scorching cold

Tao Zhuo felt the part where the two were touching, the blood all over his body instinctively split into two in an instant, one rushed up and the other went down, the temperature on his face rose together with the hardness there.

Li Suihan's mouth and nose stopped at the side of his neck not far or near, his hot breath fluttered on the skin, slowly changing the subtle angles, arousing clusters of goose bumps.

Tao Zhuo was numb all the way from his neck to his temples, his scalp was tight, but Li Suihan just stopped for a while, tightened his arms, and let him go.

The faucet was still on, and the sound of turbulent water made people lose their minds. Li Suihan took a deep breath quietly, and turned back to the sink to continue washing the dishes with his usual expression.

Tao Zhuo didn't know whether he was relieved or a little disappointed. He raised his hand and touched his neck. He blushed and stood against the cabinet, pressing down his strangely stretched pants.

Seeing from the back at this moment, the two were standing on the left and the right, separated by half an arm's distance, and they suddenly appeared incomparably harmonious.

"That is to say, was it because you drank too much that day?" Tao Zhuo asked in a low voice, finding a more standard explanation for Li Suihan.

"I drank that day, but I didn't drink too much." Li Suihan didn't follow his words. He put the clean pots and pans on the water control table one by one, his eyelashes were slightly drawn down, and there was a strange expression between his eyebrows and eyes. Feeling ashamed, "I don't want to lie to you about this kind of thing. It was true that I didn't control myself well at the time. I couldn't help it."

"Oh..." Tao Zhuo looked at him blankly, nodded, and agreed again: "Oh."

Li Suihan really either didn't say anything, or was too frank. Tao Zhuo didn't know what emotion to have for a while, but was scratched in his heart by the word "can't help it".

He recalled the strength that Li Suihan had suppressed him at that time, those movements and enthusiasm, his throat tightened, and the hand on the cooking table scratched the edge.

... You are indeed a little uncontrollable, so fierce.

"So, there is no reason for me to treat you like that at that time." Li Suihan tidied up the table in an orderly manner, looked at Tao Zhuo, and licked the corner of his mouth helplessly, "In the final analysis, it is because I indulged myself to take advantage of you, other reasons It's all an excuse. Got it?"

Faced with Li Suihan's frankness, Tao Zhuo didn't know what to say for a while, and at the same time felt a little distressed that he couldn't say it.

He could immediately understand why Li Suihan didn't know how to speak, because Li Suihan's helplessness and self-blame were real: he was really impulsive at the time, and now, he can say some nasty words to fool him, but He didn't deny his urge, and he, Li Suihan, was such a particular person with decent manners.

Let a fastidious person take the initiative to admit that he has "sperm on the brain".

Tao Zhuo's powerful empathy instantly embarrassed him.

Although Li Suihan said that he didn't drink too much, wine is wine, and drinking more or less will affect a person's sobriety. Besides, he didn't know how long he had been holding back since he broke up with Li Yang... Maybe now...

No, no, I can't think about this, it's even more embarrassing!

Tao Zhuo was ashamed and maddened in his heart.

Everyone has done things that make the scalp tingle after the brain is hot. For example, when he just met Li Suihan and pretended to show off his art book, he turned over a cart.

For such an insignificant matter, he was too embarrassed to tell Li Suihan, "It was my vanity that time." He only prayed that Li Suihan had forgotten it, and he never wanted to take the initiative to mention it in his life.

Not to mention the "□□" which is embarrassing no matter how self-analyzed.

—— Isn't he too embarrassed to admit that he went to kiss Li Suihan first?

Thinking of this, Tao Zhuo's thoughts turned again.

If he didn't have feelings for Li Suihan, then Li Suihan grabbed him and grinded him up in such a daze, it really didn't matter what the reason was, he was just playing hooligans.

The issue is……

Tao Zhuo glanced at Li Suihan with complicated emotions.

The problem is that he didn't refuse at the time... Isn't that the same as telling Li Suihan that he likes him and is willing to do those things with him?

"But I already liked you at that time." He said to Li Suihan.

After speaking, he reacted again: "Oh, you thought I was just curious."

Li Suihan raised his eyebrows dumbfounded.

"So that's it." Tao Zhuo finally understood the problem. He took two small bowls, one for himself and one for Li Suihan, and turned around on the table, "So it was because I liked you at that time, but You think I'm curious, so after you do something to me, I confess to you, and you think I'm more curious, so let me wake up."

Li Suihan took the two bowls and washed them again, wiped off all the water stains on the countertop, and corrected Tao Zhuo: "I think you've been touched, so you're dizzy with the pleasure."

Tao Zhuo: "..."

"Are you talking human?" Tao Zhuo blushed like a pig's head, almost stunned.

Li Suihan glanced at him and smacked Tao Zhuo's face with water. Tao Zhuo slapped him on the wrist, and Li Suihan squeezed his hand into his palm again.

"Tao Zhuo." Li Suihan leaned against the table and played with his hands. His freshly washed fingers were clean and dry. He separated his fingers, rubbed them into his palms, and called his name softly.

