not to die

Don't you have any urging on your marriage? "Meng Andong threw out the thorn in his heart.

One thousand wounds, eight hundred self-damages.That's probably what he was talking about.

Shen Qu met his eyes straightly, and said, "They always thought I was dating Lin Mu."

"Lin Mu?" Meng Andong couldn't smile, he clenched his fists, "How are you... how?"

The waiter came to serve the food, and the restaurant Meng Andong chose was naturally of the highest quality.As a counselor, Shen Qu has been very busy recently because of big and small things. Last night, he had to prepare his own academic paper, so he almost didn't sleep all night. Today, he was busy all day for socializing and didn't eat a few bites.Now that he smelled the fragrance, he simply put Meng Andong aside and started eating.

After eating a few mouthfuls without taste, Meng Andong looked at the fluttering eyelashes of the man opposite him, feeling a little uncomfortable in his heart.

Shen Qu...will get married?What Meng Andong was sure of was that Zhang Huaijin, as the heir of the Zhang family, must get married.

He had seen Shen Qu in a suit before, tall and handsome.Presumably in the future, it will look even better when I enter the church with my wife on my arm.

"You forgot to answer my question."

Putting down his job, Shen Qu froze for a moment, and then thought of what Meng Andong had just asked.

"Lin Mu is very good. She is not in good health but she is always worried about me. She also often takes care of Shen Fu. During the Chinese New Year, she will also come to Zhang's house to say hello. We will go out to play together on holidays..."

"So you're going to marry her?"

Shen Qu seemed to be frightened, and then his face turned ugly.

"She's very nice, but we're just friends." Shen Qu looked up at Meng Andong, "She just helped me hide it from grandpa and the others."

"..." Meng Andong was a little terrified by this stare, and he was very upset, "You put it lightly."

"What about you, Meng Andong?"

After scooping up a bowl of soup, Shen Qu's hands were shaking nervously. He almost knew Meng Andong's answer, but he still wanted to ask.Just give yourself a little emptiness.

"Me? I don't know. Meng Gengyu might arrange a few blind dates for me. Let the one who looks good be together. The wife and children are hot on the bed. How nice. The little girl of Xiaobai's family is full moon..." He seemed to be sighing, It seemed to be comforting, but after saying this, I felt empty in my heart.

This was his yearning when he was young, to have a gentle and considerate wife, a naughty little baby, and hot meals at home after work.But now, home... home has become a vague concept.To be honest, he has no extravagant hopes for these.

Because the person he wanted to be with the most for the rest of his life, he has no ability to bring him back.

Meng Andong sighed, and then took another look at Shen Qu. That guy was out of his mind, which made him feel distressed.

But they can't be together anymore.

So he couldn't pull Shen Qu into his arms and rub him into his flesh and blood.

he can not.

After all the bowls and chopsticks were put away, Meng Andong called the waiter to pay the bill, but Shen Qu stopped him and said, "Accordingly, I should treat you to this meal, and clean up the dust for you."

He took out his wallet, took some red notes and handed them out.

The demeanor is dignified and the temperament is elegant.He really looked more like a nobleman than himself, Meng Andong lowered his head and smiled, feeling that things were different.Shen Qu no longer owes money for one or two meals, and he still deliberately keeps his memory in the past.

"I have to go back to school later, my car is parked there. If you are busy, just..."

"I am not busy."

Shen Qu was choked for a moment, and just walked out quietly behind Meng Andong.

He kept silent, and when Meng Andong drove out of the car, he remained silent.

The moment the car door was closed, Shen Qu said a word.

When Meng Andong heard it, he was stunned for a while, and turned his head to look over. Shen Qu's face was mostly hidden in the darkness, but he still saw an indescribable exhaustion.

Who is not tired?

"I said, do you still love me?" Shen Qu opened his eyes, bright and hot.

Meng Andong continued to drive as if nothing had happened, his head was already stained with a pile of ashes.To be honest, he didn't know how to answer.

He does have an answer, and that answer will never change.After all, after so many years, he has never entered into another person in his heart.But he also understands that some problems are not necessarily a good thing if they are cleared up.

He saw the tears in Shen Qu's eyes from the mirror, and suddenly felt sore in his heart.

"Then I'll ask you too, do you think... how are you doing now?"

"You don't have to worry about food and lodging, you can get whatever you want. The Zhang family will definitely treat you like a baby now, and you are destined to have a bright future..." He paused, closed his eyes for a moment, "Maybe in a year or two In the end, you will be able to have your own small family, Lin Mu is very good, and you decide how many children you want..."

"Without you..." Shen Qu's voice trembled, he was on the verge of collapse.

