afterlife aftertaste

"Am I sick? You have only been away for an hour, and I start to miss you."

Shi Chenyu murmured.

His eyes are beautiful, full of autumn, with rippling water, as weak as a woman.When he looked at me, his charming eyebrows were full of a touch of melancholy.

"Brother, would it be great if you could stay with me in the mountains all the time? Ah, no. I'm too selfish. No matter how big Tianyao Mountain is, it's not as big as the entire rivers and lakes. It's your world. How can I let you Giving up the whole world for me? I'm so selfish, aren't I?"

Slender fingers brushed my cheeks, the fingertips were almost transparent white.Shi Chenyu gently rubbed my face, feeling nostalgic for it.

"But, Xiaoyu really misses you. Only when you come back, Xiaoyu's bamboo building is a little angry. You are not here, there is nothing here. There is no color, no sound, no tea fragrance, no moon shadow, and no spring The sun is shining, the summer lotus is a pavilion, and the autumn rain is lingering. In Xiaoyu's world, there is only winter. Only in winter, when the senior brother returns, Xiaoyu can hear, see, smell..."

The footsteps stopped outside the door, and someone's voice sounded: "My lord, someone has come to seek medical treatment again."

Shi Chenyu looked at me and smiled wryly.He wrapped me carefully in a white juanpa, hid it under the pillow, and then got up and walked out the door.

Some human voices came from downstairs, and there were horseshoes and chaotic noises in the distance.Soon after dawn, the Yixin Building in Tianyao Mountain was already bustling.

***

"Brother, isn't the rivers and lakes in chaos? People who fight and kill will always be injured, right? Those who come to me for medical treatment are more or less capable, otherwise how can I find the location of the valley? They all have I can only abide by the seal of the door and the rules left by the master. Today, there are three groups of people, poisonous wounds, arrow wounds, and internal injuries. The treatment is not troublesome, and it will only take more than an hour..."

The palm holding me shook a few times, Shi Chenyu covered his mouth with the other and coughed lightly.

"Hey, it's only been more than an hour, and I'm already feeling very tired. I thought I could go down the mountain to accompany my senior brother in the rivers and lakes when I get stronger. But now it seems that it will only hold you back."

Staring at me with faintly worried eyes, he stopped talking.He held me in his arms, and it was dawn at a glance.There were footsteps outside the door again, he pressed me to his lips, and said in a low voice, "I'll be back soon."

As always, he put me under the pillow, pulled it out reluctantly to look at me a few times, and suddenly kissed me on the face.Two red clouds immediately flew over his fair and clear cheeks.

He quickly stuffed me back under the pillow, and escaped out the door.

***

"I don't know what's wrong with me. I suddenly want to kiss you. I probably... miss senior brother too much. Senior brother, when will you come back...

I really hate the days of waiting, endless, endless.

For me, winter is the warmest season.Because a senior brother hugged me to sleep.Even if I live reclusively in the mountains, I know it's not good to do so.When I was young, I was ignorant, because I was afraid of the cold, so I let you hug me to keep warm.Later, when I got sick, you read an ancient book saying that only this method can help me keep out the cold and protect my body, so you come back every winter and hug me to sleep.I know it's not good, but I dare not say no.If you say no, there is no reason for you to come back on time and stay around for so long.

All year round, spring, summer, autumn and winter.You gave me the whole winter.What else am I not satisfied with?Brother, you are so kind to me. "

***

"Heard from you again today. I'm so happy.

Brother, you probably think that I don't know anything in the mountains, right?Not at all.You are so famous, no matter who comes to me for medical treatment, they will always mention your whereabouts and current situation.I never took the initiative to ask, they just told me what you did outside when they chatted and gossiped with each other.

People admire you very much, they call you Fang Daxia.

Fang Daxia.What a strange name.Whenever I hear these three words, I think, what do you look like in people's eyes?It must be a little different from what I have in mind.

You were in front of me and never even held a sword.It's hard for me to imagine you riding a horse and holding a sword, crossing the martial arts world.But that's the real you, right?

The you in front of Xiaoyu is also the real you, right?

You in winter, you in spring, summer and autumn.

