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"Homosexuality" was no longer an unfamiliar and unspeakable word in Tao Zhuo's junior high school days.

In those years, the Korean Wave was blowing fiercely, the Korean entertainment industry and Japanese animation, what Douhua, what king, what young master, what deacon... Tao Zhuo did not chase stars, and no more than one hand could recognize the faces of Korean stars, yes My understanding of anime is only limited to the ones introduced by the country, such as Slam Dunk Conan Little Master and so on.

However, this did not affect his miscellaneous knowledge of the popular culture that was quietly opening up from the mouths of the girls in the class.

The ordinary students in the class can not only laugh and curse with "You two are gay, are you disgusting", but also turn around and put the shoulders of the male deskmate and say "This is my wife".

Not to mention his elder brother Leslie Cheung who died a few years earlier.

Even the unofficial history has a love story between Heshen and Qianlong, saying that Heshen was Qianlong's reincarnated first love.

In junior high school, the best friend with Tao Zhuo was named Qi Ya. Qi Ya’s father was busy with business. He was brought up by his grandparents. Invite someone to eat if you have a good time.

Tao Zhuo, as a superficial animal, didn't know anyone at the beginning, he sat close to Qi Ya, seeing that Qi Ya was good-looking in a class except himself, so he became friends with him.

Qi Ya is indeed good-looking, he and Tao Zhuo have two different styles, he plays basketball, he is tall, and a bit naughty, he has been in love since the sixth grade, his little girlfriend changes every month, he pretends to be a housewife and makes a fuss .

But after playing with Tao Zhuo for three years in junior high school, he never blushed.

Not only does she not blush, but she still has the trick of calling Tao Zhuo "wife".

Sometimes when they get bored, the two of them can play with their mobile phones on their seats without raising their heads and argue about "you are the wife" and "you are the wife" between classes.

Whether Korean entertainment or Japanese manga, Leslie Cheung or "wife", including sometimes going crazy, playing big adventures, boys pouting and kissing each other... Tao Zhuo doesn't feel resistance to these, Because everyone subconsciously understands that these are all "false".

It is something that is completely in another world compared to the ordinary life of getting up, going to school, going home to sleep every day, and everyone is similar.

Tao Zhuo never thought that he would see real homosexuals around him in his life.

It's like listening to Jay Chou's songs throughout the grades, and no one would think about meeting the real Jay Chou downstairs.

So the kiss between Wei Wei and that boy, in Tao Zhuo's eyes, was almost as unreal as Jay Chou knocking on the door suddenly with his luggage on his back, and introducing himself that I am actually your distant cousin from outside the province, ouch!

There was a muffled thunder in the sky, and the two people in the corridor separated. Tao Zhuo retracted his head, stood there for a while, blushing, then turned around and went upstairs as lightly as a thief.

When he got home, he first leaned on the window to take a look, and the back view of sharing an umbrella with that boy was gone.He took a can of Coke from the refrigerator and drank it, his heart was still beating wildly, and his knees felt weak as if they were weightless.

Tao Zhuo felt very excited.

It contains not only the stimulation of voyeurism and "pornography", but also some unexplainable taboos.

gay.

Tao Zhuo's mind was full of these three words, he had no memory of when he finished drinking the Coke, and stared at it for a long time with an empty can.

This should be gay, right?Kiss all.

So that guy is a great boyfriend?

He replayed the scene repeatedly like a cassette, simply replaying, he didn't know what he was thinking, as if he didn't think about anything, but he couldn't forget it for several days.

Thinking day by day and dreaming at night, he even reproduced that scene in his dream, the pictures and perspectives were broken up, but the narrow corridor, the cloudy rainy day, the damp grass smell and the ambiguous superficial water, each The elements are all very clear.

Even if the person who kissed fiercely was a girl, it was quite exciting for Tao Zhuo at that age to witness someone he knew secretly kissing.

He wanted to talk to someone, but he didn't know how to speak.

And who are you telling me, Qi Ya?Or his parents?Tao Zhen?

