hope and gift

Teng Jiangyan put on a mask and hat early in the morning and went to the place that Han Zi sent him. He was still a little surprised why it was in a community with a very high name.

He searched around for a long time, finally stood at the door and looked, this place was actually somewhat familiar, it was really similar to the house that Mu Xiao took him to not long ago.

Teng Jiangyan hesitated for a moment, then rang the doorbell.After a while, the door opened, and what appeared behind the door was not Han Zi's face, but a somewhat familiar face, Mu Qin's.

"Oh, it's my sister-in-law, a rare visitor." Mu Qin was shocked when he saw the bewildered person standing in front of him, but he quickly reacted and asked, "Are you looking for Uncle Han?" here?"

"Xiaoqin, are you calling me uncle?" Han Zi walked over wiping his hands, tapped Mu Qin's head lightly, and said to Teng Jiangyan, "Come in, Xiaoqin happens to be on vacation today, don't you mind him Are you at home?"

"What do you mind about it? I know Xiaoqin, Mu Xiao's younger brother." Teng Jiangyan said that he walked in and changed his shoes.

He was just about to sit on the sofa, but the sofa was a bit messy, with a large area sunken in the middle.On the tea table in front of the sofa are several textbooks and papers piled up, and the textbooks have a big "Second Year in High School" written on them.

"Xiaoqin, are you 17 years old?" Teng Jiangyan looked at Mu Qin again in surprise.Mu Qin is a bit short, and Mu Xiao didn't tell him how old Mu Qin was before, he thought Mu Qin would survive to the death of fifteen.But calculated in this way, Mu Qin should have been ten years old when she was adopted back then.Did he live alone in the orphanage until he was ten years old?

Thinking of this, Teng Jiangyan felt a little worried for Mu Qin. He was such a good child, why was he sent to an orphanage for adoption?

To be honest, when Teng Jiangyan accidentally took a look at Mu Qin before, he felt that Mu Qin's eyebrows and eyes were three points similar to Mu Xiao's, but the two people's personalities were almost completely different. If you didn't look carefully, you would definitely not be able to see it.

Teng Jiangyan reckoned that Fang Shimei brought Mu Qin back to raise her because she thought she had a good eye. After all, most people who go to orphanages now don't like children over four years old.

"Yeah." Mu Qin pouted dejectedly and coquettishly, "The 17-year-old in other idol dramas is not like this. People always talk about love, fight and have abortions. Why do I have so much homework!"

"Hahahaha Xiaoqin, can you get pregnant and you still have an abortion?" Han Zi laughed at Mu Qin and said, "Talk less and do your homework."

Teng Jiangyan laughed a few times after being teased by them, and followed Han Zi to the corner of the first floor.Finally, Han Zi brought Teng Jiangyan to the door of the guest room.Teng Jiangyan stared at the closed door of the guest room with some confusion, and asked: "I remember that when I came last time, Mu Qin refused to let me live in the guest room, saying that it was not cleaned. Why are we in the guest room, let alone you Yesterday, I cleaned it up specially because of me."

"His guest room is reserved for me. I used some simple psychological treatment for Xiaomei here before." Han Zi smiled and pushed open the door of the guest room. There was no bed in the guest room, but a very simple decoration style. Two single sofas and a glass coffee table, "I stayed for a while."

"Very chic." Teng Jiangyan looked at the light blue and white curtains beside the bed that were blown up by the wind, and saw the ginkgo tree that was very close outside the window. The ginkgo tree should be newly planted not long ago. You can circle around.

Han Zi poured Teng Jiangyan a cup of hot milk that he seemed to have prepared long ago, and motioned him to sit down on another sofa.He flattened out a piece of A4 paper, handed the pencil, eraser and paper to Teng Jiangyan, and said in a gentle tone: "You can draw a picture at will, but you must have three things: a house, a tree and a person."

Teng Jiangyan obediently took the pen and started to draw, while Han Zi was writing something in his notebook while holding a stopwatch to time the time.

Teng Jiangyan was very focused on painting, repeatedly erasing, changing the details of the painting again and again, and even almost scratching one place too hard.After nearly 20 minutes, Teng Jiangyan finally handed the drawing paper to Han Zi.

Han Zi took it and looked at his notebook, while looking at it, he asked casually, "What do you think of your drawing?"

"I tried my best." Teng Jiangyan lowered his head like a kid who made a mistake, and said in a shy tone, "I don't have the talent in this area."

"But you painted with great care. I see that you have changed the two people you drew many times." Han Zi pointed to the two people in the painting and said, "Is this you and Mu Xiao?"

"...Yes...not really." Teng Jiangyan sighed.

"I see. The one with the painted face is Mu Xiao, and the one without the painted face is someone who doesn't know who it is?" Han Zi's question seemed to be talking to himself, because Teng Jiangyan didn't choose Answer, and Han Zi seemed to have guessed that he would not answer.

Han Zi asked a few more questions about houses, trees and people one after another, gaining some confidence in Teng Jiangyan's general thoughts.Teng Jiangyan's current mentality is indeed a little sick, restless, and inferior, and he thinks in his heart that he is rejected by his family.But it is strange that in some details it shows a completely opposite mentality.

