aftershock

Jiang Yuan was having messy dreams.

I dreamed that my hair was about to fall out, and occasionally there was a piece of black hair hidden in the sparse white scalp, and the unattractive gray parrot squatted on his shoulder and couldn't be chased away, babbling and pecking at the same time. His scalp, he was going to worry to death.

"Jiangyuan, Jiangyuan" Jiangyuan dreamed that he fell into the water, and someone called him from far away, but his chest was terribly constricted, and it hurt to inhale. He opened his eyes in the water, red and very cold.He saw Gu Lu walking up and down the edge of the pool, as if looking for him, he waved at him from the bottom of the water, but he couldn't see, so Jiang Yuan called out "Xiaohai, Xiaohai." Then he swallowed a lot of water, It was all bloody, and soon he couldn't breathe anything.

He was very cold and in pain.do not know why.

I can't tell where it hurts, it seems that I suddenly saw Lin Wang, Lin Wang looked at him in panic, Jiang Yuan couldn't see clearly, and couldn't hear what Lin Wang said, all the sounds he could hear were noisy, like the tide , suddenly far and near, and then at a certain moment, I finally couldn't hear anything.

What Lin Wang was still saying, he couldn't hear either.

Hands are hot and itchy.

His heart was beating very fast, very fast, as if he had been beaten with chicken blood. He opened his eyes and couldn't see the moment in front of him clearly. He subconsciously wanted to shake his head, but he couldn't shake it. He could only open his eyes, close them, and open them again.He felt someone pinching his hand with great force, Jiang Yuan frowned and squinted and looked over, it seemed to be Xiao Hai.

Is it Xiaohai?

His face was covered with a hood, and he breathed a little harder, and there was a thick layer of white mist on it, which was already very strenuous, but wearing the hood made him even more strenuous.

Jiang Yuan would wake up, but Gu Lv didn't expect it. The moment he opened his eyes, Gu Lv wanted to withdraw his hand, but instead of obeying his brain's command, he clenched his hand even tighter.

Every time Jiang Yuan blinked slowly, Gu Lv felt that he would not open it again next time, just like his very weak desire to survive, as light as the mist on the oxygen mask, and he would say no between breaths and breaths. without.

Jiang Yuan couldn't speak, he was awake for a short time, he looked very tired, his eyes were still very round, like a furry mammal, very innocent and cute, but Gu Lv knew that he was very ruthless and a bad guy.

The villain said that they have no fate. This sentence is one of the most annoying words he has lived for nearly 30 years.

He just looked at Jiang Yuan without moving for a long time, Jiang Yuan blinked and worked harder and harder.

Gu Lu didn't let go of his hand, and even smiled at him, looking a little cold

He said quietly, "This time you wake up and see me, will you wake up next time you fall asleep?"

"..."

Jiang Yuan's eyes moved, and Gu Lv knew that his clever little head was not moving quickly, so he obviously didn't want him to answer.He bent down and touched Jiang Yuan's round eyes, even though Gu Lu's lips were so dry that they cracked, he could still feel the trembling eyelashes.

"You don't want to wake up, do you? You just want to come back and see me. After seeing me, you can leave, right?"

"..."

"Jiang Yuan? Is that so?"

"..."

"Anyway... we don't have a relationship... do we?"

Jiang Yuan didn't seem to know what he was talking about, he was always confused and bewildered, maybe he wanted to express something, but when he moved, the pain all over his body could only fix him firmly on the bed, increase his breathing, and let the pressure on his hood The white gas is thicker.

He watched Gu Lv smile softly at him, lifted his hand to his lips and kissed it.His eye sockets were red, and when he lowered his head, tears fell from his eye sockets and fell on Jiang Yuan's hand, but he still smiled and pressed his hand on the back of Jiang Yuan's hand for a long time.

Jiang Yuan was surprised, but Gu Lv suddenly looked up at his monitor, "Your heart is beating so fast, it's fine." He paused, took out something from the other hand, Jiang Yuan opened his eyes slightly, breathing more and more heavier

"Jiang Yuan, they say that if someone close to you talks to you, you will wake up faster. I believe it. I told them to stay away and not to disturb us, so I have... a long, long... time."

