aftershock

The door was shut with a bang, blown by the wind.

Liang Ji didn't want Jiang Yuan to send him off, and Jiang Yuan's hand was pushed away when he tried to pull him. He was very sad, but seeing Gu Lv slowly lying flat on the ground, he was even more sad.

Difficult to breathe hard.

He knew what happened this time, and Liang Jiyin couldn't bear to say that there would always be a settlement after the fall, but he didn't know that this small party was so tragic.

"It's cold on the ground, get up quickly."

Gu Lu shook his head, drank too much wine, he thought his words were loud, but to Jiang Yuan's ears, it sounded like a begging.

He was flattering Jiang Yuan gently, one sound after another.

The content is only three words, using thousands of emotions, and mobilized 36 muscles on the face.

"...I'm sorry, I'm sorry... Gangwon.. I'm sorry"

The eyes he looked at Jiang Yuan were extremely blurred, and he couldn't figure it out. He could only apologize over and over again, "..I'm sorry..I'm really sorry..."

Jiang Yuan sat beside him stiffly, breathing hard with his mouth open, trying hard like a dehydrated goldfish.

His dream came true and he finally became a goldfish with a memory that can be forgotten at any time, but it turns out that goldfish also suffers.

Even if it is only seven seconds, it will be painful.

Grinding his teeth against his lips, he whispered "...I will forget."

will forget.

No matter what he said or did, he will forget it.

Everyone told Gu Lv that Jiang Yuan's disease is very complicated, maybe he won't get better, maybe he will lose more memory, maybe he will become unable to take care of himself in the future.

Whenever Gu Lu heard this, he would think of Xu Mu's comforting words, saying that this is not necessarily a bad thing, and being forgotten can be filled.

But can it really be filled, will it be possible in time, will the memory filled in be faster than forgotten.

will be forgotten.

Only when he was the only one left in the dead of night, did Gu Lv dare to admit that Jiang Yuan's forgetfulness made him feel miserable.

He knows that this kind of causal relationship is called retribution.

Retribution for his forgetting of Jiang Yuan and Jiang Yuan's waiting for him.

He understands that Jiang Yuan has loved him so much for so many years, everything he ignored and forgotten, the indifference and cruel treatment, and all the harm caused to Jiang Yuan, all need to be paid back.

But he can't even have the chance to pay it back.

Liang Ji took him away without saying a word back then, and it lasted ten years since he left without giving him any chance to get close. He always wanted Jiang Yuan to leave him, but now he brought Jiang Yuan's own uncle here, Gu Ritsu's nerves were already extremely fragile, and he couldn't hold on anymore.

What is dignity, he doesn't want it, he doesn't want anything, he never wants it.

"Shall we go back to China?" The car was halfway through when Liang Ji drunkenly grabbed Gu Zhengzhong's arm.

"Don't make trouble." Gu Zhengzhong freed his hand from the steering wheel and slowed down the car. "Why drink so much, the threat is not as threatening as you."

"Leave tomorrow, no, book me a plane ticket immediately"

Xu Mu laughed in the back seat, "What time is it, I can't book Mr. Liang"

"Then leave early tomorrow morning, immediately, I don't want to see your unlucky nephew again."

"Okay, what about your unlucky company?"

"Tell Gu Lu to go to work for me tomorrow, and take your nephew away immediately if you don't go to work."

"Tsk..."

"Doctor Xu, I'm sorry to show you a joke again." Gu Zhengzhong wanted to cover Liang Ji's mouth. He didn't forget that Jiang Yuan's biological uncle was sitting in the back. He smiled apologetically at the rearview mirror. Xu Mu sighed and took up the conversation.

"is not that right."

Not only in Liang Ji's eyes, Gu Lu was such a cold and cold person, when Gu Xu passed away, Gu Haiyin did not shed a single tear, and Xu Mu had never seen Gu Haiyin's sadness.

At their age, standing here is at least the seniority of uncles. Xu Mu seemed to understand Gu Lv's collapse suddenly.Xu Mu raised his hand and pressed his temple, "Actually, I came back this time...just to see...to pay homage to an old friend, did Xiaohai misunderstand me?"

When he saw that his little nephew, who was troubled by disasters, had only one person in his eyes, he felt very familiar with his fixed eyes. Jiang Yuan was already 30 years old, and he was not suitable to be treated as a child by someone rubbing his hair, especially when he was protecting Gu Lv. The appearance made Xu Mu very glad that he didn't know that it was his own uncle standing in front of him. After all, he was so worried and guarded and cast blame on Liang Ji. Even if he was a wild one, Xu Mu felt very uncomfortable for Liang Ji. Bundle.

"Ignore him, let him misunderstand. The little thing is so bad, he won't tell your silly nephew who you are"

"Liang Ji!"

Xu Mu also laughed out loud, "Liang Ji, did you already know about Old Xu?"

"So what if I know, I don't know what he is doing in China."

"Then Old Xu..."

