Swimming pool

Big teardrops rolled down his face, and there was a freshly opened pack of cigarettes on the table.

"Cheng Lang..." Li Boqiao hadn't finished speaking when another new call came from his mobile phone, it was Li Yefeng.

Li Boqiao's heart hung up again: "Cheng Lang, wait a minute, I'll call you later."

After he finished speaking, he hung up the phone in a hurry, and hurried upstairs while talking to Li Yefeng.

Li Yunshan suddenly felt a tingling pain in his heart, which he said was like a needle prick.After he had a stroke, Li Yefeng could not speak clearly. Li Yefeng stumbled and felt frightened. He hurriedly rang the bell to call the doctor, and then called Li Boqiao in a panic.

This whole thing was busy, and when everything quieted down, another hour slipped away.

Li Boqiao finally recovered his breath and went out to find a corner of the stairs to call Cheng Lang, but the other party didn't answer for a long time.Li Boqiao was not discouraged and insisted on calling, but Cheng Lang still answered the phone.

"Cheng Lang, I love you. I won't break up!" Li Boqiao's eyes were blurred and he was heartbroken.

Cheng Lang was silent for a long time, tears streaming silently: "Do you really love me? Between me and your friend, you will always think that he is more important than me."

"No!" Li Boqiao replied quickly and affirmatively, but he didn't have any other words to explain further.

He suddenly realized that his words were feeble. He never let Zhang Yimiao go. This was the fact Cheng Lang saw with his own eyes.I don't know how many days have passed since he last promised Cheng Lang, and he still hasn't let Zhang Yimiao move.What he said now seemed to be justifying himself. Cheng Lang was not a child, so how could he believe him?

But does Cheng Lang want to question his love?Aside from Zhang Yimiao, Cheng Lang really doesn't know whether Li Boqiao loves Cheng Lang or not?

Cheng Lang said slowly: "I'm tired, I don't want to experience such a relationship again, I miss being alone every day, I don't know if he misses me, I don't know what he is doing."

Li Boqiao listened silently, tears splashed on his chest, making the black fabric darker.

"You are very busy every day, you don't make a single phone call, you don't tell me your father is sick, it's the same if you have me or not."

Cheng Lang's voice trembled, and he was a little weeping.

He finally couldn't control his emotions: "Li Boqiao, we've been together for so long, I don't care what you want to live, I just have one request, you promised but failed!"

"No, I was going to say it." Li Boqiao's tone had returned to calm, and it sounded to Cheng Lang that he was even emotionless.

"But you didn't say it!" Cheng Lang said angrily, "You wouldn't say it either! Your friend is your life!"

"I won't break up." Li Boqiao pursed his lips and looked up at the vast night sky.

Cheng Lang hung up the phone.

There are many things in the world that happen between two people, but one person can decide the final direction, such as tug-of-war, playing chess, or breaking up.

When Cheng Lang called, although he felt heartache, because Li Boqiao was with him, he could still hold on.After hanging up the phone, he realized that his heart was really broken.

For the first time in his life, he was separated from the one he loved.This kind of thing had never happened in Cheng Lang's previous life.He firmly believes that love does not break up, and nothing can separate two people who love each other.He used to think that anyone who falls in love and breaks up, those people haven't grown up yet, they're just doing it, they're all seeking attention.But on this day, he typed with his own hands and told his loved one: Let's break up.

He admits that he is jealous of Zhang Yimiao, because he secretly despises himself because of this kind of thinking that cannot be put on the table, but he can't control it.Zhang Yimiao has probably been inseparable from Li Boqiao these days, so Li Boqiao has never looked for him.Naturally, Zhang Yimiao can replace him, and he is also such a careful and considerate person, so why wait so hard?

Even if Li Boqiao was thinking of his good in his heart, such a ambiguous attitude of being in a dilemma was not what Cheng Lang needed.

Cheng Lang smoked a pack of cigarettes that night, his tears were shed dry, and he didn't do anything, just sat on the sofa in a daze.He himself didn't realize that this was a sequelae of living in Li Boqiao's house.Because on the other side, after Zhang Yimiao came, he would never be able to occupy the sofa, so he liked the sofa.

Cheng Lang smoked until midnight, and finally considered that he had to go to work, so he forced himself to go to bed.But he couldn't sleep at all, his mind was full of the last words Li Boqiao said before he hung up the phone.

"I won't break up."

I!No!point!hand!Every word is heartfelt.

If you don't want to break up, why don't you drive Zhang Yimiao away, okay?OK? ?OK? ? ?Why are you breaking my heart, Li Poqiao, why are you so cruel! ! !

Cheng Lang stared at the dial on the phone, watching the passing of life every minute and every second, and sighed why he was always so melancholy and encountered such complicated emotions.He thought of the red ribbon he hung in Baishan again.

