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In fact, hatred is hatred in the final analysis, but in fact, these hatreds have nothing to do with Nan Jiu. This kind of revenge is a bit ridiculous, and the meaning does not seem to be very big. I am a little shaken

Maybe it was because he was shaken that Bai Bai deliberately brought up the topic of the first meeting. Of course, the first meeting here was not in a cafe or a restaurant, but earlier, earlier. almost forgotten

"Actually, I always thought you were very familiar"

Bai Bai raised his eyebrows unconsciously and said

"Don't you know me?"

At that time, Bai Bai wanted to make it clear, and he didn't even want to continue the game anymore, but it was also at that time that Bai Bai realized that Nan Jiu really didn't seem to remember himself.

The encounter and acquaintance seemed to be just a coincidence, and there was no such conspiracy and guilt as I imagined.

At that time, Bai Bai had just entered the first year of high school, and his appearance was not much different from his current appearance. The only difference from now is that he was young at that time. Naturally, what people can't keep when they grow up is the original innocence

The traces left by the years are actually insignificant. They may have matured, and their eyebrows and eyes have grown. After many years, Nan Jiu just said that he was a little familiar.

People who pass by in a hurry may not always remember, but they will definitely leave that impression, and this impression becomes a sense of familiarity later.

So one day later, the two met again, but they no longer remembered each other

At that time, Bai Bai was so angry that she didn't have the heart to pay attention to anyone's appearance, so it is understandable that she forgot later

At that time, she only knew that the girl in front of her was the daughter of the murderer who killed her father.

Those resentments inflated all thinking. At that time, Bai Bai was only a freshman in high school, not mature enough or sensible enough, so he didn't know how to control those emotions

All she knew was that she was very sad, very angry, very angry, sad that her father left, angry that the murderers were not punished, angry that these murderers had no repentance at all

There is no way to hurt the murderer, so let her daughter be hurt, let the murderer feel the feeling of losing a loved one, and make him feel as sad as himself

In the first year of high school, Bai Bai thought so

So at that time, Bai Bai threw himself at Nan Jiu, who was completely unaware of it, Nan Jiu's strength was very small, maybe it wasn't that he was weak, but Bai Bai was stronger than ordinary girls since he was a child

Therefore, Nan Jiu was easily dragged by Bai Bai to the rooftop of a high-rise building, and Bai Bai almost exhausted all his strength to push her out.

Nan Jiu glanced fearfully under the tall building that would make people feel dizzy. The figure downstairs shrank to a point, and then glanced at the strange girl. Bigger, Nan Jiu shouted in despair

"let me go"

How could Bai Bai listen to these words? When Nan Jiu spoke, she intensified her movements and pushed the person who had been struggling all this time. She was a little decisive.

In the panic, Nan Jiu grabbed the railing in time

The iron railings have been left unmaintained for a long time, and no one will come up to the roof, so a layer of rust has grown on them, and it feels very rough when held in the hand.

The whole person was suspended on the tall building because of being suspended in the air, and the strength in the hands began to be pulled away bit by bit, and the strength was about to be used up. At that time, there was not much fear, it was just a subconscious survival. want to live, don't want to die

If no one gives her a hand, she will definitely fall, even the last struggle has begun to look very weak, and falling from this height will undoubtedly kill her

The girl who caused all this was just watching coldly. The girl seemed to be less irritable, did she calm down?No way of knowing, the desire to survive made Nan Jiu squeeze out two words from between his teeth

"help me"

It's ironic to beg someone who wants to kill you to save yourself

Nan Jiu begged her, looked up at the only person who could save her, her eyes were full of despair, fear, and panic

After all, Bai Bai is just a child, she is not so cruel, she can't really kill someone, when she saw this look in her eyes, she hesitated, or she hesitated at first

"You deserve it, people like you deserve it"

Bai Bai hugged his head and yelled like crazy, in the end those hesitation still couldn't overcome the hatred in his heart, he turned and left, leaving Nan Jiu alone

In desperation, at that moment Nan Jiu realized the true sense of loneliness, that is the loneliness before death, the figure who turned and ran away gradually disappeared from sight under the setting sun

That is Nan Jiu's only hope, and this only hope is getting farther and farther away from her

"Don't go, please"

The hand hangs the weight of the whole body. After a long time, I have lost consciousness. The pain is so painful that I can’t feel the existence of the hand. I really have no strength.

It seemed to be on the verge of the limit, but the back that went away did not stop until she heard the sound of the old iron door closing on the roof, and the sizzling sound of the door scraping on the ground, which made her suddenly understand that that back, she was staying behind. Can't live

both before and now

Begging for wanting to live, begging her not to go

Many years later, in order to survive, and in the same tone, begging her to stay

But that back figure never stays for a moment, never looks back decisively, the person who abandoned you once, will habitually start the second or even the third time

"Do you think I cried at that time?"