"Hey, let me tell you, I saw my tutor kiss a man."

This opening sentence was also repeated countless times around his mouth, and he opened his head halfway a few times, bumped Qi Ya with his elbow and said to him, "I'll tell you", and opened his mouth again to say forget it.

"Are you sick?" Qi Ya was annoyed to death by him.

Tao Zhuo had no choice but to find other topics to cover up.

He has a vague feeling—this is not a topic that should be used for gossip.

It's not like the fat man in class 7 pinching his girlfriend's butt in the corridor, but the dean saw it all from behind. This kind of boring story can be spread all over the grade.

This is not gossip, this is a secret.

Great secret.

It's also his secret.

Tao Zhuo couldn't help being distracted when he returned to class in the second week.

The fierce finger pointed at the book, and he remembered that this hand was clasped on the back of the boy's neck.

When Li Wei gave him a lecture, he watched Li Wei's mouth open and close, and what he thought of was that this mouth had kissed another boy's mouth.

The mouths of two boys.

What else would they do besides kissing?

Will definitely do it!

Maybe they will touch each other...

"You." Li Li snapped his fingers at Tao Zhuo's face, and flicked his forehead again.Tao Zhuo's scalp tightened, and he recovered as if he had done something bad.

"What?" He quickly sat up straight.

"I'm asking you." He looked him hard, threw the pen on the table, and leaned back on the chair, "What's wrong with you today? If you're not in good shape, don't use it."

Tao Zhuo thought he was angry, so he hurriedly said no, then quickly apologized and said sorry.

"I'm serious." He waved his hand fiercely, indicating that he was not angry. "If you are in a bad state, you have to adjust. If you can't listen to it, it's a waste of time. I don't need to charge money today, and I will do it again tomorrow night."

After he said that, Tao Zhuo was even more embarrassed. He dared to be distracted. He quickly grabbed the pen and grabbed his wrist, and said: "Don't stop, I was wrong, let's continue with the class."

After the class that day, Li Wei circled a bunch of topics for him as homework as usual, and wrote down his mobile phone number on the page.

"Your mother has my number, and I'll write one for you here, and you can ask me any questions you don't know." After finishing speaking, Li Wei added: "In the event of a very bad situation."

"Oh." Tao Zhuo gave him a funny look, then nodded with a long voice.

After thinking about it badly, he said, "If you have something on your mind, you can tell me if you can't think about it."

Tao Zhuo thought in his heart that what I said really scared you to death?Can you still have fun in class when your students see you having sex with your boyfriend?

Anyway, if it was him who was powerful, I definitely didn't want to hear what he saw from the students.

Besides, Tao Zhuo was peeking no matter what he said, he was unreasonable and arrogant, and he was a little bit cautious.

But he also really wanted to know, if he asked directly, what would be the reaction of Wei Wei.

Will you seriously tell him not to speak out?

"Really?" He looked very tentative.

"That's what I said." He replied politely.

Tao Zhuo: "...bye."

Tao Zhuo never called the phone number left by Li Wei.

We meet each other in three days, and we have enough time to ask questions that we don't know.In the last two weeks before the senior high school entrance examination, my mother even re-negotiated the time with Lie. From Monday to Friday, as long as Lie Li had no class at night, he could come anytime. On weekends, he went all day until nine o'clock in the evening.

Equivalent to two weeks of training.

With that kind of intensive make-up classes and the pressure of the approaching senior high school entrance examination, Tao Zhuo has long since had no time to think about other messes.

The kiss in the hallway between Li Li and his boyfriend became an episode that was insignificant to his life, and was left after the long summer of doing questions, reviewing, high school entrance examination, and the summer vacation of the third year of junior high school.

In the last tutoring class before the senior high school entrance examination, I finished all the lectures. I bet Tao Zhuo on the last three big questions, and led him to solve the questions seriously, changing the question and thinking, and drawing inferences again.

After class, he patted Tao Zhuo's head, showing the nice and careless smile that he had when we met the first day, and said, "Come on, the rest is up to you."

