's the matter?" The trembling mother slowly withdrew her left hand from between the two bodies, stroking her daughter's rough hair.At this time, the mother could not save any words to comfort or ask her. She just knew that when her daughter was most vulnerable, she could be by her side.

"..."

Yang Ruxue didn't say a word, the tears on her face evaporated little by little in her mother's arms but filled up little by little.It was as if the dry land had finally found the reason for the flood, and she couldn't help crying the moment her weathered little face touched her mother's soft hair.

"it's okay no problem."

Mother could only comfort Yang Ruxue like this, although such words seemed so powerless at the moment, they could only be drowned in Yang Ruxue's sobbing.Every breath of mother was accompanied by Yang Ruxue's sobs, and it felt like the two of them were one.At this moment, mother's heart is grasping the most vulnerable place in mother's heart.

The setting sun couldn't bear to add any emotions to this room, so the faded glaze finally disappeared into the wooden lattice windows on the wall.The lights in the room were not turned on, as if it was night, only two figures left behind could be seen in the corner.However, Yang Ruxue did not feel lonely.

However, Yang Ruxue has been rejecting an idea in her heart, although she tried her best to avoid thinking about this matter and this person.

Is this the first kiss?

The lingering thought and the inescapable figure in Yang Ruxue's mind tortured her all the time.She has no way to calm her heart at all, it's like being touched by spring with an erupting volcano, but it's hard to go straight back.

Damn kisses!

If you can whip that kiss, please let these two immature girls go.Pure prayer seems to be interpreting what is called sin.

The two girls who linked the two ends of this kiss were really uncomfortable.

After Xu Peiqiao saw the back of Yang Ruxue running away, she could only stand there blankly.Wait until the cigarette butt in your hand is swallowed by ashes little by little, and finally disappears completely in the wind.She still can't let go.

Xu Peiqiao didn't go to class all afternoon. It can be said that she followed Yang Ruxue's footsteps closely after Yang Ruxue ran away.

Follow her on the dusty path, just to cover up the helpless loess.

Walking with her beside the dense forest, but couldn't bear to catch a glimpse of the night they had spent together.

Walk with her in the village where the afterglow is scattered, and tell the memories of those who were forced to flee but turned back because of one person.

Xu Peiqiao was just like this, walking quietly and at a loss behind Yang Ruxue.Always keep a safe distance, the safest distance is that Xu Peiqiao cannot be seen in Yang Ruxue's peripheral vision.Perhaps, behind that supposedly sweet kiss, there is such a tormenting remnant of impulse.

But the fact is, if there is a distance between kisses, then Xu Peiqiao and Yang Ruxue's kiss is not a kiss at all this time.

Xu Peiqiao has been lingering at the door of Yang Ruxue's house, she wants to say something to Yang Ruxue.But she couldn't take a step and pushed the door open.Perhaps, how strong the impulse will be, how cowardly there will be after the impulse is extinguished.

Xu Peiqiao resisted it, and she didn't dare to take a puff or two of cigarettes to ease the atmosphere.It's just that she didn't know it, and she hasn't smoked since then.

The row of Albizia juncea trees at the door lost the mood to see this hesitant girl and closed their leaves.

How to ease this atmosphere?

Xu Peiqiao waited until the street lights were turned on at the gate of Yang Ruxue's house, and waited until the street lights were turned off.Waited until the stars were scattered, but also waited until the morning light.

Xu Peiqiao was so tired that she went back to sleep.She really doesn't want to go to school today.There was no reason at all, and her parents didn't care about her anyway.

It's no big deal, anyway, she is a bad child in the eyes of ordinary people, there is no need to pretend to be a good child.

The next day, Yang Ruxue didn't go to school.

On the third day, Xu Peiqiao didn't go to school.

Day [-]...

Day [-]...

The two seem to have discussed it, but they can only feel that they are deliberately staggering.Xu Peiqiao and Yang Ruxue haven't seen each other since then.No one knows how long the silence will last before the two meet again.

Xu Peiqiao always felt that she owed Yang Ruxue an apology.

Yang Ruxue has always avoided Xu Peiqiao's figure, even if it is a request in her heart, it is a luxury for her.

until that day.

Until that day, Xu Peiqiao went to school to go through the withdrawal procedures.She finally met Yang Ruxue.

Xu Peiqiao was about to go back to Japan to go to school, and the relationship between the parents of the family has become freezing point. It can be said that their daughter, Xu Peiqiao, is the one who maintains the relationship.

Maybe we will never see each other again.Xu Peiqiao kept thinking after hearing the news that her mother was going to move to Japan.She just thought that maybe this was fate, although the word "fate" was indeed a bit cruel for a seven or eight-year-old girl.It's just that Xu Peiqiao couldn't think of any setbacks that could explain the difficult compromise between her and Yang Ruxue.