"I said, shouldn't you call someone brother-in-law?"

Xu Mu touched the tip of his nose, smiled and said nothing.

They promised Gu Zhengzhong that they would go to Gu's family to celebrate the New Year this year.

Gu Yi called early and invited Jiang Yuan on the phone. Seeing that he was fast asleep, Gu Lv agreed for him.

Xu Mu left a day later than them. He went to visit the grave and said he wanted to go alone. Gu Lv had no objection. He came to see Jiang Yuan the afternoon before he left, but Gu Lv was there.

Xu Mu took the initiative to say that Jiang Yuan didn't need to know their real relationship, but Gu Lv knew that as long as he paid attention, he could find clues of blood relationship from his eyes and tone.

"Don't worry too much. As long as you maintain your current state of mind and don't have too drastic emotional changes, your condition won't get worse. I will also find a way to find a better treatment plan."

Gu Lu nodded casually, "It's fine now."

"Maybe, it would be happier if you can't remember some things, but there are still potential safety hazards. After all, no one can follow him and take care of him 24 hours a day. This is too difficult for him. His amnesiac memories are painful. It's him, and the people around him." Xu Mu sighed helplessly, "Xiao Hai, no matter how affectionate a person is, he will become impatient under the paralysis of time. When you feel that all this is meaningless one day... , what should Jiang Yuan do?"

Gu Lv looked downstairs and watched TV and saw Jiang Yuan who was dozing off, and said in a low voice, "My birth was a meaningless thing, most of the time after that was only related to one person, and the only thing that is meaningless is time, How could it be him."

Jiang Yuan can forget everything very quickly. Gradually, Jiang Yuan got used to it, at least it doesn't look so entangled on the surface.However, Gu Lv, who always comforted himself that he was also very good, found it difficult to accept it all at once.

Sometimes when Jiang Yuan wakes up, he can even calmly discuss with Gu Lv how to tattoo the scar on his hand to cover it up, as if this matter has really passed away in his heart.

But Gu Lu couldn't make it through, he didn't even dare to mention the butterfly in front of Jiang Yuan.What made Gu Lv feel the most painful about that incident was not that each of them had a scar on their hands, but that they would always subconsciously drill into his arms in the dream of going back to Jiangyuan in the middle of the night. I know it's his wound that hurts.

Gu Lu also hurts, the meridians are always numb and painful, but he was treated in time, Lin Wang said that he would recover better, this sentence made Gu Lu reluctant to do rehabilitation for a long time, and suddenly he didn't think about it.

The driver Xiao Hu brought his aunt back to buy vegetables again, and Jiang Yuan secretly asked Gu Lu curiously, "Why does your driver send aunt to buy vegetables?"

Gu Lu sighed slightly in his heart, he had many secrets that he could no longer tell Jiang Yuan, or it would be meaningless to tell him.

Jiang Yuan didn't know this question, he had actually asked it four times in one morning.

He didn't know that he insisted on asking his aunt to go shopping by car, because he wanted to eat watermelon, and the aunt would buy watermelon for him. The watermelon was too heavy, and he didn't want his aunt to carry it back.

What's more, he didn't know that the auntie was actually the mother of the driver Xiaohu. The driver Xiaohu didn't study well in his early years, didn't go to a lot of school, and couldn't find a job. The auntie worried about him every day.

Everyone knows that neither Jiang He's boss, Gu Lv, nor Gu Haiyin, who has been indifferent since he was a teenager, would be too busy to meddle in the private affairs of a cooking aunt.

But Jiang Yuan didn't know.

He doesn't know how big a web Gu Lv has cast, and how many years he has been a spider on the web.

They have a classmate, surnamed Hu, named Hu Cheng, who was the squad leader of their alma mater back then, and is still in the school. They occasionally contact each other and only talk about the news of each classmate after they parted. It's just that Gu Lu hasn't heard Jiang Yuan's name for decades.

No one knew that Gu Lv's efforts to build a private school for the disabled next to his alma mater was not for Xu Xuan, but for Jiang He, for Gu Xu, and for Jiang Chonglu.

He established this school on the original site of Jiang Chonglu's welfare home. He thanked Mr. Jiang Chonglu for allowing him to meet Gu Xu there, and hoped that someone as lucky as him would encounter a miracle there.

So he took Jiang Yuan to school that day.

To meet the little ones who cannot speak, hear, or see.

Their world is so quiet, just like Gu Lu's world.

"Jiang Yuan, do you want to be a teacher?"

"What does being a teacher teach them?"

"Anything is fine. Most of them are abandoned by society and cannot survive in society. You can teach them what they lack."

"They have a lot of volunteer teachers, but... I can volunteer to teach children how to draw butterflies..."

"Butterfly?"

Jiang Yuan's expression froze, and after a moment of stiffness, he asked Gu Lu, "The butterfly you gave me... seems to be lost..."

"not lost"

"But last time I looked everywhere and couldn't find it"

"Did you find it? Where did you find it?"