Han Zi closed his notebook, took a sip of tea, and said with a long sigh of relief, "Can you tell me about your father?"

"My father..." Teng Jiangyan squinted his eyes and thought about it for a while, before saying: "He is a very reliable person, but... I don't like him."

"Why don't you like him?" Han Zi was a little curious why Teng Jiangyan directly defaulted this "father" to Teng De, and didn't consider Yu Shaoqian at all.

"Why..." Teng Jiangyan tried hard to recall the few days he spent with his father.

But it caused the pictures deep in the memory to start to appear, and those pictures swept through his mind instantly like a gust of wind, making him seem to be trapped in a different dimension.

Tender is indeed a qualified father in his few memories, at least he will protect him when his mother Ran Hongyu beats him.But Teng Jiangyan feels that he is not a qualified father from time to time, because he feels that since he has a sentimental understanding of this world, fatherly love is given to his sister Teng Jiangyan.

Teng Jiangyan's elder sister, Teng Jiangyan, looks a lot like her father, with the same blond hair, blue eyes and high nose bridge.Teng Jiangyan is really a girl like a porcelain doll, both beautiful and fragile.

The person called sister seemed to be lying on the bed in the ward forever, and the strong smell of disinfectant and white sheets seemed to be all the colors of her life.The girl always looked at him through the thick glass of the ICU, her round eyes full of resentment.Although Teng Jiangyan was afraid of her like this, she didn't understand her at all. What could she hate? Her father loved her and her mother loved her.And myself, from the beginning to the end, I can only face my mother's cruel atrocities alone and can't resist. No matter how hard I try, the only thing I can get back is my father's back and my mother's slap.

Does Teng Jiangyan want to be Teng Jiangyan, or does Teng Jiangyan want to be Teng Jiangyan?

Teng Jiangyan was in a daze when suddenly a familiar but unnamed voice sounded next to his ear. The voice seemed to be speaking against his ear, shouting loudly: "You hate her, you hate Teng Jiangyan! , you can't wait for her to die, if she dies, you can become her."

"I don't, I don't, she is my own sister, I don't hate her!"

Teng Jiangyan repeated it over and over again in his heart, and his face turned pale as he sat on the sofa.He stretched out his hands and hugged his head tightly, his limbs were twitching non-stop, he could only relax by curling up into a ball, but it didn't help much, his forehead was still sweating incessantly.

Han Zi looked at Teng Jiangyan in front of him with a calm expression.There is a small amount of diazepam in the milk. If Teng Jiangyan loses control, he will feed him immediately. While making plans in his heart, he observes the changes of Teng Jiangyan.

Han Zi is not a very serious psychiatrist. He officially resigned from the hospital after taking over Fang Shimei's special patient. It took two years to finally let Fang Shimei come out again.After Fang Shimei was cured, Han Zi felt that what he had learned in school was too little after all, so he went back to Guangzhou and opened a bar to observe the facial expressions and emotions of despair and happiness, and to observe nervous and optimistic people.Since he graduated with a Ph.D. and started working, he has encountered zero cases of multiple personality disorder, and Teng Jiangyan has all broken this zero.

He waited for a while, and Teng Jiangyan gradually calmed down as expected.Han Zi stared at Teng Jiangyan intently, trying to control his kind eyes.

"Teng Jiangyan" raised her head blankly, looked at Han Zi who was sitting in front of her, frowned and looked around again, before saying in a slightly shifted voice, "Who are you and where am I?"

He reached out his hand to brush the hair on his shoulder, but he didn't realize it when he waved it over, as if there was really hair there.

"Is that Teng Jiangyan?" Han Zi smiled and stretched out his hand to "Teng Jiangyan" in front of him, "This is a small clinic, and I'm your psychiatrist."

"Psychiatrist, what's the matter?" After Teng Jiangyan reached out to shake hands with him, she immediately retracted and touched her mobile phone vigilantly, muttering, "I remember I just finished the banquet and met Mu in the hospital. Xiao, why are you in a psychological clinic again?"

"Don't look at your phone." Han Zi smiled and told him the time, "It's May 5th, do you feel that there is some time missing?"

Hearing this, Teng Jiangyan put her right leg on her left, sat with her head up and her chest out gracefully, and asked him proudly, "What do you mean by that?"

"You are very confident and strong." Han Zi appreciated, "You seem to be a very responsible person, no wonder Xiaoyan calls you out every time she is in extreme pain."

"Who is Xiaoyan referring to? Is it my younger brother Teng Jiangyan?" Teng Jiangyan seemed to be a bit disgusted when she heard the name, "I don't like him, but he is my younger brother after all, so I still don't like him." Angry at you for bringing him up in front of me."

"I heard that you had acute leukemia. I would like to ask, how did you recover?" Han Zi continued politely, "I'm very sorry if you were rude, but it's just because my sister also suffered from the same disease. I didn't mean to offend."

"I..." Teng Jiangyan lost half of his aura just now when he said this. He seemed to be trying hard to recall how he recovered, but no matter how he recalled, he couldn't recall the fact that he recovered. Instead, his own death appeared in his mind. screen.

