Every time love is overturned

【Mori Ogai Ending: A Portrait of Memory】

Mori Ogai has a portrait painted a long time ago, which is an oil painting.This oil painting depicts a girl in a white dress, about eleven or twelve years old.This painting was given to him by Kyogoku Natsuhiko, and it was painted on Yayoi's birthday.

Because this oil portrait was the first time he received an oil painting from Kyogoku Natsuhiko, he didn’t think it was painted by him at first. After all, Kyogoku Natsuhiko always liked Japanese paintings, so when he saw the oil painting When the artist's name was written on the back, Mori Ogai was a little surprised.

And Mori Ogai's impression of Yayoi has always been in the oil painting portrait, and the girl's young and immature appearance when the box was just opened.

——What a perfect puppet it is, as if it came out of an oil painting.

An existence that is completely different from his own supernatural Alice, but extremely similar in some respects.This kind of novelty made Mori Ogai a little fascinated, of course he knew very well that the only reason he was fascinated was that he had already had a predetermined impression of Yayoi before he actually got to know her.

Kyogoku Natsuhiko's letter only mentioned that he adopted such a young girl, and also talked about some of her living habits.The tone of the letter is very serious, like an ordinary father telling the story of his daughter, but beyond these superficial emotions, Mori Ogai felt a breath that only he could feel.

That's the feeling of love, so subtle that no one who is not of the same kind can't detect it.But Mori Ogai clearly understands that it is impossible for him to have this beautiful girl. It is not that Yayoi will grow up with the passage of time and his personality will gradually change, but that his own positioning of himself has changed from the beginning. The eternal relationship between the two has been doomed.

Before Yayoi and Chuya were about to hold their wedding, Mori Ogai sat alone in his room staring at the oil painting portrait.The smiling girl in the portrait is as dazzling as a luminous body emitting light.Alice was lying on Mori Ogai's lap, also looking at the portrait.

"Rin Taro, if you make a move, Yayoi will not belong to anyone else from the beginning." The girl said something surprising, "So do you regret it now?"

Mori Ogai stroked Alice's hair and replied: "I won't do that, because I am 'father'. No matter what decision a daughter makes, who she loves, she will eventually be the daughter of 'father', so My relationship with Yayoi will never change."

Alice laughed at him, and then said no more.At the wedding scene, when he accompanied Yayoi to Chuya arm in arm, and handed Yayoi's hand to her husband who would accompany her for the rest of her life, the picture that emerged in Mori Ogai's mind was still the same oil painting back then, and the opening Yayoi's face that appeared from the box.

——This is really an unexpected gift.

[Kunikida Doppo ending: Blooming under the cherry tree]

After Yayoi said those words to him, a certain burden that had been lingering in his heart suddenly seemed to disappear.It made Kunikida feel both relaxed and a little bit lost.

After Osamu Dazai joined the Armed Detective Agency, one day his notebook was taken away by this mischievous partner.When he found Dazai and wanted to get it back, Dazai's expression became a little subtle.

On the opened page are written his standards for lovers, and many of them are written according to when Kunikida and Yayoi got along, which can almost be called fantasy literature.And the evidence that can prove that these fanciful words are indeed real is a dried cherry blossom in the pages of the book, and the pattern that Yayoi rubbed on Yayoi's buttons back then.

"Is this something written for your first love?" Dazai asked casually as he returned the notebook to Kunikida.Originally, Kunikida didn't want to answer, but he answered this question in a mysterious way.

"Yeah, don't you have a first love?"

Dazai smiled. At that time, Kunikida didn't understand the meaning of this smile, but Dazai asked a question that was like a prophecy: "Kunikida, if one day you have to choose between your ideal and the lover written in your ideal, what would you do?" What will you do?"

Kunikida didn't understand the meaning of this sentence at the time, until he knew that Dazai was originally a cadre of the port mafia, and his first love Yayoi was also a cadre, and the emotional entanglements between her and other people were visible to the naked eye.It was only at this time that he realized that Dazai had predicted the outcome of his choice and the direction of the relationship at that time.

