hope and gift

Mu's is a big company, and so is Fang's.Mu Xiao, who was born in such a big family, must seldom see each other because his family is busy with work.But Fang Shimei and Mu Yueru are well-known model couples. A couple who can respect each other like guests will definitely pay attention to their children's emotional life.Therefore, Teng Jiangyan didn't even understand Mu Xiao's mentality of resenting Mu Yueru, and even thought that he was rebellious.Until Han Zi said it, he never thought that Mu Xiao had such a past, nor did he expect that Mu Xiao would say such a thing or do such a thing.

Not only that, he also didn't expect Han Zi's extremely tortuous life and Fang Shimei's almost nirvana-like transformation.

But in a normal person's life, how many people can meet such a miserable life experience?At that moment, Teng Jiangyan even felt that it must not be a coincidence that a group of people with twists and turns were gathered together in this way. This fleeting thought made him feel uneasy and fear from the bottom of his heart.

He felt that behind all this, there was a hand moving the overall situation, guiding them to find the so-called "real murderer behind the scenes", and then calming down the resentment they had in their hearts.As for the grievances and grievances under the loess, it has already returned to ashes and ashes to ashes.

Teng Jiangyan couldn't find the words to describe this feeling for a while, so he could only go forward to hug Han Zi in silence, and then patted his back hard twice, as if making a gesture to convey his strength. Ceremony in general.

Han Zi was much taller than Teng Jiangyan, but when he was sitting on the sofa, his head could only reach Teng Jiangyan's lower abdomen.It wasn't until he felt Han Zi's whole body trembling that Teng Jiangyan realized that Han Zi was like a helpless child, sobbing and crying silently, as if he wanted to cry out all the blood and tears he had swallowed.

It stands to reason that the meteor shower should have started at this point.

Teng Jiangyan looked up at the night sky glowing with orange lights, opened his eyes persistently, as if he really saw a shooting star, and silently made a wish in his heart.

I hope that one day, we can all get a complete ending and be free from each other.

Sentiment is sadness, but life is always going to be lived.On the next Monday, everyone started to go to school one after another as usual, while Han Zi left after a hasty farewell.

When he left, he handed Teng Jiangyan a business card. Teng Jiangyan was in a hurry, and before he had time to read it, he put it in his schoolbag and rushed to class.Later, after Teng Jiangyan had time to read it, she realized that it was a business card of a teaching assistant, and it was also a teaching assistant of their school. Judging from the name, she guessed that it was a woman.

But when Teng Jiangyan went to look for it, he found that this person had disappeared as if the world had evaporated.He had asked Han Zi, but Han Zi kept silent after knowing this, after all, he did not reveal the details of this person.At first Teng Jiangyan was troubled by this, but as time passed, Teng Jiangyan gradually forgot about it.

Although the teacher that Teng Jiangyan followed had completed the project, many teachers and even professors witnessed Teng Jiangyan's diligence and hard work wandering around the laboratory.So as soon as he finished his subject, other teachers immediately contacted him to do experiments.

Teng Jiangyan started to be as busy as the rotating shaft again. After finishing the fourth level, he started to work on the vocabulary and test papers of the sixth level, and ran the laboratory. In addition to the heavy courses this semester, Han Qiao and It was even difficult for Mu Qin to ask him out to play together.

But the truth is, half of it is because Teng Jiangyan is really busy, and half of it is because Teng Jiangyan deliberately avoids them because he is afraid of implicating them.

The fact that Teng Jiangyan is gay has been spread in several groups, and with the gossip after dinner, almost the whole school knows that a freshman is gay.But because Teng Jiangyan looks more like a European or American, those gossips stopped at "Foreigners, all countries are equal and free", which made him feel a little bit lucky about his mixed-race identity.But if the relationship with the roommate is too good, gossip will not be so gentle to Han Qiao and Mu Qin.

Just so busy, the final exams are over in a blink of an eye, the winter vacation is over, and the New Year's Eve is imminent.And the school will cut off water and electricity before the [-]th year of the new year, and clean up the last students who have successfully applied for the school.