Xu Peiqiao felt that God wanted the two of them to separate, so she found some reasons to frustrate their emotions.Although Xu Peiqiao couldn't explain whether it was friendship or something else between the two.Xu Peiqiao doesn't believe in God at all, but at this time, the most reasonable explanation is to choose only one person to condemn.God, she felt, was a good compromiser.Since he had helped so many people through suffering, why couldn't he help himself.Although Xu Peiqiao felt that her approach was indeed a bit excessive.

Xu Peiqiao saw Yang Ruxue throwing sandbags with her friends on the playground.Perhaps, this is the only explanation Xu Peiqiao can think of, that Yang Ruxue has made new friends.After all, there are only two girls in this grade.A faint sense of loss slowly drifted through Xu Peiqiao's heart. All she could think of at this moment was to sneak around the playground, not thinking about whether the two of them met, but hoping to avoid Yang Ruxue's eyes smoothly.

Even any form of small talk can't make up for the hardship of the other party's absence, Xu Peiqiao feels that she should try her best to bypass it.

Behind the pomegranate tree, Xu Peiqiao saw Yang Ruxue cleverly dodging the sandbag in the middle, with a relieved smile on the corner of her mouth, so innocent that she couldn't bear to bother her anymore.

Wow - she's really grown up now.Xu Peiqiao thought to herself, watching Yang Ruxue cleverly dodge a sharp-angled throw.The buttocks that have been raised slightly seem to swear that Yang Ruxue is no different from those models on TV, although Yang Ruxue's dream of becoming a "Victoria's Secret" model has only been told to Xu Peiqiao.

It's only been nine days, but in Xu Peiqiao's eyes, Yang Ruxue has grown up to be a stranger.So strange, a day's growth is a kind of transformation in her eyes.

Yang Ruxue's smile is also so mature, and between the smiles is her demanding play.Only then did Xu Peiqiao know what she needed to give Yang Ruxue, what exactly Yang Ruxue needed.

"Hey--"

For some reason, Xu Peiqiao's dodging figure was seen by the girls playing next to her, and they looked towards the hidden figure behind the pomegranate tree.

"what--"

The moment Yang Ruxue turned her head, she was stunned.Her head was hit by the thrown sandbag, and she screamed tragically.

"Oh, it worked."

"Yeah - it worked. You lost."

Yang Ruxue was defeated as the last member of Team A, so their team was wiped out.

Perhaps after analyzing everything clearly, we can know why Yang Ruxue's silence is hidden behind this "deception".

A commonly used trick, the most used trick in the sandbag game.Yang Ruxue would never be deceived, but this time she involuntarily looked in the direction pointed by the enemy.What she saw only she knows.Or maybe we can find a little clue from her long silence.

She saw Xu Peiqiao——

Yang Ruxue saw Xu Peiqiao——

At that moment, she was stunned.Standing in place, I didn't even hear the shouts of the "enemy" next to me, and I couldn't even hear the already noisy wind.For Yang Ruxue, this kind of figure has become so long-lost, so unfamiliar that she needs a few seconds of silence to wake up the remaining memories in her body. ,

Yang Ruxue saw Xu Peiqiao's messy figure among the loose branches of the pomegranate tree, and saw Xu Peiqiao's slightly mature attire.Even Xu Peiqiao's age-appropriate light makeup became so intense.Although in fact it was just that the two hadn't seen each other for just nine days.

"Hey, are you still playing?"

The teammates next to him pulled Yang Ruxue's stunned figure, but they felt so strenuous.What exactly was Yang Ruxue attracted to?The teammates looked in the direction of Yang Ruxue's eyes, and could only slightly see the young pomegranates on the pomegranate tree.

"I want to eat."

"It's not ripe yet!"

The teammates waved their small hands in front of Yang Ruxue's eyes a few times, but Yang Ruxue's whole body was like a sculpture under the bright sun, she didn't move at all.

"Forget it, let's go play."

The teammates turned around and left, leaving behind Yang Ruxue's lonely figure on the Nuoda playground, followed by the string of bells for class.

What is she going to do?Yang Ruxue's calm heart at this moment could no longer be quiet, and she was constantly interrogating herself with this question.Although she knew that she didn't know the answer, she just wanted to detect any little words that could be explained in her efforts.

Could it be that Xu Peiqiao...Yang Ruxue didn't dare to think about it anymore.

"Hey, what grade are you in, what are you doing when you don't go to class!"

What really brought Yang Ruxue back to his senses was the roar of the teaching director. There was really nothing that could be hidden in the loess-filled playground.

Yang Ruxue's body trembled, and she hurried towards the classroom.However, she took a detour, and it was a long way.Because she felt that she was going to the office area.There is no reason.

