SAYE

Maybe it was the shock caused by the camera falling to the ground, maybe it was the first time Gu Fei yelled her full name, maybe it was both.

Gu Miao fell off the skateboard and sat down on the ground, her eyes widened in horror.

"How many times have I said that!" Gu Fei walked in front of her, he didn't want to check the damage of the camera any more, the anger that couldn't be suppressed was surging up in his body little by little, "Don't do this! "

Gu Miao didn't respond, she still stared at him with wide eyes.

"Why can't you remember!" Gu Fei roared again, "Why can't you remember!"

silence.

Gu Miao's endless silence made him feel breathless, like being locked in a silent space for a long time, he could almost hear the sound of his own blood flowing.

"Why!" Gu Fei yelled at her.

This sound was almost exhausted, and Gu Miao could be seen shaking violently.

He had never yelled so hoarsely in his life, let alone Gu Miao.

Desperate rage broke through his last defenses.

For so many years from childhood to adulthood, facing his own life, patience and control have become his habit, and he has sealed himself off from everyone.

And at this moment, the suppressed emotions were no longer under the control of reason, he wanted to shout, to shout, to smash something hard, to tear it apart.

why?

"Why!" Gu Fei could hear himself roaring almost breaking his voice.

But not enough, not enough.

The anger and unwillingness, helplessness and despair pent up in his body were like a trapped beast, roaring and rampaging like crazy.

"Is it my fault! Is it my fault!" Gu Fei roared, "You have become like this! I have become like this! Is it my fault!"

"What's wrong with me! Why do I have to bear these! Why!" Gu Fei stared at Gu Miao, "You tell me Gu Miao! Why! Why do I want to live like this! Why!"

"Whose fault! Whose fault!" Gu Fei felt as if he was going to explode, he turned around and kicked hard on the half brick on the ground.

The shattered bricks flew out in all directions.

"Why me!" Gu Fei roared and continued to kick the broken bricks on the ground, "Why! Why!"

Gu Miao, who had been standing stiffly behind her, let out a scream.

"Ah—" Gu Fei turned around and shouted at her, "Ah—"

Gu Miao sat on the ground, hugged her knees, closed her eyes forcefully, and let out a sharp cry.

"Shout it! Shout it! Ah—" Gu Fei roared, "I want to shout too! Shout! Brother shout with you! Ah—"

"Are you also tutoring today?" Zhao Ke looked at Jiang Cheng who was carrying his bag and was about to go out, "Isn't your tutoring on weekends?"

"Her mother introduced me to another classmate of hers. After school on Friday and Saturday morning," Jiang Cheng stuffed the thermos cup filled with hot chocolate into his bag, "Let's go, reserve a seat for me at night, I can Hurry back, it's not far."

Zhao Ke didn't speak, Jiang Cheng waved at him and ran out of the dormitory.

There was no time to eat, so he bought two fried chicken legs on the way and ate them, plus a cup of chocolate, it was almost enough.

Gu Fei said that he had lost weight. In fact, he knew that he had lost weight, but he didn't expect it to be so obvious that Gu Fei could tell it at a glance. He went to weigh it, and he was actually more than ten catties lighter than before.

Gee.

He planned to start eating supper, but he wasn't really hungry at night, but if he didn't lose weight, his boyfriend would definitely be worried.

It was not difficult for Jiang Cheng to make up lessons for children, but the annoying thing was that the children had a lot of personality, and a person who was only one or two years older came to make up lessons, and he was quite dissatisfied at first, always wanting to give him a bad impression.

This is today, with an unhappy face, do you think you must be better than me?Getting into the R University doesn't mean how good you are, you can handle the sea tactics.

Jiang Cheng had no choice but to be more arrogant than him, using the sentence "As long as you have all your textbooks and materials, you can pick whatever you want, if you can't do it, I'll leave, if you can do it, you shut up" to get it done.

When I came out of this kid's house, the time was right, and I could make it to the library in time.

On the way back to school, he received a call from Xu Xingzhi.

"I have a few cases here, which are somewhat similar to my sister's. I'll go find you in a while," Xu Xingzhi said, "Look at it, and I'll learn more about it, and let me know what I think by the way."

"Okay," Jiang Cheng immediately replied, "Are all these cases cured?"

"It doesn't matter whether it works or not. Treatment is a long-term process," Xu Xingzhi said. "These cases are not exactly the same as my sister's situation, but there are some details that may give you an intuitive understanding of my sister's condition."

"Well," Jiang Cheng nodded, "I'm going to school right now, I'll wait for you at the gate."

Jiang Cheng hung up the phone and quickened his pace.

Xu Xingzhi should be willing to help with this. During this time, Xu Xingzhi has been in touch with him a lot and asked him a lot about the situation. If he can confirm that he can help after meeting today, then he can mention it to Gu Fei.