The day before New Year's Eve, the professor who was doing the experiment asked them to have a meal with the experimenter, and gave each of them a red envelope.The news of the death of his parents was also caused by the secretary of the Communist Youth League. The professor who led the experiment let go of his thoughts and didn't have much opinion of him being gay. Take him home for a new year together.But after he finished mentioning it, although Teng Jiangyan thanked him again and again, he still refused.

It snowed heavily on New Year's Eve, and there was only long-lasting festive music and a long road blocked in the city.The camphor on the roadside sidewalk is wrapped in thick straw ropes, and the snow on the leaves is set against the various shops with bright signs but closed doors on the roadside, which looks really desolate.Teng Jiangyan managed to find an open shop and bought three bouquets of flowers. He planned to walk to the cemetery in the suburbs alone, but he couldn't bear the cold and suffocating weather after walking for more than an hour, so he was forced to call out A car passed by.

It is indeed impossible for most people to come to the cemetery on New Year's Eve because of their bad luck, but it is not necessarily the case for those whose parents died like Teng Jiangyan.After Teng Jiangyan put down the bouquet in front of the three adjacent tombstones one by one, she was silent for a while, then stretched out her hand, which was purple with cold, and gently stroked the tombstone of Teng Jiangyan standing in the center with her fingers.

The small black-and-white photo on the tombstone is still intact, and the woman in it is smiling, but always has a hint of illness.

Teng Jiangyan felt a slight pain in his fingertips due to friction before he stopped. Looking at the photo of frozen Zhu time, he smiled and pretended to be relaxed and said: "I will accompany you for the New Year, and it is rare for a family to reunite. Sister, this is still Let me and you get together for the first time to celebrate the new year."

The location of the cemetery is relatively remote, and it does not belong to the city of Hangzhou. Therefore, there are still people setting off fireworks not far away. The gorgeous fireworks exploded and dissipated in the night, sending out bursts of roar.

Teng Jiangyan looked up at the short and dazzling fireworks, his heart, which was already empty, was bloody and bloody from being blown up in such a moment, and he felt a dull feeling that he couldn't breathe.Suddenly, he felt someone pat on his shoulder, and the dullness in his heart was swept away by panic, leaving only his cold hands and feet and a blank head.

who?robbery or...

Teng Jiangyan didn't even dare to turn his head, and the whole person just stopped there without moving.

"Come out at such a remote location at night, and you won't be afraid of being robbed."

The voice sounded familiar. Teng Jiangyan suppressed his rapid heartbeat and weak hands and feet, glanced sideways and saw the familiar face behind him—Captain Shi who was in charge of his case.

"Captain Shi, what a coincidence." Teng Jiangyan made a false alarm, reached out to wipe the cold sweat off his brow, turned around and greeted Police Officer Shi behind him politely.

"Whatever you call captain, I've been demoted to vice-captain. You can call me Uncle Shi, or Uncle Zhengren, it's up to you." Shi Zhengren was easy to talk to. He glanced at the three monuments in front of Teng Jiangyan and sighed. Tone, "Are you here to see your family?"

"Well, a person in his thirties will come to accompany them." Teng Jiangyan glanced at the square inch of land with nostalgia, and a trace of warmth came from the bottom of his heart.

"I also came to see my parents. After watching it, I rushed back to have the New Year's Eve dinner. How about you join me and go to my house for the New Year's Eve dinner?" Shi Zhengren grabbed Teng Jiangyan's shoulders before he could say anything. Enthusiastically said: "I heard that you are a high-achieving student, you go to teach that little brat in my family, he loves to play too much, and his studies are a mess."

Before Teng Jiangyan could refuse, she was inexplicably dragged into Shi Zhengren's home.It wasn't until the door of his house that Teng Jiangyan fully realized it, and said awkwardly: "I didn't buy a gift...my memory is really..."

