What he sang is all fake

Walking into the home where he hadn't returned for a long time, Zhou's father still looked as usual, put down his bag, hung up his coat, put on his slippers, walked to the living room sofa and sat down.The hostess was not there, and Zhou Nanyu also gave Aunt Fu a holiday. Zhou's house could not be called deserted, but completely silent.

No matter how many doubts there were, the upbringing engraved in his bones made Zhou Nanyu unhurriedly make a cup of hot tea for his father first. After waiting for so many years, he was not in a hurry for just a few minutes.He put the teacup on the coffee table and sat down opposite his father. Big Bingshan and Little Bingshan looked at each other for a while, but no one spoke for a while.

The man kept his elite appearance in suits and leather shoes during the long-distance flight. The years also left countless small scratches on his face, and the cold eyes seemed not as intimidating as in the early years. The ice on the iceberg slowly The peeling melts into water and gathers into the sea, but the sea can accommodate hundreds of rivers, and there is still a calmness and strength that Zhou Nanyu can't match.

"I know what you want to ask, son." Father Zhou took a sip of hot tea and said slowly, "Don't be so hostile to me, it's not something I can control, your mother is making her own choice, I She tried to change the status quo, but she was the one who stopped me."

This was the closest Zhou Nanyu was to the truth of what he wanted to get close to countless times, and he couldn't just be fooled like this.

"Why can't I even say it?" He wanted to know this too much, "No matter what it is, can't I bear it together?"

Did you know that I also lived in this unknown shadow for 24 years?

Father Zhou's eyes carefully traced his son's face which looked more and more like his own, and also penetrated the thousands of words of grievance and resentment he hadn't said.He also felt that he was ruthless in a sense, but unfortunately, everyone in this family was not ruthless.

"24 years old." Zhou's father nodded, his eyes glanced at the woven red rope tied around Zhou Nanyu's wrist, "Do you still remember the car accident in your first birth year?"

Zhou Nanyu frowned, not knowing why the man answered the wrong question, "Of course I remember."

On his birthday that year, his father came back from abroad specially. He happily got into the car and prepared to go to the airport to meet his father, but unexpectedly, accidents happened.When the world was spinning, he was completely dazed. The overworked driver on the overloaded truck died on the spot. One side of the car door was completely dented, and he was seriously injured while wearing a seat belt on the other side.The feeling that the wound was bleeding and the body was getting cold will always be remembered in his life.

But what does this have to do with my mother's heart disease?Didn't he survive well?

"What if you were sitting on the other side?" Father Zhou continued to ask.

This is a completely inexplicable question to Zhou Nanyu, "Now there is no such possibility."

Father Zhou nodded, "To answer your question just now, you can indeed bear it together. But this burden itself makes you fall from one kind of anxiety to another. I can understand that your mother didn't let me tell you, because... ..."

"Survivor Guilt." The man said in a deep voice, "You may not feel better than now."

"Survivor Guilt," Bei He repeated the term spit out by the male protagonist's psychiatrist on the screen, turned his face and asked Qi Chen in a low voice, "What is this?"

Qi Chen organized his language and explained simply, "Survivor's guilt effect, those who survived will feel sorry for those who were not spared because they were alive."

Bei He nodded with a vague understanding, staring at the screen intently.

The first comedy film gave them a lot of laughter, the second romance film brought tears to their eyes, and the third feature film was much heavier than Bei He thought.The film tells the story of a pair of brothers who were separated during World War II. The younger brother never gave up looking for his older brother, but the older brother once received wrong information that he thought his younger brother was dead, and lived in depression all the time.The story rises from two individuals to the family, then to the country, and finally returns to the two.In the cemetery where the remains of comrades-in-arms were buried, white doves spread their wings and flew over, and the cry of newborn babies came from the land devastated by artillery fire. The brothers looked at each other who were similar but strange, and finally embraced each other tightly.They have been absent from each other for too long, and the scars will not disappear, but life is still long, and they still have many opportunities to fill each other.