If Gu Miao can improve...

Also has no effect.

Jiang Cheng's steps paused. If it didn't work, it would be a huge blow to Gu Fei. He suddenly didn't dare to think about it.

But soon he shook his head again. During this period of time, he had been reading various psychology books. Gu Miao's situation was not the most serious one, no matter in terms of the degree of self-closing or the ability to perceive the outside world.

Gu Miao's biggest problem is that she has never received systematic treatment, and she doesn't even have an accurate judgment on the cause of her illness. She may have missed the best stage of treatment, but it definitely won't be the one that doesn't work.

His appearance and his departure will both stimulate Gu Miao, this is the best proof.

When Jiang Cheng arrived at the school gate, Xu Xingzhi was already standing there with a scarf covering half of his face.

"Sorry," Jiang Cheng ran over, "How long have you been here? It's cold!"

"2 minutes," Xu Xingzhi looked at him and pulled down the scarf, "Have you gone out to play?"

"How can you have time, tutor," Jiang Cheng smiled, "Have you eaten yet?"

"No, do you want me to eat?" Xu Xingzhi said.

"Well, let me treat you," Jiang Cheng said, "I didn't eat either."

"That's good," Xu Xingzhi smiled, "Let's go to the cafeteria..."

"No no, go over there," Jiang Cheng pointed to the front, "I want to eat big meat pies, Zhao Ke said that there is a new one opened in front, and now buy one get one free."

"Okay." Xu Xingzhi nodded.

Jiang Cheng walked a few steps and then stopped, turning his head to look at him: "I forgot to ask you what you want to eat, do you want to eat anything, you can eat what you want."

"Pies." Xu Xingzhi said.

This pie is not bad, and there are many kinds of fillings, which can complement Wang Xu's pies. After he bit into the filling, he took a photo and sent it to Gu Fei.

-The stuffing that Jiurijia doesn't have!Go back to sell him the secret recipe during the Chinese New Year haha!

Gu Fei didn't reply to him, he looked at the time, probably he was eating or spending time with Gu Miao at the moment.

"That," Jiang Cheng felt anxious, although he felt that we should finish the meal, "Shall I look at those cases now?"

Xu Xingzhi smiled, took out a folder from his bag and handed it to him: "I printed it out."

"Thank you." Jiang Cheng took the folder, faintly agitated.

There were a lot of thick materials in the folder. He roughly flipped through them and found that there were more than a dozen cases, including autism and post-traumatic stress disorder.

"My sister's performance now seems to be not a single one," Xu Xingzhi said while eating, "If I can see her in person, I can judge based on her specific reaction, including her situation before and after the injury, her living environment, The relationship with family members, the relationship with strangers, and the reactions to various things can only be judged after seeing these things.”

"Well, let me discuss it with my friend." Jiang Cheng nodded, hesitant after thinking about it, "Just his sister...can you help? Are you sure?"

"What?" Xu Xingzhi laughed, "It's come to this point, if I can't help, I won't tell you this."

Jiang Cheng was so excited that he almost stood up: "Thank you! Thank you senior!"

"You're welcome," Xu Xingzhi said, "Do you dare to tell your friend after confirming with me, for fear that he will be disappointed?"

"...Well," Jiang Cheng was a little embarrassed, "my friend...he really worked hard, and I was really afraid that he would be disappointed again."

"It seems to be a very important friend." Xu Xingzhi looked at him with his fingers on his forehead.

"Yes," Jiang Cheng cleared his throat, "very important, very important."

"Understood." Xu Xingzhi nodded.

Jiang Cheng came back to his senses and quickly glanced at him. There was a smile in the corner of Xu Xingzhi's eyes. There was nothing else in this smile, only a very simple "Oh, I understand".

Probably really understood, Jiang Cheng sighed inwardly, and suddenly felt that dealing with these psychology majors would give him the feeling that he would be seen through at any time, not to mention that he seemed to be acting too obviously.

"But," Jiang Cheng felt uneasy after taking two mouthfuls of soup, "how can we bring her here?"

"You don't need to bring it here," Xu Xingzhi said, "You can communicate with your friend, I can go there during the winter vacation."

"Really?" Jiang Cheng felt that he almost couldn't control his eyebrows, which probably almost reached his forehead.

"Well," Xu Xingzhi nodded, "Really, I also have my own considerations. For my sister's situation, based on the information you have provided so far, treatment is meaningful, and I have never come into contact with such a case of my sister."

"Thank you." Jiang Cheng didn't know what to say.

"You... seem to have lost a lot of weight?" Xu Xingzhi looked at him, "When I saw you last time, it seemed that your chin was not so sharp."

"Ah," Jiang Cheng pinched his chin, "It seems that hyaluronic acid is still useful? Can you tell it's sharp?"

