Husband's Fingertips

"...Actually, before your father came to the Qiu family, I knew him..."

Xia Wangchuan couldn't help but widen his eyes.

"It's a long story. Your stepmother and I have a bad relationship."

A smile slowly emerged from the corner of Qiu Yueming's mouth, but there seemed to be a bit of sadness and a bit of sweetness in that smile.

"When I was in college, she and I were alumni of the same college, the same department and different majors. She is as her name suggests, quiet and elegant, and she is the recognized dream lover behind the scenes of boys."

"At that time, I was considered a good-looking talent, my family background was good, and there were many girls in school who pursued me, but in my heart, I recognized her."

"What attracts me to her is not only her outstanding appearance, but more importantly, the two of us have many common hobbies. We are both members of the school's literary club, and we both love to read classical novels, and we both like "Dream of Red Mansions."

Qiu Yueming's fingers caressed back and forth on the yellowed pages of the book.

"Sometimes on the way to the campus, in the cafeteria, when we meet, I can feel her affection for me from her eyes. Xiaoxia, you and Yanyan are also in love, you should know, the kind of love How wonderful it would be to be loved by someone, and then to be liked by the other party.”

"It stands to reason that at this time, I don't have any hesitation. I just rush forward and confess my love to her."

"But... I dare not."

Qiu Yueming raised his head, closed his eyes, and sighed deeply.

"Do you know why I am so cowardly, because I find that I seem to have serious physical problems."

Xia Wangchuan opened his eyes wide again in an instant.

"Yes, I was only in my early twenties at that time, and I was surrounded by boys of the same age, but I knew that I was different from them in some ways."

"Other boys are full of hormones every day, talking about women every day, thinking about women, looking for every opportunity to get a girlfriend, desperately wanting to...sleep with a girlfriend."

"I know this is normal, it's what a boy of this age should look like. But I can't, although I also have desires, impulses, and want women, but my body doesn't cooperate, and only occasionally have youths The reaction a man should have."

"I was terribly frightened. I read countless medical books in private, and I also secretly went to the Andrology Hospital for an examination. The doctor said that it was not an organic disease, but it was probably caused by psychological, spiritual or other unexplainable reasons. "

"For a man, when he sees a woman he likes and wants to make out with her, but his body doesn't respond, can you understand the helpless pain of despair? I'm ashamed to say that at that time, I even had countless Because of this, I want to commit suicide.”

Qiu Yueming smiled wryly.

"But I still hate my life, and I also hate the woman I like in my heart."

"Xiao Xia, it was at this time that I made the most wrong decision in my life, and that decision hurt and affected the lives of many people."

Xia Wangchuan looked at Qiu Yueming's face with shame and pain, got up and poured him a glass of water.

"At that time, I was still young, and I was still full of unrealistic fantasies about the future. I think I occasionally had a physical reaction. Maybe after I was with the girl I liked, I would gradually get better and better. So... I finally formally pursued He Xiangning when I was about to graduate from university."

"She has probably been waiting for me to say this courtship for a long time, so at that time, she was as happy as the happiest woman in the world. Unfortunately, the time of happiness was too short."

"After we got together, although there would be some small kisses between lovers, including hugs and kisses, I never crossed the line. Of course she thought I was the same as I saw on the outside, a modest gentleman. In In her heart, not only did she not think about it for even a second, but she felt that a man like me who respects women is the partner of her dreams."

"And I, in my sweet love with her, was so complacent because of the occasional physiological reactions that I deluded myself that I might have begun to become normal, and I could look forward to the passion after marriage."

Qiu Yueming paused for a moment, got up and walked to the bookshelf, and took out a mirror frame hidden behind a row of thick ancient books.

"Look, this is a small portrait taken when I married your Aunt He."

Xia Wangchuan took the small photo frame steadily.

In the photo frame is a pair of young men and women brimming with happiness and sweetness.Although the photo has become old and yellowed, you can still see the eye-catching faces of the men and women in the photo.