The ending of the story is already the best one that should be set, but when the movie was put into the end credits, Bei He still clenched Qi Chen's hand, unable to let go of it for a long time.

The two starring actors are both well-known movie stars in the film industry. Their acting skills are online throughout the whole process, and several close-up shots are memorable.Until he walked out of the theater, Bei He was still thinking about the scene where the brothers embraced in the cemetery at the end. For some reason, he always felt that the sadness in the eyes of the two was greater than the joy.

Seeing that he hadn't played yet, Qi Chen put his hand into his coat pocket and reminded, "It's snowing."

Bei He was fully armed again, only a pair of eyes were exposed, and he raised his face and stared blankly at the flying white snow.It felt good to be led by Qi Chen like this, he stepped on the shallow puddles, and said a word softly.

"A beautiful day." He said, "That's how you and Qimei got their names."

Qi Chen hummed, and Bei He said enviously, "You two have such a good relationship. If you disappeared, Qi Mei would search for you all over the world."

"If I disappear, she won't be able to find me." Qi Chen said slowly, "When she was young, she liked to cling to me and play hide-and-seek. She would stand in the middle of the park and cry when she couldn't find anyone. Whenever she cried, I had to come out to coax her. Then my parents thought I was bullying her, tsk."

It was the first time he heard Qi Chen take the initiative to talk about his childhood, Bei He immediately hooked him up, temporarily forgetting about the troubles in the movie just now. "How old was that? Wow! I want to see photos of you when you were young!"

"She's six or seven years old. I'm almost ten. Let me show you when I go back."

Beihe imagined the scene of ten-year-old little Qichen coaxing his younger sister with a froze face, and he couldn't help laughing.

"I'll definitely find you! No, you can't see me. Tell me wherever you go."

"it is good."

The two of them talked like this and walked towards the subway station.The Christmas parade in the university town started in 15 minutes, and it was just right for them to take the subway two stops away.

There are many students on the subway, and most of them are playing around outside and pinching this point to go back to watch the parade.Bei He leaned on Qi Chen's back with his head down, looking down at his phone. In the group, Li Qi'an and Gu Hui chatted intermittently, but Zhou Nanyu and Chu Xiaofei disappeared.He replied briefly, and while his fingers were still typing on the screen, a female voice sounded.

"Oh, Qi Chen? What a coincidence."

Both Qi Chen and Bei He had a meal, Bei He took a quick glance, and the one who spoke was a lady in a coat and boots, there were quite a few people traveling with her, and people in half a car all looked at them.Bei He subconsciously wanted to hide back, but he took half a step back and held out their interlocking hands.

He was startled, Qi Chen had already stepped in front of him.The person who greeted her was a classmate of Qi Chen's same department, and she couldn't hide her surprise and said, "So you have a girlfriend?"

A girl behind who was also holding her boyfriend also laughed, "Oh my God, I don't know how many girls in the university town are about to cry."

……girlfriend?

Bei He lowered his gaze and caught a glimpse of his pink clothes, and he knew it.Standing next to Qi Chen in his current appearance, it is indeed easy to be recognized as a girl with short hair at first glance.

Huh!This is a new way of thinking!Thank you Xiaofei!

"Well," Qi Chen responded lightly, "Sorry, he's more shy."

The senior sister was careless and didn't care, but she had something more to ask.

"Hey, I heard from Professor Qian that you passed the interview for the last batch of school recruits in Yinta this year? Why are you working so hard all of a sudden, and the portfolio is in time? Didn't you say that you will apply together in March next year?"

Silver Tower?

Bei He, who listened with his ears up, caught the key word, and he remembered the name.Because of Qi Chen's relationship, he had searched for construction-related things when he was bored before, and Yinta is one of the top ten architectural design institutes in the country, and its headquarters is in the East Bank New District of Yidu.

Qi Chen responded without explaining in detail.Everyone seemed to understand Qi Chen's reticent and low-key personality, so they didn't delve into it.Just as the car arrived at the stop, two groups of people got out of the car, said hello, and walked towards the escalator in the opposite direction.

