Willingly ABO

Zhuang Qin and I sat in the snack bar and chatted a lot about photography. He has been praising me for hours. Where did I get the stock? Anyway, it bragged me so much that I almost lost my mind.

He had a meal with me, not only invited me, but also settled the rice rolls and siu mai that I ordered earlier.

I said, "How embarrassing this is", while eating two large plates of steamed pork ribs, he was stunned.

I looked like I ate a lot, so I put down my chopsticks a little embarrassedly, and explained: "Uh, senior, you know that I am an omega, and there are always a few days after the cycle that I need to eat more to replenish energy..."

Zhuang Qin nodded embarrassingly: "I understand, hehe..." He took a sip of tea, changed the topic, and asked, "By the way, I want to ask if you are interested in participating in the National College Student Photography Contest with our school magazine? The bonus is very generous, and it should be easy for you to win the prize based on your strength. Didn’t you take the photo for someone else, and that person is short of money? Isn’t it just right for you?”

I thought to myself, is Qin Yuan short of money?In fact, there is no shortage of him. Although our two families are not well-to-do, they are only at an average level, but we are certainly not short of money. Besides, Qin Yuan has been working part-time since he entered university, and has saved a lot of money. Quite full, how will not be short of money.

But this can only be considered under normal circumstances. If the two of us follow the rules and find a stable job after graduating from college and live a nine-to-five life, the financial reserves of both parties must be sufficient. It will be no problem for us to have children after graduating from college.

But Qin Yuan obviously didn't want to go this way.

He wants to break through, he wants to fight, he wants to jump out of the comfort zone and go to a wider world.

He was running at full speed, but I was almost out of reach.

I have done so much for him, why in the end, I still stand behind him, looking at his back helplessly?

I shook my head weakly, and rejected Zhuang Qin: "Forget it, people don't need me anymore, and I probably won't take pictures anymore."

Zhuang Qin was silent for a while, then suddenly said:

"Xin Gan, I don't know who is worthy of your sacrifice, but you have to think about it, do you really only do it because of the other person? In your heart, don't you think about it during the shooting? Does it generate some interest?"

My heart skipped a beat, and I stared at Zhuang Qin in a daze.

He really hit the nail on the head, yeah, how could I not be interested in it?I took photos one after another for several years, saw so many exhibitions, traveled to so many places, and many things that I tried to do "for the sake of Qin Yuan" gradually became my life experiences. The beauty of it has also become an unforgettable memory in my own life.

Before I knew it, I had found my hobbies.

Seeing that I seemed to be wavering, Zhuang Qin struck while the iron was hot, and continued, "Xin Gan, you can't always do something just for... for a certain person. You are an independent individual, and you also have to have your own. You should have your own future, and now you are only a small step away from letting more people see you, and even standing on a higher place, why are you unwilling to try? I believe you are doing it for That person will definitely support you."

can you?Every time I hesitated before, I went to Qin Yuan. Although he said "I respect your idea" and "I support your decision", he would always prefer the solution he thought was better, intentionally or unintentionally. exert pressure.Those decisions are usually about him, but this time, I really had to make it for myself.

I looked at Zhuang Qin, sighed helplessly, and chuckled:

"Senior Zhuang, you are really an excellent lobbyist, and you will surely become a great success in the future."

Zhuang Qin stretched out his hand and shook it with me:

"Welcome to join our team. Let's work hard together. In the finals at this time next year, I hope we can win honor for the school together."

Two days later, I boarded the train back to Beijing.

Zhuang Qin's school magazine and the school's photography department gathered in the hard sleeper to discuss cooperation in participating in the National College Student Photography Competition. As a temporary non-staff member, I sat on the upper bunk and listened to their lively chat.

Although I was invited to join midway, they didn't treat me coldly, but they were very enthusiastic.Some people joked that I didn't know what to focus on in the first two years of college, and I couldn't be invited no matter how much I was invited, and I missed a lot of good things.

I smiled and said nothing, turned over and lay on the bed, staring at the air-conditioning outlet above my head in a daze with my eyes open.

I remembered going to Chongqing with Qin Yuan during the winter vacation last year. We were reluctant to take the plane and slept on a hard sleeper for a whole day.

There are six people in a hard sleeper room, and it is inconvenient to do anything. We are in a passionate love period, and we are tired of going back and forth all day long, and we are inseparable.When getting on the train, Qin Yuan dragged the suitcase with one hand and pulled me with the other, and walked with me in his arms. When he reached the door of the room, he politely asked the uncles in the same room if he could change beds with us and let us sleep for two. a top bunk.I nestled in Qin Yuan's arms and blinked, my eyes full of longing.

The uncles saw that we were a young couple and didn't make things difficult for us, so they changed them.

