[Titanic] Surprise in the bubble

At that moment, everything around me was in front of my eyes, slowed down like a video tape.

Jean has to clearly realize that at this moment, the entire body, including the mouth, nose, eyes... everything, is isolated from the air.

It was hit into the sea of ​​the Atlantic Ocean under a huge wave, in a very deep place.Squinting my eyes, I tried to see clearly the sea surface with dots of light in the salty water, but unfortunately, the Atlantic Ocean at night was so dark that I couldn't find a little boundary.

I couldn't help spitting out a bubble, my hair was floating in the sea water, my whole body was wrapped in water, like a water plant, it was constantly being swayed and shaken back and forth, but I couldn't leave here after all.

Passing by constantly around was dizzy by the waves, so now I don't know what to do, I just have time to see their frowning brows in pain, but because of the sea water, or maybe because there are too many of them, I can't see them clearly face.

It's just that at this moment, I don't have the mood to care about it anymore, I just want to swim to the coast in one breath-when facing death, it must be said, I instinctively want to survive!

So he kicked his legs apart and struggled against the resistance of the sea water. At this moment, this vast ocean was the prison he wanted to escape the most!

But in fact, after doing this, I found that there was nothing I could do, because I couldn't find a single bit of strength in my whole body to use it, and it was weak like a microorganism floating in front of me from time to time. , I have no strength to resist anymore...

This sea really intends to kill him at this time, he knows it clearly!But he didn't want to give in like this at all, because death was approaching too fast for him, making him want to run away.

——I feel that there are still many, many things that have not been done!

——I think I can live a little longer here!

——I feel that I can actually live here with my own identity!Because that is, no factor can change this. All along, I have been troubled by these thoughts like garbled characters!

But he didn't realize that as long as he recognized his own existence, then he would never dare to face doubts again! —Here, you can also live with peace of mind.

In the middle of these few seconds, I suddenly thought of Jack again, and I missed him terribly!Thinking that there is still a lot of love that has not been given to him, and many things that have not been done for him.

Thinking of the many difficulties and encounters he will encounter in the future, I can't help but hate myself and leave all of these to him! —wanted to make amends for all that this had caused him, the pain and sorrow that was coming...

——Yes, so much has been prepared for him, and even encouragement has been left behind, how can it be worth the power of being with him?

——So, just like that... gave up your love?

Suddenly because of this, because of the previous hesitation and hesitation, I feel incredible!I can't believe it, it's like this, leaving him alone?

Looking at the ups and downs in this ocean, there are many, many small bubbles that are connected in a string on the way to the vitality, which is very lively, and suddenly I want to rush out from here. No matter what method I use, I will definitely To live!

- I regret it!Want, stay with Jack, with real!

It's just that after this, I started to feel sad again - now, there is really nothing I can do...

It is a sad discovery that the wisdom and strength that were probably overdrawn in the previous big operation, at this moment, even though I want to live so much in my heart, there is still no way.

Because I don't have the strength anymore...

I'm about to die, I'm really afraid...the people after death will suffer forever because of this regret...

"Puff—cough!" Suddenly, a childish voice other than sea water suddenly rang out from beside my ears!Only then did he realize that there was still a child hidden in his arms.

He looked dazed, but unexpectedly came alive.Perhaps it was because the wave just now put him in a state of suspended animation, making him forget to breathe in the sea water, so he didn't drown here from the beginning.

However, an evil thought suddenly popped up in his mind - an unknown number of seconds had passed, maybe a minute.I clearly know that the time I can continue to hold my breath is about to run out.

I can already feel the suffocation that makes me have an extraordinary longing for the air above the sea surface, let me almost want to use the child in my arms as my stepping stone, let me use my strength to move forward!

But then I thought that doing so would be suicidal.Because it was discovered again, because the child was wearing the life jacket that was wrapped on him before, so that when he arrived, he was leading the two of them and moving up slowly.

Surprised to find that many bodies around were floating upwards by the life jackets, and quickly left the area around them.

But the two of us are like tortoises, wobbly, climbing up layer by layer, very strenuous.

I understand, because the life jacket can't bear the weight of the two of us, even if the other party is a child, but this kind of situation is already the limit of this clothing's function in sea water!

Therefore, it is precisely because watching many have a chance to gain life once, and understand that if you use this speed, once you lose your breath for a while, then both of you will be submerged in sea water, and neither of you will survive.. ....

The child in his arms obviously knew that holding his breath could make his body lighter, so he was puffing up his face, looking at the rescued people around him like him.

There was a "Hula" sound not far away, and when I looked, I found that it was Mr. Bodyguard, who was being brought up by the life jacket with a painful face, his eyes were closed, his brows were all frowned, and he didn't see them at all—guess, he probably Water is really not good?

"Well——" the child in his arms suddenly groaned, arched into his arms, and saw him covering his mouth with his face flushed, looking at him for help, his eyes were at a loss, with red eye circles, poor Like a crippled puppy whimpering.

Just staring at him like that, hoping to be more cruel, so that he can make a decision sooner.

Force myself to think about Jack who will be suffering because of this, Jack who is tortured by the disease, hoping to use this as a reason to let go of this stupid child who has no ability to survive.

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Jack sat on the lifeboat, jumping up and down anxiously, which disturbed him.

Ever since they escaped the reach of the Titanic and anchored on the sea, Jack has been stretching his neck, leaning in that direction, watching, waiting.

Because they were the first lifeboats to be lowered, every time a lifeboat came, Jack expected to hear Sean's voice-he guessed that if Sean was saved, he would find the place where the lifeboats were moored. , shouting his name loudly.

But until now, when the Titanic finally completely sank into the bottom of the sea, Jack still didn't hear the familiar voice.

He didn't know where his strength came from, he squeezed away those who came up later, those who surrounded the side of the boat, forced himself into the gap between them, and looked out from the side of the boat.

His eyes widened, but he still couldn't see any familiar figures.It was so dark that no light could help him.

He has no way to know whether Sean has escaped...

If not—Jack twitched, suppressing the sudden throbbing in his heart, he took out the morphine, spritzed himself, and forced himself to think better—maybe, it was just because it was too dark It was too dark, so Sean didn't call him rashly.

When help comes and they are all saved, they will definitely meet again!

What Sean promised - as long as they survived, they will definitely meet on the continent of the United States, and soon, very soon, they will meet again!

Jack could ignore many things that happened on the big ship before, and insisted on believing in the promise that Sean said to him at the end.

For him, this is more important than an everlasting oath, and he should rest assured and believe it forever!

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I made countless excuses for myself, even though it was very unconscionable and violated everything before—even repeatedly emphasized to myself, 【We must live!Because my mission is here, and the regrets of the rest of my life are all here! 】!

Yes, you can do those unfinished things here!You can live your life here!You can have yourself and Jack here!

And if you go back, yes, there is the most suitable place, yes, there are no foreign countries with deep eye sockets and high nose bridges, but... lacking Jack's life, what else can be nostalgic for? ?

Such a life, even if everything is done perfectly, everything can be done as one likes, how can it be called perfect?

Lost, abandoned the only loyal love...

"Ahem..." The child couldn't hold on any longer, and coughed while clutching his neck!A large amount of seawater poured into his nasal cavity and mouth, causing him to roll his eyes, looking as if he was about to die.

At that time, I obviously still thought in my mind, 'If he dies, I can just leave his life and live with peace of mind. 'This kind of bastard words, however, leaned over very naturally, aimed at his mouth, and took a breath, which belonged to him, and the few breaths passed.

Later, I thought, I really used the hope of the rest of my life to save this child unconsciously.

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