put on a show

The sun slanted to the west, and the clear sunlight was a little dizzy, turning into a dim yellowish orange.The light in the room also dimmed, shrouded in this dense and ambiguous atmosphere after love, the sweet atmosphere was as thick as aged honey, with a throat-cutting sweetness.

On the bed in the hotel, Pei Qing was still leaning, with the white sheet draped over his waist.Xing Pei lay on his side beside him, with the sheet pulled up to his armpits, propped his head, and watched as Pei Qing took two dried grass leaves from the dried vase on the bedside table to play with.

Xing Pei hesitated for a while, but still asked, "Where have you been these past two months?"

"My mom wanted to go on a cruise, so I went with her."

"Tsk, did you have fun?" Even though he saw someone again, Xing Pei was still angry when he thought about it. He frantically looked for someone, and the person left to take the cruise.

Pei Qing also smiled, pushed Xing Pei's forehead hair away with his fingers, and then slid it to his earlobe to pinch gently: "If I want to say I'm happy, are you going to liquidate me?"

Being expected to die, Xing Pei snorted and turned his back to Pei Qing.

The voice behind her sank, "I'm not very happy."

Not only was he unhappy, he was drunk most of the time, in a trance, not in the mood for anything.He stretched out his hand to break Xing Pei's shoulder, turned him over, lowered his head and put his forehead on top of Xing Pei's head, preventing him from seeing his expression.

"I always miss you, and when I think of you, there is nothing happy."

Pei Qing's tone was still calm, he didn't want to make himself look like a resentful woman, complaining that his young lover didn't want him now.However, Xing Pei could still hear the sadness and more fragility in this tone.This is a side that Pei Qing has never shown to him. He thought that he could stand still at any time, that he could bury a long-standing secret love so deeply, and buried it in an insignificant place. It should be even more indifferent.

However, this is not the case in fact. Pei Qing's sadness made Xing Pei start to blame himself and feel guilty again. Why not say that he was very happy during this time.

He hugged Pei Qinghuan's shoulders, showed all his tenderness, and kissed Pei Qinghuan's neck: "I've been looking for you, I've been looking for you, you moved, your phone number changed, and you don't contact others, I can not find."

"I was harassed during that time, and my family members heard some gossip, so they temporarily cut off contact with others. It's not intentional that you can't find them."

Xing Pei really wanted to blame him for not taking the initiative to contact him, at least he should leave a contact information for him.But when the words came to his lips, he swallowed them back. He warned himself not to impose his faults on others, especially Pei Qinghuan, and not to force him to leave him.

Xing Pei took a deep breath, holding Pei Qinghuan's face in his hands, trying to look into his eyes, but dodged a little.

"The last time you called me, all I said were angry words, not true... I don't want to end with you, we haven't finished playing."

Xing Pei lowered his eyes: "My contract with Yu Yan has also expired, let's go back to the previous relationship, let me chase you again?" When he said this, he mustered up the courage to look at Pei Qing, "This time I will be serious, and I will never say such hurtful things again, and I will never say such things again."

I don't know why, but Pei Qing didn't show any repulsion towards him yet, but when he said these words, Xing Pei's nose felt sour, and even his eyelashes were wet and stuck together.

"I'm too bad for you. I'm not a good lover. I'm too selfish. I always ask you for it. I'm sorry, I won't be like this in the future."

Xing Pei has never loved anyone, and is always accepting the love of others, so he always feels that he can do whatever he wants.He was used to other people's tolerance or accommodating, but when he really pushed Pei Qing away and the other person turned away, he couldn't take it anymore, and he realized that he was a fool.If he really lost Pei Qinghuan, he didn't know what would happen to him.Once again, he will definitely learn to love him in a more correct way.

Pei Qing still hugged Xing Pei, and arched his face against his. The two faces were nestled intimately in the pillow, next to each other. He said softly, "If you really treat me too badly, when you miss you It won't be so sad."

"All I remember is your goodness. When we are happy, that's why we are sad and reluctant."

Xing Pei was buried between Pei Qinghuan's face and the pillow, and his voice became nasal: "Let's start over."

Pei Qing didn't say yes or no, but put a small ring made of grass leaves on Xing Pei's finger that he leaned on the bed just now: "Hey, let me take care of you in the future, okay?"

Xing Pei raised his wet face and looked at the grass ring on his finger. He didn't realize what Pei Qing meant, but just stared at him with wide red eyes.

Pei Qing also wiped his wet eyes and the tip of his nose: "I mean we are together, you and me, there is no one else, okay?"

During those days when Pei Qing was still drunk, he regretted the occasional brief sobriety.He always told himself that he was so much older than Xing Pei, and he should manage their relationship well.Xing Pei is impulsive and reckless, so he wants to be a calm and rational person.He put right and wrong and reason first, thinking that as long as they understand right and wrong and reason, their emotional wine will become more and more stable, but he didn't expect that it was just this that kept hurting Xing Pei and hurting their feelings.

