scorching cold

After feeling that he fell in love with Li Suihan, Tao Zhuo really wanted to talk to someone, but he didn't know what he wanted to talk about, but the first name that popped up in his mind was Qi Ya.

The relationship and emotions between people are really wonderful. Tao Zhuo thought for a while why he didn't want to talk to An Yi or Wen Ye first, wouldn't it be more appropriate to talk about liking men with gay guys?

Turning his mobile phone to ponder for a long time, he thought that apart from the ten years of relationship and understanding with Qi Ya, he still felt that he was a straight man from the bottom of his heart, and he had mixed feelings about falling in love with someone of the same sex. Understand, chatting with An Yi, if you don't get together, it becomes a sister tea party.

Moreover, he also wanted to know Qi Ya's attitude towards "homosexuality". When he was a freshman, he just talked about An Yi with Qi Ya, and Qi Ya's reaction was a bit mindful.

I don't know what to do with myself.

Although Tao Zhuo is confident that no matter what happens, Qi Ya will not stop playing with him because of this, but he is still a little nervous.

He clutched his mobile phone for a long time, but couldn't think of a natural and unobtrusive opening statement, so he simply sent a sentence to Qi Ya directly: "Ya, I seem to be bent!"

When he clicked the send button, Tao Zhuo exhaled nervously, thinking that this might be regarded as "coming out"?

The message was sent after eight o'clock in the evening, and after waiting for forty minutes, at nine o'clock five, there was no response from Qi Ya.

He didn't even type, and just played a voice.

Tao Zhuo hurriedly flipped through the earphones on the bed, then sneaked out of the dormitory with the phone in his hands, before answering it.

"Did you lose in Truth or Dare?" Qi Ya asked at the first sentence.

"I don't have any," Tao Zhuo wandered in the corridor, and unknowingly came to the stairs where he had a long chat with An Yi for the first time. He bent down and blew two puffs, and sat down against the wall, "I I'm not kidding, I'm not kidding with you!"

"Ah," Qi Ya must have been startled by him, he reacted a bit stunned, followed Tao Zhuo and heard his head rattling again, as if something had fallen, and there was a muffled sound of "boom", and Qi Ya cursed softly "Hold".

Ah fuck.

Tao Zhuo wanted to laugh inexplicably, "Hey hey" and asked, "You won't fall down in fright, right?"

"Tell you." Qi Ya went numb again for a while, and someone beside him said something with a smile. He replied "Get out" and said to Tao Zhuo: "I bought a coconut after playing golf and just drank a couple of sips. When you talk, you look up and hit the wall, Ye Ye doesn't know where the fuck is going..."

Tao Zhuo couldn't help it, and burst out laughing wildly.

"Stop laughing, fuck," the background sound on Qi Ya's phone quieted down, and Tao Zhuo heard the sound of his lighter lighting a cigarette, "Why did you bend? Who are you aiming at?"

Tao Zhuo was really embarrassed when he got to the point, he and Qi Ya were used to bickering every day, so he picked the wall and answered smoothly: "Is it okay for you?"

This time, there was really no sound from Qi Ya's side.

no?Tao Zhuo's heart tightened, he pretended to be trendy every day, couldn't bear it?

"Hello? Qi Ya?" Tao Zhuo hurriedly explained, "I'm kidding you, don't you take it seriously? Don't, I told you that even if you get infected by the same...you won't hurt you, you won't want to talk to me Are you breaking up?"

"...Go away, uncle, I almost took it seriously," Qi Ya then laughed slowly and let out a puff of smoke, "Don't play this joke on me, tiger?"

Tao Zhuo came out of the closet, and the closet door had just been opened halfway, first scaring Qi Yaye away, and was scolded as a "tiger".

I'm not nervous anymore.

Then Qi Ya asked him to honestly explain what was going on, and Tao Zhuo told him his own mental journey in a confused way.

Qi Ya seemed to be listening to heavenly scriptures. Tao Zhuo mentioned that he sprained his foot a while ago, and someone carried him to the clinic, but he shamelessly stiffened his back. Qi Ya interrupted him and asked, "No, this man Is it your tutor? Junior high school tutor? Then we met again in your school?"