Meng Andong turned his head slightly and asked, "What?"

"I mean all of this is without you! Without you! Understand?" Shen Qu covered his face, his fingers were trembling, and he could hardly cover his tearful eyes, "Without you... nothing good."

Meng Andong was so shocked by this, he reached out to wipe away his tears and cleared his throat.

He needs to calm down.He can't be so cowardly.

"It's impossible for us, Shen Qu."

Shen Qu laughed, he was choked by himself, coughed for a long time before he said a word: "Meng Andong, I don't care what other people think. I just ask you, do you really think your mother was killed by me?"

He is no longer afraid of anything, Meng Andong's words have reached this point, he really doesn't want himself anymore... Shen Qu suddenly moved closer to Meng Andong, his breath was hot, and the words he gritted his teeth seemed to be rubbed together.

"Deng Zhi wanted to strangle me before she left, but it wasn't because of Shen Fu, do you know why?"

His tears dripped down on Meng Andong's shoulders, all of them were hot.

"Because I told her I love you."

"I love you, Meng Andong."

Meng Andong stopped the car on the side of the road, his face was gloomy, he turned around, hugged Shen Qu and threw himself into the back seat.

He licked away Shen Qu's tears, and tore the guy's lips red in frustration.

Shen Qu was still crying, he was crying convulsively in Meng Andong's arms, completely losing the courage he had just now.

"Shen Qu... what should I do with you?"

Meng Andong almost wanted to swallow this man cramp and skin, but in the end he just tightened his embrace.

It was late at night when we went back.

Meng Andong wished he could pick his own two ears of melon seeds, but he was still confused after all.So even if my heart is so warm that it turns into a puddle of water at this moment, I still have to use an ice shell to disguise it.

"Just pretend you didn't see me tonight." Meng Andong hesitated for a long time before saying this. Sometimes he felt that he was really not a thing, "I work in the Education Bureau, and you will rarely interact with me in the future."

He was silent for a moment, and said, "It's good for you and me."

Instead of being angry, Shen Qu smiled. He buttoned up his shirt and said, "Okay? What do you mean by good? Are you afraid that I will block your official path?"

"Or are you hiding something from me?"

Meng Andong didn't know where Shen Qu came to this conclusion. He parked the car and looked at the brightly lit Zhang Mansion not far away.

"Go back and rest early. It's not convenient for me to drive there."

"So what are we? Are we lovers? Or do you want to play with me on a whim?" Shen Qu was about to break the casserole and ask the bottom line. His words were sonorous, with a determination to leave no way out.

"Shen Qu, there are some things I don't want to talk about...because I can't do anything about it." Meng Andong simply put everything aside, and he raised his forehead, "If I really believe that you are the one who killed my mother, I won't be with you now. Sit together. But this hurdle is always in my heart... Yes, I admit, I have always liked you, to be clear, I love you."

"But we...but how are we going to be together?" Meng Andong took a deep breath. He wanted to hold back his tears, but he still felt the wetness of his hands. "It's shocking enough for two men to be together, let alone Now everyone thinks you killed my mother."

"Shen Qu... tell me, how can we... be together?"

"Kuang—" Shen Qu slammed the door and walked out, while Meng Andong gradually bent over crying.

He didn't dare to cry in front of others, what he had been trying to hold back all this time burst out all at once tonight.

He lied, Meng Andong thought, he was really heinous.In fact, he doesn't care about other people's eyes at all, no matter how much others say.He knew Shen Qu was innocent.

But Shen Qu is living so well now, the Zhang family gave him the best.Shen Qu doesn't need to care about all this, but he has to care for Shen Qu.

"If Huaijin is really with a man, we don't need him."

"It's just that once he loses this surname, he's nothing."

……

Meng Andong beat his leg like crazy, he couldn't fight it, so he could only choose the most useless solution.It doesn't matter to him now that he has no desires, no desires, and muddling along, and Shen Qu has just escaped from the catastrophe.

He can no longer put Shen Qu in dire straits.What's more, life is not only about love, the most important thing is to live.

Live well.

"where did you go?"

Shen Qu suddenly stopped. As soon as he entered the courtyard gate, he saw Lin Mu get up from the stone bench in the small courtyard.

"Why are you here?"

Lin Mu squeezed out a smile and said, "Didn't you agree that I would pick you up today? Where have you been?"

"You went to see Meng Andong, didn't you?" Lin Mu messed up her exquisite hairstyle, she looked very anxious, kicked the stone floor hard a few times, but she still couldn't stop her jealousy.

She approached Shen Qu, her face was pale, but her lips were smeared with bright red.

"What's so good about him? It's been so many years, you have to