Shi Zhengren laughed loudly, and patted him on the shoulder: "I, a people's policeman, want to collect gifts from college students instead? You kid, there is no seriousness."

Shi Zhengren's home is not big, even a little small, but it has a homey atmosphere, warm and harmonious.When Teng Jiangyan took the first step in, a dog ran over enthusiastically wagging its tail and circling around him.The dog has creamy white fur and short hair. It is a very standard Labrador.

"This is a drug detection dog. It is old and retired. My wife adopted it back." Shi Zhengren touched the dog's head and said to Teng Jiangyan with a smile: "It's obedient, its name is An'an."

"Dad, you're back! Is this... a guest?"

Teng Jiangyan followed the voice and saw the little boy who was looking at him curiously with a pair of black eyes.The little boy was wearing a blue cotton pajamas, he looked like a chubby little boy, but from the boy's thin face, it could be seen that he was not fat.

"Changying, call Brother Teng." Shi Zhengren said to the little boy quite dignifiedly.

"Brother Teng is a foreigner? He looks good!" The little boy was not afraid of strangers at all. He handed Teng Jiangyan a pair of slippers, patted his chest and said, "My name is Shi Changying, and I will be a police hero in the future!"

So cute.

Teng Jiangyan murmured something secretly in her heart, and couldn't help reaching out and pinching the little boy's fleshy face, and said with a bit of helplessness: "Yes, now I am a little hero."

"An'an, come, come with me to find my mother." Shi Changying waved at the dog, and ran to the closed kitchen happily, "Mom, a big brother who is as handsome as a star has come to my house!"

"Team Shi...Uncle Shi, I think you are very happy." Teng Jiangyan expressed his feelings after seeing the happy appearance of this family, and then sat on the sofa with Shi Zhengren.

Shi Zhengren's expression was gloomy for a moment, and then he returned to normal. He said flatly: "Well, I am quite happy. By the way, you have a... cousin, it seems that you two have a good relationship, why don't you go Chinese New Year at his house?"

"Cousin...?" Teng Jiangyan thought carefully before coming over. Shi Zhengren was talking about Mu Xiao. While saying: "He... is getting married, it's inconvenient for me to go."

"Hey, that young man looks quite young, he is going to get married so early, what a blessing." Shi Zhengren smiled and took out a pack of cigarettes, and handed one to Teng Jiangyan, asking: "Smoking? "

"No, I won't."

As soon as Teng Jiangyan finished refusing, he heard a soft and waxy female voice coming from his ear. The voice was somewhat similar to that of Ran Hongyu when he was normal. For a moment, he felt that the blood in his whole body was coagulated.

He looked up at the woman who was speaking hesitantly, and finally let go of his hanging heart.

"The child is at home, don't smoke." The woman was wearing home pajamas and a pink apron, and came over with a bowl of soup.She glanced sideways at Teng Jiangyan, smiled at her, and said, "It seems that you are the guest that Changying said, come, let's have dinner together."

"Oh, I forgot to introduce, this is my wife, Li Jin, you can call her Aunt Jin." Shi Zhengren got up and took the porcelain bowl of soup in Li Jin's hand, and said in a gentle tone: "This kind of hot soup Just let me serve it, your hands are delicate."

It was originally a picture of deep affection, but Teng Jiangyan felt inexplicably awkward.Li Jin's appearance was relatively ordinary, and he belonged to the kind that would never be found in the crowd. He was completely different from Ran Hongyu, but Teng Jiangyan's heart was overwhelmed.This woman named Li Jin, in every gesture, reveals the same temperament as Ran Hongyu, just like a makeup artist applying makeup to several people in the same way. At first glance, there are several people who all look exactly the same. illusion.

Shi Zhengren brought soup to the dining room, so Li Jin chatted with Teng Jiangyan a few more words.She wiped the apron with her hands without any hesitation, and asked with a happy face: "I just heard from Changying that you are brother Teng. Are you called Teng Jiangyan? The old prehistoric mentioned it to me some time ago."