"Okay." Tao Zhuo nodded nervously, and clapped his hands high-five to cheer himself up.

He bet hard on the last big question and exceeded his promise. Tao Zhuo got 102 in his math test.

The whole family was overjoyed, Tao Zhuo was shameless, and urged his father to buy a small hanging whip and put it downstairs.

Playing like crazy until the end of August, one evening Tao Zhen took him out to buy clothes. When Tao Zhen went to buy milk tea, Tao Zhuo ran into Li Li and his boyfriend in the mall, so close to their same frame, that rainy day The kiss in the corridor came back to Tao Zhuo's mind.

"I'll tutor that kid." Lie said to his boyfriend, and then introduced him to Tao Zhuo: "My friend."

The boyfriend smiled friendly and said, "Hello."

"Hello." Tao Zhuo subconsciously looked at the man's mouth, and couldn't help thinking wildly.

What kind of friend is a boyfriend!

It really is a secret that can't be told.Although the three people present knew the secret.

Really exciting.

"I got 102!" He recalled his score and hurriedly said to Li.

With a powerful "Oh", he was not surprised, smiled at Tao Zhuo, raised his chin slightly, and revealed a little pride: "I said you can."

That smile was very handsome, and Tao Zhuo remembered it very clearly even later.

He also noticed that after Li Li had finished complimenting him, he glanced at his boyfriend, as if he was saying how, the child I brought out.

The boyfriend glanced fiercely with a smile, and gave a "you are awesome" look in cooperation.

This exchange was very short, just a look at each other, in Tao Zhuo's eyes, it was the unique language and tacit understanding between two close people.

Tao Zhuo could imagine how Lie would talk and laugh with his boyfriend every time he went home after teaching him, sharing his feelings about the class.

Not knowing how he described himself to his boyfriend, Tao Zhuo nervously wondered if he would treat his 47-point examination paper and the deliberately placed art books as jokes for his boyfriend to laugh with.

Thinking of this, Tao Zhuo, who at that time only cared about his face being bigger than the sky, felt like he was on his back, he quickly waved his hands to say goodbye to the two, and ran away.

That brief encounter was the last time Tao Zhuo and Lie saw each other in middle school.

When he got home that night, Tao Zhuo was lying on the ground bored. He remembered the kiss with his boyfriend again. He suddenly became interested and remembered Amway, who he forgot where he heard it from. Look at Brokeback Mountain.

"Lan Yu" made him a little sad, but he didn't understand "Brokeback Mountain" too much, and his attention was all attracted by the intimate scenes.

Tao Zhen yelled and played games next to him, and glanced at Tao Zhuo's screen from time to time, just in time to see the fierce kiss scene of two men in "Brokeback Mountain", and cursed "Damn".

"What are you watching?" He stretched his neck to watch the kissing scene before slapping Tao Zhuo on the head.

Tao Zhuo was inexplicably guilty, pretended to be stupid and said "Oh?", turned his head to Tao Zhen and opened his round eyes very honestly: "Brokeback Mountain, Qi Ya sent me, it's very hot."

Tao Zhen didn't take it seriously, he watched it for a while, and continued playing the game without waiting for the intimate scene.

When watching "Lan Yu", he and Tao Zhuo smirked and commented on the size of the male lead's naked scene, and then the two brothers got into a mess.

Perhaps because of Tao Zhen's interruption, Tao Zhuo didn't feel particularly subversive after watching the two films.Instead, I realized that no matter whether it is a man and a man, or a man and a woman, after the relationship reaches a certain peak, the same desire is produced.

It's just that the collision between men is more powerful in all aspects, whether it is spiritual or physical, there is another indescribable taste.

Tao Zhuo curled up in the computer chair, changed his posture uncomfortably, put the tip of his nose against the folded legs, stared at the screen and subconsciously bit his knees.

It's kinda... that or something.

One night not long after that, just before the military training in high school, Tao Zhuo had another dream in an ordinary sultry summer night.The content of the dream was completely forgotten after he opened his eyes, only the crotch was sticky.