Bei He squeezed Qi Chen's palm, "Have you been busy with this all month?"

Qi Chen was silent for a while before explaining, "...I originally wanted to tell you after the official offer."

"?"

"After entering the Silver Pagoda, I won't be in the project with the professor. I don't have to go back to school... I can move to the east bank."

The two of them had just walked out of the subway entrance when Bei He suddenly stopped in his tracks.The sweet smell of hindsight poured down his head, and he was fascinated by the snowflakes, so he could only look at the person beside him in a soft light.

Qi Chen still had that indifferent look, not knowing at all how much his silent decisions and efforts could touch and impact others.As if he didn't think it was enough, he clicked his tongue again and added slowly:

"Just as a... Christmas present."

Qi Chen's tone was full of displeasure at being punctured in advance, Bei He bit his lip and remained silent.

He couldn't speak, he was on the verge of tears.It must be the relationship between the mood fluctuating for a day and the snow falling again.

——No, it’s because the boyfriend is too good.

Seeing Bei He drooping his head speechlessly, Qi Chen asked again, "What's wrong?"

Bei He muttered, "I was thinking about how I can be worthy of you."

Qi Chen laughed.

The singers who sang Christmas carols on the floats officially started the street parade, and a bunch of fireworks exploded above their heads. They held hands and walked towards the brightest direction.

"WewishyouamerryChristmas

WewishyouamerryChristmas

WewishyouamerryChristmasandahappyNewYear! ! "

Even playing Christmas songs in the nightclub, Chu Xiaofei reduced his sense of existence to zero, sitting in front of the bar and playing with his mobile phone boredly in front of a glass of sparkling water.All the messages he sent to Zhou Nanyu fell to nothing, and he didn't know how the Zhou family's father and son talked.

Jia Xin was chatting with a group of rich or expensive daughters not far away, Chu Xiaofei reckoned that these people had undergone more or less surgery, they were not bad looking, but their smiles seemed fake, he Didn't even want to take another look.He and Jia Xin treat each other as decorations, but they live in peace.

Thinking about it with hair, I know how many people are flocking to the Jia family. After Jia Xin has dealt with this batch, there will be a steady stream of next batch to come to send smiling faces. Chu Xiaofei caught a glimpse of Jia Xin's perfect personality engraved on his bones Mask, I feel inexplicable, I really want to ask, are you not tired?

What's the deal with this kind of party.

Forget about the rich ladies, there are many men who have taken a glimpse of Jia Xin himself. Marrying Miss Jia's family is equivalent to taking over half of the Golden City. Plus she is quite pretty, who would give up this piece of swan meat.The men all came to toast without exception, and Jia Xin handled it with ease, and some people tried to touch the edge of extra touch, but she avoided them calmly.

Gee.

Chu Xiaofei claimed to be a good person, when the fifth man spoke to Jia Xin with a wine glass, he stood in front of her.

"Sorry, she can't drink anymore."

The man raised his eyebrows and looked at this brat in his eyes.Chu Xiaofei was wearing a dark red suit, a white shirt with the collar half open, and a tie hanging loosely.His hair has been dyed, and it is hard to see what color it is in the smoky and bizarre place, but it must be as flamboyant as his smile.He has a handsome appearance, and he is even more handsome at the moment. The fearlessness and confidence in his eyes are cultivated in the center of the crowd, on the stage, and in the halo of the spotlight all year round.

"you……"

"Mian's surname is Chu," Chu Xiaofei embraced Jia Xin's waist unceremoniously, "Goodbye."

Sitting back at the bar, Jia Xin looked at Chu Xiaofei with a half-smile.

Chu Xiaofei waved his hand and said coolly, "You're welcome."

Jia Xin almost laughed angrily, "Do you know how much that man is worth?"

Chu Xiaofei was delighted when he heard the words, because of the Beihe incident, he was already angry in his heart, but now that Jia Xin was looking for trouble, he couldn't stop talking: "No, your Jia family is still short of money? I just wanted to ask what’s so good about this kind of hypocritical social occasion, co-author So you are willing to stand here as Jia’s social software? It’s your brother who asked you to stand here like a vase and be responsible for smiling and polite to everyone The mission my sister gave you? I thought you could live eight lifetimes without eating and drinking. So you are living so tired too? Oh no, is there any one of your little sisters who sincerely treat you as your friend just now? Count?"