"..."

There was blood on Gu Lu's hand, but not on the one he was holding Jiang Yuan's hand. He admired Jiang Yuan's heartbeat on the monitor, just like admiring the beautiful starry sky.

"It jumps so fast... for me, right? Keep jumping for me.. can you..."

Jiang Yuan was struggling on the pillow, but he couldn't tell whether he was shaking his head or nodding.

Gu Lu smiled at him again, really smiling, very gentle, "It's okay if you can't, jumping is the fate of jumping, and if you don't jump, then you have the fate of not jumping."

He didn't wear the watch he used to on his left wrist. From the center of the wrist to the forearm, he could no longer see any skin color. It was a knife so deep that the bottom line of the wound could not be seen. It cut open his arm like a piece of cloth. .

Jiang Yuan was trembling all over, water was pouring out of his eyes one after another, he struggled, but Gu Lv fixed his body.He said, "You just had surgery and it's going to hurt."

Blood, blood is everywhere, where he fixed Jiang Yuan, he didn't care about the blood flowing all over Jiang Yuan's body, he calmly told Jiang Yuan, "Don't worry, it doesn't hurt, you understand, don't you?"

"Can't speak? Fate, I'm always so angry with you that I can't speak."

"..."

"Why don't you believe me, I'm not worth it Jiang Yuan?"

Jiang Yuan didn't dare to move at all, if he moved, he struggled, the hand fixed on him would be harder, and more blood would flow out, covering the entire quilt, Gu Lv didn't seem to know the pain at all, Jiang Yuan didn't know how much blood he was bleeding, and Jiang Yuan didn't know how much it hurt. He didn't even have the strength to grit his teeth. Beside his neck, he was still leaning on the line on the monitor, his voice was low and gentle.

"I locked the door when I came in, Jiang Yuan."

"I also bought watermelon."

"I told you that day, I love you. I'll tell you again today, I love you very much, very much."

"If you really want to leave, don't wake up next time, I will understand, don't be afraid, it's okay, I never told you, in fact, I don't think it's good to be alive, Jiang He makes me too tired."

When Gu Lu said this, he suddenly laughed softly. He still didn't let Jiang Yuan see his face. He just looked at the screen. He didn't know whether it was the slight trembling during his speech or Jiang Yuan was shaking, and the bright red blood dripped along the quilt. into Jiang Yuan's neck.

"Also, although I don't want you to eat watermelon when it's cold, I actually regret it. It would be nice if I let you take a small bite that day..."

"Then...you will just...wait for me"

"Gu... Gu Lv.."

"Jiang Yuan, don't talk, don't talk, I don't want to hear it."

"It's always been.. Whatever you say is what you say.. Why do you leave as soon as you say... If you don't have a relationship, you don't have a relationship...I let you say everything...Don't say it."

"That's it, and don't forgive me. Some time ago... I chose the place in my hometown... It's just a monument, so... you'd better wait for me to come together, oh, I tell you... I ate Anticoagulation, you don't have to worry."

"Gu... woo..."

Jiang Yuan was in pain all over his body, his whole body was shaking, his eyes were red from crying, and his head was covered with sweat, but Gu Lv put his hands under his face, trying to torture Jiang Yuan and not let him move a little bit.

"Small... small sea..."

"You are sick...I know...but I have always...didn't just want to cure you, I want to tell you...it doesn't matter if you can't be cured, it doesn't have to cure you, I can experience you The pain I have experienced, go to have the same disease as you."

"Don't be afraid, don't worry. You don't have to wait for me for another ten years, a day, an hour, a minute or a second"

"I will definitely watch you"

He almost gritted his teeth and cut his lips deeply, "I will."

"Gu Law..."

Jiang Yuan bit his lip and whimpered in dismay. He had no one to call for help, and no matter how much he shouted, he couldn't make much noise. Even if Gu Lv didn't let him move, his body was already exhausted. Even if he rang the bell, He couldn't lift it up in his hands, but watching the blood flow down, he was already in such pain that his whole body was about to be split by the wound, and his brain throbbed like being stirred by an electric drill, but he sucked it in. Every breath is cold and sufficient. He insisted on a ray of clarity from the splitting headache that he couldn't think about. He didn't dare to connive himself to faint, but no matter how hard he exerted, he held Gu Lv's hand Still soft.

