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"I can talk to you about changing the time to the afternoon and evening," Ding Zhuxin said on the phone, "but this afternoon, you should come over and talk to them first. There are three photographers in charge of different units."

"Well, do I know other photography?" Gu Fei leaned against the window with a cigarette in his mouth, looking at Gu Miao who was lying on the coffee table drawing.

From coming home after dinner to now, she has been drawing, drawing a lot of green rabbits.

However, according to what Xu Xingzhi said, he had already found a cat with stick figures, and drew one for Gu Miao. She could draw it with up to four strokes. If she wanted to draw a fat sheep, she could learn to draw. But so far, Gu Miao Miao still painted her green rabbit.

"I probably don't know each other, but it doesn't affect them, and I don't want to cooperate with them," Ding Zhuxin said, "If you can do this job well, it's easy to introduce the big jobs later."

"Thank you." Gu Fei said.

"Don't tell me these things," Ding Zhuxin smiled, "Also, if you lack equipment, just tell me, and I'll find someone to borrow it for you."

"I'm not an equipment person," Gu Fei said, "I have enough for now, and I didn't buy more lenses."

"You have no money." Ding Zhuxin said directly.

"I don't spend money on it," Gu Fei said, "There are so many places to spend money."

"Da Fei," Ding Zhuxin paused, "I still say the same thing, if you need help, just tell me, I can't help you with anything else, if you need money urgently, I'm fine."

"You've already done me a great favor by helping me find a job," Gu Fei said, "Really."

"Is Jiang Cheng back from the winter vacation?" Ding Zhuxin asked, "The old customers who used him before still want to find him. Does he have time?"

"I guess... I don't have time," Gu Fei said, "He has classmates and friends coming over to play together, and the winter vacation is short."

"That's fine, we'll talk about it later when we have a chance," Ding Zhuxin said, "You remember to go and meet someone first."

"Yeah." Gu Fei turned around after hanging up the phone, leaning his elbows on the window sill and looking out.

He was actually quite tired today. If it wasn't for the fact that this job was not only rich in money, but also helpful for taking on big jobs in the future, he really didn't want to go out again.

After chatting with Xu Xingzhi for more than two hours in the morning, he felt very tired.

Not because too much was said.

It was because when he introduced Gu Miao's situation to Xu Xingzhi, he opened up too many memories that had been sealed away by him for many years.

These were things he tried hard not to think about.

It has to be said that Xu Xingzhi is a very powerful person. Every question he asks can be rightly asked on the most sensitive point, so that he has no choice but to speak.

And he had to speak, because it had something to do with Gu Miao.

There are many things, many thoughts that Gu Fei has never told anyone about. His friends don't know about them, and neither does Jiang Cheng.

And such an exhausting process... He puffed out a puff of smoke, and watched the smoke disappear in the wind before it even took a shape. He turned around and pressed the cigarette butt into the ashtray on the table, and closed the window.

He didn't resist such a process, maybe it was because of Gu Miao, maybe it was because of Jiang Cheng, maybe it was because Xu Xingzhi looked reliable.

"There is something wrong with the way you get along with Gu Miao," Xu Xingzhi said, "You have given her a hint with your actions and reactions that she is your center and you exist around her. Time told her that all her brother's contributions to her are justified and will not disappear, once she forms such a cognition, any change will make her collapse."

Gu Fei looked at Gu Miao lying on the table and sighed softly.

Although Xu Xingzhi's words made him a little dazed, but thinking about it carefully, from the moment Gu Miao refused to speak, his life seemed to have completely changed.

He has been digesting what Xu Xingzhi said, which he had never thought of before.

What he wanted to do was to protect Gu Miao from any harm. If she couldn't express it, he would try to understand that there was only her brother in her world, so he would be the only one.

But Gu Miao is different from children born with autism. Her problem is rooted in childhood trauma. She can perceive emotions in many situations, but she can't concentrate, and no one guides her to use the correct method. Communicate and communicate...

"And you just met her needs when she expressed it in the wrong way, so change and progress must start from yourself."

Gu Fei rubbed his face, glanced at the time, he had to go out now, and went to meet with someone to find out what he was going to shoot and his ideas.

"Er Miao," Gu Fei squatted beside Gu Miao, "Brother is going out now."

Gu Miao glanced at him and nodded.

"Nod when you understand." Gu Fei said.

Gu Miao nodded again.

"Brother Li Yan will come over to accompany you later," Gu Fei said, "If you want to go out to skateboard, just go with him."

Gu Miao nodded.

Gu Fei took the piece of paper on which he had drawn a cat before, drew a row of cats on it, and put it in front of Gu Miao: "My brother drew it."

"Sheep." Gu Miao said softly.

