Willingly ABO

The whole sophomore year was the happiest year of my life. In addition to the six months after the confession, when I fell in love with Qin Yuan and were really together, it seemed that I had exhausted all the blessings in my life.

Looking back in the future, during the most innocent and beautiful days of my youth, with my dedication without regrets and Qin Yuan's utmost pampering, we all tried our best to love each other and chose to take our troubles on ourselves.All the laughter and tears are just to make each other relaxed and happy, to make each other's world more pure.

However, because we all think this way, we ignore the crucial point-communication.After all, life is not only about happiness, but also learning to share pain with each other.

We didn't do it.

So we started to go sideways.

After entering the junior year, the relationship between Qin Yuan and I gradually became problematic.He was a year older than me, a senior, and busier than ever.He wants to go out for an internship, discuss a thesis with his supervisor, find a job while working part-time, and even plans to start a business with like-minded classmates.

What was even more exaggerated was that for nearly two weeks, Qin Yuan was almost out of touch. Occasionally I called him, but he would always hang up after saying a few words in a hurry.

I often suspect that he has 24 hours in a day, or that he has super powers such as avatar technique, otherwise how could he be able to accomplish so many things in one day?

But I was disappointed and thought, no, because he didn't have it, he would race desperately against time, so he couldn't spare even a little bit of time for me.

I haven't seen Qin Yuan for a long time, and I think about him like crazy every day.As an omega, even if he only gave me a temporary mark, I still need his comfort very much.But seeing that he is so busy every day, I am too embarrassed to cling to him and act like a baby with him like before.

This kind of life that seems to be two parallel lines makes me very painful. I didn't know much about Qin Yuan's studies before, even his circle and his friends didn't know anything, and now I can't help him share the pressure.

It turns out that I am such a useless person. The gap between me and him is too great. He is so outstanding, standing in a place that many people can't touch. One day, he will leave me too.Otherwise, why wouldn't he tell me about the details of his study and work, and share his recent daily life with me?

He is my alpha, how could he not know how much I long for his pheromones, how much I need enough security?

In my spare time, I still wander around with my camera in my arms, and sometimes I buy a train ticket specially, and take a short-term travel photo on weekends or in my spare time, so as to reap a short-term happiness.

During these days, I started to try to shoot different things and learn to understand this circle more deeply.Photography has gradually changed from a tool to help Qin Yuan to a hobby of mine, because being immersed in the world of the lens can temporarily make me miss Qin Yuan so much.

Such days continued until the turn of spring and summer of the next year, when Qin Yuan was about to graduate.

At the beginning of May, I inquired about the time when Qin Yuan and his college would take graduation photos, and volunteered to be a photographer for Qin Yuan to follow him for a day, and record this beautiful moment for him.

However, Qin Yuan rejected me.

"No need, I have something to do to take part in the group graduation photo shoot, I'll make it up when I have a chance." The other end of the phone was very noisy, and Qin Yuan's tone didn't sound very good, as if he was worried about something.

"... Oh." I answered him disappointedly, and then I didn't know what to say.We haven't chatted for a long time, and now we have nothing to talk about, and we have lost the topic.

I was silent for a while, and it was Qin Yuan who spoke again: "Is there anything else, baby, it's nothing, I'll hang up, I'm busy."

I panicked and stopped him: "Don't hang up! I'm going to the South in the middle and late this month. I've already asked for leave from my counselor. I'm going to take pictures of the annular solar eclipse with a group of astronomy enthusiasts. I'm going to go for about a week. I think it's still worth it. Let me talk to you."

In the past, Qin Yuan would definitely ask me a lot of questions, such as where to go, how many people go, whether there is an alpha, etc., and also told me a lot of precautions.

However, at this time, he just said casually: "Okay, I understand, pay attention to safety on the road, eat and rest well."

I was speechless and extremely depressed, so I directly grabbed his phone and started a unilateral cold war.

He made me flustered and at a loss, his indifferent attitude seemed to be back to those years in high school.I know he's doing this because he's busy with study and work, but it's because of this that I can't bother him, and I can only swallow how many grievances I have.

With such a bad and depressed mood, dragging my already unhealthy body, I headed for the South in May.

Under the blessing of multiple factors such as acclimatization, endocrine disorders, etc., on the first day of living in the guest house, my estrus period was advanced.

I took the medicine tremblingly, lay on the bed and couldn't help trembling, suddenly remembered something, and scrambled to the side of the suitcase, rummaged around, and finally found a coat of Qin Yuan, wrapped it tightly .

This jacket was originally intended to be worn when getting up in the morning and waiting for pictures, but I didn't expect it to be used for another purpose.