"Yeah," Xu Xingzhi was stunned and then smiled, "Don't put so much pressure on yourself, money matters can always be resolved."

Jiang Cheng seemed to be seen through once again, so he couldn't feel embarrassed, but just smiled: "It's okay, many of my classmates also have tutors."

"The money matter is the next step," Xu Xingzhi said, "You are now with your boyfriend..."

Jiang Cheng was stunned for a moment. Xu Xingzhi didn't complete the male character, and he quickly continued to finish the sentence with a calm face and didn't even stutter: "Communicate well with your friends. The trust and cooperation of family members are crucial to treatment. Saying it is very important, like my sister's treatment, if the family does not cooperate, it will not go on."

"Oh." Jiang Cheng looked at him, "Yes."

Xu Xingzhi smiled: "If you don't understand anything, just ask me at any time."

"Yes." Jiang Cheng continued to respond.

The psychologist who seemed to be able to see through everything snorted.

For some reason, he suddenly wanted to laugh.

He doesn't mind being seen by Xu Xingzhi. He was not familiar with him before, but now he has known him for a while. Xu Xingzhi has always given him a feeling of trust, and he will relax quickly even if he is awkward when they are together.

So Xu Xingzhi's slippery mouth, which was covered up quietly, made him relax suddenly.

It's pretty good, if you know it, you know it, after all, he ran back and forth for Gu Fei, and it's too tiring to cover it up.

"This pie is not bad," Xu Xingzhi touched his stomach when he walked out of the store, "I'll invite you to eat when I come back next time."

"Okay," Jiang Cheng smiled, "If you go over there during the winter vacation, I still have a pie shop that I can take you to eat. It's absolutely super delicious."

"Okay." Xu Xingzhi smiled.

This meal had not been eaten for too long, and after parting from Xu Xingzhi at the school gate, Jiang Cheng went straight to the library with the folder in his arms.

"I thought you weren't coming, I told others that you had diarrhea," Zhao Ke said in a low voice, "This place is almost embarrassingly occupied."

"I'm sorry," Jiang Cheng whispered as he sat down, "I'll treat you to supper later."

"Why did you go?" Zhao Ke asked, "Isn't tutoring only for one hour?"

"Xu Xingzhi came to see me and chatted for a while," Jiang Cheng said, "He promised to help my friend's sister."

"Really? That's great," Zhao Ke said, "But I really didn't expect him to agree so quickly."

"Huh?" Jiang Cheng tilted his head.

"He's very difficult to talk to," Zhao Ke said. "If you want to seek him out for psychological counseling, he always introduces him to others. My sister is still so far away."

"He said that the younger sister's case is rather special," Jiang Cheng said.

"His boss is so good, and special cases are not uncommon." Zhao Ke said.

"Then..." Jiang Cheng was suddenly a little confused when he said that, and looked at Zhao Ke.

Zhao Ke also looked at him.

Jiang Cheng felt that at this moment, both of them suddenly lost in thought.

"You..." When Zhao Ke wanted to continue talking, the classmate next to him who was reading lightly tapped on the table.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." They both apologized to others at the same time, quickly ended the topic, and lowered their heads to start reading.

After the library was closed, Jiang Cheng invited Zhao Ke out for supper. He ate chicken wings, and Zhao Ke ate fried scorpions.

"How on earth can you eat this stuff?" Jiang Cheng couldn't understand.

Zhao Ke handed a string of scorpions to his mouth: "You should solve this kind of thing through practice."

"I don't need to solve this confusion." Jiang Cheng avoided it.

When returning to the dormitory after eating, Jiang Cheng took out his mobile phone and took a look. He sent a message to Gu Fei as soon as he came out of the library, but now that the supper was over, Gu Fei didn't reply him. Gu Fei has not contacted him since the news.

This is something that has never happened before.

something?

too busy?

Fell asleep?

Jiang Cheng hesitated whether to make a call, but he stared at the phone for a long time without dialing.

If it was before, he would not hesitate, but recently he always feels that Gu Fei is under a lot of pressure, or is he under too much pressure?I'm always afraid that the timing of the call is not right.

Will it affect Gu Fei's work?

Will it affect Gu Fei playing with Gu Miao?

Will it disturb Gu Fei's sleep?

"What about you and your boyfriend," Zhao Ke glanced at him, "Have you told Xu Xingzhi?"

"Huh?" Jiang Cheng turned his head.

Looking at each other again, the thoughtful atmosphere in the library reappeared.

"He..." No one interrupted this time, so Jiang Cheng asked, "Xu Xingzhi... is it?"

"En." Zhao Ke responded.

"Damn?" Jiang Cheng was stunned, "How do you know?"