There are two you in this world.Only I know your secret.

So happy. "

***

I waited in the dark for a long time, but those cold but comfortable hands never released me from Juanpa's wrap.

It was already noon, and I heard footsteps returning to the room.It was a familiar voice, and I would never mishear it again.The body can also feel the weight of the head on the pillow.Is it too tiring to heal the injuries all morning?No.impossible.For so many years, whenever Shi Chenyu came back to this room, the first thing Shi Chenyu would do was to find me and face me, even if he was too tired to speak, his eyes would keep staring at me.

Half an hour passed, and the person on the pillow seemed to be fast asleep, not moving at all, let alone making any sound.Someone called from outside the door, but there was still no answer.

"Master? Is your master uncomfortable? Do you need a villain to come in and serve you?"

For a long time, there was no sound.

The people outside the door seemed a little anxious, and began to knock on the door lightly, "Young Master? Young Master!" The knocking on the door became louder and louder, and the servant's call became louder and louder.

"Stop knocking." Finally, Shi Chenyu's voice came from the bed, his voice was weak, and he looked very weak, "Tell them that there is no need for a doctor's appointment this afternoon."

"Young master is sick?"

"You go down."

The servant paused for a while, and finally obeyed: "Yes, young master."

***

"Is it true? Senior brother. Is it true? Her name is Ying Xin. She has superb swordsmanship and a beautiful appearance. She is born and dies with you. There are rumors in the rivers and lakes about you fighting the enemy together and combining two swords. Everyone envies or praises her." In the description of jealousy or sarcasm, it is vivid and beautiful, and it is vivid and vivid.

I don't know what's wrong with me, brother.Shouldn't I be happy for you?When we talked about girls when we were young, you said that those little girls who depended on others were not what you wanted in your heart, and you hoped that your future sweetheart could gallop with a sword like you.She should be such a person.You must be very happy and happy now.

I should be happy for you.

I am very happy.

Really, very happy..."

A hot wet liquid dripped on my forehead.My arms, which cannot be turned, still can only hang on the sides, unable to lift them up, and unable to wipe them off.

Only, listen quietly.

***

"Brother, it's summer and it's very cold. Xiao Yu feels so cold. When are you coming back? Will you...will you come back?

They said I was sick and asked me to take medicine.But I'm not sick, at most it's just a relapse of an old problem.I just feel a little cold, the place in my heart is cold.If you can hug me, it will probably be warm.

Senior Brother...Senior Brother..."

For the first time I was dropped on the ground.Because the hands that were holding me tightly loosened slowly, and hung down feebly.

Someone rushed into the room and hugged the fainted man in his arms.

He called him vigorously: "Xiao Yu! Xiao Yu!"

"Brother..."

Shi Chenyu slowly opened his eyes, his dreamy eyes were blurred and he couldn't be sure.

"It's me, Xiaoyu!"

"Brother?" He still couldn't believe his eyes, looking at the person in front of him in surprise and sadness, "Why did you come back?"

"You are sick, of course I want to come back to see you!" The man hugged the man in his arms vigorously.

"But……"

"Stop talking. Do you feel better when I hold you like this? Are you still cold?"

Shi Chenyu shook his head, whispering like weeping.

"It's not cold anymore, it's not cold anymore. As long as senior brother is here, it won't be cold anymore."

***

"Senior brother told me that I am very famous in Jianghu, and the news of my illness spread all over the martial arts within three days. I didn't know this. I just help people heal and detoxify.

But thanks to this fame, I got to meet my brother so quickly.As soon as the senior brother heard the news, he immediately dropped everything he was doing and rushed back from thousands of miles away.He said that my relapse was very strange this time. I usually only have symptoms of cold heart in winter, but this time it happened in midsummer.

I didn't dare to ask my brother anything.

In fact, I was really afraid that he would mention that woman's name to me.

Ying Xin.

It seems that upon hearing these two words, the heart will be pierced by the sword and bleed endlessly.

I think I'm really sick.

Three days later, the senior brother left.He walked in a hurry, seemed to have something to say but just waved to me.

'Xiao Yu, don't give it away.I'll come back to see you when I'm done with some urgent matters.I have another good news for you. '

There is good news for you.

good news?

good news.