This behavior is very similar to Ran Hongyu who was once normal, the so-called normal mother image that only existed in his broken memory.

This kind of familiarity is like a huge rolling stone rolling down the mountain, rolling over Teng Jiangyan's body mercilessly. He felt a severe soreness that spread from between his fingers and quickly swept his whole body, and his hands couldn't help it. trembling.

Seeing that he didn't speak for a long time, Li Jin thought that her words brought back the memories of this poor child, so she sighed and planned to leave lightly.

"Yes, Aunt Jin, my name is Teng Jiangyan."

Teng Jiangyan stopped Li Jin in time after realizing her gaffe, and said this sentence to her completely.But after he finished speaking, he realized that he was sweating a little in this room without air conditioning.

After all, I still hate Ran Hongyu.

Teng Jiangyan could only find an excuse to soothe the panic in his heart.

Shi Changying was lively and cheerful, so restless that she couldn't stop for a moment.Four people and one dog gathered together at a table to happily eat the reunion dinner, and then gathered on a sofa to watch the Spring Festival Gala.Shi Changying seemed to like Teng Jiangyan very much, and kept clinging to Teng Jiangyan, and finally fell asleep in a daze with his lap on his pillow.An An lay quietly in Shi Changying's arms, as if she was afraid of disturbing her little master.

Teng Jiangyan heard Shi Changying's slight but steady snoring, and gestured to Shi Zhengren.Shi Zhengren turned his head to look, and carried Shi Changying directly back to the bed in the room.Teng Jiangyan didn't like to watch such boring activities as the Spring Festival Gala, so he stretched himself and went to sleep in the guest room.

On the first day of the Lunar New Year, Shi Zhengren and his family were going to leave relatives. Teng Jiangyan knew it for a long time, and when he got up early in the morning, he folded the quilt and made the sheets, waiting for them to wake up and say goodbye.But after waiting for a long time, the whole family didn't have any intention of waking up. In desperation, he wrapped a red envelope for Shi Changying and secretly put it next to his pillow, left a note and left.

The snow stopped on the first day of the new year, and Teng Jiangyan booked the ticket for tomorrow, so he didn't rush.After wandering around the neighborhood where the snow hadn't been cleaned, he finally found a not-so-remote exit and went out to buy breakfast.

There was heavy fog on the street, and the number of people was so sparse that it was a bit bleak. Before he could take a few steps, he almost bumped into a person dragging a suitcase because the light was too dim.

Teng Jiangyan took a few steps back, saying sorry repeatedly.

"Hey, don't say sorry, let me ask, is this address here? I couldn't find the hotel after wandering around for a long time." The man had a strong nasal voice as if he had a bad cold, but But Teng Jiangyan felt an inexplicable sense of familiarity.

He stared blankly at the address on the phone handed over by the person in front of him, and after a long time he said stiffly: "You are... Mu Xiao?"

The person in front of him was also stunned when he heard this, and after barely seeing the person in front of him with the weak light of the mobile phone, Mu Xiao took a look and refused to move away.

With heavy schoolwork, busy experiments, and endless test papers, Teng Jiangyan boasted that he would never have time to think about the person in front of him.But this fortress built up of self-deception is so vulnerable at this moment, just seeing one side through the thick fog, his own limbs and skeletons seem to have been washed by scalding water, everywhere Pain, there is nowhere that does not reveal weakness and laziness.

Teng Jiangyan thought, this person is right in front of my eyes, what am I still stuck on?

Mu Xiao let go directly, causing the diagonally pulled suitcase to fall straight to the ground, making a loud "boom".He took a step forward, stretched out his arms and hugged Teng Jiangyan tightly in front of him, just like a drowning man clutching a straw floating on the lake.

He buried himself in the collar of Teng Jiangyan's turtleneck sweater and took a deep breath, then said in a voice that was already nasal and hoarse: "I miss you so much."

The author has something to say:

I jio because I have more time today, and I can still rescue it.