"Mr. Qiu was really hot when he was young!"

Xia Wangchuan looked at the handsome Qiu Yueming in the photo and his familiar young stepmother, and couldn't help showing a hint of confusion in his eyes.

Judging from the photos, Qiu Jiyan has completely inherited the advantages of both parents' appearance, and is very similar to his father's outline.

But... Qiu Yueming can't do it, can he?

Qiu Yueming seemed to see the confusion between his brows, looked at the photo in his hand and continued.

"In the second year after we graduated, we officially got married. To be honest, although you are a junior, there are some things I shouldn't say, but today, I can completely lift this big rock in my heart." Open, because I know what I’m telling you, it’s like I’m having a heart-to-heart with Yanyan.”

For a moment, Xia Wangchuan only felt a pang in his heart. The feeling of being accepted by Qiu's father as a family made him feel warm and inexplicable.

"Before I got married, it was probably due to the special anticipation. I found that my physical reaction was much more than usual, and I was really excited. I felt that I could finally realize the rights and obligations that a husband should have on the wedding night. .”

"But... but who knows, when that day really came, I was completely dumbfounded. When the day passed, all the ceremonies were over, and only the two of us spent the night together... I realized that no matter whether I No matter how hard I tried, no matter how proactive and provocative she was, the result was still the same, I can't..."

Qiu Yueming closed his eyes tightly in pain, and it took him a while to calm down again.

"Moreover, not only can't do what a husband and wife should do, it's probably because of being too nervous, and even the occasional physical reactions that used to happen have completely disappeared."

"He Xiangning was very considerate of me, comforted me, and told me that it might be the reason why Zhang Luo's wedding was too hard and tiring, and that it would be fine when we went out for our honeymoon."

Qiu Yueming smiled wryly and shook his head, "How did she know what happened to me, she didn't take it too seriously, but I started to feel disheartened, regretting that I was too selfish, dragged her into marriage but couldn't give her happiness .”

"Speaking of which, you must be wondering why the two of us gave birth to Yanyan, right? You already know the secret about me, so I won't go into too much detail about the rest of it."

"After our honeymoon, we found that we still couldn't solve the problem. At this time, He Xiangning was also a little anxious, but she was not in a hurry, she wanted to hurry up and let me treat it. After all, she loves me, and she didn't immediately treat me because she didn't have sex. If you want to separate from me, you still want to face it with me firmly.'

"At this time, I already had an idea of ​​my own. I had thought about this idea for a long time during the honeymoon trip and finally came up with it. With my insistence, she and I lived in Japan for a month after we got married. It took two years. When we returned to China two years later, Yan Yan was already born."

Xia Wangchuan opened his eyes slightly, Qiu Yueming saw his expression, and smiled wryly.

"Is it strange? In fact, after the treatment failed, I persuaded He Xiangning, who was at a loss, had no family by her side, and had no idea at the time, to use the technique of extracting semen from a man's body to conceive her in the form of a test-tube baby. Pregnant, this child is Yan Yan."

"After returning to China, I found that, whether it was due to too much psychological factors, the postpartum Xiangning and the newly born Jiyan both had different degrees of physical problems. Especially my wife, the whole person seems to have entered the A state of postpartum depression, very painful."

"Of course, only I know that her pain is far more tormented than simple postpartum depression."

"At this time, I have been secretly looking for Chinese medicine treatment methods to recuperate my body, including massage and massage, and I am still fantasizing about getting a better chance. At this time, I met your father who was single after divorce."

"To be honest, your father, as a masseur, didn't really heal my body, but his appearance made me, who was already tortured by this kind of life at that time, to collapse, and suddenly had a very strange idea."

Xia Wangchuan began to feel inexplicably nervous.