When Gu Fei wanted to say it was a cat, he realized that she was calling her by the name of Fat Sheep, so he smiled: "Fat Sheep."

Gu Miao looked at him.

"Its name is Fat Sheep." Gu Fei said.

Gu Miao continued to look at him, and it took a long time before she said again: "Sheep."

Let the sheep be the sheep, at least she remembered half of the fat sheep's name.

After leaving the house, he took out his cell phone and felt that he should call Jiang Cheng. After all, Jiang Cheng came back for Gu Miao, and Xu Xingzhi chatted with him all morning, so he should contact him now, in case he has anything in the afternoon. He's not there by arrangement.

But he also felt that when the call was made, all the reasons in his mind would become excuses.

After hesitating for about 5 minutes, he still dialed Jiang Cheng's number after walking from home to the intersection.

When he pressed the dial, he found that this action turned out to be unfamiliar in the familiar.

It was like the illusion that Jiang Cheng hadn't called Jiang Cheng for many years.

"Hello?" Jiang Cheng answered the phone.

"Me." Gu Fei said.

"En." Jiang Cheng replied, his voice hoarse again.

"What's the matter with your throat?" Gu Fei couldn't help it.

"It's time for my voice to change." Jiang Cheng said.

"...Oh," Gu Fei was stunned for a moment, "Then you're a bit of a late bloomer."

"Ah." Jiang Cheng responded.

After being silent for a while, Gu Fei heard Jiang Cheng's laughter, and this familiar, uncontrollable feeling of wanting to giggle together rolled over.

He followed Jiang Cheng foolishly for a long time.

"Well," Gu Fei finally stopped laughing, "I want to tell you, I have accepted a job, and now I have to meet them... Do you still need to communicate with Er Miao in the afternoon?"

"Well, it just so happens that Xu Xingzhi wants to get in touch with her alone," Jiang Cheng said, "Do you mind?"

"I don't mind," Gu Fei said, "Li Yan will come over in the afternoon, if you want to go somewhere, just ask Li Yan to take her there."

"Okay." Jiang Cheng responded.

"En." Gu Fei also responded.

Then the two fell silent at the same time.

The relaxed feeling brought by the smirk before only lasted for three sentences, and then returned to the dullness.

After hanging up the phone, he stood by the side of the road for a long time.

This made him very unbearable. Compared with the feeling of never seeing Jiang Cheng again before, this kind of person is here now, in the place where they used to live together, but they can't feel the feeling that they can't touch , making him breathless.

But if Jiang Cheng left now, he might just suffocate.

Xu Xingzhi wanted to stay alone with Gu Miao for a while, to see how she would react in an environment without Gu Fei.

"She should be with Gu Fei's friends now," Jiang Cheng said, "Shall I make a call?"

"Well," Xu Xingzhi nodded, "Is there any place to play near you?"

"I... don't seem to know, usually I see children playing in the fitness equipment, fighting with old men and old ladies for equipment," Jiang Cheng thought for a while, "Why don't I ask Li Yan, he is familiar with this area. "

"Okay," Xu Xingzhi said, "it's better to have other children."

Jiang Cheng dialed Li Yan's number.

"Yes, go to your classmate's biscuits... No, go over to the pie shop, there is a small stadium, there are many slides and other things that children like to play with, I can take her there now," Li Yan said , "It's just outdoors. It's okay if there is sun at the moment. When the sun goes out later, the children will all go back."

"Let's go and have a look now, and change places if there are no children," Jiang Cheng said.

When going out, Xu Xingzhi pulled the scarf: "Doesn't Gu Fei usually take her to play in the playgrounds of the shopping mall? What kind of ocean ball or something."

"She wants to skateboard when she has flat ground, even when she enters a restaurant," Jiang Cheng said, "Gu Fei rarely takes her to play indoors, and when she can't skateboard, she gets angry and screams."

"En." Xu Xingzhi nodded.

"You two can go around the neighborhood." Jiang Cheng looked at Pan Zhi and Zhao Jin, "There is a food street over there."

"Don't bully me," Zhao Jin said, "I'm losing weight."

"It's boring if I go alone," Pan Zhi spread his hands, "Let's be assistants."

After a few people got into Xu Xingzhi's car, Li Yan took Gu Miao to the place and sent Jiang Cheng a location. As a road idiot, Jiang Cheng didn't even look at it, and set up the navigation directly: "It doesn't seem that far away? "

"Yeah, how close is it, just one finger away." Pan Zhi glanced at the map.

"Huh?" Jiang Cheng looked at him.

"I don't want to talk to road idiots like you anymore," Pan Zhi sighed, "This place is still close to Wang Xu's pie shop. Do you have an idea of ​​the distance?"

"Oh," Jiang Cheng said, "Senior, let's drive."