"I seem to be dead?" Teng Jiangyan hesitated to say this after thinking for a long time. After saying this, he clenched his hands tightly, with an expression of disbelief on his face.

"You are not dead. You have been protecting your brother. Without you, your brother must have gone crazy." Han Zi looked at Teng Jiangyan who was in shock, and he had already made a judgment on this personality in his heart.However, he was still a little confused in his heart. Based on the total time of appearance, Teng Jiangyan's personality is undoubtedly a personality with absolute control, and Teng Jiangyan's personality is like a knight. Jiang Yan only came out when he was in extreme pain.But why hasn't there been a single communication between these two personalities who have no rivalry with the subject for so many years?

"Protect my brother?" Teng Jiangyan seemed to have recalled some bad memories, she covered her head, and said falteringly: "Yes, I want to protect him...that bastard...he...he..."

"What beast? Who are you talking about?" Han Zi hurriedly asked as if he had grasped some new clue, but Teng Jiangyan had already kept silent.

After his pupils trembled slightly for a while, he finally calmed down.Han Zi was a little disappointed, but he knew that Teng Jiangyan must be in front of him at this time.

"Brother Zi...I..." Teng Jiangyan was still covering his head with his hands, looked at Han Zi with a pale face, and said with some guilt, "I'm sorry, I lost control again."

"You know there is another person in your body, right?" Han Zi asked Teng Jiangyan directly, "Do you know who that person is?"

"I...I know...I can hide in a dark space when I'm scared." Teng Jiangyan's eyes dodged a little, "Someone will protect me, but I...I...I don't know who that person is who."

"You know, you are afraid of lying, and you dare not admit it?" Han Zi asked Teng Jiangyan step by step, "Tell me, who is that person?"

"No, I don't know, I really don't know!" Teng Jiangyan looked at the domineering Han Zi, and was about to curl up on the sofa.His body was trembling slightly because of fear, as if he was about to fall apart in the next second, and his eye sockets turned red.

"You're feeling guilty, so you don't dare to face the reality, right?" Han Zi picked up the glass of milk in front of Teng Jiangyan, pinched it in his hand, and said, "Why don't you want to apologize to her?"

"No, no! You don't know anything, that person hates me, and that person will never forgive me!" Teng Jiangyan was terrified like a rabbit being held by a wolf, struggling desperately General escape.

Han Zi handed the milk to Teng Jiangyan, and said in a very calm tone: "If you don't tell her your apology, she will never forgive you for the rest of her life. Come and drink this, and you can sleep and wake up I'll take you back when I get here."

Teng Jiangyan wasn't too wary of Han Zi, so he reached out to take the milk and drank it after hearing what he said.

But when Han Zi watched him for 5 minutes, Teng Jiangyan's mood had indeed stabilized a lot, but he didn't feel sleepy at all. He was in a daze state with his eyes empty.

Han Zi felt that something was wrong, and quickly called softly, "Xiaoyan?"

It took about half a minute for Teng Jiangyan to react. He looked up at him in confusion, stuttered out a complete sentence, and said, "Brother Zi...?"

"It's okay, I'm going out to eat something, can you stay alone?" Han Zi slowed down and told Teng Jiangyan word by word.

Although the speed of speech was much slower, Teng Jiangyan was stunned for a while before slowly nodding his head.

Han Zi left the room and sat on the sofa in the living room looking at his notebook.

Something is wrong, this dose of diazepam is absolutely normal, he weighed it strictly according to Teng Jiangyan's weight, Teng Jiangyan made it and would definitely fall asleep because of sleepiness after drinking it, and he was even afraid that Teng Jiangyan would violently resist And some more.But with Teng Jiangyan's appearance, it seems that the dose he gave was not enough, which made Teng Jiangyan a little unresponsive but did not fully fall asleep.

What is the situation? Could it be that Teng Jiangyan secretly took a large amount of Valium in order to stabilize his emotions?But diazepam must be ordered by a doctor or a doctor can get it, how could he have it.

The more Han Zi thought about it, the more wrong he became, so he quickly called Mu Xiao.

"Mu Xiao, you have time to take Xiaoyan to check her kidney function some other day." Han Zi closed his notebook and said in a solemn tone, "I suspect that he abused Valium to control his emotions, which must have had a great impact on his kidneys."

"Ah? What?" After Mu Xiao heard this, he ran out of the training area in fright and asked clearly. Han Zi told him his doubts in detail.

"Okay, I'll take him to check tomorrow, we can't delay this matter." Mu Xiao said in a anxious tone.

"No, you can't let him notice." Han Zi glanced at the guest room and said in a low voice, "He may have been very unstable recently. You need to find a reasonable reason to check him."

"Okay, I see. I'll just talk about the company's physical examination. I'll tell my mother that the physical examination will be in advance this year." Mu Xiao's tone was still a bit worried, "How about I go and see him now?"

"No, I'll take him back later. Your brother is also at home. It's okay to let your brother chat with him. He needs to get in touch with more people."

Mu Xiao frowned and seemed very displeased. He didn't say anything for a long time, but finally he compromised and agreed, and then hung up the phone.