"You should know your father well. He seems to be born with a charm to attract the opposite sex. Of course, I'm not saying how romantic he is. I just think that women who are with him should be very happy. , whether it’s a lover or a friend.”

"At that time, I was suppressed by a strong sense of inferiority. Every day when I faced my depressed wife and my son who was born with poor health, I felt that life would be worse than death."

"That kind of gloom and depression, Xiaoxia, I don't know if you can understand it. In the eyes of outsiders, a lovely wife loves a son and has a successful career; but in fact, it is inhumane, sorry for his wife, and let her give birth to a child. Every day , I was tormented by the idea of ​​scolding myself for guilt, tormenting myself, and also tormenting Xiangning."

"Until, when I made up my mind and gritted my teeth and invited your father to the Qiu family as a masseur, everything finally changed."

"And this change is what I'm extremely worried about and afraid of, and it's also what I subconsciously hope for. Because your father understands my physical condition, he also knows the grievances and helplessness my wife is facing, so what will he do? What to do, what Xiangning can do, I am not sure, but I am inexplicably looking forward to it."

"Xiaoxia, do you think that life, including human thoughts, is very complicated and contradictory? Is it difficult to tell whether the human heart is sentient or ruthless?"

Xia Wangchuan was completely moved by the words of the old man in front of him.

That's right.

The characters of human beings, one stroke and one stroke, seem to be simple, but they are actually the most complicated creatures in the world.

Many things in this world can be judged and defined by good or bad, right and wrong, good and evil, black and white, but only the human heart and human emotion are things that are difficult to judge with standards.

"As for what happened later, I think you already know it. Although in my heart, I only hope that Mu Wenxuan will use his unique ability to restore my wife to the original happiness of a woman, but I also know that if he really Bring her happiness, that must be the day I lost her. But, I don't regret it."

Qiu Yueming stood up, lightly touched the face of the woman on the frame of the photo with his fingers twice, then slowly raised the photo to his eyes, and stared at each other with the woman in the photo.

"Xiang Ning, people are actually selfish, but for me, the most selfish person in the world is me. I lied to you and brought you endless troubles and melancholy throughout your life. I saved you, but I didn’t know that by doing so, I not only gave you heaven, but also pushed you down to earth.”

"I know that throughout your life, you have tortured yourself in the inability to resist desire and the guilt towards me and Yan Yan, that's why you always get sick for no reason, and those diseases always happen for no reason. But I know, All diseases begin with heart disease."

"You couldn't forgive yourself, so you punished yourself in self-blame, Xiangning... In this life, I, Qiu Yueming, am sorry for you, I am sorry for Yanyan, and I am sorry for Mu Wenxuan!"

Two lines of old tears finally flowed down the face of a person who had been guilty for half his life.

In Xia Wangchuan's room on the second floor, Mu Xiaolin was holding Qiu Yuebai's body, making him stand on one leg, doing one-leg hops.

Qiu Yuebai's body was held tightly by his strong and powerful arms, and the muscle touch and heat from the contact parts of the two made him feel itchy again and again.

Especially the hot air that Mu temporarily sprayed on his neck from time to time made him feel dizzy. This little man seemed to be exuding male hormones all over his body.

Not to mention that my curled up leg miraculously touched his swaying swing twice during the jump. At that moment, let alone jumping on one leg, even the gods couldn't stop the speed of the nosebleeds. .

"No, Xiao Mu, this method doesn't work for me, I'd better wash it with some water and block it with a paper towel."

Qiu Yuebai felt that it would be impossible to stop the nosebleed by holding this naked man.The only way is to quickly retreat from him.

"also!"

Mu Lin let go of Qiu Yuebai's shoulders, "I also noticed that now that you are hugging me, the flow is faster."

He suddenly blinked at Qiu Yuebai, and stretched his face to Qiu Yuebai's ear, "Uncle, is it because I'm naked, you can't stand it?"

Qiu Yuebai: "..."