He has always been a determined person, otherwise he would not have been identified by Fukuzawa Yukichi as the most suitable candidate for the next president.When the ideal and the ideal lover conflicted, he chose the path he insisted on.Although he didn't see the shock and incomprehension in Yayoi's eyes, the burden in his heart became heavier and heavier.

As time goes by, boys and girls grow up, and they take very different paths because they didn't start from the same place in the first place.But Kunikida doesn't regret liking Yayoi, and this youthful relationship has a smooth ending.

Kunikida took the time to go back to the school he and Yayoi went to, which happened to be the graduation season.The tree that gave each other buttons back then was still luxuriant, and the cherry blossoms were still in full bloom. Kunikida buried both buttons under the tree.When he looked up at Sakura, he suddenly realized.

Cherry blossoms only bloom in spring, and he was just lucky enough to see the cherry blossoms in full bloom in a certain spring.As for Yayoi, who is also in full bloom like a cherry blossom, he was lucky enough to meet and fell in love, and that is enough.

【Ayatsuji Pedestrian Ending: A Gifted Story】

After Kyogoku Natsuhiko's death, Ayatsuji pedestrians always heard his voice from time to time.He felt that this might be a negative result caused by his ability to drop objects, but there was no way to eliminate it, so Ayatsuji pedestrians could only let this voice appear from time to time to harass him.

In his many years of struggle with Kyogoku Xia Yan, most of the opponent's tricks are familiar to him by heart.But what Ayatsuji pedestrians didn't expect was that Kyogoku Natsuhiko raised an adopted daughter well, and sent her to the port's black hand party to become a cadre.

Out of curiosity, Ayatsuji wanted to get a photo of this adopted daughter.But the other party was well protected, so he had no chance to see him.Ayatsuji Xingren didn't want to guess the other party without evidence, but he still couldn't help wondering what the other party was like and why Kyogoku Natsuhiko adopted her.

By the time they met, there was only one impression left in Ayatsuji pedestrian's mind.

——Beautiful, giant snake that chooses to eat people.

She's smart, dangerous, and she has a natural instinct for setting things up that she inherited from Natsuhiko Kyogoku.Although the tricks are still very immature and the structure is not delicate, it is a conspiracy that can be seen through at a glance.But these are not important, what is important is that even if you see through the truth from the beginning, there is no way to defeat her.

Ayatsuji pedestrians did not feel frustrated, he felt excited.This is a brand new experience, and the mage around him is still whispering, it seems to be full of pride for his adopted daughter.The final result of this conspiracy was Yayoi's victory. She managed to make Ayatsuji pedestrians helpless and got what she wanted.

As far as the result is concerned, it can be described as a complete victory, but Ayatsuji pedestrians feel that it is not enough, because she can do more than that.But unlike her adoptive father who took pleasure in inducing others to commit crimes, Yayoi was just having fun.It's not that Ayatsuji pedestrians can't feel the undercurrent of the men around her, but so what?

He was not interested in these things from the beginning, he just wanted to see if Yayoi would make more puzzles that challenged him.This kind of mentality is very strange. On the one hand, he hoped that she would be different from Kyogoku Natsuhiko, and that she could stop at this and become a world where gray images exist from beginning to end, and there are blacks; and his next contest.

But at present, this wish is difficult to achieve, and Ayatsuji pedestrians feel a little regretful.But it is undeniable that when he saw Yayoi wearing a wedding dress and swearing in marriage in the auditorium, he actually brought himself into the opposite of Yayoi in his mind, and had such an imaginary.

In the end, he just returned the bouquet to Yayoi, turned around and left the happy place where she married someone else.Because he knows very well that in Yayoi's world, the story between him and her is just a gift story.

【Fyodor Ending: Gambler】

"She got married today."

Sitting in his cell, Fyodor heard these words from Ango Sakaguchi.They all know who she deserves in this sentence.After these words were finished, Fyodor didn't show any extra expressions or words, and Ango Sakaguchi left quickly.

The cell was very silent and equally dark.But there was still a ray of light in the darkness, a light source from nowhere fell on the floor, and Fyodor turned his eyes to look at the beam of light that seemed to be cut off at a pinch.

