The abyss is insurmountable

That year was really the most enjoyable year of my entire life.

The joy of regaining what I lost makes me full of energy every day, and I don’t feel tired doing anything.

What I used to disdain to do at all, but now with the company of the one I love, I can even enjoy it when I give.

Occasionally, I would smile lightly because of my changes, and feel that I have gradually become the person I disliked when I was young, but when I really reach this age and really do such things, I will Understand, it was such happiness.

When I was 25 years old, my passion came from the roaring speed of locomotives, from the dazzling lights on the dance floor, from the luxurious display in the resplendent and magnificent villas, and even more from the same hot body that always changed faces around me.

At the age of 35, my passion came from his sleepy eyes, and the tenderness and magnificence in those shallow eyes.

At an age when a man is formally glorious, I did not work hard for my career, but simply cared about the operation of the company occasionally, and I did not give up on myself because of various transformation failures. Instead, I lived such a leisurely retirement life, changing my ways every day. Cultivate your own cooking skills and work for Yu Yuan every day.

It's strange that one day I'll actually feel like I'm happy.

My parents lived a long life and are still alive and strong.

Yu Yuan is also very strong, getting better day by day, working hard to return to our world,

I'm also very stubborn, and I cling to Yu Yuan's side every step of the way.

This kind of Xiaoqiang spirit that everyone shares beauty and beauty together is the greatest happiness in my life for me.

The warm sunshine sprinkled on his body, and he calmly outlined his world with his paintbrush.This has become an ordinary scene in our life.

That day, I served him a cup of hot tea as usual, and then looked at him silently.Look at his pure face, but also look at his sharp pen.He sees me, and sees love from my heart.

"Let's go home."

Yu Yuan suddenly raised his head and said this to me.His eyes are still so determined, it is a determination that I have never imagined in these years.

I looked at him in astonishment, hesitated to speak several times, and only said one thing: "Okay."

I respect his opinion, but honestly, I don't feel reassured.

That period of dusty history is a bit too cruel for me.He managed to climb into the abyss full of hustle and bustle, and I don't want to see him fall down again.

However, Yu Yuan deserves to be Yu Yuan.

He looked as thin as ever, just like the first time I saw him, even pitifully thin among a group of men.But his heart is not as fragile as I imagined.

He doesn't listen to or think about some words.Even if you hear it, you always don't care.

Sometimes I suddenly feel in a trance, is he still on his own lonely planet?Or did he choose to return to the ordinary and vulgar world?

Now he is more like carrying the loneliness and pain on his own planet.

Sometimes I think, we have passed through many years, there are few people in this world who know him better than me, right?

But sometimes I feel that I have never known the real Yu Yuan.

The days with him, every day is a surprise, a different scenery is waiting for me.Every day, I fall in love with a different Yu Yuan again in my heart.

Until I walked on the domestic airport, I felt that all this was a bit unreal.

From when he left alone, to when I stepped out of this country, and finally we came back together, the most precious year and a half of my life spanned.

There are quite a lot of people at the airport, we walked among the crowd and were submerged in the crowd, but I only felt that it was different because of having Yu Yuan.

He buried his head in silence and walked forward slowly.

My eyes chased his back, my footsteps followed his footsteps, and we went back to another distant place we are familiar with.

"Wait for me." Yu Yuan stopped, then lowered his head and walked towards the bathroom.

I watched him leave, then looked down at my phone.

"Excuse me...you are Yu Yuan's...boyfriend? Uh, right? That's Yu Yuan...if I'm not mistaken?"

I heard someone talking to me, and when I looked up, it was a girl in her 20s who came from nowhere.

"Yes, what's wrong?"

I immediately became alert, my mind was full of the bad things that Yu Yuan had experienced.

"Haha, don't get me wrong." She smiled awkwardly, and quickly waved her hands, "I'm the one he helped! But... I'm also Yu Yuan's fan... Well, speaking of it, that was many years ago At that time, I thought that I would never like any big star in my life, but I didn't expect...hehe..."

I smiled: "Thank you, I still remember him after so many years."

"Well! I always remember." She nodded and looked at me seriously: "From the first time I saw him, I thought he was great! It's just... the feeling that he is different from others. He knows music, knows the stage, and also... ...you understand me too..." The girl smiled a little embarrassedly.

"Although it's a pity later..." She sighed.

"It's not a pity. Because there are people like you who choose to support him and believe in him, no matter what others say, right?"

She froze for a moment, and then broke into a smile that I will never forget: "Yes, Mr. Nan. Because I will always remember what he said to me that year. I can't decide what others think of him, but I can Always liked him!"

I unconsciously relaxed my expression, and even smiled a little.