I wish to have one heart and one mind, and the white head will not be separated.This is probably a dream that was difficult to realize in ancient times. Otherwise, why would the poet add a word "wish" in front of it?

Cheng Lang slept very late that night, because he was too excited or depressed. When he fell asleep, the window was already faintly white.

Li Boqiao didn't sleep all night and drove Li Yefeng back home.He didn't want to see anyone he knew.

Cheng Lang hung up the phone, but he didn't chase after the phone.He knew that neither Cheng Lang nor he would have a good time this night.But he also knew that he couldn't comfort Cheng Lang right now.Because he didn't fulfill it, all the promises looked like a joke. He had broken his promise and lost his credibility before, and he shouldn't do such a shameful thing now.

There was another important reason that made him completely give up the idea of ​​contacting Cheng Lang, and that was the sick Li Yunshan.

Li Yunshan didn't sleep peacefully that night, he woke up, groaned, kicked the quilt, and couldn't leave him at all.There is an old mother and a younger brother in the family. He is the eldest son and elder brother. Who will he not?

Why let Cheng Lang know all this, his work is already so hard.According to Li Boqiao's understanding of Cheng Lang, once he knew about the situation, people would definitely rush over, stationed in the hospital, and accompany him to take care of the patients.Such a situation, Li Boqiao absolutely does not allow it to happen.

Li Boqiao thought everything through overnight, and made what he thought was the right choice in his heart: let go.

Anyone who has lost a relationship knows that the aftermath of breaking up is great. It is not like a sap or knife wound protruding from the center, but a sharp and palpable pain.The pain of a breakup is a lot like an orgasm, a sharp pain that hits the heart like waves of electric shocks.Just thinking of someone makes my heart shrink.

Sometimes there is a sense of tearing, there is an invisible force tearing the heart to the two sides forcibly, and it cannot be contained; and it is as fast as lightning, and suddenly makes you fall into the hopeless abyss, very deep, deep, look Not a trace of light.

Sometimes it’s like a torrential rain across the street. Looking at other people’s homes with clear skies and happy faces, only you know that your heart is wet, the kind of very thorough wetness, because you have been completely exposed, so there is no A dry corner.

All the good memories will become very distant and bitter because of the distance of the lover in reality. It makes you want to stop but you can only fall in love across the river. The impermanence reminds you of despair.

Cheng Lang asked for leave for the first time since he went to work.Because he was in a trance and forgot to set the alarm clock, it was past nine o'clock when he looked at his watch.He simply willful for a while, lying in the den and not going out to meet people.

Naturally, he said he was not feeling well, and both the supervisor and the department director sent messages to express their condolences, which made Cheng Lang feel very guilty.It has never been his style to ask for leave because of personal matters.So despite the discomfort, he only took half a day off.

Cheng Lang got up to brush his teeth, only to find that his eyes were swollen into peaches, and even his eyelids were collapsed.He looked at himself in a mess in the mirror, and understood that he was about to go through a difficult battle at this moment.

You are broken in love again, Cheng Lang, Cheng Lang said to himself.

He brushed his teeth numbly, feeling that the soul was no longer in his body.

If you don't observe carefully, Li Boqiao is so calm that you can't tell that you just broke up with your lover.He didn't cry much, at least not too many.When fluid tried to burst out of his eye socket, he looked up and went outside for a cigarette.

Li Yunshan returned home after staying in the hospital for three days.There is no major problem, but I can't eat, I can't speak clearly, I can't move half of my body at all, I wake up after a while at night, and sometimes I can't sleep at all.

To put it bluntly, people are already useless.

The rehabilitation physiotherapy that patients should do is still done, and Li Boqiao's life is not much different from before.He goes to work during the day, stays in front of the bed at night to take care of his stepfather, and abandons all entertainment and social interaction.

No one knew that he and Cheng Lang had separated, not even himself.But he never bothered Cheng Lang again, and Cheng Lang never contacted him again.

Both of them didn't delete each other's WeChat, but they stopped talking.Cheng Lang was not as ruthless as Li Boqiao, because he completely deleted the chat records between the two of them, but Li Boqiao did not.

After Li Yunshan was discharged from the hospital, the first thing Li Boqiao did was to find Zhang Yimiao.

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Zhang Yimiao moved out of Li Boqiao's house the next day.No one knew what Li Boqiao told Zhang Yimiao. Anyway, Zhang Yimiao wasn't angry with him, but Li Boqiao didn't tell Cheng Lang the news.

He just wanted to make up for a mistake he thought he owed Cheng Lang, that's all.

Everyone is gone, it doesn't matter whether you tell me or not.In Li Boqiao's eyes, he did not do well in this matter, and he had to swallow all the pain and blood alone.

Li Boqiao has completely lived a life of asceticism like a monk, every day at two o'clock and one line, except for the company and his mother's house, he is more "Buddhist" than all his previous days.he carefully