Gu Lv was comforting him all the time, Jiang Yuan tried his best to open his eyes wide, watching Gu Lv turned his head and put his forehead against him and whispered in his ear, he was muttering something, laughing softly, Jiang Yuan couldn't hear it at all, like After receiving the continuous high-frequency hertz, only long-term tinnitus remained in his ears. He looked at Gu Lv's tired face and pale lips, and struggled with his trembling hands, trying to reach the infusion bell beside the bed. Pressing it without blinking, he rubbed Jiang Yuan's face and kissed him a few more times.

Jiang Yuan stared blankly at the gradually spreading red, and murmured, "I was wrong...I was wrong..."

"I won't do this again..."

Gu Lu couldn't hide his heartache, he twitched the corners of his lips, leaning against Jiang Yuan and still maintained a steady voice, "What's wrong with you."

Jiang Yuan's trembling fingertips still wanted to get the ring bell, but Gu Lv was a gentle devil, even if Jiang Yuan's delirious begging for mercy was forced out, he wanted him to stamp his name on purpose to complete the calculation.

"I...shouldn't...shouldn't..." He was terrified, he should be in pain everywhere, tears started rolling down from the corner of his eyes like beads, Gu Lv could feel it, he kept kissing him, Say it for him like a pervert, "Shouldn't have left me, shouldn't have left me alone, should I?"

"Yes..."

"What else? Jiang Yuan, what else?"

Jiang Yuan's chest rose and fell rapidly, and he felt pain everywhere in his body. He gritted his teeth and said, "I want to believe..."

"Well, trust me, trust me what?"

Jiang Yuan didn't move as if he was hypnotized. Gu Lv put the ring bell where his fingers could touch it, and his eyes followed. "Trust you..you love me.."

Gu Lu gave a soft "hmm" through his nasal cavity, "There are more."

But Jiang Yuan couldn't speak anymore, he looked so pitiful, he was shaking badly, terrified and frightened, his eyes seemed to have no time to look at Gu Lv or the blood flowing from him, but he was at a loss I begged Gu Lv to turn his eyes away, and put the bell in his hand, "Press it, and you will survive. If you don't, then you have to believe that I don't either."

He stared at Jiang Yuan, gentle and cruel, "You'd better remember."

The bell was finally allowed to ring, but none of them could hear it. Jiang Yin kept pressing it in horror. Gu Lv wrapped his hands around him and said patiently, "I'm fine, and I don't hurt."

Jiang Yuan tried his best to move his head slightly, and he could see a few figures outside slapping the window, banging against the door, he opened his mouth to take a breath, his chest heaved up and down for a while, and finally exhausted, he passed out.

Lin Wang slipped in from the rush of nurses, and didn't kick the door open. Someone was looking for the key, but the door opened from the inside. Gu Lv held the door with one hand and smiled at him when he saw him. Lin Wang laughed all over at once, Gu Lv was squeezed away by the nurse, Lin Wang looked at him angrily, his mind went blank, and was about to pick up his collar, only to find that Gu Lv even had blood on his lapel.

Gu Lu tilted his head back, said what he wanted to curse for Lin Wang, and sighed, "I must be crazy."

He was very tall, stretched himself for days, regardless of eating and drinking, couldn't help but slipped backwards due to dizziness, Lin Wang couldn't hold him back, but luckily Uncle Xu was there to support him.All the nurses and doctors flocked to Jiang Yuan's side for a while, fearing that this fragile patient would have some problems if he didn't pay attention, but Gu Lv leaned on the door half limply as if he had drunk too much, and let Uncle Xu support him, facing him. He didn't have any intention to explain Lin Wang's eyes that were about to burst into flames. Uncle Xu touched his back and found that he was sweating all over. He hurriedly said to Lin Wang, "Look at him!"

Lin Wang raised his eyelids, and just after he finished saying "I can't die" in a deep voice, Gu Lv slid down the door, unable to hold on, and there was another burst of confusion.