I feel like a suspicious woman.Just such vague three words made me stand by the lotus pond to see off.From sunrise to sunset.

It was already evening when the people in the valley found me.

They said I had a cold and my hands and feet were cold.I started to have a fever at night, so I prescribed a prescription for myself, and after drinking it for a few days, I got better.

As usual, heal the wounds and detoxify the people who have finally found a doctor.It would be nice if the ears could be closed like the eyes.In that case, I wouldn't know where they acted chivalrously, and when they shared weal and woe.I also don't know the good news they announced to people. All martial arts heroes are proud of receiving wedding invitations.

The changes outside continue all the time, and the sky in the bamboo building is lacklustre. "

***

For almost a whole month, I was in the dark.Sometimes, there is a little weight on the pillow, letting me know that Shi Chenyu will still lie down on this bed.Of course, I could hear his footsteps too.More and more people pass by the door, but less and less when they come in.

"They're gone."

When I was lifted off the white hijab to see my master again, his appearance made my heart made of stone twitch violently.

He had grown thinner and paler, with little color on his face.The lips are also a cold dark color.

He held me in trembling hands, as if he would drop me to the floor the next moment.

"They're gone.

I see her.

They are gone. "

His voice was unvoiced and his speech was incoherent.

"She's pretty. But they say she's not as good-looking as me. They're all from the valley, and they probably look towards me.

She probably sensed something too, looking at me with a carefully concealed hostility in her eyes.Brother must not see the silent confrontation between me and her.

Brother likes her very much.He always held her hand, and his gentle eyes were the kind that were only given to me.

I don't know what she is still worried about.In a hurry, he pulled the senior brother away.He had only been back for less than seven days, and he had never been back so short before leaving again.

However, he left.He was taken away by her.

They are gone.

really gone. "

***

Another day of endless darkness.

Before, I was the owner's greatest comfort.Staring at me quietly, he will also show a satisfying and moving smile.

Now, there is no waiting, no longing, and neither do I.

***

"Brother, I hate her. It was she who took you away.

I know I shouldn't hate her, even without her, there will be another 'she' who will take you away.

However, I still hate her.

Her wounds were poisons for which there was no cure.

Yes, she was dying.No one in this world can save her.

She is a heroine among women, a heroine, if she wasn't so confident and brave, she wouldn't have been hit so hard.This is the first time you have separated from the enemy. I am so glad that you are not the one who encountered the drug net.

You really love her, otherwise why would you stay by her bedside without sleep.

Seeing you looking so anxious and in pain, I suddenly don't feel cold anymore.

I laughed.

Inexplicably, he laughed.

I hate her even more.

Because I have finally confirmed that you are really in love with this woman named Ying Xin.

She was beautiful and brave, and she risked her life for justice.

She is the ideal partner in your mind.

I finally understood what I should do.

I didn't tell you there was no cure for her poison.

I fed the poisonous snake with my own blood, and made an antidote from its bile.

This is the only way to save her.

Save her and I will die.

If I told you this condition, would you still say that I want her to come back alive at all costs?

You won't, and your bride won't let you do it.

You are all perfect people.

Unlike me, so selfish.Want to kill this woman and take you back.

You were not there when the poison broke out.

I'm well disguised, and I can still struggle to walk to see you off one last time.You helped your bride to sit on your horse, and when you were about to set off down the mountain, you turned to me gratefully and said, Xiaoyu, your illness is also recovering, and after Xiner recovers, I will take you down the mountain to drink with us. wedding wine.

I nodded and watched you go away with a smile.

Once your back disappears, I can't stand it any longer.

They carried me back to the valley, and I told them with my last strength to bury me immediately after I died, and told you that my old illness relapsed very suddenly, so I went.

You will be sad, I know.

Have your bride by your side through hard times.

You will remember me and I know it too.

When you have kids, you'll tell them about me.

I know everything, brother.

Under the nine springs, I will still hate her.

loving You.

brother. "

The last time I slipped from those cold and gentle hands and hit the ground as hard as iron, I was unscathed as always.

Something, but cracked from the inside.

broken.like.sand.

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