"Ah," Tao Zhuo picked off another large piece of wall covering, "Isn't fate so magical?

Qi Ya was not interested in his broken fate, so he asked again: "So you have been to him since junior high school... No, you have known yourself since junior high school?"

"Hey, no, I've been talking for a long time. What have you heard?" Tao Zhuo was almost speechless, and then re-focused with Qi Ya, "I saw him having sex with his boyfriend at the time in junior high school. Yes, but maybe it was at that time that I started seeing my classmates... who had an idea about this, right? I was very happy to meet again in the first year of freshman year, and then I probably got along with each other in the past few years... I was fascinated by An Yi and the others, I really Bending yourself?"

"So you already counted in junior high school." Qi Ya was still struggling with this question, and suddenly said: "Then when I told you Farewell My Concubine, you were like eating shit?"

"I'll eat you!" Tao Zhuo couldn't remember exactly when Qi Ya was talking about it, but he just felt like he lost in the game today?So irritable, "I'm serious, what are you talking about in junior high?"

With a beep, Qi Ya hung up the phone directly.

Tao Zhuo sat in the corridor with his mobile phone in his hand, and was stunned for a long time.He wasn't sure what Qi Ya meant, did he feel that there was a quasi-gay lurking beside him for so many years?

Didn't you respond to yourself when you talked about "wife"?

Thinking about it this way, Tao Zhuo suddenly realized that it seemed that he hadn't heard Qi Ya call him "wife" for a long time.

Maybe it's because he doesn't like to make those jokes anymore when he grows up, and that's right, he both loves to be poor in the second and middle school of the student stage, and he hasn't seen his father and Uncle Jiang talk about this kind of calf with each other.

Qi Ya didn't answer the voice call again, Tao Zhuo was really uncomfortable now, he sent a message to Qi Ya: Qi Ya, can't you bear it?If you're awkward, I won't mention this to you in the future. I'm just confused. I don't know who to tell. Don't think too much about it.

After another ten minutes, Qi Ya finally replied to him again: I'm fucking out of battery

Even though Qi Ya hung up the phone again and asked him what he was thinking, Tao Zhuo was still confused when he lost the battery, and this confusion turned into melancholy in the dead of night.

He remembered that Wen Ye said that Li Yang and Li Suihan broke up because they came out of the closet, and the reaction of the two families was not small, especially Li Yang's family, who wanted to send him to rehab.

Tao Zhuo only felt embarrassed when he heard it, but he still felt a little exaggerated in his heart.As a result, it is really on me now, just self-identification mood is eighteen bends in the mountain road, friends for so many years are not as natural as he imagined, even Qi Ya can't accept his orientation with a smile, let alone his family up.

Tao Zhen wouldn't join his parents and send him to the same place, right?

Tao Zhuo stared at the ceiling and sighed, watching An Yi and the others happily all day long, he almost forgot that the people who can truly accept homosexuality in society are actually a minority like the homosexual group.

However, his melancholy was only fermented in the night of wild thoughts, and when he saw Li Suihan, Tao Zhuo's mind was hung on him in a frenzy.

It was the first time in his life that he felt "bewitched". Tao Zhuo found that this feeling is really very tempting and magical, like he can hypnotize him. Once he finds that he likes someone, he will like it more and more.

Before I felt that I "liked" Li Suihan, Li Suihan was also attractive to him, but his "attraction" was limited. He loved to stay with Li Suihan, and his speech and actions were relatively natural, and he cared about himself. In terms of image, one can feel Li Suihan's inadvertent little charm, but he doesn't deliberately capture it from time to time.

After falling in love with Li Suihan, these details and elements are all the same as his emotions, multiplied tenfold and magnified.

He started to feel unnatural when facing Li Suihan, wanted to see him, wanted to show himself more, wanted to have closer contact, but his head and arms still felt numb when touched anywhere, and he liked to show a tacit understanding with Li Suihan in front of others that only they understood, and also He began to enjoy Li Suihan's "unique treatment" to him - such as eating hot pot with the studio, Li Suihan said "give Tao Zhuo some hairy belly", he can be beautiful for a long time, and everything he eats tastes like hairy belly .