As the car drove past, every glance was familiar, but because of the state of mind, it became wrapped in a trance-like strangeness.

Jiang Cheng didn't look out of the car window any more, but just stared at the air outlet of the air conditioner.

He didn't look up until the navigation prompts him to the place.

"That's Gu Miao, right?" Xu Xingzhi pointed to the front.

A fiery red shadow jumped down from the top of the steps in front, and rushed out after falling to the ground.

"Yes, I guess there is no second girl in this area who can skateboard at this level." Jiang Cheng said.

"Her skill...if she can develop it in the future," Zhao Jin said as he got out of the car, "it should be quite developed."

Jiang Cheng jumped out of the car and whistled towards that side.

Gu Miao turned her head, looked this way for a while, and rushed over on the skateboard.

First, he raised his hand a few meters away, snapped his fingers and brought his thumb to greet Jiang Cheng, then stopped abruptly and stood in front of Xu Xingzhi.

"Are you looking for a fat sheep?" Zhao Jin whispered.

"Well," Xu Xingzhi squatted down, "Hello, Er Miao."

Gu Miao looked at him.

"Brother Xu, do you still remember?" Jiang Cheng said, "Er Miao said hello to Brother Xu."

Gu Miao looked at Xu Xingzhi, and bowed to him after a while.

When Li Yan walked over from a distance, Jiang Cheng almost didn't recognize him, he was wrapped up like a cotton ball, and a mask was still covering his face.

"This is Li Yan, Gu Fei's friend." He introduced Zhao Jin and Xu Xingzhi, then looked at Li Yan, "My classmate's sister, Zhao Jin, this is Xu Xingzhi's senior."

"I heard from Gu Fei," Li Yan pulled off his mask, "Thank you for your hard work."

"It's not hard," Xu Xingzhi smiled, "Gu Miao is very cute."

"Did she go over to play?" Jiang Cheng saw four or five children playing on the other side of the slide.

"She will play when no one is playing," Li Yan said, "She will not go if someone is playing, and she didn't play with her classmates when she was in school."

After saying these words, several people stood in place for a while.

Jiang Cheng felt a little embarrassed looking at Li Yan now.

"Go ahead," Xu Xingzhi said, "Let's take a look first."

"Okay." Jiang Cheng heaved a sigh of relief, and hurried over there.

Li Yan was right. After they passed by together, Gu Miao first stepped on the skateboard and played beside her for a while, and then she stood up when she saw a swing was empty.

Gu Miao's motor function seems to be very developed, she can swing on the swing with just a few strokes, and it is very high.

But when a little boy came to watch her play, she stopped quickly, jumped off the swing and walked away.

The little boy was about five or six years old. He had been watching her skateboarding before, and now he saw her playing on the swing, and he followed her all the time.

Xu Xingzhi took out his mobile phone and started recording a video to Gu Miao.

"Has she ever had friends of the same age?" He looked at Li Yan.

"No, she's been a lone ranger since the day I met her," Li Yan said, "She doesn't talk or pay attention to others, and she's also isolated in school."

"En." Xu Xingzhi nodded.

After recording some videos, Xu Xingzhi put away the phone, and Gu Miao always turned a blind eye to the little boy following her, skating aimlessly back and forth on the skateboard.

"When she usually goes out to skateboard by herself," Xu Xingzhi asked, "is that the case?"

"Well," Li Yan said, "there is a fixed route, swishing and swishing, no one cares, just soaring in circles."

Jiang Cheng sat on the side, looking at Gu Miao silently.

This little girl flying in the cold wind.

I don't know if she can feel that some changes are quietly happening around her, the new friend brought by her brother, Fat Sheep...

"Actually, she has a lot of ideas, I feel," Li Yan tilted his head and sneezed twice, "Fuck!"

Xu Xingzhi glanced at him and smiled.

"Don't laugh," Li Yan said, "If it wasn't for cooperating with you, I wouldn't have brought her here. She's playing with her on the street over there. Just stay in my cat shop."

"Sorry, thank you for your hard work." Xu Xingzhi said.

"...You're welcome." Li Yan said.

"Continue." Xu Xingzhi said.

"Continue what?" Li Yan looked at him, "You're welcome, you're welcome, no..."

"You said half of what you said before you sneezed, continue with that." Xu Xingzhi said.

"Oh, my brain is a bit frozen," Li Yan clicked his tongue, "I mean, I have known Gu Miao for a long time, but she likes Jiang Cheng more, I don't know why."

"Really?" Xu Xingzhi smiled.

"The first time Jiang Cheng picked her up, she followed Jiang Cheng away," Li Yan said, "If it was a personal trafficker, then she would have sold it, no trouble at all."

Jiang Cheng smiled, but said nothing.