So this time he didn't want to escape anymore, and he didn't want to make excuses for his cowardice. He was still afraid that Xing Pei would leave him one day, and he still knew that if that day came, he would not be able to hold on.So since he is so afraid, what he should do is not to push away the other party, but to be kind to him thousands of times, so that Xing Pei cannot leave him, and keep Xing Pei by his side firmly, this life belongs to him.

Because these are not Xing Pei's fault, those past hurts and sorrows were not given to him by Xing Pei, and he should not put all the pressure of this worry on Xing Pei, forcing him to make a promise never to betray.He cowered and dared not reach out with scars all over his body, which was too unfair to Xing Pei who was full of enthusiasm.He should not bully Xing Pei with his cunning and eloquence, because he obviously likes this young man who is like a rising sun.

Hearing this, Xing Pei sniffed, and then smiled with the corners of his lips curled up. The light and shadow of dusk hit his face with a different kind of softness and charm, and Pei Qing's eyes flicked across his face again and again.He was looking forward to it, and he was [-]% sure that Xing Pei would not refuse, but the remaining [-]% ​​was still a little flustered.

If it's true love, how can you not want to get it, even if you go through fire and water and are scarred, you can't control it.

Xing Pei kept laughing, so much that he buried his face in the pillow, giggling, making a sound that didn't seem to belong to him.

After laughing for a long time, he raised his head, took off the straw ring, smacked his tongue, and uttered a series of "tsk tsk tsk", held the ring with two fingers and held it in front of Pei Qinghuan's eyes, making fun of him: "Teacher Pei!" , I said you just use this kind of thing to coax me? First it was broken wood, and now it is a grass ring?"

Pei Qing also probably knew that Xing Pei was joking, but he almost couldn't hold back. He tried to steady himself: "It was too sudden, I didn't have time to prepare for anything."

Xing Pei pinched the ring in front of his eyes again and looked carefully. The light was already very dim, so he had to get very close, but he could still see that the ring was very delicately woven.

"It's not like you to have nothing prepared."

It's really not quite like it, Pei Qinghuan's style has always been well-thought-out and methodical.

Pei Qing still put her arms around Xing Pei's shoulders: "I like you so much, especially during this period of suffering, I don't want to miss you again."

Xing Pei's heart was throbbing violently, his mind was light-headed, he couldn't help wanting to laugh, and he almost agreed.

But he quickly reacted, as if he had completely forgotten that he had just pitifully asked Pei Qing to give him another chance, and at this moment, the corners of his mouth cocked triumphantly: "I chased you so hard before, so I won't let you alone The Grass Ring will be yours."

However, Xing Pei's happy eyes filled with smiles have replaced his mouth, saying everything he wanted to say.Why is he so cute and so painful, if he wasn't prepared, he should be pampered today.

Pei Qing also put away his "dirty" thoughts, and smiled gently and tolerantly as always: "You can use this ring in exchange for anything you want, okay?"

Xing Pei didn't even think about it, maybe he had already thought about it, he blurted out: "I want a family heirloom that your grandma left for my wife."

"Okay, I'll get it for you." Pei Qing couldn't help scratching Xing Pei's nose lightly. The kid said that he was really not bragging about holding grudges. It's been so long since Qu Lian got married, and he still remembered Pei Qing. Mother's wedding gift to Zang Fang.

"The most expensive one."

"Okay, then you can pick it yourself."

"I'm not so thick-skinned, so you choose for me." Xing Pei's face was flushed and hot, and he didn't know if he was excited or a little embarrassed. After all, the things passed down from family to family seemed to be specially passed on to his wife.

Thinking back, if Pei Qing really wanted it, would the teacher and his wife have a bad impression of him.Xing Pei put the grass ring back on his finger, and held it up as if wearing a diamond ring: "Forget it, I'm just kidding, the ring is beautifully braided, I like it."

Pei Qing also seemed to see what he was thinking, and pulled his raised hand down and held it in his palm: "It's okay, my parents like you very much, and they won't mind such little things."

Pei Qing also said: "If I hadn't stopped her, my mother would still come to lobby you. If you were a girl, she probably would have already gone to discuss it with your parents."

Xing Pei was really a little shy this time: "What a waste of discussion, can someone else count on my business?"

"Then what do you say?"

I don't know what's going on, I usually have a thick skin, so I'm really embarrassed to be forced to say so.

"Okay, okay," Xing Pei roared irritably, "Old rascal, you can say anything anyway."

"I like to be honest, especially with my loved ones."

Lovers, lovers, lovers... The two words that are stupid, came out of Pei Qinghuan's mouth, but it seemed to ignite the fuse in Xing Pei's mind, and fireworks were exploding cracklingly. He was wrapped in a sheet on the bed After rolling several times, he finally rolled onto Pei Qinghuan, riding on his crotch, his eyes burning.

"My love, I feel it again."

The night poured down like a tide, wrapping the originally bright room without a trace of light.The two on the bed were like two drowning fish, desperately looking for oxygen and water from each other's breath. In the dark room, only the sound of saliva exchanging could be heard.