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The night is quiet...the sound of the wind...the sound of breathing accompanied by the ticking sound of the pointer moving, the moonlight shines from the window to the bedside, and the two people on the gray double bed are in a stalemate atmosphere.

How to describe Xiao Yihan's current feelings, not panic but nervous, not bored but troubled, but it is true that he wanted to steal a kiss with Chen Mo for a moment, if you want to ask him how he feels, it is probably that his heart beats faster, his breathing Hasty, and worst of all, he just...reacted.

Before he figured it out, he didn't want to admit that he had such a bad idea. He had never felt this way, and it had never happened to him in 20 years, but now it happened.

And the other party was a boy of the same gender as him.

He didn't have the feeling when he was dating Xia Ke before, but now it has appeared in Chen Mo. He doesn't reject the same sex, just like Meng Rui told him that Meng Miao's lovelorn was actually a boy, but this kind of thing He never thought that one day it would happen to him.

He doesn't know if he likes that special feeling for Chen Mo, even if he is very unwilling to admit this kind of speculation now, even if he feels it doesn't matter, what attitude will Chen Mo have.

In the past 20 years, from elementary school to high school, he has never been entangled in such matters as feelings, but today he is entangled.

Xia Ke said that he doesn't understand feelings and what love is, but what's going on with this special feeling now.

He has never been afraid of anything since he was a child, but now he is a little afraid of seeing Chen Mo's disgusting face.

It really is that the more you live, the more spineless you become, and the more you live, the more useless you become.

Xiao Yihan sighed, and simply didn't do anything else, sat up and brushed his forehead hair back, leaned to the side and bent down.

"I didn't sneak a kiss just now, but this time it's for real." Xiao Yihan lowered his upper body and whispered in Chen Mo's ear.

"what?"

As soon as Chen Mo turned his head to see what kind of play this was, Xiao Yihan's face, which was close at hand, met him, and then touched his lips like a superficial touch.

After Xiao Yihan's desperate kiss, no matter what Chen Mo's reaction was, no matter how disgusting Chen Mo beat him, he didn't care what happened to Chen Mo, he kissed him anyway.

He rolled over and pulled the quilt over his head to sleep.

Maybe...he is really GAY, or maybe it's just a momentary illusion, just like now, there's nothing wrong with boldly kissing.

"Heh... Your superficial performance is really not very good," Chen Mo rubbed his lower lip with his thumb, and chuckled with a quivering nose.

"What?" Xiao Yihan turned around in a daze, "Don't you feel awkward? I'll kiss you."

"It's quite normal," Chen Mo turned over, "Go to sleep."

"No more? You've made me lose face like this. You have to give me some reaction." Chen Mo's reaction was completely unexpected to him, Xiao Yihan asked, "Then how do you feel? Just like me kissing you." for a while."

"No, I'll kick you down if you're asking me," Chen Mo said threateningly with his back turned to him.

"Okay," Xiao Yihan lay on the bed in a good mood and hugged the quilt.

Even Chen Mo said that this phenomenon is quite normal, so he can rest assured that he is indeed a straight man.

During the two weeks when Chen Yan was hospitalized, Chen Mo went to the hospital to take care of his younger brother every day besides going to and from class, while Xiao Yihan enjoyed it and walked behind Chen Mo's butt every day. Going to school for class, Chen Mo went to the hospital to visit Chen Yan, and he also ran to the hospital.

However, every time he went to the ward, he had to pass by the counter, but it was because he had to pass by the counter that made Xiao Yihan particularly uncomfortable. He was not disgusted with the hospital, but rather helpless with the little nurse at the counter.

Every time he passed there, the little nurse whom he had held hands with would always smile at him very attentively. She didn't wear rouge and powder on her face before, but she also put on light makeup when she saw her recently.

One time it was even more exaggerated that the little nurse stopped him directly in her free time, and then gave him a bento with love, or a small gift or snack.

The little nurse is actually an intern. She looks pretty good-looking. She looks like a girl next door. She has a delicate and shy personality. Although she is not as delicate as Xia Ke, she is still a beauty.

But on the last day of Chenyan's discharge from the hospital, Xiao Yihan, who felt very sorry, finally wanted to confess to the little nurse. If he didn't like it, there was no need to waste the other girl's thoughts. It would save such a relationship. unclear.

Xiao Yihan and the Chen family brothers stopped when they were about to reach the counter, glanced at the little nurse who was still standing up straight from time to time, and urged Chen Mo and Chen Yan to go first, and asked them to go outside and wait for him .

Chen Mo smiled at him, he didn't know what was going on in his head, but he didn't say anything, he directly dragged Chen Yan out of the hospital.

Xiao Yihan bite the bullet and walked towards the counter, the little nurse was visibly flustered when she saw him coming over, she probably didn't expect him to greet her.

"Are you... free now?" Xiao Yihan scratched his hair and asked.

"Yes," the little nurse nodded with a flushed face.

The two of them stopped under a big tree outside the back door of the hospital. There were very few people coming and going here, and they were not afraid of being seen sneaking away during work hours.

The small backyard should have been originally used for walking the wounded, but it may have been abandoned because the terrain was a bit cloudy. The whole small backyard was only supported by such a big tree. There are a few weeds.

"Yes...what's the matter?" The little nurse blushed and stood opposite him with her head lowered.

"Don't you have anything to say?" Xiao Yihan put his hands in his pockets and looked at the little nurse.

The little nurse pursed her lips tightly, clenched her overalls tightly in her hands, lowered her head and couldn't see her emotions clearly, and it was rare for Xiao Yihan to wait patiently for her to speak.