Xu Xingzhi will come here for almost a week, and the time is actually very tight. He needs to observe, communicate with her within the range that Gu Miao can tolerate.

"Thank you." Jiang Cheng could only repeat over and over again.

"Before I leave, I will write a detailed method for behavior correction to Gu Fei," Xu Xingzhi said, "I have to go back and think about the specific treatment plan."

"Well," Jiang Cheng nodded, "Senior, please give me some reassurance."

Xu Xingzhi glanced at him: "Gu Miao's situation is not as serious as you imagined. As long as Gu Fei can cooperate, because during this process, Gu Miao will have many reactions. If he feels distressed, it will affect the effect... Also, I As I said before, Gu Miao missed the best stage of treatment, and it is impossible to return to the level of a normal child."

"I see." Jiang Cheng said, Xu Xingzhi's answer was enough for him and Gu Fei.

A few days passed so quickly, Jiang Cheng didn't even feel much of it, his mind was full of Gu Miao rushing past.

And when Xu Xingzhi and Zhao Jin were about to leave, he slowly came back to his senses.

From the day he came back, his contact with Gu Fei was all because of Gu Miao. They called, they met, and they all talked about Gu Miao. After Xu Xingzhi left, he and Gu Fei established relationships because of Gu Miao. connection will be broken.

This made him a little uneasy.

In the past few days, he often falls into memories. Just a word, a person, or a scene will quickly pull him into the memory.

Bit by bit, he never thought that his memory was so good, so many details, those details that he thought he hadn't remembered at all, were all in his mind.

And these details allowed him to be sure little by little that whether it was his feelings for Gu Fei or Gu Fei's feelings for him, it was more difficult to give up than he imagined.

"Call me if you have any questions," Xu Xingzhi looked at Gu Fei, "I will contact you if there is any progress, you have to stick to the training methods I wrote for you, she made a fuss and got angry, you You have to persevere, if you let go once, the efforts of the first ten times will be in vain.”

"Yes," Gu Fei said, "Thank you."

"And..." Xu Xingzhi took two steps to the side, and Gu Fei followed.

Jiang Cheng knew that what Xu Xingzhi was going to say should be Gu Fei's own problem, so he looked at Gu Fei's back from the corner of his eye.

Gu Fei's question.

In fact, it was the real problem between the two of them.

After Xu Xingzhi and Zhao Jin drove away, they stood there without moving, and looked at the direction the car left together in a daze.

The scene looked rather begrudging.

"Give me the key," Pan Zhi stretched out his hand, "I'll go upstairs first."

Jiang Cheng took out the key and gave it to him.

After Pan Zhi turned around and left, he and Gu Fei continued to stand in place.

"That," Gu Fei finally said, "I want to...buy a cat for Er Miao."

"Huh?" Jiang Cheng looked at him.

"She likes fat sheep very much," Gu Fei said, "I think she's always relaxed with small animals, so...I want to buy her a cat."

"Ah," Jiang Cheng nodded, "Okay."

Gu Fei was silent for a while: "Do you...have time? Let's go together."

"Ah," Jiang Cheng finally realized Gu Fei's meaning, "Okay."

"Then I'll call you tomorrow?" Gu Fei said.

"Yes." Jiang Cheng responded.

"Also," Gu Fei bit his lips, "It's almost... New Year's Eve."

"There are still four more days," Jiang Cheng smiled, "Pan Zhi just talked to me today."

"Why don't you two..." Gu Fei said with great difficulty, "Come to my house for dinner, it's lively."

Jiang Cheng looked at Gu Fei, and after a while he said, "Okay."

"Then I'll go back first," Gu Fei said, "You... rest, these few days have been too hard."

"It's okay." Jiang Cheng smiled.

After Gu Fei turned around, Jiang Cheng didn't move, he just stood there and watched his back.

This time Gu Fei didn't look back, he just walked quickly along the road, as if he wanted to run away.

Jiang Cheng had never seen such a flustered Gu Fei before.

After watching Gu Fei turn the corner, he turned around and entered the corridor, lit a cigarette, and slowly walked upstairs.

For Gu Fei who said "forget it" to him, whether it was to say to buy a cat together or to celebrate the New Year together, it was a very difficult thing.

But it was also his two invitations that were so difficult that he seemed to be unable to continue in the next second, and the panic he had never felt when he turned to leave, that made Jiang Cheng suddenly see hope.

real hope.

Let's make up.

Jiang Cheng knew that if he said these words now, Gu Fei would definitely agree.

But even though he wanted to say it, he would never say it anyway. He couldn't let the two of them go back to the past cycle.

He had to wait for Gu Fei to say this sentence by himself.

Let's make up.

He said this sentence, and Gu Fei said it, the meaning is completely different.