maddened

Hua Gangsheng stumbled along the way, almost can only use the word panic to describe his mood.

He was a little scared.

At this time, only he himself understood what he was afraid of.

When he finally reached the front of the house, Hua Gangsheng closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

He hasn't come back here for a long time. When he left this house, he was barely accompanied by Qingqing. Now that he came back, he was the only one left.

The complicated mood made it hard for him to explain, and the absurd incident with Rudby was broken and made his heart feel even heavier—he came back here shamelessly, but he didn't know where he should go in the middle of the night , In the end, he had no choice but to run back cheekily again, but the footsteps of this return became heavier and heavier.

If it wasn't for the fact that it was too cold outside, he would really have hesitated outside all night, and he couldn't muster up the courage to come back.

Hua Gangsheng stood at the door of his house for a quarter of an hour. His legs and feet were numb from the cold wind outside.

He lowered his head and stood there quietly, but he kept recalling the past in his mind——

Since he was a child, he was laughed at for being too weak, so he gritted his teeth and ran to the police station.When he was a child, Hua Jingsheng didn't like his mother, so he forced Lin Lianhao to go away. However, because he didn't see his mother for many years, he later mistook the bond between mother and child as a good feeling.

Qingqing is a lively and cheerful girl. She should have a bright future, but in order to complete his career, he deliberately hurt her without telling her, which later caused Qingqing to die.

Not to mention later...

that matter.

All these piles, like an invisible weight, are piled on his shoulders, making his guilt and self-blame continue to deepen. If he is a heartless person, he can use the sentence "this is all in the past" to excuse himself .

But he is not, and he cannot blame others for these responsibilities.

Guilt weighed down his arms, preventing him from raising his hand to knock on the door in front of him.

"Forget it..." Hua Gangsheng clenched his hand against the door into a fist and tightened it little by little. Then he withdrew his hand in frustration, turned around and prepared to leave here.

He is still that good-for-nothing who can't do anything, so stupid that he often thinks of whimsical ideas, and then hurts the people around him to be dragged down by him.

He really couldn't get over the hurdle in his heart, and he had no face to return to this home.

Hua Gangsheng wanted to leave quietly, but the iron door behind him suddenly creaked open. He turned around in surprise, and saw Hua Jingsheng with a messy hair poking out from the door, looking at him with a dark face— —

"I heard your footsteps a long time ago, but I haven't seen you open the door and come in after waiting for a long time. What are you going to do now? Where are you going at this late?"

"Brother..." His throat quivered slightly, and he couldn't help trembling in his heart.

Hua Jingsheng knocked on the door at him impatiently, and then waved, "You bastard, hurry up! Your brother is going to freeze to death!"

Hua Gangsheng was stunned for a moment, and then saw that the other party came out wearing only a vest. He opened his mouth, and turned back with a sullen head.

"Brother..." He stood at the door, as if he was still a little hesitant.

But so many worries are piled up in his heart, and there is nowhere to vent them, just like a heavy weight, dragging his heart, making him uncomfortable.

So he gritted his teeth and said, "I'll tell you something."

"What?" Hua Jingsheng didn't quite understand what he was going to say, but seeing him standing there motionless, he stretched out his hand and pulled him into the room before talking.

The iron door squeaked again, and then it slammed shut. After closing the door, Hua Jingsheng trotted quickly, went to the sofa to grab a blanket for himself, and then looked at the pale-faced Hua Gangsheng again. , said: "Speak, I'm listening."

Hua Gangsheng hid his clenched fists behind his back, then pursed his lips, and said softly: "I have not been dismissed from the police station, I just...became an undercover agent."

"Did you go to check him?" Hua Jingsheng was not stupid, he immediately understood the meaning of this sentence, and then he couldn't help frowning, his expression became a little angry.

"Being an undercover agent is so dangerous, why didn't you tell us earlier?"

Hua Gangsheng lowered his head, "Sorry, I made you worry."

The voice fell, but no one spoke again, and there was a strange silence between the two of them.

After a long time, Hua Jingsheng sighed heavily, and then said again: "Forget it, I don't blame you, you are still standing here, and I am very happy, but in the future...do you want to continue this task?" ?”

"I do not know."

Hua Jingsheng pursed his lips, and suddenly laughed again. He threw the blanket aside, strode forward, and hugged his second brother who was looking extremely sad with his head down, and patted his back with his palm. pat--

"My younger brother is indeed so good. You can rest assured knowing this big brother. You have nothing to say sorry for. We are a family, and big brother understands."

……family.

Hearing these words, Hua Gangsheng's already stabilized emotions suddenly seemed to be opened again, which made him a little unbearable.

"Brother... I'm sorry." He hugged Hua Jingsheng back, his eyes immediately felt warm again, he buried his face in the other's shoulder, muttered in his mouth, repeating those two words with a choked voice.

"Feel sorry."

Father, mother, eldest brother, Qingqing——

And... that person.

Really Sorry.

He screwed everything up.