Nan Jiu was smiling, Bai Bai seemed a little absent-minded

"I didn't cry, I just felt that I was going to die. I was scared, but I didn't cry. I don't know why I didn't cry. Maybe it's because people really can't cry when they are facing desperation."

Listening to Nan Jiu's emotions, Bai Bai's eyes were always erratic, and he never met his eyes

"Then you climbed up by yourself?"

It seems that this is the only possibility

"How is it possible, I don't have that kind of strength, I let go"

Such a tall building let go of its hand?Bai Bai looked at Nan Jiu with some doubts.

"When I let go, someone grabbed me"

Grab it, the last straw in despair, at the most important time, the most important moment, it appeared neither sooner nor later

The moment Nan Jiu let go of her hand, a pair of extremely thin hands grabbed Nan Jiu, and the most reassuring moment happened at that moment. When she looked up, there was a pair of stubborn eyes. clean

"It's Xiaohui"

With a touch of sadness, Nan Jiu narrated these

"The moment I saw her at that time, I really had a very strange feeling. Maybe it was because my only life-saving straw rushed over at the last moment, which made me feel extraordinarily cordial."

Nan Jiu should like that Xiaohui, otherwise she wouldn't be carrying such sadness at this moment, no matter how indifferent the tone was, as if describing something that had nothing to do with her, but the sadness under the words could not be concealed

"This can be regarded as a life-saving grace, it seems that you have promised with your body."

Bai Bai said this with a slight smile, seemingly with a little jealousy, but there are some other things mixed in this jealousy, guilty conscience?hypocritical?Or mean?

Even when it comes to this situation, Bai Bai still has no intention of stopping the game, and even feels a little sick that it is more interesting

In fact, from the first year of high school, from the time when Nan Jiu was pushed down the tall building, he has been sick to the point of abnormality

"I heard you said before that she seems to be married. Don't you hate her?"

"Did I hate you when you said you were going to get married?"

This rhetorical question made Bai Bai feel a little unprepared. Nanjiu seems to be an existence that does not hate people, whether it is Xiaohui's abandonment, or the original determination and use

She always forgives easily, and then looks like nothing happened, but occasionally shows the pain hidden in her heart, just like this moment

Bai Bai changed the subject unnaturally

"Your fear of heights fell at that time?"

Nan Jiu nodded and did not deny

"Then what is your right hand?"

"No, it was like that before that."

Bai Bai let out a long sigh and didn't speak again. After a long silence, just when Nan Jiu thought this topic was about to be skipped, she asked

"Don't you want to know why that man pushed you downstairs?"

That question almost exhausted all of Bai Bai's strength, as if if the answer is correct, forget it, and stop continuing, but what is the correct answer, it seems that there is no solution

"So what if I want to know, I called the police at that time, but I don't even remember her face at all, it must be because I was too panicked at the time."

Hearing such an answer, Bai Bai chuckled ironically, and suddenly felt that his behavior at that time was meaningless, and he didn't even know why he wanted to do that.

"Maybe you and I met a long time ago"

This sentence can be regarded as a reply to Nan Jiu's first sentence "Actually, I always think you are very familiar", but unfortunately Nan Jiu didn't understand

Bai Bai would never be able to explain it to her. At this time, Bai Bai had long been blinded by hatred, unable to see the beauty and avoiding it.

Sometimes once people enter a strange circle, they will habitually stay in it. When you think that you have nothing to do with this circle, you will find that you are just circling in place

Maybe many people don't understand what the purposeful approach is for, but when something can force you to kill a person, what can't be understood?

What is the difference between the resentment at that time and the gnashing of teeth at that time, and the hatred that suddenly ignited again now?They're all just demons. When you accept the money from your father's death settlement, you should see clearly that human life is worthless.

What would my father think when he was lying there alone on the side road?Whether it's fear or relief, Bai Bai is very curious, will it be the same as Nan Jiu's feeling when he was hanging on a tall building, so desperate that he won't cry

"When you almost fell, what were you thinking?"

Nan Jiu tilted her head, as if recalling that scene

She said, she doesn't remember, the only thing she remembers is the back that can't be kept, as well as the thin hand that grabbed her and the stubborn eyes

So at that moment, Bai Bai also thought, did his father forget it too?

I patted my head and remembered that my father was dead, there is no such thing as forgetting or not forgetting

Sometimes Bai Bai also thinks, why should such hatred be imposed on a person who has nothing to do with it?

I don’t know, I never thought about it, I just followed my heart, I hated this person if I said I should hate it, I never thought about how innocent this person is