He just knew that this kid is not the kind of person who sees through and doesn't tell the truth. He knows that he was stimulated by him, but he still wants to say it to make himself blush, shit!

He turned around in shame and walked towards the bathroom, ignoring Mu Lin's loud and provocative whistle behind him.

He raised his head in front of the sink for a while, and rinsed it twice with clean water. Qiu Yuebai felt that the nosebleeds seemed to have stopped flowing, but just as soon as he lowered his head, two streams of blood rushed out again. look up.

Mu Lin's voice came from behind, "Here, try to block it with this."

Qiu Yuebai turned around, the damned little ruffian hadn't put on his clothes yet, and was standing at the door of the bathroom, his obvious position on his body was still so shocking.

In his hand, he handed over a roll of medical gauze that he did not know where to find, it had been rolled into two small rolls, Qiu Yuebai could take it and stuff it directly into his nostrils.

This kid is quite a rough man.

Qiu Yuebai stretched out his hand to grab the gauze in his hand, but Mu Lin suddenly closed his open hand, "Uncle, in fact, there is a cure for nosebleeds in our hometown, which is specially used to treat your kind." , do you want to know?"

Qiu Yuebai was stunned for a moment, this kid's naked appearance was so lethal, he almost didn't dare to look at his lower third.

"What way?" Qiu Yuebai asked in doubt.

Mu Lin's slender eyes narrowed, "The people in our mine said that if a man gets nosebleeds because he sees a woman he likes, the best way is to have a cannonball with her, and it will take effect immediately. They call it 'cannonball hits double lights, blood stops and essence goes away', and they say it's proven to work, and the shot is worthwhile!"

Qiu Yuebai: "..."

Mu Lin looked at him in a daze, blinked his eyes again, "You're still bleeding, how about it, do you want to try?"

Qiu Yuebai just woke up like a dream at this time, gritted his teeth hard, pinched his nose and said to Mu Lin, "I can guarantee that you must have made up this statement, right? Even if it is true, you will tell me Tell me, where can I find a woman I like now?"

Mu Lin moved forward, "Uncle, you don't need to find a woman, don't you like men? This method is actually meant to vent your anger. As long as there is a cannonball, you can still be with a man." Aren't all women the same?"

Qiu Yuebai saw that his strong body was almost attached to his body, and an alluring man's body odor made him tremble all over.

He didn't know what Mu Lin meant when he said that, he just felt that he was the one who really wanted to have sex with his body close to his body and his lustful look.

After all, he is also a person who has beaten up many times in the field of love. After a moment of tension, he calmed down instead.

Big fart, a brat, and you’ve been flirting with me too. If you really have the courage, uncle really doesn’t believe in this evil. Although you are not the delicate type I usually like, but if you want, uncle is not afraid to accept you !

After Qiu Yuebai murmured in his heart for a while, he opened his mouth to Mu Lin, "Hey, I like men, and I want to find someone I like to vent my anger on, but the key is, where can I find the skills at this moment?"

Mu Lin saw that Qiu Yuebai had been distracted by him, and was thinking whether he should take this opportunity to test whether he could deal with men, but unexpectedly, the uncle of the Qiu family changed his shy and flustered expression, and Tao Hua In the blink of an eye, he defeated himself instead.

To be honest, it was still morning after all, Mu Xiaolin had just had a good night's sleep, and his body was in the best state of a man's day.

He already had a very good impression of Qiu Yuebai, but now the two of them are squeezed into the same bathroom, the other party doesn't wear much, and he has nothing to wear. Under such an ambiguous situation, Mu Xiaolin couldn't help but feel There was a long-lost impulse.

He was already very close to Qiu Yuebai, but at this moment, driven by a kind of crazy emotion, he pressed closer to Qiu Yuebai even more.

"Silly uncle, where else can I find a man? Isn't this far away in the sky and right in front of us!"

While speaking, he pressed his body on Qiu Yuebai's body.