Chu Xiaofei finished speaking in one breath and was relieved. After two seconds of relief, he felt a thump in his heart. He is used to talking casually in the team. This is the first time he talks to a girl like this...is it too cruel?

He glanced at Jia Xin with some guilt. The latter's curled eyelashes trembled twice. When he raised his eyes again, the smile on the mask had been completely wiped away, leaving only an extremely calm look. look.

He was very familiar with this kind of tranquility. He had seen it in Zhou Nanyu's eyes and Bei He's eyes.It's not that the waves are calm after experiencing strong winds and waves, but that the sea is dead.

"When you first approached me, you confidently boasted about how well your group has developed. Didn't you want me to ask my sister to allocate some good resources for you?" Jia Xin said lightly, with red lips moving slightly.

Choking well.Chu Xiaofei laughed self-deprecatingly, "Isn't this my retribution? If I wasn't afraid of your brother sneaking into my teammate, I could fly all the way to be your knight?"

"That's really hard for you." Jia Xin drank the cocktail in his hand, stood up and walked into the crowd again.

Gee.

Chu Xiaofei rolled his eyes, threw two banknotes to the bar, squeezed through the crowd, grabbed Jia Xin's wrist and pulled it out.Jia Xin only had time to say "Huh?" before being dragged off the field in one breath.

"Take you to a place." Chu Xiaofei took out the car key and threw it in the air, and Zhou Nanyu borrowed his A8 to turn on the light not far away.When Jia Xin realized it, Chu Xiaofei had already pushed her into the co-pilot, and the man stepped on the accelerator and drove her towards the outer ring.

There was a traffic jam in the city center on Christmas Eve, but Chu Xiaofei drove in a disorderly manner, and he was about to stage a live-action speed and passion.The wind blowing outside the car window messed up Jia Xin's long hair, and Chu Xiaofei cheered happily.

"It's not as exciting as the Yidu Yushan track," he said with a smile while holding the steering wheel tightly. "But that place is also good. Brother Nan will be reimbursed for the ticket, but if my manager finds out, I will die. Please don't bump into anyone!!"

Jia Xin was completely stunned, she could only feel that the road was getting wider and wider, the speed of the car was getting faster and faster, and the street view outside the car window was becoming more and more blurred.And there was something about to rush through her blood that she had never really felt.

what is that?

what is that?

—is freedom.

Bei He stood in the center of the celebrating crowd, and Santa Claus surrounded by elves stood on a float and sprinkled candies to the left and right crowd.There are people everywhere, and relaxed, laughing faces everywhere.No one noticed him, no one thought there was anything wrong with him holding his lover.The fireworks exploded in the air, becoming bright spots in his eyes together with the colorful neon lights, and at a certain moment he even felt so free that he wanted to scream.

It was also a cold winter, and it was also a day when there was so much snow that could not accumulate. At that time, he felt that he was the most unfortunate person in the world.But now he feels that he is the happiest person in the world.

Qi Chen reached out his hand quickly and accurately, and caught the two candies flying in the air. He opened his hand and saw that it was two Ferrero pieces.

"Chocolate?" he asked, looking down.

Bei He stared blankly at him, his eyes filled with sparkling liquid.He shook his head, "No hands, go back and eat."

Qi Chen put the chocolate back into his pocket, and the other hand was still tightly clasped. No one wanted to let go, even if he just peeled off the package of the chocolate.Although the shining stars were beautiful, he didn't want to see Bei He cry again, but he was not very good at talking, so he could only raise his hand and stroke the corner of his eyes with his thumb.

Bei He took off his glasses, rubbed his eyes, and simply pulled off his mask, instead, he held his hand and placed it on his lips for a kiss.

"Qi Chen," he said with a sweet smile, "you are my god."