"It's in the jar, the suitcase, and the drawer. I've looked for it, but I can't find it..."

Gu Lv lowered his eyes and spoke softly.

"Look for it next time, and you will definitely find it."

"Oh, where might that be?"

"In the jar." Gu Lv put his fingertips in his pants pocket and stroked the hard wings of the little butterfly, trying his best to suppress their take-off. "It must be in the jar."

"Ah."

Jiang Yuan raised the corners of his mouth and smiled, a child came over and looked at them curiously, with big eyes and double eyelids, he smiled at Jiang Yuan, showing two rows of neat and beautiful teeth.Jiang Yuan squatted down and asked him, "What's your name?"

The kid was babbling, gesticulating with both hands.

"He can't hear, and he can't speak."

Jiang Yuan stroked his smooth hair, and the kid also touched his hand very carefully. Seeing Jiang Yuan handing him the hand generously, he shook it happily and ran away excitedly.

As soon as he ran away, Jiang Yuan couldn't laugh anymore.

Gu Lu also stroked his hair decently. "You can teach them hope, how to be brave, how to be strong."

Jiang Yuan pursed his lips and touched his nose, "Aren't you hoping that a group of children and I will encourage and learn from each other?"

Gu Lv led him while walking and laughed.

"You are my little friend too."

"No, I'm obviously your disabled person"

He claimed to be disabled, but Gu Lu ignored him. Only children from the welfare school for the disabled would get together because no one took them home.The students of their alma mater have already had their winter vacation.

Standing at the junction of the two schools, Gu Lv took a deep breath.

Jiang Yuan laughed a little, laughing at Gu Lv's nervousness.

This time the guard didn't stop them, they were neatly dressed, they only needed a phone call, and someone would come to receive them, but Gu Lv refused.

Jiang Yuan is also not used to this kind of servile politeness, it really does not fit the temperament of a school.

"Xiao Hai, I actually came here once before."

"Is it"

"Well, I've seen your photo, on the wall of honor."

Gu Lv looked at Jiang Yuan seriously, "You remember quite a lot."

"I have selective amnesia, I don't remember what I don't want to remember"

"Very good, for the sake of your memory, I have a little surprise for you today."

"Aren't they usually small surprises?"

"That depends on what you think."

Gu Lu took a few steps forward, then stopped and waited for Jiang Yuan. There was an entire wall of honor in the corridor of the school without anyone. Jiang Yuan and Gu Lu held hands and stopped at the edge of the wall. Gu Lv's face is still upright, it has already turned slightly yellow and white, the person in the photo frowns slightly, as if impatient, but it is very beautiful, Jiang Yuan looked at it, but his smile faded, after this photo , they were separated.

Before his smile fell completely, Gu Lv twisted open the glass window. He took out his wallet very calmly, and found a two-inch photo from the interlayer. He didn't know when it was stuck on the back. He tore it lightly and pasted it, and a face that was newer and fresher than all the photos in the window was placed next to Gu Lu's photo.

Jiang Yuan went from slightly surprised to silently shocked.

After posting the photo, Gu Lu closed the window and stood there side by side with Jiang Yuan, "What do you think?"

He is waiting for that school, waiting for the day when Jiangyuan, who returns to China, will go to see the elementary school in Jianghe, will he meet the children there, will he think that his alma mater is next to him, and will he go there again? Take a walk under the tree rose.

Will you see the wall of fame, will you think of yourself?

All the relationships he used were so silent, so silent that no one knew.

Like he stole a photo of Gangwon in that school.

They didn't have any photos together, the only one was hidden in the outermost layer of Gu Lv's wallet for ten years, it was a photo of graduation students, and it still belonged to Gu Haiyin's Xiao Jiangyuan.

"We won't be separated again, Jiang Yuan."

Everywhere in Jiangyuan looks like some kind of round-haired mammal. It should not be very active. Its white fur is soft, quiet but gentle, and it is an animal that Gu Lu likes very much.

This little animal is not defenseless against everyone, and the preferential treatment for Gu Lvge is obvious, whether it suddenly wakes up in the middle of sleep and then falls asleep immediately after seeing him, or it will inadvertently lean on it wherever it stands. Gu Lv is the closest to him, those habitual eyes and subconscious movements will make Gu Lv want to touch him, even if he just grabs his hand or kisses him, it can fill all the tender emotions at once

"I kind of want to cry," Jiang Yuan said.

Gu Lu turned around and pressed Jiang Yuan into his arms with both arms, "I'm afraid you will forget why you cry soon, so you'd better cry longer."

"If I forget everything, you will be at a loss."

"Just don't forget me."

"I can actually remember a little more..."

"Tell me."

"I kind of love you."

"Well, do you remember who I love?"

"I."

"who are you."

"Your mental retardation should be."

Gu Lv laughed, and he hugged Jiang Yuan even tighter, the familiar banana smell became stronger little by little.Touched his nose, did not speak.