At this time, he remembered many things, and in the end all things receded like the scenery passing by the car window, and finally it was fixed on the day of his meeting with Yayoi.Strictly speaking, that was not the first meeting between him and Yayoi. In a real sense, the first meeting was when he drew her on the "book" with a pen.Her appearance, her form seems to have been imprinted in the depths of her mind long ago, as long as she picks up a pen, she can easily write what she looks like.

But when she was born, Fyodor didn't have much affection for her.Because this is just a puppet, and this puppet is just an important pawn in his game.So he left, waiting for the moment when he could start.And when he saw the grown-up Yayoi, Fyodor was completely unable to connect the lively beauty in front of him with the dull doll back then.

——A god needs offerings to show his abilities.

Fyodor even felt a little jealous. Who or whose love poured into her body, making her complete the transformation and become a flesh and blood person?If I could have had her by my side at that time, maybe I would be the only one reflected in her eyes.

—I created you, you should love me.And I will give you the same love, as the creator loves the creation.

Fyodor did not feel arrogant, because that was the way it was.But just like the puppet in his pen has gained a new life, Yayoi has never been under his control. It only needs a short sentence to change, and his confidence in the creator can be completely broken.

—You are my creation, of course I love you; but you, my dear creation, have you ever loved me?

That beam of light gradually faded, and slowly the light source disappeared.Fyodor did not regret anything he had done, and he never felt that he had missed anything.But only at this moment, he felt a little regretful.

Because of using emotions as a bet, this bet is doomed to lose.

【Akutagawa Ryunosuke Ending: Rashomon】

Yayoi and Chuya's wedding is an established ending that everyone understands. No one wants to change this status quo, and no one wants to replace it.But even if he thinks so on the surface, Akutagawa thinks that no one can imagine that the person standing in front of Yayoi in a wedding dress is himself.

Even this imagination is only a thin imagination.

Akutagawa also prepared his wedding day attire, a black dress, this is the first time he has worn such a formal attire.But unexpectedly it fit well, he tried his best to make a smile in front of himself in the mirror, and then quickly returned to the expressionless state.

——Ms. Yayoi, is it because Mr. Nakaya won because he is the best?

At that time, Yayoi's expression was a little dumbfounded, as if he didn't quite understand why he thought so.But the obedience that Akutagawa talks about is completely different from the obedience that Yayoi understands.He is a mad dog, a person who believes in the principle of survival of the strong, and the Dazai who taught him this principle is an important part of shaping his personality foundation.

That's why Akutagawa never knew what it meant to be good, and he would never learn Zhongya's calmness and generosity in the face of feelings.If he wants it, he wants to take it, he wants to cling to it tightly, and then swallow it into his stomach, taking it all as his own.But these are what Yayoi doesn't like, this is the "good" that he will never learn.

It must be admitted that Yayoi's beauty is the most important part of him being able to like her.To put it bluntly between men and women, the obsession with beauty is what everyone will subconsciously pursue.Money and beauty are rare resources in this world, and those who have rights deserve to enjoy them.And none of these Akutagawas, Mr. Dazai, whom he thought was the most suitable to be with Yayoi, did not have such a beautiful woman either.

From the perspective of a bystander, Akutagawa believed that Mr. Dazai pushed Yayoi away and voluntarily gave up the possibility of going further.

He used to feel joy about this, because he couldn't resist the temptation of this beauty, and wanted to reach out and try to plunder; but he also regretted Mr. Dazai's stagnation, because it meant that he was far inferior to Dazai's. He also cannot have Yayoi.

Akutagawa reached out to the mirror, and he touched his lips in the mirror.Recalling the only few intimate touches he had with Yayoi, and the first time he felt his heart move.He suddenly realized that even when he thought Yayoi was infinitely close to belonging to him, there was still a distance between him and her.

This distance is like kissing through a layer of glass, even if it is lingering, even if the heart is surging, it still cannot touch her heart.Only the person who broke the mirror and appeared in front of her with scars and warm blood will get her heart.

In the mirror, Akutagawa's supernatural Rashomon quietly covered his body, like a black armor covering his heart, and then the Rashomon faded away, and the person in the mirror returned to its original appearance.

"Brother, it's time to leave." Yin's voice sounded outside the door, reminding him that it was time to leave for the wedding venue.

Akutagawa turned around and responded, "I see."