"Yes," the little nurse slowly raised her head to look directly at him, "I like you."

"Then I might have to say sorry to you," Xiao Yihan blurted out without beating around the bush.

"Why?" The little nurse looked at him with wide eyes in disbelief, "Do you have a girlfriend?"

"No," Xiao Yihan said, "It's just that I don't feel it and don't like it, so I can only say sorry to you."

"Why?" The little nurse's tone was a little extreme, "Feelings can be cultivated."

"Emotions are something that can't be forced," Xiao Yihan apologized, "and you may just have taken a fancy to my appearance for a while, and you don't know me well, do you?"

"I...I don't understand now, as long as you accept me, I can slowly understand you," the little nurse's eyes were flushed, she let go of the wrinkled corner of her clothes, and looked at him helplessly.

"I'm really sorry, you will definitely meet someone in the future who I want you to get to know," Xiao Yihan left the little nurse back to the hospital alone, and then ran out of the gate.

The little nurse looked at Xiao Yihan's leaving back, tears finally couldn't help streaming down, and she crouched down under the big tree and cried hard.

This was her first lovelorn, and it was also her first love, so she was rejected just like that.

As soon as Xiao Yihan ran out, he saw Chen Mo carrying a bag and Chen Yan standing next to him smiling, scratched his scalp and ran over, took the bag from Chen Mo's hand, it was full of Chen Yan's change of clothes. Not very heavy, but he was happy to grab it.

Chen Mo took Chen Yan's left hand, Xiao Yihan took Chen Yan's right hand, and together they took Chen Yan home from the hospital.

Two weeks of torment, two weeks of smelling disinfectant, two weeks of white coats, white sheets and white curtains, and now I am finally liberated.

Before leaving, the doctor in charge came to help Chen Yan do another checkup, said that he was very healthy, he had to continue to maintain a happy mood, and then there were a lot of precautions, this was also Xiao Yihan's first time in the hospital Listen so seriously.

Chen Mo is different. After all, he is a veteran who has taken care of his younger brother for so many years. He can probably write down the precautions and diet rules silently.

In the past few days before Chen Yan was discharged from the hospital, he seemed to be lethargic. He didn't stay too late at night, but he always yawned during the day because he didn't get enough sleep. Before they got home in the car, Chen Yan tilted his head. Chen Mo fell asleep on his shoulder.

Chen Mo reached out and dragged his younger brother's head and placed it on his thigh, trying to make him sleep more comfortably.

Xiao Yihan, who was sitting in the front seat, smiled at Chen Mo through the rearview mirror.

"What are you laughing at?" Chen Mo stroked Chen Yan's soft hair and asked.

"It's nothing," Xiao Yihan shook his head and said, "This time I can feel completely at ease."

"Well, that's right." Chen Mo moved his legs to make Chen Yan sleep more peacefully, and looked up at the back of Xiao Yihan's head, "That's right."

"Huh?" Xiao Yihan turned to look at him.

"How are you and that little nurse?" Chen Mo raised his eyebrows at him, "Have you confessed?"

"When did you become such a gossip," Xiao Yihan said speechlessly.

"Then is it there or not..." Chen Mo asked curiously.

"No, I refused, I wanted to make it clear to her a long time ago," Xiao Yihan shrugged and sighed, "Emotional matters really don't come by force."

"Hey, what a pity, a girl likes you so much, and she brings you meals and gifts," Chen Mo said with a light smile.

"Get out," Xiao Yihan moved his upper body and said, "Speaking of gifts...have you read the gift I gave you?"

"Gift? Ah...I really forgot," Chen Mo leaned back with his forehead, "I put it in the closet at the time, and I didn't remember it later."

"Then just return it to me when you go back, I won't give it away," Xiao Yihan said jokingly.

"That won't work, the gift that is poured out is equal to the water that is poured out, and whoever it is for it can get it," Chen Mo said with a smile.

"How did I find out that your face has become thicker now?" Xiao Yihan stretched out his hand to poke Chen Mo's face, but Chen Mo dodged it.

"I learned from you," Chen Mo stretched out his index finger to touch his.

There was a sudden silence in the car again, the uncle driver drove the car seriously as if isolated from the world, Xiao Yihan was lying on the armchair, his chin was pressed on one arm, the other hand was extended long, the index finger followed Chen Mo stretched out to offset it, and he raised his head and just stared at Chen Mo.

That feeling... came back.

The various things in his heart made him unable to maintain this posture, Xiao Yihan retracted his hands and gave Chen Mo a dry laugh, then pulled the seat belt, and sat on the seat to tighten his upper body.

But he always felt that Chen Mo behind him was staring at him, a little uncomfortable.

He didn't know if Chen Mo was in the same mood as him now, or as he said that night, nothing was normal.

But the feeling that his heart was jumping in his throat just now made him really unable to plan into the category of 'pretty normal', he really felt that he was abnormal.

Chen Mo who was sitting at the back let out a muffled laugh from his nose quivering, his voice was not loud, but it was enough for Xiao Yihan who was sitting in front to hear clearly.

"Smile," Xiao Yihan turned his head and stared at Chen Mo.

"Are you a fart?" Chen Mo was afraid of laughing again, so he covered his mouth with his hand, leaving only his body shaking non-stop.

"Do you want to fight?" If it wasn't in the car, if it was on the road, he would definitely go up and beat Chen Mo up without hesitation.

"Don't dare, I can't beat you," Chen Mo burst into tears, and it took him a long time to adjust his emotions.

"Tch... How do you know if you haven't beaten him before?" Xiao Yihan said speechlessly, "You just deserve to be beaten."