The two of us packed our luggage, took a bed each, and leaned against the carriage, facing each other.

I looked at Qin Yuan with silly joy, and Qin Yuan also looked at me and asked, "What are you happy about?"

I didn't reply to his words, I was happy, excited, and felt that I loved him very much.I smiled shyly, stretched my legs to the opposite side, reached for his thighs with the soles of my feet, and rubbed them back and forth.

Qin Yuan grabbed my foot, squeezed it lightly, and smiled, "Silly treasure."

How wonderful it was at that time, every day was only happy.

But if it wasn't for the cold war with Qin Yuan, I would never have discovered many of my problems.I rely too much on him and care about him. This is the disadvantage of years of secret love.I love very hard, I spend all my thoughts on him, I care about his every move when I have a crush on him, and I am affected by him even the slightest emotion after falling in love.

The consequence of this is that my social circle has become very small.I accompany him to the cafeteria when he eats, I accompany him to the library when he studies by himself, and I stay in the dormitory for a day when he works part-time on weekends.My social activities are pitiful, and I go out with my camera to gather scenery by myself.

I was really too immersed in the world of "Qin Yuan and I", as if it had been like this since I was a child, he was my center, and I revolved around him to my heart's content.

Over time, I even forgot that there should be a lot of complicated communication in the world of adults. I can't be all eyes on him and forget what I should do.

And Qin Yuan is obviously different from me. He has very clear goals for the future, and he plans every step of the way seamlessly.

The cold wind from the air conditioner was blowing on my body, and I suddenly had goose bumps all over my body, and a trace of fear surged in my heart, and the noisy chatter in the car could not be heard.

Is there really me in his plan for the future?

If there is me, why don't you share with me, don't let me share the burden, but make yourself so tired that we don't even have the opportunity to communicate.

Or does he feel that he doesn't need to do anything, he doesn't need to coax me, and I will love him forever?

"Tell you to snub me! Brat! There's no way—"

The more I thought about it, the angrier I became, I couldn't hold it back, and slammed the bed violently.

The chatter on the lower berth stopped abruptly: "Uh... Xin Gan? What happened?"

I lay on the head of the bed in embarrassment, and looked down: "Uh, it's okay, I'm reading an e-book, that male lead is too bad, you guys go ahead, call me if you need anything."

Can't think of Qin Yuan anymore!

As soon as I gritted my teeth, I simply found a novel to read.

Qin Yuan called me several times along the way, but I didn't answer any of them. I don't think I can go on like this anymore. I have to let him know how serious it will be for me. It's not the boy who secretly fell in love with him back then!

Later, Qin Yuan sent me another text message, I glanced at it casually, and it said:

"Baby, are you busy? Why don't you answer my phone? Please give me a reply when you see the message, or I will call the police."

Qin Yuan always kept what he said, and I was afraid that he would really go to the police station to report missing/missing, so I quickly sent him a text message: "I'm busy, I'm not free, I'll call you back when I'm free." He stopped.

The next day when the train arrived at the station and I was dragging my suitcase and walking towards the exit, Zhuang Qin chased after me and walked side by side with me: "Xin Gan, are you going back to school? If we take the train, let's go together. I'll pay the fare."

I shook my head and rejected him embarrassingly: "Sorry senior, you can find someone else, I have to go home to see my dad first."

Zhuang Qin didn't mind: "You are a local, it's good, you can go home during the holidays, you are very happy."

I scratched my head: "Hey, it's okay. I'm mainly used to staying with my dad, and I don't want to go out, and my dad doesn't want me to go to school far away. My relative's child is admitted to Hainan to go to school, and I go home every year. The air tickets for Chinese New Year were ridiculously expensive, but it scared me to death, it’s better to stay where I am.”

Zhuang Qin listened to me talking all the way, when he got to the exit, he suddenly stopped and chuckled twice: "Xin Gan, you are more interesting than your photographs, you are really cute."

This compliment caught me off guard, I tilted my head for no reason, and replied to him: "Uh, thank you...?"

Zhuang Qin lowered his head, hesitating, looking like he was going to say something, he hesitated after a while: "Well, you...you have alpha..."

"Singer."

Suddenly a familiar voice came from behind.

I didn't hear him finish, I subconsciously turned my head away, my eyes widened.God knows how wronged I am, this is the real voice I've been thinking about day and night, not the electronic voice from the phone.

Qin Yuan stood three or four meters away from me. Seeing me turn my head, he immediately stepped forward, took the suitcase in my hand, and nodded to Zhuang Qin: "Hello."

Zhuang Qin was taken aback for a moment, but quickly realized that he stretched out his hand excitedly: "Hello! You are the former director of the External Relations Department of the School of Economics and Management, Qin Yuan! You have heard your name for a long time!"

The author says:

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