maddened

After slamming the door out, Rudepei didn't know how he got home.

He took out all the wine from the cabinet at home, and he didn't want to stop drinking until his stomach hurt.

The night outside the window is still dark, looking down from a high place, the city scenery pieced together by neon lights is dazzling.

The lights are long and the scenery is beautiful, but Rudby feels cold all over his body.

Alcohol eroded his stomach, and the pain made his head dizzy, and the nicotine in the cigarettes made his throat bitter, and he couldn't help coughing.

Alcohol slowly volatilized in the body, spread from the stomach to the blood vessels, along the blood and traveled to every nerve in the body little by little, and even at the end, he seemed to feel that his skin was soaked in alcohol—then, he Fell asleep.

He had a dream.

Still in that familiar room, and he hugged someone in his arms, which made his body no longer cold.

Their limbs intertwined in the most intimate posture, and their breathing slowly merged together. He could feel every pore in him screaming and trembling, and then slowly stretched out.

The feeling of extreme joy overwhelmed him, and he suddenly opened his eyes, but there was a dazzling light in front of him.

There is no one else here except himself.

Rudby lay quietly on the bed, the open window was still letting in the wind and humming.The wind probably blew all night, and he was so tired that he didn't want to lift his fingers, he just felt sore all over.

He closed his eyes again, his throat quivering—

Even if you know the relationship between yourself and the other party, what's the use of it?His mind was still full of that person, even in his dreams.

He felt that he was simply unforgivable.

He fell asleep for a long time, but just looking at the sunlight outside, he couldn't tell whether it was morning or dusk.The effects of the alcohol hadn't gone down yet, and the body that had been blown by the cold wind all night was extraordinarily heavy, which really made things worse.

He moved his fingers and wanted to sit up, but a sudden nausea in his stomach made him extremely uncomfortable. He stumbled and got out of bed, rushed to the bathroom to vomit.

The remaining wine poured out, but he still didn't feel relieved, but the pain aggravated a bit because his stomach was empty.

Rudebbe sat leaning against the wall, with his legs bent and his head raised, he habitually went to his pocket to feel for cigarettes, but what he found was only a cigarette case that had been emptied.

He slammed the cigarette case against the opposite wall, and scratched his hair a little annoyed.The cramping pain in his stomach caused a thin layer of sweat to ooze from his forehead, and his temples were also throbbing. The dual physical and mental torture made him want to kill.

He sat there in a daze for a while, his pupils were empty and without any brilliance, the cold air swam around, and the feeling of suffocation was everywhere.

He closed his eyes, emptied his brain, and let his thoughts fly away. When he was having a headache, he heard someone knocking gently on the door——

The knock on the door seemed to be a little hesitant, and it was played very lightly, as if the visitor was also hesitating whether to meet him or not.

Rudby pursed his lips and thumped the wall with his backhand violently. The hard wall returned the strength to his fist, but he didn't care.

Now it doesn't matter if there is one more pain, he feels almost torn apart.

Just standing up took most of Rudby's strength, and when he reached the door, he was almost unable to hold on.

The exhaustion was so heavy that it was about to overwhelm him, and when he opened the door and saw someone coming, he propped his hand against the wall, his fingertips trembling uncontrollably.

"How did you come?"

Hua Gangsheng's face was still very ugly, but no matter how ugly it was, it was not as ugly as Lu Depei who was suffering all over at this moment.

His eyes were tentative, and he swept past Lu Depei, and he didn't dare to look at him, so he didn't see his pale and blue face.

"I have something to tell you," he said softly.

Lu Depei took a step forward involuntarily, but the tension in his mind made him stop in time.

He hasn't forgotten what he heard last night——

This was his brother, and they had half the same blood as each other.

"Are you here to care about me again?" He asked softly, and his tone couldn't help being filled with anticipation.

But after he asked this sentence, he felt that it was wrong, so he simply raised his chin, put on a haughty attitude and looked at the other party to make amends: "But what else do I have to say to you?"

"Do you think I'm ridiculous or pitiful? I'm the one who can sleep with my own brother, so you're not afraid that I'll attack you again?" The more he said, the paler his face became.

It's like masochistic.

Lu Depei's tone was harsh, with a mocking smile all over his face, and he didn't know who he was stabbing in the heart. Even he himself couldn't figure out why he said such hurtful words.

But he still said it, and he said it very happily, because when he saw the face that had brought him warmth and plunged him into pain and entanglement, he still wanted to get closer.

But until he figured it out, he couldn't.

I dare not.

"I have nothing to say to you, but I can think about it when I go to bed."

After speaking, he deliberately sneered, stepped back, and slammed the door again.

As soon as the door closed, he lost all his strength in an instant, and fell to the ground along the door panel.

He bent his legs and buried his face deeply in his arms. The tall man almost rolled himself into a ball at this moment, and then covered all the expressions on his face.

...Even though there was no one else in the room except him, he still didn't want to expose his fragile appearance to the air.

A door apart.

Hua Gangsheng, who was blocked outside, quietly clenched his fists, his body trembling uncontrollably.

Even he himself didn't know who the anger in his chest was directed at, maybe it was his own too.

Seeing this side, he mustered up all his courage to come here, and he really didn't have more courage to come here again.

So until the end, he still couldn't knock on the closed door in front of him again, let alone say the words he had prepared.

Hua Gangsheng lowered his eyes, stared blankly at the smooth ground for a while, and finally waited until his emotions stabilized, then sighed silently.

"Silly boy."

He whispered, laughed lightly as if mocking himself, raised his legs and staggered back along the way he came.

And then never look back.

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