"You have never been in a relationship, never had sex, never experienced anything, you may not be able to tell the difference between a whim and a real relationship, and you don't know how many obstacles a real homosexual needs to face." Li Suihan raised his eyes and looked at him , "And I know."

"I always thought at the time, I really shouldn't get along with you like that," Li Suihan frowned, "It's not so much that you were influenced by us to bend yourself, but I felt that I 'guided' you unconsciously many times, so that wrong."

Tao Zhuo wanted to argue, but Li Suihan waved his hand to signal him to listen to himself first.

"You had a lot of details at that time, whether you spoke or acted, you were still a normal straight man, including when I kissed you that night, your instinctive reaction was to avoid, so I have a feeling for you..." Li Suihan paused , "Guilt, do you understand?"

Tao Zhuo understands and doesn't understand.

From Li Suihan's point of view, he knew it. From his own point of view, he only felt that Li Suihan was farting.

Why should something as simple as "like" be described as a crime?

Even if it is "guidance", I will be guided by you if I like you, if you don't like you, you can guide me hard, can you guide me?

But after hearing Li Suihan unconsciously use "normal" to describe a straight man, his rebuttal turned into a complicated mood.

Is homosexuality really that stressful?

Tao Zhuo was a little puzzled.

In the past, he would feel helpless for them when he read the posts on the forum and the stories on the Internet, but it was on the Internet after all. Those homosexuals were just a string of codes in another world that they could not see and touch. Written into words, it's just that the spectators can add subjective judgments to the story as soon as they collide with each other.

He had never felt so uncomfortable from the bottom of his heart like this moment.

Maybe everyone is not as chic as they seem, even Li Suihan is the same.

To what extent did Li Suihan's family object to his sexuality?To make him blurt out such words.

"I didn't know that you have so many rags to think about." Tao Zhuo looked at him, blinked his eyes, and said slowly, "I knew I wouldn't ask you, and I was upset."

"Why do I react like a straight man? Didn't I block you when you grabbed your ass?" Tao Zhuo could still remember the sudden grip on his buttocks at that time, which made his back tense, "Then I was suddenly caught and I can't react a little bit? According to what you say, if you grab An Yi's butt, wouldn't he stop you? Wen Ye can't beat you to death..."

Li Suihan: "..."

"What the hell are you..." Li Suihan was almost laughed angrily by him, but was interrupted by Tao Zhuo before he finished speaking.

"I understand what you mean." Tao Zhuo said, "I just didn't expect you to think so much and it's useless. Why don't you think about it to the end? In the end, you are still self-righteous... Then why are you not guilty now? Turn around come to me?"

Li Suihan and Tao Zhuo looked at each other for a while, and said: "When you twisted your foot, you asked me if I wanted to have a relationship, remember? At that time, I really didn't want to talk about it. Including when I rejected you, part of the reason is that I still don't want to talk about it." in love."

This answer is too realistic, not romantic at all, Tao Zhuo curled his lips, "Oh".

Li Suihan smiled, and continued: "Until I saw you again at the movie theater that day, I didn't want to develop a relationship with anyone."

"Really?" Tao Zhuo expressed doubts, and at the same time, he was slightly worried.

This person won't be impotent in the past two years, right?

I can't, I was still stiff against myself just now...

"Yeah." Li Suihan didn't know what Tao Zhuo was thinking in a mess. Seeing that his face was tangled and cute, he leaned forward, touched his forehead lightly with his forehead, and at the same time shamelessly Tao Zhuo's hand in the palm of his hand was pulled up, and he pulled it towards his waist.

The distance became too close again, Tao Zhuo subconsciously breathed lightly, and his voice lowered accordingly: "Then you suddenly want to fall in love, and you think I can just take it and use it?"

"No," Li Suihan sighed, he looked at Tao Zhuo seriously, and stretched out his hand to shave his face, "It was only when I met you that day that I realized that, in fact, I have been thinking about you for the past two years."

To Tao Zhuo, these words were a little too powerful.

There was no obvious momentary fluctuation in emotion, but he passively flicked his fingers resting on Li Suihan's waist, grabbed a bit of fabric, curled up loosely, and stared at Li Suihan's two eyeballs almost turned into cross-eyed.

Li Suihan wanted to laugh, Tao Zhuo also wanted to talk, their mouths were about to move when Bei Tian suddenly ran in, holding a huge pad in her hand, and said to Li Suihan with an unhappy face: "I Dad wants to video with you."

Tao Zhuo never felt that he reacted so quickly in his life. He bounced away from Li Suihan almost instantly, and in a blink of an eye he was standing in front of the rice cooker, turning it on and off solemnly, his heart beating violently.

Li Suihan was not frightened by Bei Tian, ​​but was taken aback by his movement. He cleared his throat with a suppressed smile, said "Oh", took the Pad and walked out of the kitchen.

Tao Zhuo also wanted to follow, but before turning around, a tiny finger poked his buttocks, which was the side that was held down by Li Suihan's big wet hand just now.

Tao Zhuo: "..."

"Oh?" Bei Tian stood behind his buttocks, making a doubtful voice.