fingertip quicksand

At the hospital, Bai Bai handed over the settlement money he had just received to the payment office of the hospital, and finally paid part of the long-overdue treatment fee. Bai Bai looked at these payment slips a little tiredly. With dense numbers, I let out a long sigh of relief, and suddenly felt exhausted.

Leaning decadently on the white wall of the hospital, the wall is pressed against the back, and there is an icy temperature. These treatment fees are like black holes that cannot be filled up one after another, making people feel a little out of breath Now, and this is just the treatment fee, I don't dare to add the surgery fee that is far away

The mother's health is getting worse day by day, and Bai Bai bears all these pressures alone. She didn't tell anyone about it, including her boyfriend.

She is a bit stubborn, or it is because of her nature, she has been like this since she was a child, she does not want to rely on others, handles everything by herself, and does not want to show weakness in front of outsiders, once others see her weakness, the conditioned reflex is to protect herself Behavior, like a hedgehog, pushing others away

So in this kind of situation, when you meet some people you don't want to meet, you will naturally resist. When Nan Jiu accidentally broke this matter, Bai Bai had to admit that she was disgusted. even repulsive

She hated the feeling that this kind of secret was seen through. At that time, because of the reconciliation, the two of them got along with each other in a non-salty way. Occasionally, they would make such a phone call, and the relationship was actually stretched far. , but the two have never been close

As for Nan Jiu's sudden indifference, it actually troubled Bai Bai for a while. Is it because of the reconciliation?Or for other reasons, unknown

I was just guessing secretly, or some villains thought that Nan Jiu must have known that she had taken the settlement money, and she must have attributed herself to a person who loves money, just like her boyfriend. With incomprehension and rejection, that's why I don't answer for such a long time

Therefore, when Nan Jiu inadvertently ran into this incident in the hospital, Bai Bai felt disgusted from the bottom of his heart, even a little disgusted.

So that day in the hospital, Bai Bai even said unceremoniously

"You rich people don't pretend to care, I don't care"

In fact, it may be a bit extreme to say such words, but Bai Bai has always been an extreme person, since she was a child, no one in her circle can cross without consent, that is the bottom line, no one can come over, once over , Bai Bai's first reaction was to drive that person away

Later, Nan Jiu also explained this matter to Bai Bai, although Nan Jiu should not be the one who should explain it.

She said that she never thought of it like Bai Bai did, and she didn't even know about the settlement money that Bai Bai took. The reason why she didn't contact him was because there was no reason for contact.

What was the reason she said?This is a very vague concept. Bai Bai didn't ask at that time, and Nan Jiu didn't explain it. It wasn't until a long time later that Bai Bai realized it a little bit belatedly, and what he brought after he understood it was just close to abnormality. It's just a general injury, and I use this reason to torture continuously to satisfy the unbearable and humble feelings in my heart.

The story has officially opened from then on, and no one can determine whether it is good or bad

It was also at that time that Bai Bai realized for the first time that Nan Jiu was very strange.

If it’s too good, can it be defined as strange? At that time, Bai Baiming’s attitude towards her in the hospital was very bad, even bad.

However, she silently paid all the treatment fees owed by Bai Bai. Bai Bai was completely unaware of this matter, at least not at the time, but it was only discovered a long time later when he was paying the bill at the hospital again.

There was a momentary impulse, that pretentious impulse, to return the money to her, regardless of the consequences, just to maintain those ridiculous and meaningless self-esteem, but on the opposite side of self-esteem, there is actually this crueler things

That is the helpless reality, the persecution of the reality, the helplessness of the reality, indeed, she can't do that, she can only accept this sum of money, because she needs it, she needs it enough to let go of those self-esteem, in fact, after calming down afterwards, Bai Bai also Not so resistant, and the next emotion is gratitude, thank you very much

Bai Bai didn't know where Nan Jiu lived or where she worked. He knew almost nothing about her except her name, and he only had guesses about her identity. Just her name and a phone number

With such a simple relationship, she can put so much money here with such peace of mind, is she too kind?Or are people too weird?

I don't know her well, but luckily the call got through.

"Hey"

Her gentle voice came from the other end of the phone. The moment she heard her speak, she suddenly regretted and felt a little embarrassed. She felt that her attitude towards her before was really bad. still in the hospital

Put away these ashamed emotions and say

"it's me"

Just these two simple words, I don't know if she can guess who it is, some expectations can't be expressed, but she did not live up to this expectation

"How did you even think of calling me?"