Correspondingly, every word Li Suihan said to him, every look and every movement, in Tao Zhuo's heart also had "unique intentions" speculation.

He should also like me a lot, right?At least have a good impression?Interested at least?Otherwise, why act like you're interested in me?

An Yi's explanation for this feeling is "biological instinct regardless of gender".

"You speak human language." Tao Zhuo said sincerely.

"It's like Robert Downey is around me every day, even if he's not my type, wouldn't I enjoy it?" An Yi said brazenly.

"Does Wen Ye know that you think so?" Tao Zhuo's molars were sore, and he was about to laugh at him shamelessly.

An Yi curled her lips: "If you change to a handsome boy who surrounds him every day, he can also fly. It's just like the one I dated online before. I haven't seen the face before. How much do I like it? It's just a spiritual enjoyment. Who doesn't like others to like themselves Ah, you used to say that Li Suihan liked you."

Tao Zhuo said that he didn't take this topic with him. When An Yi mentioned it like this, he shrank in his heart, and quickly pretended to be joking to turn the topic around: "What else? Every time I pass by, you see how happy he is, and your eyes are smiling."

"Actually, I think so too." An Yi looked at Tao Zhuo with her chin on her hands.

Tao Zhuo blinked, "Huh?"

"You are the one he likes," An Yi analyzed with him, "Even if he is not in the mood to fall in love now, it must be nice to have a favorite type around you. Give him a flirtatious flirt. Hey, if you work harder, give him a night of passion, raw rice and cooked rice, and the two of you will be successful."

In the second half of the sentence, An Yi smiled and began to lose shape, but Tao Zhuo's focus was on the first sentence.

"The style he likes?" Tao Zhuo turned his chair to face the mirror pasted on the door of the dormitory, "I am the same style as Li Yang? Isn't it?"

"You don't look like Li Yang," An Yi also turned around, shaking his head and looking at Tao Zhuo, "I don't think so, you don't have his temperament, but just look at your appearance after removing your temperament... It's okay, anyway, Li Suihan likes it like this of."

Tao Zhuo was embarrassed to show it, and felt a little sad and indignant.

How did you plan the temperament?If you want to quarrel with me, you should gouge Li Yang, even if you break up.

"How do you know?" He asked An Yi.

An Yi hooked two fingers up and nodded his eyes, then poked Tao Zhuo: "Fellow, okay. You half-straight man."

Tao Zhuo, a half-straight man, thinks that what An Yi said makes sense based on his own feelings.

——Li Suihan must be interested in him, otherwise there are many boys in the studio, and it is impossible that he has not known other gays in these years, and he has not treated others like him.

Thinking about it this way, his secret love for Li Suihan immediately moved towards the gratification of the two. Tao Zhuo hid his thoughts, and went to Li Suihan's place more frequently, with a little tentative intention, and wanted to make a move whenever he had nothing to do. hands and feet.

For example, when Li Suihan opened the door for him and turned to walk towards the living room, Tao Zhuo, like a child, jumped on Li Suihan's back with a "hey", Li Suihan quickly returned his hands to support him, smiled and scolded him, and the two turned around in place. In a circle, Li Suihan unloaded him firmly on the sofa.

For example, when Li Suihan was not so busy in front of the computer, Tao Zhuo went over with a glass of drink in one hand, lifted his legs and squeezed down from between Li Suihan's back and the computer chair, and Li Suihan said "I beat you", But without looking back, he moved forward, leaving enough space for him.

Another example is that Tao Zhuo likes to change his clothes as soon as he enters the house. He used to be embarrassed, but now he goes to Li Suihan's place and he naturally goes to the closet. Taste for two.

For example, even if An Yi didn't come and Li Suihan was at home at night, he stayed at Li Suihan's place to sleep without saying a word, and ran straight to Li Suihan's bedroom after taking a shower, pretending to forget that there was a guest room next door.

Li Suihan didn't mention it, and went back to the bedroom to see him sprawled there playing with his mobile phone, and just smiled lightly.

Tao Zhuo glanced at his expression out of the corner of his eye, clucking and bouncing like a live chicken stuffed in his chest.