I chatted with her a few times, and I suddenly felt moved for no reason. Although she was limited by reality and could get very little accurate information, she still chose to stay firm in the fog, not following what others said, Remember the tolerance and tenderness towards others, remember the good years Yu Yuan brought her, and remember Yu Yuan's kindness to the world.

Similarly, I also hope that Yu Yuan can be treated with tenderness.

She felt that being able to like Yu Yuan was a kind of luck, so why not Yu Yuan being liked by her?

I still remember what Yu Yuan said to me, he never thought that people who liked him should be called "Yu Yuan's fans", but should be called "friends who share the same goals with Yu Yuan".

Because of compatibility, because of appreciation, so I like him, so I chose him among many artists.

Three years may be too short for an artist's career, but for a person's youth, it is indeed an incomparably precious long time.

Maybe Yu Yuan ended up with nothing in the entertainment circle, ended up in a mess, and became a laughingstock, but—living in other people's memories is not his goal.

Whether it's a man who is a scheming bitch, whether he is morally corrupt, or whether he is dedicated to his superiors, it's his life in the eyes of others.In the final analysis, only he himself knows the path Yu Yuan has traveled, so only he himself has the right to judge his own life.

There are too many people who come and go in his life.

Some people watched him build a tall building, some deliberately destroyed his high-rise building, and some people hoped that his building would collapse for fun, but he preferred to put his eyes on his own feet.

He poured out his heart and blood to everyone who loved him, no matter what the result would be.

Maybe the child he helped with all his money today will sneer at him tomorrow, but Yu Yuan still cares about whether his future is bright or not.

But do good deeds, don't ask about the future.

As for what the world owes him, I am willing to pay.If the repayment is not enough, I have to use the rest of my life to pay off the debt.

I know that when Yu Yuan quit the circle that year, he lost his entire family by donating money.This news is not whitewashing, nor is it asking for forgiveness from the public.

He has never been sorry to anyone, and naturally he doesn't need anyone's forgiveness.

Since then, the only thing he needs to love is himself.

People who don't love you will not stay no matter how much you try to keep them.

The person who really loves you will never go far.

Seeing Yu Yuan walking this way, the girl left in a hurry.

She apologized to me and told me she didn't want to bring up bad memories of him because of her.

I nodded and did not speak.

I watched Yu Yuan walk towards me slowly, walked to my side, finally raised his head to look at me, and even smiled sweetly.

People came and went in a hurry, and no one still remembered the star Yu Yuan who was let go in a hurry that year.

Fortunately, this is not his nostalgia and pursuit.

Maybe those mean people have long forgotten what they have done, but Yu Yuan has never remembered the evil in this world.

People of light see the light, people of darkness drown in the swamp.

On New Year's Eve that year, we lived an ordinary life as usual.

In the dark night, there are no dumplings, no party, no New Year's Eve, not even lights, only each other.

"Happy New Year, Obuchi."

I looked at my Yu Yuan carefully, and I felt that tears of excitement and emotion were about to drip from my eyes.

Holding the cup of warm milk, Yu Yuan smiled and nodded at me, his warm and clear black eyes looked at me gently - through the years, straight to my heart.

"Brother Shen, Happy New Year."

The fireworks feast on the other side of the sky was just when it was brilliant and intense. Our faces were reflected in different colorful colors, and we looked at each other's weird faces.

Finally, turn into a smile

To me, this means eternity.Appreciate the peace and prosperity of this prosperous age together, and appreciate the peace and happiness of this reality together.

I have all kinds of rare things in the world, but no matter how attractive they are, they are not a cage that binds me.

Because my fate is tied in the hands of only one person.

I can never get tired of this person, I miss him day and night, ever since I met him, I can't escape, even if I fall into the abyss, I am willing to be smashed to pieces.

People, life and death are fleeting, fame and fortune are floating clouds, decades of turmoil, looking back, how many years I have been wandering in Vanity Fair and the sea of ​​pornography, I dare not think that I can meet such a pure and beautiful lover.

My fate has chosen to make me such a free and unrestrained businessman, and yours has chosen to make you a tenacious man who will not give in under suffering, but no one can stop me from meeting you.

Yu Yuan, if Cupid's arrows are not accurate enough, then I will steal his arrows and shoot ourselves; if Yuelao refuses to hand you over to me when he is pulling the strings, I will climb to the sky and kill myself. Tie us both with the old man's red thread.

You're going to say that I don't know what to say, are you?

Then I will tell you that although I can't do it, I am sincere.Maybe all I have done is to stick by your side, no matter how hard you drive me away, but... No matter what, you have to know that what I want is to live with you forever.

good night.

And for countless nights and countless New Years in the future, let's have a good night together.

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The author has something to say: Sahua at the end~ Today is too sleepy and I will feel sorry for it another day!