I laughed bitterly at myself, and staggered back to the bed.However, the estrus period came fiercely, and even taking medicine was of no use. The estrus surged one after another, as if dragging me into a huge vortex.I hugged Qin Yuan's coat and sniffed it, but I found that we hadn't seen each other for a long time, and the pheromone left on this coat was very little, not enough at all.

I gritted my teeth and wept silently. When the last wave of emotion/tide came, my eyes blurred and I almost passed out.Before losing consciousness, I yelled out in great pain with a crying voice: "—Qin Yuan!"

This is the first time I discovered that the word "Qin Yuan" can cause me such pain.

Fortunately, a female omega with me found me and sent me to the hospital in time.When I woke up, I looked at the pale walls of the hospital, feeling empty, helpless and desperate.

"The patient on the side bed is Cigan?"

A nurse opened the door and walked in. I only understood my name and turned my head slightly to signal.

"...It's me, sorry I can't understand the vernacular."

The nurse came to my bedside to change the dressing:

"Xingan, do you have an old disease, right? The estrus/estrus period is irregular, and the pheromone is not stable. If you come later, the situation will not be optimistic. Do you go to the hospital for regular checkups?"

"Yes, but I don't have any problems every time I recheck, and I have a regular partner, he is a high-quality alpha, who can reconcile my pheromones, and my estrus/estrous period has not been irregular for a long time..."

I paused, lowered my eyes and said in a low voice:

"We don't have much time to see each other recently. I guess the temporary mark he gave me has expired."

The female omega who sent me to the hospital shook her head: "It's true of you, the residual alpha pheromone is so weak, and your health is not good, and you still come with us so far away. Your partner is big enough , I'm really relieved of you."

I smiled wryly and didn't speak.

The nurse lowered her head to take notes, and glanced at my identity information: "Born in April? That's exactly one month after I turned 21. There is a dose of omega that cannot be prescribed for those who are under 20 years old. I will prescribe one for you, and your symptoms will be relieved." Some."

When I heard this, my face suddenly changed, and I froze in place.

The nurse probably noticed my strangeness, and looked up at me suspiciously: "This patient?"

I came back to my senses and smiled at her: "I'm fine, I just suddenly remembered something very important."

I didn't react much on the surface, but my heart hurt like a knife.Yes, that important event is my birthday.It's been more than a month since my birthday, not only did I not remember it myself, even Qin Yuan also forgot, without saying a word of blessing.

What was I doing that day?Maybe my parents, friends and classmates blessed me, but I can't remember it at all.At that time, my mind was full of Qin Yuan, because I missed him so much. I thought about what he was busy with every day, how his work was progressing, did he have a good rest, and did he miss me too?

Visible no.The lover I miss so much, even forgot my birthday.

I stayed there for an unknown amount of time, and finally called out to the female omega who took me to the hospital, borrowed her mobile phone, and dialed the number that I had memorized fluently.

"Hello."

Qin Yuan's weary voice came from the opposite side.

I clenched my fists and tried to control my trembling tone: "Qin Yuan."

There was a pause on the other end of the phone: "... Xin Gan?"

Qin Yuan was a little surprised, but he didn't express too much: "Don't go to bed so late? Go to bed early, I have something else to do, so hang up first—"

"Wait a minute!" I yelled anxiously, and everyone in the ward cast their eyes on me.I ignored it, just suppressed my crying, and asked loudly: "Why don't you ask me why I'm still awake? Where are you now? Did something happen to me? Why did you use someone else's cell phone?"

"Do you really still care about me?"

Tears ran across the corner of my mouth silently, I held the phone and murmured:

"Qin Yuan, I don't think the two of us are suitable, so let's break up and be friends again."

"... Xin Gan?" Qin Yuan called out in doubt, but his reaction was flat, as if he didn't believe that I would say such a thing.He sighed, and said impatiently in a hoarse voice: "What is this? Breakup script? Alright baby, I really worked hard today, and I'm still discussing the defense. I don't have time to play role-playing with you. I'll meet you another day." How about playing, huh?"

I didn't reply to him, I lowered my hands weakly and pressed the hang up button.

The female omega who sent me to the hospital stood awkwardly by the bed, trying to reach out for her mobile phone: "Have you had a fight with your boyfriend? You are still young, what can I do—"

"Okay, Qin Yuan! Your uncle is amazing! I fell in love with you only when I was blind! It's my luck for eight lifetimes! Get out!"

My heart was completely chilled, I wiped my face indiscriminately, roared angrily before the other party finished speaking, and threw the phone on the bed vigorously.

Fortunately, other people's mobile phones are fine, otherwise it would be miserable to lose money just after breaking up with a relationship, it's a sad duet.

Qin Yuan is too annoying.My eyes were sore, and tears fell down again.

The author says:

There were ups and downs, and the abuse began again.Please take a leave of absence. I have something to do tomorrow, sorry.