"I thought he was in love with Zhao Jin before," Zhao Ke said, "I just asked. His sexual orientation is not a secret."

"...Why didn't you say it at the beginning?" Jiang Cheng was surprised.

"It's none of my business, why should I talk about this?" Zhao Ke looked at him, "He's treating his sister, not on a blind date with you."

"Ah, that's right." Jiang Cheng still couldn't recover.

"Did you tell him that is your boyfriend's sister?" Zhao Ke asked.

"No," Jiang Cheng said, "but I guess he...sees it."

"Oh." Zhao Ke didn't say anything else.

Back in the dormitory, Lu Shi and Zhang Qiqi were still lying on the bed reading.

After putting away all his things, Jiang Cheng walked out of the dormitory with his mobile phone, and went to the corridor.

He still wanted to call Gu Fei, after all, this was the first time that Gu Fei didn't contact him for a whole day.

He glanced at the time, normally Gu Fei was not asleep at this time, so he pressed the dial.

There was a long silence in the receiver, so long that he almost thought he missed dialing.

Just as he was about to take a look, a voice came from the receiver.

"Sorry, the number you dialed is temporarily unavailable, please try again later."

Jiang Cheng was stunned, unable to connect?

He hung up the phone and dialed again.

Still can't get through.

Gu Fei's cell phone is dead?Or is there a problem with your phone?

He restarted the phone once, and dialed Gu Fei's number for the third time.

"Sorry, the number you dialed is temporarily unavailable, please try again later."

What's going on here?

Jiang Cheng suddenly felt uneasy, frowned, hung up the phone, opened WeChat, and clicked into Gu Fei's circle of friends.

The latest one is from last week. It is a photo of the sun rising from between several old buildings, pulling out a long halo. It is accompanied by two words, good morning.

Below is the emoji of a little sun sent by Jiang Cheng.

There was no problem in the circle of friends, and Jiang Cheng suddenly didn't know what to do.

Theoretically, the phone is out of battery, the phone is broken, the phone is hung in the cabinet in the pocket, and various reasons may cause the situation that the phone cannot be connected, but for some reason, he was very flustered at this moment.

Jiang Cheng stood in the corridor for about 5 minutes, was stunned for a while, and dialed again several times, but nothing changed.

He pointed out Li Yan's name in the phone book, but stared at it for a long time and then turned it off.

After a while, click it again, and then turn it off again.

Li Yan and Gu Fei don't live together, and they don't communicate every day. He may not know what's going on with Gu Fei, and it seems a bit strange to call his friend just because he hasn't contacted Gu Fei for a day.

It wasn't until Zhao Ke poked his head out of the dormitory to look at him that he lowered his head and sent another message to Gu Fei, then returned to the dormitory.

- Is there something wrong with your phone?I have been unable to get through. I have nothing to do tomorrow. You can call me

"Da Fei!" Liu Li knocked on the bedroom door, "Come out, we have to talk."

Gu Fei didn't speak, he leaned against the head of the bed and didn't move.

The room is very dark, I don't know what time it is, and I don't know if it is yesterday, today or tomorrow.

A small figure huddled on the small sofa by the window, it was Gu Miao who had rolled herself into a ball and hugged her legs.

I don't know how long it has been, it seems not long, and it seems that it has been a lifetime, Gu Miao has been curled up in the corner of the sofa without eating or drinking.

Gu Fei couldn't describe his feelings.

He couldn't judge what kind of stimulation that roar brought to Gu Miao, but Gu Miao, who was so frightened by his roar that he kept trembling and screaming, refused to leave his room.

And Gu Fei didn't know what else to do.

Liu Li was very angry.

Gu Fei felt that he could understand him very well.

The younger sister shrank back into her shell after being yelled at, and when his mother questioned him, he pushed her to the ground again, and when Liu Li came up to stop him, he beat her up without any hassle.

He didn't know what was wrong with him.

This terrible violence seemed to be his best outlet at that moment.

When he roared, when he raised his arms, he seemed to see the person who made him shudder at the sound of footsteps.

At that moment he was confused and terrified.

He didn't know how long Liu Li had been knocking on the door. He didn't turn his head until the voice from outside the door became Li Yan's.

"Da Fei," Li Yan said, "I'm not here to persuade you, I'm here to remind you."

Gu Fei looked at the door.

"It's been two days," Li Yan said, "Jiang Cheng has been unable to contact you for two days. You should at least give him a call. Among all the people who care about you, he is the only one who doesn't know what's going on."

Jiang Cheng.

Gu Fei leaned back, leaning his head against the wall.

two days?

In the numb state, he suddenly felt distressed.

"I'm going in now," Li Yan said, "I'll pick the lock to get in. If you dare to touch me while I'm in, I'll break off relations with you."

Gu Fei sat up straight with some difficulty.