Although her words are interrogative sentences, there is a faint certainty in her words, she is sure that Bai Bai will definitely make this call

"Are you not afraid that I will run away with the money you put in the hospital?"

She smiled, a very light laugh, Bai Bai can even imagine how she looks when she smiles at the moment, it should be pretty

"Didn't you call me?"

"You're so sure I'll fight"

"Um"

Because of her simple and casual word "um", Bai Bai suddenly felt much better, thank her for her trust and her understanding

"I will definitely pay back the money. Although I am not able to pay you back now, don't worry, I will definitely pay you back."

These words are a little distant, and they are some scene words. The person who said it is intentional, and the person who listens doesn't seem to care so much, but said it as a joke.

"Is it possible that you still plan not to pay it back?"

Or because of her jokes, the atmosphere of the conversation became less rigid, each of them made fun of a few words, and after the words were finished, Bai Bai returned to this topic again

"Then when are you free, I'll give you an IOU."

"no need"

It's a tone of trust, but why trust?We didn't know each other very long

"Why do you trust me so much?"

This answer may be unsolvable. To believe is to believe. There is no reason and no reason is needed, so Nan Jiu did not answer, but instead asked

"So we're friends now?"

This question was a bit casual, but it also brought a feeling of eagerness to know the answer. Bai Bai shook his head funny and said

"In addition to being friends, we also have a debt relationship."

On a later day, Bai Bai took out the IOU that he had prepared long ago, then took out the black pen that was always in the bag from his bag, and signed himself on the end of the IOU eloquently. The name, the characters Baibai, block letters, and the format of the IOU are also very standardized

"Why did you have to write this"

Nan Jiu seemed to be a little unhappy because of the IOU. Obviously she didn't like the way the other party calculated clearly, and she was somewhat repelled and resisted, but Bai Bai put the IOU into her hand without hesitation.

"Being defensive is essential, what if I really don't pay back?"

Nan Jiu said almost subconsciously

"It doesn't matter"

In fact, this indifferent understanding really varies from person to person.

For Nanjiu, it doesn't matter because it's her, it doesn't matter because it's her, and it's never been defined by a sum of money for her

But what Yu Baibai said means that Nan Jiu really doesn't care. Maybe to Nan Jiu, those moneys are just a number that doesn't matter. It is because of this that Bai Bai insisted on writing such an IOU, just to find a way out for his humble self-esteem

"You don't care, I don't care, you trust me, but I don't trust myself, so you should keep this IOU."

Seeing that Bai Bai's attitude was so firm, Nan Jiu had no choice but to accept the IOU, but said

"You, no matter how I treat you, you can't get close to me."

She wants to be close to herself?Bai Bai suddenly felt a little surprised, even flattered, in Bai Bai's eyes, she is such a good and perfect person, why would she want to get close to someone like herself?He's not from the same class at all, he's really a strange person

"Let's go, I'll treat you to something to eat, let's get closer"

Bai Bai followed Nan Jiu's words and Nan Jiu answered with a smile.

"Then what are you going to treat me to?"

"I can't afford the expensive ones, so I'll treat you to some novel ones, I guarantee that you rich people have never seen them before."

Bai Bai always speaks with a hierarchy like "You rich people", Nan Jiu actually doesn't like her talking like this, it always creates some strange sense of distance

"Do you have a problem with people like me?"

Bai Bai laughed twice and did not answer.

"It seems to be a real opinion"

"Actually, it's not an opinion, it's just something happened before."

Bai Bai didn't seem to want to talk about this matter very much, he took Nan Jiu's hand and walked forward in a somewhat concealed manner. The warm hand suddenly grabbed Nan Jiu's hand and subconsciously wanted to break free, but was caught by a bigger the strength to clamp down

"Didn't you say you want to get close? In my opinion, Nan Jiu is the one who is not easy to get close to."

Nan Jiu didn't make any more effort to break free, but still looked unnatural

In this way, the hands of the two did not let go, and they kept holding each other.

Nan Jiu is not used to holding hands like this, even she is somewhat resistant to close contact, but facing the hand that Bai Bai held over, although she subconsciously wants to avoid it, she is not disgusted or even a little obedient, she has to admit that the person in front of her This girl seems a little different to herself