[Oda Sakunosuke Ending: Secret Love Paradox]

This love affair is a paradox from the beginning to the end, because it has never begun, and it cannot be said to end at all.The relationship between Oda Sakunosuke and Yayoi, from cadres and members, to cadres and bodyguards, to members of opposing organizations, finally ended at the level of friends.

Oda Sakunosuke never said that he liked Yayoi, as shrewd as Dazai could see it, but he never said anything.Oda Saku didn't feel any embarrassment in liking someone his friend liked, but he really didn't show this.

"Odasaku, a love that hasn't started can't be called love."

One day when they were drinking at a bar, Dazai who had drunk too much said so, then laughed and said in a self-deprecating tone: "Although I said that, I seem to be the same."

"Then why do you do this?" Oda Saku asked this question that has always been confusing, because everyone can see that as long as Dazai wants it, he can definitely do it.

But Dazai shook his head and didn't explain anything, he just said: "Emotions can't be counted in this way. You will suffer."

Although Odasaku didn't know where he was at a disadvantage, but after thinking about it, there were so many women who had entangled with each other and shed tears. He must have a say in this regard.So Oda Saku accepted this statement and took it seriously.

Sometimes he wondered if there was really nothing attractive about him, so Yayoi's feelings for him were very honest from the beginning to the end.Even after telling them to go to the underground wrestling ground to watch that scene, they were calm when facing him.

But I don't blame her, because Oda Sakunosuke actually enjoys this kind of treatment and atmosphere different from others.When watching her sweet interaction with other people, she hypnotizes herself almost like masochistic. She doesn't have emotional entanglements with him, just because she doesn't want to play with his feelings.

But in the end he stretched out his hand and hugged her, allowing a burst of emotion even though he knew the ending.The closest contact between Oda Saku and Yayoi is nothing more than a hug.

This secret one-sided love never started, and it is destined to never end.

【Shibusawa Tatsuhiko Ending: Never Die】

At the moment of death, Shibusawa Tatsuhiko seemed to see the light.Different from the light of the Son of God he thought, there was a man in that light, a young man named Atsushi Nakajima.So at the moment of dying, he felt that the light he longed for also came to him.

That is what he has been pursuing all along, the ability to surpass himself.And the self in that world failed to do it, but the self in this world has also been favored by the light.

Fyodor used the "book" to create a new world line, which no one knew about.But Long Yan happened to have a supernatural ability in his collection, and the ability of this supernatural person can be predicted, including other parallel worlds that do not belong to this world line.But the price is that every prophecy changes reality, and no one knows what changed.

Shibusawa Tatsuhiko learned the prophecy from the mouth of this supernatural person, and then found the Ryuyin Yuzi created by Fyodor.But what he didn't know at the time was that Yuzi Longyin was not perfect, and could only give him a short life when he was seriously injured.

So in order to pursue this power that can surpass himself, he decided to devote himself to believing in this power.Even though she is the created Son of God, that is the only different light in this world.

But his efforts have been rewarded, he not only saw the light, but also possessed the light.After sacrificing her own light to Yuzi Longyin, she cut off the shackles of tragedy and gave herself true "immortality".

——I wanted to see the light, so I created the light myself.

[Central Plains Chuya Ending: Praise Tomorrow]

When he met Yayoi for the first time, his mood overlapped subtly with the mood he saw at the two people's wedding.

In fact, looking at her through the lid of the wooden box is not much different from looking at her through the pile of wedding veils.Because he only saw Yayoi's face from the beginning to the end, and he couldn't see anything else.

One thing Nakaya never said to Yayoi was that he thought Yayoi's eyes could speak.This is not an adjective, to him it is equivalent to Yayoi's second mouth.It doesn't mean that to look at a person's essence, you need to talk about deeds regardless of heart.It's not that Naka didn't know that when Yayoi got together with Dazai behind his back, besides that, he also shot at other people.

Sometimes Hongye even looked at him with affection, as if everyone knew about Yayoi's fascination, but he alone didn't.

How stupid they are, Chuya thought to himself.How did they know that Yayoi's eyes had already said what she wanted to tell me, and I knew what she wanted just by looking into her eyes.

She wants to be cared for fiercely, favored unreservedly, she just needs love.And I happen to be able to give her such love, so do I still need to worry about Yayoi being entangled with other people?