Yang Ruxue pretended to be indifferent, just to avoid arousing the roar of the dean's fat, weak man.I don't want to be punished, the dean is not easy to mess with.

Yang Ruxue walked through the row of redbud trees in the office area, but among the dense branches, she could hear the conversations of several people in the office area.Although the voice was very low, Yang Ruxue strained her ears to listen.

"What? Dropping out of school? Don't do it like this, it's already very difficult for us now. After the new principal and businessman..."

The head teacher's sharp voice came straight to Yang Ruxue's eardrums without fear of the thick walls.The last hope in Yang Ruxue's heart was burned to ashes at this moment.For her, Xu Peiqiao is simply a memory.She knew that there was no "cold war" between two people, a "cold war" in the traditional sense, but Yang Ruxue hadn't figured out how to deal with the relationship between the two.This detached relationship can be frustrating even for adults.Let alone two eight or nine-year-old children.

Yang Ruxue should make some choices, because the most complicated emotions are hidden under her immature emotions.Perhaps because of her eagerness to learn, she is keen on reading books of any kind.It was only until one day that she saw a Japanese comic book at her cousin's house.It is not an ordinary comic, although comics exist to present a fantasy world to children.But the world presented by this comic is indeed a bit absurd.

Maybe the manga is just the key to presenting a different world to little Yang Ruxue, but the inexplicable anime has a more profound influence on Yang Ruxue.

"Blast - Strawberry".

Cousin is hiding in the deepest part of the bookshelf, if it wasn't for Yang Ruxue's excessive desire for knowledge.Perhaps it was impossible for her to find this dish among the hundreds of books on the shelf.

Yang Ruxue looked at it with an inexplicable emotion.Not a surprise, not a surprise.I just feel a little curious, and I just feel that there is no rejection.But for her, it all became so different.Although she never felt that playing with girls was caused by a gully, it was just that a strange seed had been planted in Yang Ruxue's heart since then.She couldn't say it clearly, and she couldn't find any reasonable explanation.

Just like what my cousin said to her, there is no right or wrong in this world.Just because the majority chooses that way does not deny the choice of the minority.

Maybe it's because the cousin's drunken nonsense didn't resonate with Yang Ruxue at all. Apart from her rejection of her cousin's mouth full of alcohol, she even disliked the vomit all over the place.

- What is your sexual orientation?

——I have a normal orientation.

-You can't use the words "normal" and "abnormal" but "like most people" or "not like most people".

These are the most clear words that my cousin has been babbling nonsense since she got drunk, Yang Ruxue couldn't fathom the meaning at all.

……

(Normal, it’s just a selfish word. Does it mean that some orientations are abnormal? This is the basis for my cousin’s rebuttal. She doesn’t want to listen to any words that try to persuade herself on the phone, but for her, those words They are all persuading themselves to give up their choices. There are right and wrong choices, but for me, the choice is just an experience. I don’t need anyone’s evaluation at all. Yang Ruxue yawned and listened to her cousin after she was drunk. With these inexplicable words, she didn't dare to go to sleep alone. She could only take care of her cousin until dawn.)

For Yang Ruxue, these histories are already considered history.After all, she really didn't want to think about it, and she really didn't want anyone to mention it.But at this time, she didn't know why she thought of it at all, and she didn't know why her cousin ran away from home after that day and never came back.And whether her cousin is alive or dead, leaving or leaving, Yang Ruxue can't hear any words of comfort from her family and relatives.Because in their view, the cousin is the disgrace of the family.

"What did my cousin do?"

Yang Ruxue couldn't help asking her parents at the dinner table when she knew her cousin disappeared after she ran away from home, but the answer she got was "she did something unspeakable".

What is meant by "unspeakable things", but Yang Ruxue can no longer hear any explanation from her parents.However, for Yang Ruxue, the most reasonable guesses for the "unspeakable things" are nothing more than three.

drink wine.It was the first time my cousin got drunk, and Yang Ruxue felt that this explanation was the most reasonable for the scattered beer bottles on the ground and the angry scolding of her aunt who fell to the ground.

runaway.But Yang Ruxue always felt that running away from home was only the final result, not the "unspeakable thing" done by her cousin.

And the most incomprehensible but somewhat weird speculation is: the cousin kisses the girl.

This was the strangest clue Yang Ruxue could get. Beside the cousin who was drunk and fell asleep, the photo of her cousin kissing a big sister kept flashing on the screen of her mobile phone.

When Yang Ruxue first saw this screensaver, she was not surprised at all.If there is such a thing, it can only be said to be a kind of rejection that is difficult to conceal for this kind of "indulgence" education.But she doesn't think it's an unacceptable behavior at all.