And when Yayoi said someone else's name in sleep talk for the first time, Chuya really felt panic for the first time.He began to worry, and a sense of crisis emerged from his heart.Then another voice in his heart laughed at him, the words he said before were nothing but bravado, and he was using bravado to cover up his jealousy.

After the first dispute with Yayoi, he felt that he didn't understand her.At that moment, the emotions he had been suppressing suddenly took the upper hand, and for a moment, he didn't even want to care about what Yayoi would do.But after regaining his sanity, Chuu also felt regret.

So he decided to follow his heart and face Yayoi directly.Tell her you always knew what she was doing, and tell her what's on your mind.Yayoi is stupid, she won't understand unless she speaks clearly, she must let her know what's on her mind.If she is still as stubborn as ever by that time, then she must speak until she understands.

So the 15-year-old Nakaya took the 14-year-old Yayoi out of the box, and the 22-year-old Nakaya put a ring representing the oath on the 21-year-old Yayoi.

——I will love you forever, because I reached out and grabbed your heart.

[Edogawa Ranpo Ending: Ten Faces of Secret Love]

"So, the atmosphere like yours is completely inefficient." Luanbu said as he looked at the three people who inadvertently spread a gloomy atmosphere in the office, and then shook the bag of thick snacks in his hand. "Ah, it's over, I'm going downstairs to buy some snacks."

Kunikida raised his head reluctantly: "Mr. Ranpo, there are still more in the cabinet."

"No need, I want to go out and buy by myself." Luanbu waved his hands, "I can't stand such a boring office atmosphere, I want to leave early after buying snacks." While talking, he left the office leisurely and went downstairs to buy A cup of milk tea and a little snack by the way.

It happened that he met Yu Xie Akiko who was about to go back, and when she saw him coming out alone, she guessed that he was going to leave early.So she asked Luanbu: "Do you want me to go with you?"

So the two went to the snack shop together, and Xie Yejingzi received the invitation to be the bridesmaid tomorrow. She had a good impression of Yayoi, so the two chatted a few words while walking on the road. "Oh, I really didn't expect there to be so many stories."

Ranpo and Xie Yejingzi were sitting in the park with milk tea and snacks. Seeing Ranpo's expression, Xie Yejingzi thought for a while and said, "Do you feel a little unhappy?"

"Me, no." Ranpo flatly denied, "I just don't like the state of the three of them."

Yoshiya Akiko thought about what happened to Kunikida, Dazai, and Oda Saku, and smiled: "Of course, Miss Yayoi's failure to choose Mr. Ranpo is her loss. You don't have to be unhappy."

"That's not the case at all." Luanbu said seriously, "She is a smart person and knows who is best for her to choose. Of course, you all said that I am not good at emotional matters, so I will not judge her and The love story between that cool hat guy. I just think..."

Feeling uneasy, Xie Yejingzi and Xie Yejingzi came to a conclusion.Obviously there is no deep entanglement between that lady and Ranpo, but the state of Ranpo is obviously like a broken love.Yu Xie Ye Akiko sighed after feeling that beauty has such a disturbing privilege, and then tried to help Ranbu cheer up.

"I like detective novels (written by Edgar Allan Poe) very much recently. Why don't Mr. Ranpo take this as a detective script and explain it in detail? Maybe this way you can understand your emotions."

Ranbu's eyes light up, he is not good at purely talking about emotional entanglements, but if you look at the relationship between characters as a common plot in detective novels, then this matter is very simple.Yayoi is the protagonist. A total of ten men were involved in the whole incident, and the final murderer (groom) was among these ten men.

Ranpo soon came to his own conclusion, and analyzed the reason why the other person is not the murderer (groom) but Chuya from a very rational and objective point of view.

"Although I don't know if it's right to say that, after all, Ms. Yayoi didn't say why she likes Nakahara Chuya." Yu Xie Akiko said, "But Mr. Ranpo's evaluation of his role is not too low?"

He commented that the role of "Ranbu" would not be the murderer (groom) for only one reason: the detective cannot be the murderer (groom).

"The reason is very simple." Luanbu can only reflect that he is a 26-year-old adult man in extremely subtle places, "Men all know what kind of woman they like, but this does not mean that women must like This man, isn't he? Compared with a person who likes one-sidedly but doesn't take any action, it's more suitable for the object of mutual affection."

Yu Xie Ye Jingzi was speechless, and finally nodded: "Mr. Ranpo is right."

Luanbu stretched his waist, and said to himself: "Ten people have ten faces. Tomorrow, I think I will comb my hair back. I will give it a try." Then he looked at Xie Yejingzi, "Let's stop by and get the dress. Take it, I don’t know the way, so I’ll trouble you to lead the way.”

【Osamu Dazai Ending: Retrograde】

——If I hadn’t told that lie back then, I would have lied to you if I hadn’t won.People with me right now...

"Pa—" Dazai would always think of this sentence involuntarily, and then threw the pebble in his hand.It sank into the river after several floats. The river surface in the evening looks golden and has a very gentle feeling.Normally, he might want to go directly down the river, but at this time, after thinking of the words Yayoi once asked him, he didn't have the intention to go for another swim.

Evening is the time of magic.

How he answered Yayoi at that time seemed to say that it was meaningless to do so.And after saying this sentence at that time, something seemed to disappear in Yayoi's eyes, and some light spots that could be seen before no longer existed in her eyes at this moment.

Dazai didn't regret saying that, he had to say it.Because he had to reject Yayoi and make her give up completely.Now that she is already with Zhongya, no matter how many assumptions are made, they are delusions that cannot happen.Even though these delusions once fermented in his heart, and sometimes even popped up to reveal their existence, they would not shake Dazai's heart.

Because it would be such a pleasant thing to think of being able to capture Yayoi from Nakaya in the first place.

But at the same time, he is very clear that the Yayoi that he likes and the Yayoi that other people like are all born after Yayoi first and then had the same kind of emotional germination.When he saw Yayoi for the first time, he only felt that he saw a beautiful moving doll, which was very similar to himself but completely different from him.

Her inside is empty, but her own inside is suppressed and cannot be further released.So when I met Yayoi for the first time, he said something he would not have said, would he die in love with me?

Chu was also surprised, and Yayoi was equally surprised.But at that time, Dazai had a kind of malice in his heart. If the active doll lost its power, it seemed to be a good thing.

But soon he discovered that Yayoi was wearing a mask, which was obviously true in nature, but behaved like that.Out of curiosity, he tried Yayoi, but in the end, she snatched away his first kiss.Dazai, who was only 15 years old, experienced some scary things about girls for the first time, and it was at this time that he discovered that the dolls began to slowly become human-like.

Dazai doesn't want to admit that he has become obsessed with dolls, he wants to see what Yayoi will become.Even a person as outstanding in mind and scheming as Dazai, in the end he cannot help but surrender at the feet of love.Compared with love, many things are worthless.

But he is more aware, and sometimes even hates his excessive sobriety: the person who changed Yayoi is not him, but Chuya.He has never tried to have it in the past, so how can he talk about losing it?

His relationship with Yayoi and Chuya entered into a strange circle.The more he likes Yayoi, the more he can feel the kind of complete helplessness, because even if he knows what Yayoi wants, he doesn't know if he has something to give her.

She and Zhongya came to the Armed Detective Agency that day, and he had a long-lost talk with Zhongye.Nakaya's eyes were full of understanding. His old partner had always understood the strange emotional connection between the three of them.

"So you, Chuya, take the initiative to take that step." Dazai said this while smiling, "This is a rare kind suggestion from me, don't you think so?"

Chuya took a sip of coffee without making a sound, but said to Dazai before putting down the cup: "Then I still have to thank you for not taking that step."

Very rare, Dazai was choked by Chuya.Later, he learned the secret of Yayoi's birth, and this secret basically corresponded to his impression of Yayoi in his youth, so he felt an inexplicable feeling like a treasure in his heart.

So Dazai, who is good at lying, lied to Yayoi, but he didn't regret it.He refused to give himself any chance to regret, Dazai looked away from the river, and started to walk up the road.There is still time to go to the clothing store to get clothes, and I still have to cheer up when I go to the wedding tomorrow.

He has been retrograde, never regretting, and never looking back.